The Final song-CH.10
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---------------------------------------------------------------------- The last Chapter in the series of Alive in The Lights. I will have a message after the end please read it! Also if you can please donate to nifty lets keep this site free!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Grey Alexander Holden Age: 16-Main Character Zeke Anthony Holden Age 15: Grey's half brother. Cameron Drake Age 16: Teen singer. -------------------------------------------------------------------------
I wrap the towel around my waist and exit the bathroom. I see Kaiden sitting on the bed smiling at me, "I cannot believe you all rushed the stage on my last song!"
"It was Cameron's idea!" he says putting his hands up in defense.
"Of course it was!" I say laughing. I was on my last song and it was going so great and the next thing I know two huge beach balls are let down with confetti cannons and then the silly string was shot all over me and Kaiden, Cameron, and Zeke bombarded me while I was finishing the last chorus of Green eyes. My favorite part was I did one last verse and Cameron, and Zeke sang it with me.
"I did get the part where Zeke and Cam sang with you." He says as if reading my mind.
"This is why I love you!" I tell him bending down and kissing him.
"Here I thought it was because I let you sleep with me." He says in mock offense.
I laugh as I kiss him, "Well I cannot forget that!" I tell him.
He pops me on the butt. "You are so bad!"
"What you didn't like our little sexcapade in the press room?" I ask.
He blushes, "We could have been caught!"
"That's what made it so hot!" I say.
He shakes his head, "I love you Grey."
"I love you too Kaiden Ryan Holden!" I say and kiss him again.
"I still can't believe we are going to do this." He says touching the ring now on the leather necklace next to the spiral pendant.
"I have wanted to do this for so long!" I tell him.
"You know your dad is going to freak out right?"
I shrug my shoulders," we are signing a prenup which I feel so guilty about." I tell him now straddling his lap.
He laughs, "Babe don't, it will protect you and me if anything does ever happen to us."
"I will never let anything come between us." I tell him.
"I know, and I will never let anything make me feel like I'm not good enough for you again."
"Babe I am lucky to even have you!" I tell him.
"I know you are!" He says and kisses me.
I kiss him back, "babe I don't think I can go another round, I am kind of sore....and I was walking a little funny after."
I laughed so hard I had to roll off him. "It's not funny!"
"Yes it is." I tell him.
He lays beside me and I love that he is comfortable enough with me that he is shirtless all the time as I look at the silver band that rests on his chest. "I cannot wait for it to be official, when do you want to do this?"
He looks a little shocked, "I am in no rush. I have you. I want to enjoy this, and if I am to be truthful, I need you to be sure this is what you want."
I prop myself up on my elbow, "Of course this is what I want."
"I know that, but Grey if we go through with actually getting married that means when things get tough you can't just run away!"
I open my mouth, and close it. "I know that."
"Please don't be mad, but I want to wait for a few years." He says.
"A few years?" I ask not believing this.
I sit up and so does he, "yes Grey. If you love me as much as you say you do this shouldn't change anything."
"It doesn't but why wait? We can do this tonight?"
"Grey....I love you and I want this to happen, but we are just 18. I haven't even graduated high school. I still want to go to college, I want to start a career of some sort."
"But you don't have too babe. I mean I can take care of us, hell I have a few TV shows, and so much more coming my way."
"Grey.....stop. I am not saying I don't want to marry you or that I don't love you, but this is something I want. I want to marry you and I will, but I want these things before that. Just because you are famous doesn't mean anything. This is what I would do with anyone that I was marrying. I want an education and a career, so I could bring in income as well and not have the marriage be totally one sided. Do you get where I am coming from? I feel so horrible that you pay for EVERYTHING and this marriage won't be like that."
I am quiet for a few minutes and just looking at him, he looks like he is about to cry. I didn't understand it when he first said it, but I do now. He doesn't want me to give him everything he wants to contribute to our relationship and I understand that now. "This is why I love you so much, and I would wait till the end of time to marry you!"
He has a hard look in his eyes, "Are you sure you understand?"
I kiss his lips, "Yes babe. You are so fucking perfect and I am so lucky to have ever gotten to be with you."
He kisses me back pulling me on top of him, "I love you. Now make love to me."
