DISCLAIMER: This is an original work of fiction, all characters created by the author. This work had not been beta'd so any mistakes are purely my fault.
WARNING: NC-17 m/m This story has been rated NC-17 due to adult content and consensual m/m sexual situations. If you are not of legal age, or if you find such material offensive, please do not read any further.
RESPONSE: Comments and critiques welcome by Scorpio (LouisdPdL@aol.com) I would like to take the opportunity to apologize for the length of time it took me to get this chapter posted.
ANGEL & DEMON. A LOVE STORY by Scorpio
Chapter 11 CONFESSIONS
Joey silently stood near the edge of the shallow creek watching the sun prepare to set behind a grove of trees. He truly loved to watch this most common of miracles play out before his amazed eyes. The sky was currently a brilliant shade of blue turquoise and the angle of the sun painted the bottom of the clouds electric tangerine, while the tops were etched a cool mysterious lavender. It was overwhelmingly beautiful and it touched something deep inside of him.
The soft sound of a beer can tab being slowly pulled back broke Joey from his silent contemplation of the deepening sky.
"Here."
Without turning his face away from the awe inspiring view, Joey reached out and took the offered beer from Billy. He raised it to his lips and swallowed almost half of the golden liquid.
Joey didn't need to see Billy's face to know the blonde wad giving him an odd, questioning look. He could feel Billys stare from here. Without any real curiosity, Joey noted that they had both been out-of-sorts ever since they had left Delta Kappa House. Joey had spent the afternoon drinking beer like a man possessed, actually keeping pace with Billy (a first for anyone as far as Joey knew). Billy had been obvious in his desire to say something important to Joey, and just as obvious in his inability to figure out how to say it. While Joey was well aware of both of these facts, he felt it better not to examine the underlying cause too closely. His whole attitude was one of avoidance. However, he also knew that as soon as Billy was drunk enough, or rather, as soon as Billy figured he was drunk enough, the blonde would push the issue. Joey felt himself caught between icy dread of what he knew was to come and an odd, almost desperate desire to get it over with.
Joey finished his beer and quietly watched the sky turn cobalt and the clouds deepen to blood red. The shadows lengthened and gathered substance everywhere around the park. Joey could feel, more than hear, Billy walk up close beside him. His friend placed a large hand against his shoulder and squeezed. The heat of Billys hand soaked through his T-shirt and sent pleasant vibrations through him. Joey was suddenly caught between two conflicting urges. He felt as if he should pull away from Billy and the small comfort he offered and yet, at the same time he wanted to lean into him, pulling even more gentle affection from his friend. So, locked in indecision, he did nothing.
Joey went to take another drink from his beer, only to find the can empty. With a deep sigh, the big red-head crushed the can into a crumpled pile of aluminum. Flinging it backward over his head in the general direction of the almost empty case, Joey sighed again.
"Want to talk about it?" Billys voice was soft and gentle.
Joey felt his stomach knot up in sudden anxiety. He knew what was coming, he knew it would be hard to face, but he also knew he had no choice. Not because of Billy, but because of himself. Even still, he instinctively delayed by playing dumb.
"Talk about what?" he asked just as quietly.
"You ... and Angel." Billy barely whispered.
Joey swallowed hard. A hundred thoughts rushed through his mind at once, confusing him, making him feel lost within himself. After a long pause, he sighed again, sadly, almost wistfully.
"We're best friends. Have been for years. You know that." As the words left his mouth, they sounded forced, even to himself.
Billy shifted his weight a little, his feet rustling the grass. It was startlingly loud in the quiet of the early evening. The blonde squeezed his shoulder again, sending another wave of warm comfort through his tense body.
"Yeah. I do know that, but,." he turned his head to look directly at Joey, "it's different now. Your different,." he paused for a second, "ever since you found out Angel was gay."
Joey stiffened as a wave of defensiveness crept over him. "I don't know what you're talking about. I'm the same as always." He said in a tense voice.
"It's nothing real obvious." Billy went on as softly as before. "It's nothing you've said or done. It's more,. well, it's more the way you look at him when no one is watching. The way your eyes get when you hear his name."
Joeys mind went numb as his emotions churned, his thoughts raced and hundreds of fleeting images of Angel flashed before his eyes. He began to tremble slightly.
"You always get this sad, sort of hurt look in your eyes." Billy went on quietly. "almost as if your heart was breaking."
Joey let out a small gasp. He had a sudden urge for more alcohol, but deep down he knew he could not drink this away, no matter how hard he tried.
"You say that you're cool with Angel being gay, but it bothers you, doesn't it? That's why you've been odd lately. You're still hurt by it, huh?"
Startlement and confusion splashed onto his mind like a bucket of cold water, forcing him to react instead of think.
With a snort of derision, he said, "No, that's not it at all Dude! You're way off."
"Then what?"
Billy total misunderstanding of the situation combined with all the beer and several days of confused frustration, not to mention years of fear and self doubt caused defensive anger to well up in him. That sudden flash of hot anger bolstered his courage and opened the floodgates within him. The release was amazing. With a hard shrug of his shoulder to dislodge Billys hand, Joey turned on his friend.
