I've always been a naturally submissive person, being an Asian male with small stature, at 5'6 with a small penis (4") and thin build. As such it's always been a huge insecurity for me that I wasn't masculine enough and it's probably no surprise that humiliation, emasculation, degradation and domination/submission have always been my biggest turn ons.
There is one fantasy however that I particularly like, that I first started thinking about in university. I was in my 2nd year and had a 1st year roommate, who was arrogant, and rude to me and quite possibly a little racist. He loved to make little racist jokes when around his friends that he often brought over, while I was in my room and perhaps he thought I was out of earshot. Most races, but in particular he liked to joke about `chinks' and their small penises. Me being me, I let him get away with much more than a regular guy would have. He was also much bigger than me. Taller than me (at least 6') with broad shoulders and definitely stronger than me.
By then my fantasies had evolved from girls and lesbians to those of servicing big cocked men. I loved reading nifty and literotica, browsing the sissy, humiliation and submissive tags and scrolling through the authoritarian section. I was regularly masturbating my tiny cock to thoughts of being on my knees, worshipping a big, strong mans cock while he looked down on me (in more ways than one). Thoughts of being exposed for being a small cocked sissy in front of real men, in front of women, in front of people I know, friends and family even. Thoughts of giving up my masculinity by dressing up like a slut and posing for men, giving them lap dances, presenting my tight boy-pussy and begging to be fucked.
The type of guys I fantasised about in these scenarios were always `real men'. Bigger than me, stronger than me and most importantly, with a much bigger cock. I always fantasised that they were amused by such a pathetic sissy like me, loved to just use me for their pleasure while knowing that they were entirely superior to me, so perhaps it was no surprise that my roommate often took the place of these men in these scenarios. The fact that he was a year younger than me, and still more of a man than I'd ever be was incredibly humiliating and arousing. The fact that he was possibly racist toward me, that he assumed I was meek, submissive, underendowed and pathetic simply by my race was even more arousing. Thus began my fantasies of racial humiliation, or raceplay. It added an entirely new element to domination/submission and inferiority/superiority that was so incredibly arousing for me.
It became a regular thing for me to fantasise about my roommate whenever I masturbated. It always began with me exposing my true nature to him. Showing him that all those things he thought about me (meek, submissive, underendowed and pathetic) were true. I'd love to be caught by him (intentionally on my part, of course) wearing nothing but my mesh thong. He'd be able to see how girly I was, how I shaved every bit of my body and how incredibly tiny my cock was in those slutty panties. I'm sure he'd laugh and call me names. I'd tell him that it was true and that he was right, that I was a loser and that I was a small dicked chink'. That I had accepted my place as an inferior chink' slut and fantasised about his superior big white cock regularly. He'd likely call me faggot and just expose me, but perhaps he'd laugh and let me drop to my knees in front of him and worship his big cock. I fantasised about looking him in the eye when I swallowed his cum and truly became his bitch. I fantasised about him exposing me infront of his friends, forced to show off my tiny cock in panties, forced to service them as well perhaps. Giving lap dances and blowjobs out like candy. I fantasised about being forced to suck his cock in front of the hot girls he brought back, for their amusement. I fantasised about wearing his dried cum on my face as I went about my day. About holding his cum in my mouth until he finally allowed me to swallow. About being used in front of people I know, friends and family.
Of course I never went through with this fantasy, but it still is one of my favourites.
If you'd like to be the dominant white guy in this scenario, please message me. I welcome all dominant men. I know my place is to serve them. Alternatvely if you're a submissive Asian sissy like me who shares similar fantasies, please message me. Or perhaps you have more fantasies for me, more humiliating things you would have liked me to do for this superior white male, please message me.
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