Swimming was so fun and I am over the moon about my effort. I can't wait to represent my country later this year. It has always been my dream to represent my country in any field and now I will get to do it at an early age. I can't wait. I flew back to Brisbane on the Friday night and it meant a red eye back home. Emma sat with me the whole way home and she kept snuggling next to me. I told her before we got on the plane I had a girlfriend and she didn't really seem to care about it. She was just happy to sit next to a girl that meant the world to her. When we landed and got off the plane my mum and lucinda were there to greet me. Lucinda had a big sign congratulating me and telling me she loved me. I saw Emma walk off with her mum. I was sad
I slept for most of Saturday and I knew I needed to see Phoebe, just to see how she was going. I miss her so much and she is too important to me to let go. I rang her mum to see if I could visit her at the hospital or at her home. She told me she probably isn't up to visitors right now at their home. I am so glad she is out of hospital and at home with her family. I know what they mean to her and she has got some great support around her. Faith had moved in while I was away and she had taken the spare room. She didn't want to move in and start sleeping in mums bed straight away and she wanted to make sure we were all ok with her living here. I was so happy to have her in the house all the time. My sisters were already borrowing her clothes and make up so they loved her. We went shopping for baby stuff and she was so clucky
i spent Sunday doing another assignment and this was a big one as well. I had to do something about sports science and what impact it has on all the sports in the world. Luckily I had a chat to our coach over the week about the subject and I jotted down plenty of notes and pieced them together to make an assignment out of it. It took me nearly all day to get it done. Mum took all of us to dinner to celebrate my achievements. I didn't really want a fuss over it. All I did was win a few races and beat a few records. Nothing special. Faith and I are really becoming best friends. She sat with me the whole time and she chatted about the baby coming and how nervous. "Mum will be a perfect sounding board for you faith and shell be the perfect mum with you" I said. She hugged men and it was a great night.
Thankfully me bladder issues have passed and as of last night I don't wear a nappy any more. Though I will keep them near by. I finished up my assignment and referenced it all and saved it to about 100 usb sticks to make sure I don't have one that crashes on me. It was so good to be able to put a pair of grey hipster briefs on under bike pants and my uniform this morning. I knew I wouldn't be having accidents and not needing to be hanged. I arrived at school and to my surprise I saw Phoebe waiting at the gate. I ran up and gave her a big hug. "I missed you so much Phoebe" I said. She didn't say anything and walked into the school with me. The whole day she seemed really quiet. even when we tried talking to her at lunch she just sat their silently. I put my assignment in and I was relieved. After school I saw Phoebe with Jett a kid from nudge. They were holding hands and they kissed. I am happy for her
I kept thinking about Phoebe all night and I am sad that she has decided to go another way. But I don't want her to be sad anymore. She is such a beautiful person and I love her too much. I spoke to my eldest sister on the phone and she told me dad had been caught cheating on his fiancé. I laughed so hard. She agreed with me that he will never change and he can't resister that temptation of another woman. Apparently he was fucking her sister while she was out shopping and she came home with Trish and found them in the act. It made me laugh. I slept so well again and no wetting of the bed again. Mum threw out my nappies and she said I had been such a good girl through the whole ordeal
Mum gave my sisters and I a day off for some reason and took us all into the city. We weren't sure why she would all of a sudden do this. She made us dress up in our best outfits and Trish made it up to Brisbane for the day as well. I don't think it had anything to with work or dad. We went to a spot were we had our first family dinner and I was a lovely spot. I don't even think faith knew what the hell was going on. There wasn't anything going on around us. Mum stopped and got down on one knee and said "faith my love. You have brought so much happiness to this family and my daughters adore you and your beautiful ways. Will you be my wife". We all started crying and shaking. "Yes yes yes yes a million times yes" they kissed and mum gave her a beautiful ring. We spent the rest of the day shopping and looking for wedding dresses. I messaged lucinda and told her about mum and faith. She sent back "I hope its us one day"
Wednesday meant sport. I was finally able to wear our sports uniform the way its supposed to. Without a nappy underneath my bike pants. We had a big touch game this afternoon and I really hope we win. Again I saw Phoebe waiting at the gate. I gave her a hug and she started crying on my shoulder. I stood and held her for an age. "Whats wrong phoebe?" She kept sulking "I have betrayed you and gone and met someone else without telling you". I kissed her on the cheeks and said "that's ok I completely understand. We are friends first remember" she hugged me and thanked me for being a friend throughout the last month. We drew our touch game. I scored 3 try and met a beautiful girl. After the game she came upon and introduced herself. Claire was her name and she told me how she heard about my swimming effort and wanted to meet me. She is a beautiful girl. I got home to find out faith and mum were in the hospital. Faith had a miscarriage. Its going to be a tough couple pf days.
Faith came home that night and didn't really talk. I think it has only just sunk in that she had lost the baby. Mum faith pretty much kept to themselves and we kept our distance. During the. Night faith came and slept in my bed like she always does when I'm down. She knows how to make things better for all of us. I held her til she fell asleep. She still wears a nappy and she doesn't hide it anymore. I woke to see faith still asleep and mum watching her sleep. "I love you mum" I said as I went and got dressed for school. She hugged me tightly.
When I got to school Phoebe wasn't at the gate waiting like she has been this week. I am a bit worried, but I'm sure everything will be ok. Bec came and talked to me for the first time in about a month. She has been busy with school and she apparently maybe pregnant the rumours around school. I knew she wasn't and those types of rumours are just a load of shit. She is always happy. We had a full school assembly and I was asked up on stage to be presented a sports award. I was totally expecting to wet my panties and I was only wearing a pair of white maxi briefs today. luckily no leaks and I got the loudest cheer when they announced what I had done. I love this school and the student body. After school I messaged Phoebe and I didn't get a reply. No I was scared
I went to bed about 9 and I had my phone on do not disturb. When I woke in the morning I had 20 messages for kids at school and the principal. I got the worst news possible. Phoebe had taken her own life. On Wednesday afternoon she stepped in front of a train and there was nothing anyone could do. I couldn't believe it. I was shattered and I really didn't know how to comprehend what had just happened. School had been canceled for the day. I just wanted to be with someone. Mum and faith were in Sydney and so were my other sisters. I didn't even know why I didn't go with them. I rang lucinda and she came over straight away
We were both pretty close to her and we just couldn't believe what had happened. I do think it is all my fault because she didn't tell me about jett and I should have just told her about lucinda. I can't handle this anymore. Lucinda came into the house and hugged me for an age. We both cried ourselves till we were nearly dehydrated. , she came and laid under the coppers of my bed and held me all day long. We just needed to be together and we need each others company. I was still in my pjs and lucinda was just wearing her school uniform as she was on her way to school when she got the message. I pretty much slept in her arms all day, I couldn't stop thinking about phoebe though.
I woke and saw lucinda was asleep I pulled the Doona off me and I thought I just need something to make me happy. I looked at lucinda school uniform and thought she needs to be naked. I went to her legs and pushed her dress up and pulled her bike pants and white thong down ";et me help you Annie" lucinda said. She was awake and horny. I looked at her pussy and smiled and said :this is for Phoebe". I ;peered my head and kissed her mound and she purred. She really had a nice thick bush. I then started licking her pussy. It had been 2 long weeks for both of us and she knew it. She squeezed my head in tight against her crotch and screamed my name. I quickly found her clit and started sucking on it. God it was a beautiful thing. I slipped a couple of fingers in and started fingering her pussy. It wasn't too long before she reach a beautiful climax. "I love you luce" was I wanted to say all day
We slept the night away. Its been a tough week
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