A LASTING LOVE
Chapter 2
Now was the time more than ever before that I thanked God, my dad was also my friend. That evening when he came home from work, Jamie was in his room and mum was preparing dinner so I joined him in the den.
"Dad, I've got a serious problem, well actually several. The first one is I think I might be gay."
I let that sink in and waited.
"Ok, Son, what gives you that idea?"
"Both Adam and Jamie want me to go to bed with them for sex and I have realised that I like the idea."
Again I waited. I could see dad was thinking. This was probably blowing his mind and he had to consider what he should say.
"Would you like to elaborate a bit more, and have you ever done anything sexual with a boy or girl before?"
"On the sex side, Dad, no to both, I never felt the urge to have sex with girls when I was dating. If I am gay, that would be the reason. Adam made it clear when I first went out with him that he would like more than friendship from our relationship, and Jamie picked up on the fact that Adam was very touchy feely with me and his eyes showed what he was feeling. Jamie then told me that he wants us to be lovers. I think I would like Adam to teach me about gay sex because he is older and hopefully more experienced, but I've realised that I love Jamie with more than brotherly love. I would like to make him happy."
Dad laughed a sick laugh.
"You don't make my life easy do you? I have no knowledge of gay sex and love. I'm completely out of my depth here so what I'm about to say is from my heart, not my head.
If you love someone you should do everything you can to make them happy, the same as your mother and I have with each other, and with you. As far as Adam is concerned, you mustn't play with his emotions. If he loves you he will be very hurt if you just use him to teach you about sex so that you can make Jamie happy. If you are going that route I think you should tell him you want him as a friend and a teacher, but not as a permanent lover."
Dad sagged back in his chair and I realised how much that had taken out of him emotionally. He was accepting me as a gay son and advising my actions all in the space of a few minutes. He must love me very much I thought, and that thought brought tears to my eyes.
"I'm sorry, Dad, I must have disappointed you with that revelation."
He saw the tears streaming down my face. He shook his head, grabbed some tissues and wiped my eyes.
"Do you remember what I said to you at twelve when you started to rebel against my authority?"
I smiled though my tears, of course I did. I just nodded.
"Well that still applies, only now I can tell you, we are proud of you as well. Your mother and I think you have grown into a fine young man. This doesn't change that thought. I just hope you will now do the right thing. I will think on this some more, and if I need to I'll tell you of any change in my thinking, just don't hurt anyone emotionally Son, particularly your brother."
I noted how he called Jamie my brother, so I guessed the parents loved my little brother like he genuinely was mine.
"I won't Dad, I'll be very careful."
That was it, I knew what I was going to do. First, I talked to Adam, I had to do it face to face so I arranged to go out with him that night. We went for a meal and I started talking as soon as we sat.
"Adam, I need to say something to you. I hope you won't take this the wrong way because I would still like you to be my friend. I think I am probably gay, even though I have no experience, it's just feelings."
I saw his eyes light up and my heart sank. This was not going to be easy.
"The reason I have come to that conclusion is because of Jamie. He has told me he wants me to make love to him because he is gay and wants me to be his boyfriend as well as his big brother. I realised after he said it that I want the same thing. The problem is I don't have a clue about gay sex so I wondered if you would take me to bed and teach me. I'm sorry Adam, I know you want more than a casual fuck, but I don't think I can give you that."
He didn't say anything for ages, he just looked at me. Then he started to smile.
"You really are a piece of work Mark West. Most guys would just have taken what they wanted and to hell with their partner's feelings. I would like us to be lovers, but I'll settle for a loving friendship. I guess I know now why Jamie has become so hostile towards me he knows I love you."
Adam looked a little sad as he continued and I understood why.
"I'll be more than happy to take you to bed to teach you gay loving even though I am sure once we have made love I will be sorry to let you go to another guy."
I hadn't thought of that side of the action and now it made me tear up.
"I'm sorry Adam, bad idea, it's not fair on you, forget it."
