I strode throughout the halls looking for Jason one of my very close friends since like the 7th grade. I borrowed a CD from him a while ago and I was planning to return it to him, but I have barely seen him this week outside of class. I guess I should say a little bit about myself ... My name is Alex Michaels I am about 6 feet tall, I have short dark brown hair and green eyes.
"Hey Alex" Mary said as I walked by her. We went out last year for like a month it wasn't any fun it was just there and that's the kind of relationships I hate most. If you ask me I think she still likes me, just a little maybe.
"How are you, Mary?" I replied "Have you seen Jason anywhere?"
"I'm fine. Jason? Nope, haven't seen him"
I walked off not really wanting to talk to her that much anyway, spotting him in the corner of my eye.
"Hey, Jason, wait up!" I yelled in his general direction.
"Hey, Alex what up?" Jason said ending his own conversation with someone.
"I got your CD you left at my house the other night..." I trailed off seeing Sam my female best friend making her way through the crowd towards us.
"Thanks pal" Jason said looking behind him to see Sam. "Hey! what's happening, girlfriend?"
"Dreaming again eh Jason buddy?" she said swatting him with some of her books she's carrying.
"Whatcha guys doin after school?" she quizzed.
"I have a cross country meet" said Jason.
"I am not doin anything I guess, whatcha got in mind" I asked.
"My dad just installed the big screen, I feel a movie marathon coming on!!!" she hollored.
"Oh not the planet of the apes again!" Jason groaned. Sam swatted him again.
"Nope, I am thinking of a Scream fest!" She said enthusiastically.
"Sounds good, who else is going?" I asked.
"Jeff, Pete, and Sneaky oh and of course you and your truly" Sam went on.
"I might go watch Jason run till he passes out" I smiled at Jason.
"It's ok you go on ahead" Jason said with a gesture.
"No, way...."
".......WOULD YOU TWO QUIT FIGHTING LIKE YOUR MARRIED!" Sam shrieked.
Me and Jason both had huge smiles on our faces "Sweety, you go on and have your fun I'll slave all day and bring home the bacon" Jason said."I'll see you tonight!" emphasis on tonight... he patted my ass and walked away with his CD.
"THAT was mighty interesting!" Sam said with a raised eyebrow, and walked away herself.
"Come on we're going to be tardy!" Sneaky 'snuck' up behind me and whispered in my ear. She is a pretty good friend more often than not ... the nickname you ask? It's from when we were dragged along with our parents to a fancy dinner and she had sneakers on. Lame yes I know, but it's stuck for quite sometime.
"Please take your seats Mr. Michaels and Ms. Tessman" our English teacher said" I hope you had a reasonable explanation for being late for class ... five minutes late that is."
"Umm ..." I trailed off.
"Locker trouble" Sneaky piped in.
"And you Mr. Michaels?" she questioned.
"Uh..."
"The same! He was helping me with mine" Sneaky said lying through her teeth.
"Well, I am not about to let both of you get away with the same excuse, was there any need for your assistance?" she continued.
"I ... guess not" I said, depressingly awaiting for the end result.
"I suppose we all know the rules for detention don't we" my 'after school' tutor said monotonously.
I set my books down and sat at the back of the room, people were tossing notes across the room, and the sounds of after school sports practices shined in through the window like a torture chamber.
I was thinking about the joke Jason played today in the halls and I am beginning to wonder of it had some affect on me ... it's probably just my imagination.
"WOAH, how can so much blood fit into one body?" Pete yelled in the middle of the second scream movie.
The big living room in Sam's country house was fitted with many couches and a bar and big screen. Pete is here in his annoying bleached shorty act. Sneaky couldn't make it, Jeff isn't here yet I haven't met him yet but he has quite the reputation going for him.
It has been longer than three hours and I am bored out of my tears. I am not sure why I am here Sam is watching the movie that I have seen more than five times. I just want to be with Jason.
WAIT A SEC! What was I thinking? Be with Jason? This can't be what I think it is! Am I .... gay? I can't take this torture I need to think, I need to get outside.
"Hey Alex where do you think your going???" Sam yelled after me.
