Out side view
9ice had moved into a complex that was combined with N'sync by a foot way management idea to save money, Shane, Rajin, and Jelani had deposited all of there stuff and went straight to N'sync place. They were greeted with hugs and kisses.
Jc almost exploded when Lance kissed Shane.
They were all now in he living room. With Rajin sitting in Justin lap, Shane was in the corner talking and holding hands. Chris and Jelani were making out in the bean bag chair with Chris mutter constant saying that something was wrong with the rug of the chair because he kept getting Shocked. Jelani just laughed and kissed him again.
Justin and Rajin wasted no time in making up for lost time as they played cutesy on the couch. Shane and Lance were sitting on the love seat when Shane leaned in for a kiss and Lance stopped him.
"Shane we have to talk." "I know, but I'm so excited to be back."
Lance was about to speak when Shane interrupted him. "And Lance I got you something, I just hope you well..." Shane was reaching in his inside jacket pocket.
Rajin knew what he was going to do and he tapped Justin to watch as he saw his extremely excited brother pulling out Lance's gift.
"Listen before you get all excited can we talk."
"Yeah baby sure what's wrong?" Shane asked immediately calming down.
"Shane I don't know how to tell you this but, I I'm well,... I'm not gay."
Shane's head jumped back. "What?"
"I said I'm not gay." Lance repeated a little bit louder. From where Justin and Rajin was sitting Rajin heard every word and he was fuming mad. Just as he was about to do something Justin yelled out in pain. Rajin head snapped to see.
"Justin what's wrong?" He asked panicked. "I don't know something burned me." He cried holding his hand that was Rajin's a minute ago.
After a bit Justin calmed down still lost at what burn him. Rajin on the other hand had his sites set on Shane and Lance.
"Wha-what do you mean, is it something I did?" Shane asked on the verge of tears.
"No it's not you, it just that I don't thin I am capable of loving you like that any more."
As much as that was meant to help that didn't sound good either.
Surprisingly Shane laughed "I know what you mean, I was feeling it to, I just didn't want to say anything."
Lance jumped in surprise, "Really wow, well I guess it worked out for the best then." Lance smiled
Shane gave a weak smile and stood back up. "Well I am kind of tired I guess I should go unpack. Goodbye lance." Shane wave as he kissed his cheek.
He hurriedly made it to the door, closing it quietly only allowing 3 pairs of eyes to really know he left. A surprised Lance, a pissed off Rajin and a Irate Jc, who had got up from his chair as soon as he seen the door close.
He ran out to see Shane looking over the railing into a field of tall grass that flowed like a golden brown sea. Jc let the door close letting Shane know he was there. Upon hear it close Shane head shot in Jc's direction with bright eyes only to dim in realization.
Jc walked over to Shane and tilted his head up to look in his eyes, trying to apologize but not being able to verbalize his feelings. But Shane understood. Jc pulled him to his chest letting him cry telling him it would be ok.
Jc was rubbing Shane back when something fell out of Shane's pocket. Jc and Shane didn't even notice but Rajin and Justin did as they watched the two from the balcony.
"What did Lance say to Shane?" Justin wondered aloud. "I don't know but I'm going to find out Rajin hissed as he unwrapped himself from Justin's grip.
"Rajin honey, before you go fight Lance why don't we ask Shane 1st."
Ok Rajin let Justin go ask Shane what was wrong telling Justin he'd be down cause he had to use the bathroom.
Justin went downstairs and out the door and found that Jc and Shane were already gone, Justin looked to see if he could see what Shane had dropped.
He found it under the swinging chair. It was a small velvet box with a tag hanging from it, reading "Please B mine 4evr."
Justin inhaled deep finding a solid silver band in side.
Justin was walking back inside when he heard Rajin talking to Lance.
"What did you say to him?" He questioned only inches from Lance's face. "What do you mean?" Lance tried to stall seeing how pissed that Rajin was. "Don't play blonde with me, I am not in the mood."
"Me and Shane broke up." Lance answered. "What why.?" Rajin had to ask cause he thought they were getting along good. "Because I told him, that I wasn't gay." Rajin's mouth was agape. "But he said he was feeling that our relationship was failing anyway and that he felt the same way." Lance tried to reclaim his good name.
"You idiot he just told you that, if you had noticed what was really going on around you except what you want to see than you would know what he really wanted to happen to night.
"You don't know what your talking about!" Lance countered Justin anger built up and over flowed he raised his fist and would have hit Lance if Rajin had caught it. He easily diverted it.
"Don't baby, don't even waste your time." Rajin pleaded as he pulled Justin to their room. Before they walked up the stairs Justin yelled to Lance. "It's you who don't know what your talking about." as he chucked the ring box at Lance hitting him square in the chest.
Lance opened the box and read the card. Cursing to himself as he cried into the loveless night.
The next day was one that none of the guys were really ready for. Rajin and Jelani were already over Justin, Jc's and Lance's house. And Chris and Joey had just come in with Remy with donuts.
While most of the houses residents knew what was going on the other four had no idea. They tried to carry on like nothing was wrong until Chris had asked where Shane was.
A unsettling quiet had settled amongst the group. "Umm I'll go see if he is up." Rajin offered, Justin was going to check to but Rajin asked him to stay.
Rajin proceeded over to Shane's house and saw a light dancing through his thin white curtains. Stepping in he had to step over a chair that was blocking the doorway to the living room. The a wisp of incense was detected in the air as Rajin moved towards the living room. What he saw is a sight h never thought he would see again.
Rajin
Shane had cleared his whole floor and placed down matting in front of him a bowl of incense and his prized katanna. The normal lights were replaced by that of candle light. He sat in his black silk rode as if he was entranced by the flame.
I knew he only did this when he was truly upset cause I do it two, the last time we had both done this was when Grandma had pass away.
"Hey Rajin." He greeted without opening his eyes.
"Hey." Was all I could great back. I mean even as were growing up we were trained in the arts. Shane and I was well skilled in the sword, but he was very reluctant to use it even show it. But now he was burring his pain in it.
"Shane are you...,are you ok." "Me, yeah don't think that this thing with Lance is messing with me. If fact it stopping from realizing the truth, we are here on a mission. So I see we know what your base may be." Shane smiled faintly, it amazed me that even thought he was going through a trying time in his life he still had time to worry about me.
"Yeah I guess so, but at least it wasn't to strong as to hurt Justin."
Shane laughed his most innocent laugh , one that you only received from a truly happy child. "I remember that I thought I burned Lan..." The brightness in his eyes faded again. "Look the matter at hand still stands. We have a mission.." Shane began to stand and as he did he grabbed his blade as he did. "And we will be ready."
He turned and walked out of the living room in a grand showing of the sweeping capability of his robe into the back field.
I walked back realizing that Shane didn't want to deal with this Lance thing, instead he was going to bury it deep inside and take on another fate set task, but I fear that his feelings left unresolved could hurt him more than anything we could ever face.
1 Luv & I'm Out
S.Collins a.k.a Steelo