He came back fast, "No way, I'm going to make love to you and have you do the reverse. I'll live with the disappointment of losing you to Jamie, but I'm going to enjoy your body first." He was grinning and I was relieved. "I think I will need to take you to bed at least five or six times to make sure we have it right, both ways."
I thought about that for a minute. It was the least I could do considering what I was puting him through, but I wanted it over with quickly so that I could have a couple of months with Jamie before I went back to college. Adam was on day shift so I broached the subject as diplomatically as I could.
"Mmm, ok. So that I maintain continuity to get the most out of the lessons, can we have a lovemaking session every day this week?"
Adam nearly fell off his chair laughing, "Oh God, yes. Want to start now?"
I thought, `no time like the present', so before I knew it I was in Adam's apartment stood in front of him in his bedroom receiving my first passionate kiss from him. I don't know what thoughts were going through my mind, all I know was that I was sinking into a sea of sexual arousal. My cock went into overdrive erect.
In a very sultry voice Adam said, "I'm going to undress you now, and then I want you to do the same to me, mirroring my actions."
So he started. I had no idea that being undressed could be so erotic. Shirt and T shirt first, but as he pulled my T over my head he licked one of my nipples and my whole body shuddered with the sensuality of it. T gone and he licked the other nipple and tweaked the first one between two fingers. I gasped with the pure joy of that action and my nipples were as hard as my cock. Wow, what a start to my first ever sex, apart from an occasional hand job of course.
When he had me naked he sat back on his haunches, scoped me out completely before settling on my eyes. I could see the lust and the love and blushed. In a voice loaded with emotion he said, very softly, "I think you are beautiful. Your body is gorgeous and the bits I have never seen before are breathtaking."
Well, what could I say to that? I didn't think I was any of those things. Yes, I did have a great body. What would you expect from a dedicated sportsman? The face was nothing special, I thought, but I had nice eyes and my mid brown hair was right for me.
I undressed Adam then and he was the gorgeous one, his cock being the most gorgeous. He was slim in body as well, nice definition but nothing over the top. Short, very dark hair and laughing eyes made him special to look at in my estimation.
Adam took me by the shoulders to make me stand up again when I had finished and he went down on his knees to start playing. He just licked round my cock and balls to start with, just like a cat would lap up milk. It was incredibly exciting watching his tongue and feeling the result. Then he progressed and pulling my cock away from my belly, he took the head into his mouth and used his tongue to drive me crazy. He played with my balls, ran his hand through my legs to stroke my perineum and further to worry my anal entry. About ten minutes of that and I was ready to climb walls. He stopped just before I was going to orgasm and led me to his bed. On my tummy now and he worked my butt. My legs were spread wide before he tongue fucked me and stroked my cheeks. Then it was a finger, two fingers, three fingers and he interspersed that with licking and kissing my hole. My perineum was being worked over as well and I thought I might wipe out with the pleasure I was receiving. He was good, he got me close to cumming several times and pulled off just in time to stop it. Rolled over on to my back he spread my legs wide, bent them and then attacked the whole of my abdomen, cock, balls, perineum and anal entry until I almost screamed at him to let me cum. I saw him pour some lubricant on his cock and drizzle a little on my anus before working it in with a finger. Legs spread very wide, he lifted them and bent them down so that I was nearly doubled over.
"I'm going to enter you now Mark, relax and push down. I will probably hurt a little when I enter you, but I will stop moving as soon as I'm over your sphincter until the pain goes."
He was right, he did hurt, but that wasn't surprising given the more than adequate piece of man meat he was trying to get inside me. The pain did go quickly and he continued the penetration. It was an indescribable experience, I don't think words can adequately explain what it feels like having a quite thick nine inch rod sliding into you. All I can say is that it was sensational. He fucked me with long slow strokes for ages before I felt his cock get even bigger and he sped up to have a massive orgasm, I could feel it, I thought he was peeing in me there appeared to be so much. Did I mention that I had three or four orgasms while Adam was fucking me? He told me later that I probably had a very sensitive prostate gland to serial orgasm the way I had. Whatever, my first gay sex was amazing. Now I had to try to remember everything so that I could do it to Jamie. Adam thought the same.