"I uh ... forgot I need to go" I replied. I went out back of their house to sit under a tree and think, I wouldn't normally hang around someone's yard but Sam's family is like my family. What am I doing? Maybe I am hanging around Jason a little to much and start to think of him as... I am just making excuses about all of this. I think I am gay ... no I like girls to! Then what does that make me?
"Hey, what are you doing out here?" Someone said behind me.
"Just thinking" I said my back still turned towards him.
"I don't think we have met, my names Jeff" he said.
I turned to look at him, he had blonde hair and blue eyes a white Tommy shirt and white cords on, dang was he cute.
"NO" I surprised myself in saying, I guess I was just saying that to change my mind. I again had my back to him. I didn't hear a reply and looked behind me, he was walking towards the house, I felt like crap. I took my anger/confusion out on him.
"What's the big idea?" Sam yelled at me charging down the hill towards the tree I was under.
"Huh?" I responded.
"Jeff just came in their all mad at me cause ..." she trailed off.
"Cause why?" I demanded."Did you bring him over here to meet me or something?"
"And what's so bad about that?"
"You sent him over to meet me? What do you think this is the dating game?" I bellowed, not thinking of the consequences.
"Dating game, huh?" Sam said with a smile plastered across her face "I just thought that since Jason has been so busy lately that Jeff and you can become friends... but dating game? I think you have something to say, SO SPILL IT!"
"I don't know what to say!" and I didn't either "Don't think that this isn't a new feeling to me!"
"I don't know, but don't you even worry about my opinion of you!"she said attached with a hug "I couldn't bring myself to think any less of you"
"I hadn't even thought of that! What people will think of me!"I began to tear up as I got more distressed.
"I think that your popularity can stand to take a blow from some of the bigot's in our school"
Popularity? That has never been a concern of mine, so I guess it doesn't matter. It's the racist comments that would aggravate me the most.
"Is that really what you think I'm worried about? Popularity?"I asked.
"Oh you know I didn't mean to offend you, Sweetie" she said beginning to cradle me.
By then a few tears had slipped past.
"It's Jason isn't it?" she said dead seriously.
"Yeah, I never realized but I need him so badly" I buried my head in her arm.
"It's all right, let it out"
"But what are the chances that he could possibly like me in return?"
"I guess the only way to find out.."
"You do and you shall die!"I said back to my normal self [can I even say that anymore)?
"Come on lets go back inside" she said and gestured towards her huge country house."you mind if I tell Jeff that you just aren't yourself today?"
"As long as that's all you share..."
"Don't worry" she said.
The movies were just swell, I felt a lot better now that I told someone. It's about 9:45 and I'm home now sprawled out across the couch in our den listening to music. Something peculiar happened before I left when Sam took Jeff outside to tell him that I wasn't acting like myself today, he came back in with a broad smile on his face. I have no clue what to think about that. The phone rings across the room I get up and answer it
"Hello?"
"Hey sweetcheeks it's me" I didn't need any more of a hint on who this is...
"How was cross country?"
"It was ok, how was detention?"
"...just swell"
"Is something wrong?"
"No. Nothing at all" I wanted to tell him so badly.
"Sure! Just because I have been so busy doesn't mean you can't share what's on your mind"
"I want to, I just ...I just can't that's all"
"All right you know I respect your decision and all, but you can tell me, you know you can"
"I need to go ... my parents want me to do something"
"Sorry sexy, but your parents are out of town" He said then got real quiet and said" If you want me to let you go..."
I felt horrible about lying to him, but my stomach is doing a trapeze act I'm so nervous.
"No, I'm sorry" I took a long deep breath to try and relax myself "I just have had some issues lately"
"Are you all right? Shit, man. You should have told me... I am coming over" he said in a hurry"Alright? unlock the doors take the security system off"
"Jason wait it's ok you don't have to come over my parents probably wouldn't approve any way"
"Then I guess it's a bummer becuase your parents aren't home isn't it" I can just imagine the smile on that boys face...
"Alright come on over, how are you going to get here? Do you want me to give you a ride?"
"Nah I'll take my car"
"But you hate the gas money!"
"You never forget a thing do you?" he chuckled.
"See you later"
"Bye"
I am so glad that he is coming over. Waitasec oh yeah I am falling in love with him! Oh no! This can't be good, what if I lose control!?!