"You don't get it do you? I don't hate Angel for being gay anymore than I hate you for being straight."
Billys shocked expression only fueled the fire in him.
"Your straight. Angel is gay. And I'm a fucking freak, trapped somewhere in between." Joey took a step forward, roughly poking Billy with a finger in his chest, causing the big blonde to back up a step.
"For years I've been able to bury that inside me. Ignoring it when I could, keeping it private when I couldn't." Joey hissed through clenched teeth.
"I've never met any guy that ever felt that way before, and then Angel come out of the closet, and WHAM! Everything I've carefully forced aside is suddenly thrown in my face and it's still untouchable!"
Joey poked Billy in the chest, forcing him another step back. "I'm catching myself fantasizing about him, okay?!?! I don't know if it's because he's my best friend and I really do care about him, or if it's because I know he's gay. But either way, it's fucking with my head and ruining my relationship with Karen!"
Joey shoved Billy hard, pushing him back against the rough bark of a pale birch tree. "Do you have any idea what it's like to be stuck between two worlds and not be a part of either?!?!" Joey screamed in total frustration.
With quiet dignity, Billy slowly reached out one hand and placed it softly on Joeys cheek and brushed away a single teardrop.
"Yes. I do Joey." Billy whispered.
Gently, but firmly, Billy grasped the back of Joeys head to hold him steady as he leaned forward and placed a soft, tentative kiss on the lips of the distraught red-head. Joeys anger dissolved in an instant, only to be replaced with total shock.
"Wha??."
"I'm bi too Joey." Billy said softly. "I told you that before."
Confusion washed over Joey. He was totally clueless, he couldn't ever remember hearing Billy say he was bi- sexual. "I don't."
Billy slid his had to Joeys shoulder again as he spoke, "The first time Demon spent the night with Angel. You were in my room freaking out and I was telling you about my sister being gay."
Joey nodded, his memory beginning to stir. He had been very drunk that night and an emotional wreck to boot. Many of the details were lost to him.
"I told you that she became friends with a group of people who were involved in gay and lesbian student rights at the local community college." When Joey nodded again, Billy continued. "I also told you that I had fooled around with some of the guys in the organization."
A light went on in Joeys head. He remembered Billy saying that, but he had been so caught up in what was happening in his own head, not to mention what was happening in Angels bed, that if hadn't registered. The real meaning of what Billy had told him had slipped past him and became lost in a haze of alcohol fumes and a ton of confused emotions. He suddenly felt like an idiot.
"Oh, I didn't realize. I,. I guess you do know what I'm going through, huh?" he said sheepishly.
Billy grinned, "Yeah, I do."
Joeys head was spinning and not only from the beer. He had not only told his deep dark secret, but had found a kindred soul as well. He was not merely accepted, but understood. He didn't know if he should laugh, cry, or simply pass out. He was overwhelmed.
Suddenly, Billy leaned in and kissed him again. It was soft, gentle and unexpected. Joey tensed in shock for a few heartbeats, then he let go of his fear and self- doubt and kissed Billy back.
It was sensual, electrifying, and exciting. Joey gave into his desire slowly at first, then gradually with more and more passion as years of repressed feelings and urges flowed to the surface.
Billy opened his mouth, inviting Joey in, and he plunged his tongue into the hot wet cavern. Tasting, exploring, experiencing. It was wild and new.
Joey had kissed his girlfriend in highschool, his girlfriend from last year, not to mention his current girlfriend Karen, many times, but kissing Billy was different. No doubt Billy was great at it, that wasn't it. It was every bit as good as kissing Karen, just very different. Karen was soft, petite, and very feminine. Her sensuality was fluid and velvety. Billy was big, strong, and aggressive. He was sending out masculine vibes full of controlled power and raw lust. It was an amazing turn-on for Joey and his stiffening cock began straining against his jeans.
Joeys passion soared and all thoughts evaporated from his mind. His desire took control and he ran his large hands all over Billys body. The feel of strong muscle over large bones was silent proof of the strength and power in the young man leaning against the tree. Billys thick arms lead to his broad shoulders. Solid pecs flowed into his flat stomach and his narrow waist lead to even more exciting treasures below. Joey reached around Billy to grab his firm ass, pulling the blonde in tight. Their bodies came firmly together, and they both grinded into the other. Billy broke off the kiss and moaned.
Joey felt Billys arms around his neck shift as Billy grabbed a handful of Joeys shirt. Using his fingers, Billy pulled the material of Joeys shirt up his back inch by inch, until he could grab the edge and slide it up and forward over his head. Joey reluctantly let go of the wonderful double handful of firm ass as Billy gave a sharp tug, pulling the shirt down and off his arms. Quickly, Billy peeled off his own shirt, revealing his beautiful chest in the last of the golden sunlight.
