AN EPIPHANY, Chapter 4 BY WILLIEJESS
I awoke feeling the warmth of Jim's naked body with my still hardened member wedged in his crack. Hearing Jim's soft snoring or deep sleep breathing, I lifted my head to see over his body to check out the time. It was 5:48 AM, which means that I only had a couple hours of quality sleep time, and so I kissed his body in several places while laying my head down on the pillow. My gland head attached to my cock started to swell and push slightly against Jim's crack, sliding along it until it rested against his anus opening. It was only a slight drifting off into a light sleep, and automatically my hips started a slight push or thrusting motion against my lover. This must have awakened Jim because, without saying a word, he started to reciprocate by pushing backwards against my cock, while he raised his left leg to make it easier for me to penetrate his muscle. Jim then lifted his entire body to reposition himself closer to me, and that's when I held on to his raised leg while giving a strong push forward. I don't know who was surprised first, but we both exclaimed a nice pleasure sound when my cock entered his anus and my gland ring just cleared his sphincter. Without any further pushing, I left my love tool just where it was, and didn't want to enter further for fear of causing Jim any pain or discomfort. It then made me realize that this was my very first act of sexual anal penetration with another man, and then my emotions took over and I started to cry. Jim immediately twisted his upper body to rest his shoulders against the pillow, and softly whispered to me his comforting words:
"It's ok Thomas, just continue and go for it. You make me very happy, and I just want you to enjoy this experience. Don't worry, I've got an elastic opening, and I am sure I can accommodate your cock without any discomfort. Please, love, go for it and continue."
With my nose making sniffling sounds, I shifted my entire body closer to Jim, and started to place my left leg between his raised leg and the lower right one, and my knee softly brushing against his scrotum. I wanted so much to love Jim and so I grabbed his cock while slowly pushing mine further into the incredibly warm colon. It was a learning experience for me to feel the smooth, yet accommodating walls of his tunnel as my cock slid further and further until my balls became squished against Jim's perineum. I remember my softly uttering a short prayer of:
"Thank you God," and my telling Jim "I love you so very much."
It came automatically with both Jim and I carefully turning together so that he was beneath me lying on his stomach and I knelt between his spread legs with his slightly elevated ass area. My cock stayed connected throughout this role-over process. Jim responded further by locking his lower legs around mine, thus helping to lock us together. I then straightened my arms to take some of my body weight off of Jim, and to be freer to begin a thrusting motion---all this taking place automatically without any prior experience. Oh, the beauty and wonder of how our bodies react during the time of love-making. Again, "Thank you,my beautiful God." I do not know why we didn't close our window blinds when retiring to bed, but the result was the wonderful soft light coming in from a nearby street lamp, which allowed me to look downward and see my cock coming out and sliding in every time I did my thrusting. I guess it was my precum mixing with any exited juices in Jim's colon that I started to notice a nice sheen along my cock. I was only hoping that Jim was enjoying this as much as I. The urge came over me to lower my body into a prone position along the length of Jim's, but I still was able to support myself on my elbows. This made me feel like I wanted to push more into Jim if it were possible, and to simply be as much one with my lover's body. I just felt like I wanted to somehow get completely into Jim. Without missing a beat, my thrusting continued while my balls softly pounded against Jim. Jim turned his head, raised it, and we both started a deep tongue passionate kissing. I started to open my mouth and breathe deeply as a funny sort of feeling started to build up in my scrotum. Jim knew what was happening, as he, too, started to really feel the wonderful pleasure building up in his ass as well as in his own cock. We broke off our kiss, and I extended my arms once again to raise my body off of Jim. In the mean time, Jim started his own thrusting against the bed sheet, and in sync with my own motion. In spite of feeling our urgency to climax our love, Jim raised his upper half body as much as my body permitted, and I leaned forward again to give ourselves that encouraging love kiss to bring our love to an explosive passionate conclusion. Of the few times I had kissed Jim, this particular one had a unique taste for both of us as our sexual tension was quickly mounting. Our kissing was mixed with our heavy breathing. Somehow, Jim was able to support himself with his right arm while he raised his left one to place it upon my neck and bring me ever so closer to his passionate kissing, urging me on with:
"I love you, my precious Thomas, my spouse."
That did it for me, as I raised up my body with extended arms, and began a rapid short thrusting, making my cock slide quickly in and out. Jim also raised his body into a contorted position with his ass raised higher for easier penetration, and supported his upper body with both his elbows. He, too, started a quickening pace of thrusting against the bed. And all too quickly, we both expelled our seed, mine gushing in seven, eight or maybe nine squirts into Jim, and Jim's seed making a rather large puddle on the bed sheet. This exertion completely exhausted me, and as I temporarily pulled out of Jim, he somehow knew what I wanted, and so he turned his body to lie on his back, right on top of his messy pool of wonderful sticky semen. I quickly reinserted my still hardened cock into his hole, and placed myself prone on top of Jim so that we both could give each other as deep a lover's kiss as possible. No words can adequately describe how we both felt at the moment, and yet we managed to say:
"Thank you lover, and thank you dear God for the wonderful gift of sex and love."
Once we expressed our feeble words, we dug our tongues ever so deeply into each other's mouth, and suck away. It's almost like we were trying to suck each other's soul and spirit into our own bodies. When I finally broke off my kiss, I leaned down and took in Jim's extended right nipple between my teeth, and ever so gently gave it a tender love bite along with lots of licking. Eventually my cock softened and slid out of Jim. My first love deed has been accomplished, and I am no longer a virgin as regards giving anal sex to another man.