(One year later)
"It's been about a year since the end of your tour, and this is the first interview you have given or even spoken to the media since you tweeted out the picture of you and Kaiden. I wanted to thank you so much for allowing me to have that honor!" Ellen says sitting across from me.
I smile back, "Thank you Ellen. I wouldn't have given anyone else this chance besides you. I mean you were there for me when everything hit the fan.." I tell her.
"I mean you shocked the world when you tweeted the photo of you and Kaiden lip locked in bed like that.." She says.
I shrug, "Yeah it wasn't my smoothest move in coming out I wanted to do it better than that, but at the time I was engaged to Kaiden. He didn't want to marry yet and I understood that, but the pressure to hide our relationship was a lot and I never thought coming out would actually break us apart."
"How did it break you and him up?"
"The pressure of being with me and my celebrity status it never took the hit I was expecting sure I lost some friends, but the paparazzi were just as bad, and Kaiden was getting death threats and threats in general we couldn't go out into public without someone saying something negative to him. I came home one day and he had his stuff packed, he told me he couldn't take this anymore. I mean he always told me he didn't belong in my world, but I never thought he would bail on me." I tell her
" I am sorry about the break up, you were such a cute couple."
"Thanks, we actually talk still. He is doing great actually he is in college."
"Now Grey I know you said a little bit about the threats but I did read Kaiden was attacked is there any truth to that?"
I tense up, "Yes there is, we were out getting coffee and we were separated in a mob of people, and my bodyguard pulled me out and he didn't grab Kaiden like I thought he was going to and Kaiden suffered a broken wrist and some bruising. That's I think when he had enough. Like I said we aren't bitter towards each other at all."
"It is hard being a couple out in the real world, I am sorry about the breakup but it seems like you are doing fine?"
"I am, like I said we are friends I still love him and I understand now he's happier than I have ever seen him and if that's without me then I am ok with that. I have been dating someone who I never thought would happen, and it was a total shock to me but I actually love this person and I can see that it's reciprocated and there isn't any hesitation. That and this person fully supports me in all my endeavors hell he encouraged me after six months of moping around to get back up and start doing things."
"Which there are rumors but nothing has been confirmed, what are some of these endeavors?"
"I am actually going to be on a TV show very soon, I do have a movie coming out. Plus I have been running my record label and producing multiple albums!"
I talk to Ellen a little more, and we end the interview, and I am sweating as I walk off the stage my phone rings it's Kaiden I pick up. "Hello?"
"Thanks." He says with a little bit of apprehension.
"For what?"
"For not making me out to be a bad person?" he says.
"I would never do that to you." I tell him.
"Even after I outed you?" He says.
"Yeah even after you outed me" I tell him.
"I didn't think it would have such negative effects on us, on everything...I never meant to hurt you, but I didn't want to hide us anymore either." he says.
"Kaiden your happy that's what matters right?"
"What about you though? Are you really dating someone?"
I smile as I think about my boyfriend, "Yeah I am dating someone, and I am the happiest I could ever be."
"Thanks...again. Grey I feel bad, I want to be honest with you. When you asked me to marry you I wanted to, but when I visited Tyler he talked to me a lot about life and what it would mean. I was too young to want to marry, and at the time you didn't want to come out that wasn't fair on me."
"I am not trying to fight here Kaiden, you made it pretty clear you didn't want to marry me. Okay I was living in a fantasy world okay. We are good, look I just need space from you I need to explore this new relationship I am in. Think you can do that for me?"
"Yeah, okay I can do that."
I hang up my phone and look up to see Cameron looking at me, "Kaiden?"
"Yeah."
"He thank you?"
I nod my head and sit next to Cameron. "Yeah he thanked me for not telling the truth."
"That he is the one that tweeted the picture of you and him kissing? That he forced you out of the closet, that he broke your heart?"
"Cameron, he did that because he knew I was never going to come out. That and his long time best friend Tyler got into his head about married life." I tell him.
"You shouldn't force someone out of the closet!" He says getting defensive.
"I know. Look he's happier and I am good with that like I told Ellen, I don't harbor any anger towards him Cam. He's good, he's in a relationship and he's happy that he's finally in college."
"And what about you?" he asks.