'Durrrrr'
"Shit!" that was our doorbell. Might as well go and open the door for him, maybe I can tell him that I contracted a 24 hour case of the plauge...
"Hey sweetie"
"...hi" he stood there wearing a baseball cap, cargo khakis and an adidas shirt. I gave him a smile. And lowered my gaze to the beer he brought. He noticed me staring at them.
"What's the matter? I thought that maybe we could just slum around all night, I mean we don't have to go to school tommorow it'll be a saturday"
We have on ocasion gotten hammered but I don't trust myself without control."No it's ok I was just surprised that's all, let's set up camp in the living room"
"Sweet, so you're parents are coming home next monday" he asked putting his things out of his bags and pushing the couch back so we can settle in front of the tv.
"Yeah, whole weekend to my self huh?" I replied.
"Not if I can help it" he said.
By then my mind was out of cotrol he is going to try to spend the weekend with me! And he could be wasted real soon... but I don't want him out of his pants I want to have and to hold him...
"Are you alright man?"
"Just thinking"
"What movie do you want to watch?" he asked.
"Anything but Scream, long storey"
Soon enought both of us had watched 'I still know' and played many games of 'Twisted Metal'.
"So what do you want to do next?" Jason asked.
"Doesn't matter... It's only like midnight" I replied.
He reached for some beer and opened a can, I followed suit. I wasn't sure how to handle any of this maybe if he is really wasted he won't even notice that I'm not, cause I do not trust myself when drunk.
He drank about 3 cans, and I left to empty my cans when he went to the bathroom or I went to look for something. So far I don't think that he's noticed anything.
"I don thin that I ave eve seen such a little change in you with alcohol in you system befor" he said with a slur.
I figured that he might be to drunk to notice...
"Huh, sorry I geuss, what?" I said, way over my head I might add!
"HAHA yeah, sorry to have doubted you"
What happened to his slur?!
He began to slip next to me and put his hand on my leg... and his other on the side of my cheek. A gasp escaped my mouth.
"This is the part I always enjoy the most, Alex" Jason said and snuggled in next to me.
What was he saying? 'The part he enjoys best'? Has he done this before? I never remember stuff when I am drunk, maybe he has done this before. This is way to wierd maybe I'm dreaming yeah maybe I'm dreaming. Jason slowly bit on my ear. I let a long rough breath out. If this is a dream I do not want to wake up!
Jason laid his head upon my stomach and began to cry.
"Please don't cry" was my first response.
"Wha.. WHAT?!" he exclaimed and jumped back. Looking at me with wide eyes. "What did you say?"
"It's ok, don't over react. It's so clear to me now."
"I'm so sorry, I thought you were drunk, I swear!" he was getting a little hysterical"If you don't want to see me anymore I understand"
"What are you saying? This is what I want, I want YOU, I have always wanted you" I said holdin his face."Don't be ashamed"
"I don't know what to say, I always thought... but you aren't mad that I used you? I mean I do love you and all but... but"
"But you got me drunk to show your feelings?" I said pretending to be mad "Next time try it sober, I think we will enjoy it more"
By then he was in my arms again and we stood there for a few moments. He raised his head looked me in the eyes, a smile shined across his face.
"Do you want to.. I mean is it ok?"
"Do you have condoms?"
"Yeah as a matter of fact..." he said and fummeled through his wallet, pulling one out.
He took his shirt off then began to kiss my neck up and down while whispering my name. I never thought about him like this like sex, I always had a image of me and him laying together ...peaceful ...restful ...happy.
Soon enough all of our cloths were off and he sat on my stomach in a rythmic motion,the beads of sweat falling down his muscular tan chest. His beutiful cock rubbing against mine. It was like a good book, you read and get interested and can't wait till the end, the climax comes and you want more. The climax came all over my chest. He looked up at me then rearanged himself so that our cheeks were resting against each other. It was silent after that we just layed there and I can't help but think that this is just like my fantasy peaceful, restful and happy. The only difference being that I always imagined it topside like I was watching it all from up above as if it was out of reach to far away from my grasp. But now I am seeing the picture, seeing my resting lover right next to me. This is something special this is caring this are my emotions this is love.