This experience created in me a deep desire to continue my love experience into other forms of expression, and so, without telling Jim what was my desire, I came off his body and repositioned myself in a 69 position. Jim thought I wanted to suck off his penis, but then when he noticed that I pushed my ass against his face, and leaned forward to bend my head down to his anus, he quickly felt my tongue making probing darts into his somewhat opened hole where I was able to lap up the semen leaking out of his opening. I then fully extended myself to place my tongue into the opening as well as placing my mouth over it to continue my sucking. Jim enjoyed the rimming and sucking so much, that he also started to do the same to me. We were now both heavy into lust and sex. Jim crossed his legs over my back to help pin me down to his anus as he became engaged with penetrating my own hole with his tongue. Jim was really salivating heavily by now, which helped to lube up my opening. It then became obvious that Jim wanted to mount me and give to me that wonderful experience of anal sex while I wanted the same and to have his cock deeply in me. A few more minutes of rimming each other had charged up our testicles, and soon both our cocks were fully hardened and extended. When I felt Jim's middle finger penetrate me, I then asked him:
"How do you want to take me," to which he replied that he wanted to enter me from the rear somewhat in a modified doggie position with my kneeling on the bed with my ass up and my chest and head down against the bed. Jim continued for a short while finger fucking my ass, and then signaled me that he was ready. I placed myself on the bed according to Jim's desire, but placed my head and face into his damp pool of semen where I was able to sniff in the wonderful aroma of spilled seed, and lap it up like a dog in heat. Jim felt that my opening would be tight for his cock, and so he reached over to the night stand for the KY jelly. After applying a coating of it to his cock, he turned the end of the tube against my ass opening and squeezed a sizeable amount of the stuff into me. I felt Jim place his gland against my slightly opened hole, and as he pushed slowly into me, I relaxed my muscle as though I was expelling. This working together made Jim's cock quickly pass my sphincter and immediately he went deeply into me with one swift motion. I felt some fullness and discomfort, but I was too sexed up to complain of any pain. In fact, there really wasn't any pain to speak of since I sometimes use to penetrate myself with a small dildo when masturbating. Jim rode my ass and started to build up speed in his thrusting as more and more he leaned over my body. He grabbed my torso with both hands and then started a quick hard jabbing motion with his hips. This form of thrusting into me only made me want to push backwards and meet with his cock jabs. We were both into deep heat and once again, animal lust was taking over. With tasting the wonderful flavor of Jim's spent seed on the bed sheet, my one hand quickly started to masturbate my own cock. The root of my cock was so swollen and hard that I was very sensitive to feeling each and every jab of Jim, and his pounding against my prostate. Both he and I knew that this was not going to be a long love session as our balls started traveling upwards and scrotums tightened against our cocks. It must have been no more than a half dozen strokes of masturbating when I started to warn Jim I was going to spill out my seed. And then my ass muscle tightened, and my wonderful orgasm took over. This then led Jim to push as deeply into me with one more thrust, and then I could really feel the gushing forth of his seed as it coated my insides, about five or six really hard squirts. The joy was mine as I felt Jim's explosive climax, as I am sure Jim was equally happy to be ejaculating into his lover. As Jim was catching his breath, I lowered myself over my own pool of semen, bringing Jim along with me to rest against my back and somewhat taking his weight off me by the support of his elbows. That's when Jim reached his face to mine, we both kissed deeply, and he informed me the wonderful surprise that this was also his first time giving anal sex to another man. If this love isn't made in heaven and allowed by the Will of God and his love for both of us, then I am at a loss to explain all this. The biggest surprise, however, lies ahead for both of us, and we will only gain knowledge of this during the next day. For now, we both are exhausted by love and in love, and so we separated and turning towards each other, we intertwined our arms and legs as best we could and laid down for a much deserved sleep. The only difference is that now our sleep will be the result of love for each other, and what a sweet way to end our new adventure, even though I could start feeling Jim's semen leaking out of my opening and down along my crack. Who cares I thought to myself, for as wonderful as love is, so is it also a bit messy. Not that I am complaining, because the semen we spill is our very essence of life we give to each other.
To bring our readers up to speed concerning my first encounter with Juan, it is now a month since our last sex episode. I do pray for him, but also renewed my commitment not to make any phone calls to arrange a rendezvous. Somehow I feel in my heart that Juan has returned to give his wife the total love both he and she deserve. I also feel that it was a good learning experience for both him and me, as we became forced to examine ourselves and reach for our sexual identity. In our next chapter, my faith and wonderment in the Power and Love of God will show itself when Jim and I really become heavy into our sexual love and reveal our true selves.
I wish to express my continued thanks for the responses I have received, and especially by everyone stating their own like-minded experiences or self-examination. I truly feel so many men, regardless of age, go through the same questioning experience and try to better understand their sexual identity without the stigma of shame. If we travel the road of love together with God and develop a faith relationship with God, we will be more accepting of His Divine Will for us, whether we should remain faithful to a hetero-sexual relationship or accept the fact that God permits us to be gay just as long as our love to our partner is sincere, honest, monogamous and truly self-sacrificing. Finally, if you haven't surmised it by now, these stories are true life experiences.