I point to myself, "Me? I am the best I have ever been." I say.
"Yeah?" he says looking at me with a hint of curiosity in his eyes?
"Yeah." I say leaning in as he meets me half way kissing me passionately.
(Epilogue)
I wished I could have been truthful, but I do still love Kaiden it's not that I'm in love with him as I was, but he is still someone special to me. I'm lying in bed with Cameron with my head on his abdomen, and I don't think I will ever actually understand how I ended up with Cameron of all people. He was adorable, it was one night after Kaiden moved out, Cameron came out by the pool and sat beside me. I told him I felt so lost that I didn't know what I was going to do. He put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me into his side.
He looks at me, "well I am glad it happened."
"What the fuck Cameron." I tell him.
"Because he didn't deserve you Grey. He outed you, and I could see how things were going between you two. I was losing my best friend, and I could see he was losing himself to depression. You cannot sit here and tell me you knew the end wasn't coming?"
"Yeah I knew it was, I saw his texts from Tyler telling him to just break it off, that he wasn't meant for my world."
"He wasn't, yes Kaiden was something special but in the end, he wanted you to change everything about your life to be with him. Love doesn't work like that Grey. If you love someone you love them for who they are and all their flaws."
I look at him, "Who the hell are you?"
He just chuckled and hugged me.
Flash forward to six months after Kaiden moved out. I was depressed, I didn't do too much of anything around the house, I took a social media break, I would have someone bring food to the house, I couldn't deal with the heartache.
He walks into my room, and straddles himself over me, and slaps my face. "Holden wake the fuck up!"
"Get the fuck off me Cameron!" I yell at him and shove him.
He holds both of my hands above my head with one hand, "Give up Holden you know I am stronger than you!"
"Let me go Cameron!" I scream at him.
"NO! I am tired of seeing you depressed its fucking killing me! You are too fucking amazing to be so heartbroken over a guy!" he says.
"I loved him god damn it Cameron if you ever loved anyone you would understand!" I yell at him.
"You think I don't know what it fucking feels like?" He says yelling at me.
I just look up at him, and that's when he bends down and kisses me hard on the lips.
"What the hell Cam?" I ask breaking this kiss.
"I understand heartbreak because I fucking love you so much it hurts!" he says desperately.
I look at him, and he leans down to kiss me and I meet him and contribute to this kiss, "I have loved you for so fucking long!"
I smile as I think about that memory, I think that's when my life did fall into place. I am not only with someone who belongs in my world, but also understands me.
He rubs my back, "What are you thinking about?"
"The day you kissed me.." I tell him turning to look at him.
He laughs, "You don't understand how nervous I was."
"What? Cameron Drake nervous?"
"Yes! You Grey Holden are intimidating."
"When did you know you liked me?"
"That's easy. When you punched me at the announcement of our very first tour together."
"Really you knew back then?"
"Yeah." He says still rubbing my back.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"Because you were never available. "
"I was single for a long time." I say.
"Not emotionally." He says.
"What made you take the chance?"
"My brother, he knew I was gay since forever we both confronted each other about being gay. He always knew I denied it I slept with a lot of girls, and drank and did all the stupid shit that got me my bad boy image, because I couldn't cope with being gay.....and Haiden asked one day how long I loved you and I didn't even hesitate I said since you punched me and he laughed. He said I needed to stop being a coward and grow some balls and make my move on you."
I laugh, "Well I am glad you did."
"Me too babe me too." He says kissing the top of my head.
I know a very big twist!! I wished I could have been more active but I just had surgery a few weeks ago and it has been a bit rough for me, and I want to thank my editor he has done an amazing job helping me and helping this story be even more than what I could have hoped for so thank you M you are an amazing person and patient as a saint with me even when I get insane! As I have said that there were clues in the last few chapters in how this all played out. With that being said, I don't think anything ever really ends. I think it just easier to put it to bed for awhile. I left it open so I could come back and do sequels if I chose to, and I am really wanting to explore Cameron's character a bit more than what I got too. Thank you to everyone who has stuck it out and finished this story with me! I will have a new story up soon. I have been busy writing a lot! So please be on the lookout for it soon!!! Emails with comments and thoughts are appreciated!