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Life really couldn't get any worse for me at the moment. The death of Phoebe has really hit Lucinda and I hard. We were probably her closest friends at school. It really has hit me hard and I am not coping with the loss of my best friend and I have started wetting the bed again and this time its worse than it was ever before. I have spoken to phoebes mum every day and she is trying to cope with the loss but she knows its hard and I am trying to see her as much as possible with lucinda. I think everyone needs to stick together and be there for one and another as we have lost a friend and someone we all loved so much. I wish I was there with her at the time it happened
Lucinda spent the weekend with me and we just wanted to be together at this time we didn't really leave my room and just watched every movie we could both enjoy, on Saturday night while sleeping I wet the bed and it really upset me. As I thought had gotten through the issues I was having with my bladder and the fact lucinda was in bed with me at the time made things 100 times worse. Lucinda was amazing when it happened. She helped me change the sheets and we fond some nappies that hadn't been thrown out and she put me in one. I was embarrassed and upset. Lucinda knew how upset I was and just hugged me till we were both asleep. it shows me how much she cares for me.
Mum and my sisters came home early on Sunday with faith and we all headed out to lunch. Faith and lucinda got on so well and I am so happy she like lucinda as I think faith is as important as she is to me. Mum and faith went wedding dress shopping on the first day there and both have found the dress they wanted. I have a feeling the wedding won't be too far off. I immediately told mum about my accident and she put me on strict rules. Nappies at all times now and no pull ups. I was a bit annoyed at having to wear them all the time, but mum knows best and she will make sure I am happy In every way. It just means I'll have to make sure I have a spare nappy in my bag at school with me. Lucinda is going to be away for a few weeks with her family on holidays, I'm going to miss her bad
After dinner and doing assignments I went to bed with a fresh nappy on hoping I don't wet it or wet my bed. It's not the greatest feeling being in a nappy again and knowing I am having issues with my bladder and maybe mental issues are the reason I am wetting the bed often now. Mum has booked me in to see a psychiatrist and I think I do need help. I am struggling with a lot of things and the death of one of my closest friends is getting me down. During the night faith joined me in my bed. She doesn't even make a noise when she gets under my covers. She knows when to come and check on me and knows when I am down in the dumps. I think she is going for the wrong degree.
I woke with a splitting headache and I knew I still had to be at school no matter what. I had a dry nappy but a wet bed. I think faith had a leak during the night and she was still asleep when I woke up. I didn't want to dob her in as it wouldn't be fare. I went and told her "mum I woke up dry". She checked my nappy and smiled. After she checked my nappy she went to my room and looked though my bin to see a wet nappy and she couldn't find one. Faith had woken up and was having a shower. She checked the bed and she found the bed to be wet "well honey if you're dry why is your bed wet" I stayed silent and didn't want to dob faith in. I got dressed for school and put my own nappy on as faith walked in "do you know why nannies bed is wet faith" she looked at me and said "Annie had a leak during the night and I changed her I didn't want to wake her and left the sheet" I knew she was lying. Mum wasn't happy. "Ok Annie I'll have to punish you later as I have to get to work" she left.
I didn't say anything to faith and I went straight to school. I would have known if I leaked during the night. How did she change me without even waking me. Maybe she isn't lying as I did feel something running down my leg during the night, oh man I did leak . I messaged mum and told her that I did leak and I will take any punishment I got. She ,messaged me back that she'll talk to me tonight and think about whether to punish me or not as she had been thinking about it. School was so quiet and somber. We had a special assembly to remember Phoebe. Her mum and dad spoke. You could tell the whole ordeal had taken its toll on them and I was in tears the whole time. Plus I needed to change my nappy. It was a sad day.