"Next time, you take my role Mark, and we'll go turn and turn about until I don't have to brief you on anything, then when you add in the love quotient that you will with Jamie you should take him on a trip round the planets. Remember, the penetration is the most important bit. You will traumatise him if you aren't very gentle. Remember what he went through before. Anal intercourse for him means the incredible pain of multiple rape."
I knew from the way Adam was looking that although he had enjoyed the sex he was struggling with his emotions. He didn't want to be teaching me for someone else's benefit, he wanted this for us as a couple. I stroked his cheek to get his attention.
"I'm sorry Adam, I do love you, but not enough for you to replace Jamie in my heart."
He nodded, "I know, it's just hard for me, you are incredible to make love to. I am going to do it as often as I can, but I do realise I am going to lose you to Jamie."
How could I be so lucky, to have a loving friend like this?"
Nothing changed that week. We made love at least twice every day, me topping as often as I bottomed. Being the top was amazing. My cock had never felt so good as it did every time I slid over Adam's sphincter. By the end of the week I was sure I could make Jamie happy. He had been very distant with me knowing I was spending so much time with Adam and I hadn't told him what I was up to. My good luck was holding, Adam told me on our last day that he was going away for a month on a special training course. I would have a whole month in which to concentrate on Jamie with no Adam around to upset him.
The next day I persuaded Jamie to join me at the pool. He was lying on his bed in just his underpants. I gasped, he looked so adorable I couldn't believe I was going to make love to this angel sometime today. I took my time scoping him out. Of course I had seen him in Speedos so what I was looking at was not new to me, it was just that lying there on his bed he looked ready to be seduced. His shock of unruly brown hair looked almost as though it had been carefully crafted and his dark brown eyes were bright and looking directly at me. His hairless torso was typical of a fit and healthy 15-year-old meaning that I could have jumped on him and nibbled his nipples to start with, well second any way. His lips would have to be first.
"What, no Adam today, have you had a lovers' quarrel?"
I was very annoyed, the tone was like a sneer.
"I'm sorry to hear you speak in that tone of voice Jamie. It's not what I expect from you and I hope it is only because you have missed me this last week."
He looked very embarrassed then.
"I'm sorry Mark, it's just that I miss you so much when you are not with me and I know Adam loves you."
I touched my lips to his, very softly, took him by the hand and led him out to the pool. I stood him by a sun bed and just peeled his briefs off before stripping myself. Mum and Dad were at work so we were completely alone.
"Big sun bed Jamie, I want to touch you while we talk."
He looked bemused but eagerly did as I asked. I slid on to the bed with him and we faced each other with me stroking him as I talked.
"The reason I have been with Adam so much this week is because I wanted him to teach me all about gay lovemaking so that I could make love to you and not disappoint you. Adam knows that I love you and he is going to step back now so that we can just be friends because I only want to make love to you from now on."
Almost a whisper, Jamie said, "Do you mean that, Mark, really and truly mean that?"
"Yes Baby, I love you so much and once I realised I liked gay love I wanted to make love to you, but I have no experience so I let Adam teach me. He is very upset that we won't be doing it anymore, but he was a wonderful teacher so I hope I'm going to be able to make you very happy when I make love to you."
Then he gushed and moved in so that we were touching, head to toe.
"Oh I know it will be marvellous Mark, I don't think you could ever do anything wrong if you were loving me."
I loved the vote of confidence and laughed.
"Don't be too sure Mister, I might have been taught all the wrong things to please you."
"Oh no, that's not possible. Can we make love now, right here, I don't want us to delay one more minute."
"Eager beaver, we haven't got any lubricant so I can't penetrate you."
Crikey, I'd never seen him move so fast. He was up and running for the house yelling as he went.
"Don't worry, I'll get some."
He did and was back in no time. I was laughing fit to bust, I thought it was so funny. When he got back he threw himself down on top of me and almost devoured my face. The kisses were so passionate they made me gasp, and when I opened my eyes I could see the happy tears on the face of the boy I hoped I would love forever.