Billy watched the lust build inside of Joey until his eyes burned with desire. A shiver raced down his spine as Joey reached out and slowly ran his fingertips in a gentle path down his chest and over the soft blonde treasure trail. Almost tenderly, the big red-head slid his thick fingers down between the rough denim of Billys jeans and the taunt hot skin of his abs. Billy pulled the muscles of his stomach in tight, making as much room for Joeys exploration as possible. When Joeys warm hand brushed against his hard cock, Billy moaned low in his throat, and pressed against his friend.
Billy felt a huge smile grow on his face, and for a crazy second, he hoped it didn't look to much like a smirk. He had been hot for his red-headed friend since Joey had rushed Delta Kappa, but he never thought he would actually get to carry out his fantasies. And now Joey had his hand down the front of Billys jeans, caressing the length of his stiff shaft. Billy could feel his cock begin to leak pre-cum.
Hands shaking with excitement and an almost desperate need, Billy reached out and fumbled the top button of Joeys shorts open. He pulled his friends zipper down and quickly reached for the throbbing cotton covered cock. Joey moaned and Billy found the quiet noise to be incredibly sexy.
Wanting better access to Joeys manhood, Billy shifted his jean shorts so that they slid down his strong supple legs. He then lowered the cotton boxer-briefs down to the red-heads mid-thigh. Joeys rock hard 7" cut cock and low hanging balls were free at last. Soft red hairs grew in a patch above the base of his dick and the swollen cockhead glistened with pre-cum.
Billy swiftly ran the tip of one finger across the weeping piss-slit, gathering up some of Joeys pre-cum. Slowly, deliberately making sure Joey saw, Billy pulled his finger up and placed it in his mouth.
"Mmmmm." Billy moaned with pleasure at the wonderful sweet taste.
In the quickly fading light, Billy could see Joey smile broadly, then the red-headed stud pulled his hand out of Billys jeans, only to fight with his buttons. With a soft chuckle, Billy reached down and helped. In a moment, Billys jeans were around his knees and his hard as steel cock was in the tight grip of Joeys strong hands.
Joey pulled his hand toward Billys swollen cockhead slowly, and Billy could feel all of his 9" slide through his friends fist. A deep shudder ran down his spine and more pre-cum oozed out, smearing Joeys hand.
Billy reached out to Joey with both of his hands. One grabbed onto Joeys stiff shaft, the other to the back of Joeys neck. Pulling the handsome stud into a deep, wet, tongue thrashing kiss, Billy began to jerk Joeys cock with slow tender movements. He loved the feel of Joeys beautiful dick in his hand. The heat was amazing and the skin was smooth and soft. Pre-cum flowed out of the piss-slit and Billy ran his thumb across it with every pass.
They kissed with passion and lust. Tongues wrestling in hot wet mouths, each seeking dominance, both receiving pleasure. When Joey started to lightly nibble on his bottom lip, Billys knees almost buckled from the waves of erotic tingles.
Joeys grip on Billys throbbing dick was tight and lubed with pre-cum. Joeys other hand was gently fondling Billys ballsack, rolling the orbs within. Billys ass checks flexed as he began to fuck Joeys hand. Riding a delicious wave of lust, he rocked and thrust his hips, pistoning his cock in and out of Joeys fist. And as his excitement built, he jerked Joey harder and faster. Soon, both of the young men were moaning and breathing heavy.
Billy ran his left hand from it's perch on Joeys neck, around his shoulder to his chest. His fingers found the studs left nipple on their path downward, and stopped long enough to lightly squeeze it. Joey let out with his sexy moan once again. Billys hand once again traveled downwards, softly caressing the silky skin that covered the solid muscle of Joeys flat stomach. Billy felt as if he could touch Joey forever and still not get enough.
Billys gentle fingertips ruffling the hairs of his treasure trail must have excited Joey, because he began to pull on Billys cock even faster. Not being able to resist any longer, Billy brought tha hand on Joeys abs down to his big beautiful balls. Gently fondling those wonderful orbs, Billy tightened his other fist around Joeys cock even more.
Moaning loudly, Billy felt his cum begin to rise. Concentrating hard, Billy was barely able to hold back. Electricity ran up and down his spine, sweat beaded up on his forehead, and his whole body began to twitch. Suddenly, Joey began to moan loudly, and Billy felt the red-heads balls pull in tight, even as he felt the cock in his hand jump and pulse.
"Aaarrghhh!!!" Joey cried out loudly, squeezing his eyes shut.
Billy could feel Joeys hot cum splatter against his own chest and abs. The second blast coated his blonde curly bush and his dick. That was all it took to push Billy over the edge. His mind went white and his orgasim rolled through his body and out the tip of his straining cock. He jetted his seed onto the red hair lightly dusting Joeys flat stomach by the base of his shooting cock. With a skill that left him breathless, Joey gently milked his twitching shaft, pulling the cum out of Billy. Shivers flashed throughout his body as the last of his ball juice ran out over Joeys thick fingers.
"Ohhhh gawwd! Joey." Billy breathed even as he leaned in to kiss the handsome red-head with gentle passion.