When I got home mum was waiting for me in my room. I had swimming after school and I was late home. She showed me the nappy that faith had taken off me last night and it proved that I did in fact leak. I couldn't deny it. I am worried about this "ok honey I am not going to punish you as you genuinely didn't think you had leaked or wet your nappy and the fact you didn't try to blame faith shows how mature you're. Just means I'll have to put more than 1 nappy on you tonight" she gave me a hug an left the room. I am struggling with all of this right now, my life is not going they I want it to. I went to bed without any dinner and honestly I didn't want any company. I even locked my door after mum put me in fresh dry nappies.
I woke the next morning to my alarm going off, I was dry this morning and I didn't leak. I still had both nappies on from last night and it made me a bit more happier and enthusiastic about the day ahead and having drama first up with the best teach I have ever had makes the day worth it. My bike pants just fit over the top of my double nappy and I really don't want to walk around school with just them on under my dress. I sat and had some toast and faith sat next to me and asked "I went and checked on you last night sweetie. But your door was locked" I sighed and I knew she wants to be there all the time "I just wanted to be alone and think about things faith. Sorry I won't be locking the door tonight" she hugged me and said "I hope it wasn't because you leaked and told your mum". With tears rolling down my face "god no. I just needed to be alone" I got up and went to school
When I got to school one of the year 10 girls came up and put her arm around me as we walked in. I didn't know her but she seems to really nice. "I'm here for you any time you need a hugs Annie" she hugged me and went back to her friends. Her name was Gretchen. it was so nice of her to give me a hug and tell me she would be there for a chat any time. Today was probably the worst day as all anyone and everyone was talking about Phoebe. I don't think I stopped crying the whole day and to make things worse a lot of the girls mostly year 9 girls were making fun of her suicide and honestly I know they are young and naive but the girl was one of us and she was a beautiful person. As I was walking out the gate at the end of the day Gretchen came walked with me home. She only lives 2 streets away from me
As we were walking home we started talking about how tough life has been the last couple of weeks. She told me about her sister and her battle with bone cancer last year and how close they were. she lost her life just before Christmas and she reckons her parents divorced over it. Her mum devoted her whole life to making her daughter better. Life can be really fucked up. I invited her into my home for afternoon tea. Mum, faith and my sisters weren't home and I thought I may as well get to know her a bit better. We were in my room most of the afternoon. I went and changed into my street clothes and saw her hold the bag of nappies that mum keeps in my room.
I wasn't surprised that she was holding them or that she had found them. Most girls would try and find skirt on any knew person in their lives. "So Annie do you need a change" as she was saying that she took a nappy out of the bag. She stood up and removed her uniform. And then her bike pants. "Because I do and I forgot to bring a spare today" she laid on her back and removed her wet nappy she had a really nice looking pussy and a cute little bush. "Just to let you know. I have a crush on you" that made things a lot worse. I cleaned her pubic area and pussy and powdered her up. I placed the nappy under her bum and she was already pissing before I put it on her. I put the nappy on her quick smart. She sat up and kissed me on the lips. I returned the favour. I didn't even want to stop kissing her. "Mm that was good" was all I could say. Gretchen pulled my shorts down and felt my nappy. She smiled. "You need a change"
Gretchen removed my nappy and then cleaned my pussy. As she was about to put a clean nappy on me I stopped her and said "lick me" she smiled and threw the nappy aside and started fingering my snatch. God it felt good to have fingers other than mine there. She really took it slowly and I enjoyed it. "Your pussy is so warm Annie" I bit my lip and moaned a little. She lowered her head and kissed my bush and purred. God what a hot sound. She then started licking. Just on big lick after the other. It was like it was in slow motion. She was rubbing the tip of my pussy so hard with her thumb it made me so wet. She started sucking on my snatch and it really did the job. I wrapped my legs around her head and forced her against my pussy. She enjoyed that and she started sucking harder and harder. My clix finally came and I was fucked.
She put me in a clean nappy and she got dressed and left. Before she left she said "lucinda is a lucky girl. If you need me I'll alway be there for you". She left just before mum and faith got home. I am a tiny bit happier now