We were both as hard as metal rods and that was when old memories must have intruded on his happiness. He looked at my cock, straining to get out of its skin it was so hard. I saw the fear cross his eyes and the tears start to roll.
"You won't hurt me will you Mark? I don't like pain, I just want to be loved."
"I'm never going to intentionally hurt you, and we don't have to have anal intercourse. I can make love to you forever without penetrating you."
"Oh no, I want you to love me like you would a woman. You have to make me yours by fucking me."
He was so determined despite his fear so I knew I would be working on his ass for a long time before I put my cock anywhere near it. Then a thought came to me.
"Ok, but you could be the top and fuck me instead, that would be the same wouldn't it?"
He looked aghast, "Oh no, that wouldn't be right."
I wasn't going to argue, I just hoped that somewhere down the road he would want to reverse roles. I loved the feel of a cock inside me at both ends. I looked at Jamie's and realised I would feel his if he ever entered me. It wasn't a patch on Adam's but it was a neat five or six inches and a good thickness.
Adam was correct, with what he taught me added to a great chunk of love that I had for Jamie I took him off to the planets. Fucking Adam had been good, fucking, or should I say, making love to Jamie was the most amazing experience of my life, and I guess his. I had opened him up for a long time so that when I slid my glans over his sphincter the first reaction was a look of love that had me tearing up.
"I love you so much Mark, I knew this would be nothing like all the raping that took place with my dad and his cronies. Feed me all of you, I want to feel all the love I know you have for me now."
I thought that was a wonderful way to tell me how much he was enjoying the sensation of my cock inside him. By the time I slid out of him after we had both orgasmed several times we fell asleep in each other's arms.
Thank heavens dad was home first because he woke us. I don't think I have ever been so embarrassed in my life. Jamie and I were cuddling, almost glued together with all his dried cum, there was loads of it and as we rolled apart I looked down at our torsos before looking at dad, what a mess we were in.
"I think it would be a good idea to go for a shower before your mother gets home, we don't want to shock her do we?"
I know I must have been purple with embarrassment, but Jamie was beyond that, I thought he was going into shock he looked so gutted. I hugged him close and spoke through his embarrassment.
"Come on Tiger, let's go."
I grabbed his hand and pulled him up with me. We ran to the house like a couple of scalded cats leaving our underwear and Speedos for dad to bring up to the house. By the time we came out of the shower we were both grinning like idiots. Dad was sat on my bed and looking very stern.
"That wasn't very clever Mark. Supposing your mother had been home first."
I looked suitably contrite as I replied.
"I'm sorry Dad that was the first time we have done anything like that. I didn't realise how draining it would be."
Too much for the old man. He looked between the two of us and then just rolled back on my bed convulsed with laughter. When he could speak, well splutter really, he said, "I presume it was pretty good then."
Oh dear, I hoped mum wouldn't come home for a little while, her three men would never have been able to explain the hilarity
"Seriously boys, you need to be more careful in future."
"Sorry Dad, we will be.
And then we started all over again. Dad had to leave the room or I think we would still have been giggling when mum arrived home.
We had a month of uninterrupted loving before Adam came back. I needed Jamie to accept Adam now as a friend. I knew he would have reservations because I had not hidden the details of Adam and my sexual activities. I knew he also had the natural curiosity of youth to see Adam's hard cock. I didn't know whether he would want to do more than look at it, but he was definitely curious.
Adam joined us at the pool a few times and we were very decorous, keeping our swimsuits on. I was pleased to see the two of them begin to relax around each other and commented on it.
"I'm pleased to see you two getting on so well. I hated the idea of my friend and my lover disliking each other."
Jamie was really good with his comment, "Well now that I know you love me it's fun having another sexy man to ogle at the pool."
Adam and I dissolved with laughter before as one, picking Jamie up and throwing him in the pool to shrieks of happy laughter. Ah, all was well in my world, at last.
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