Banging B-Rok By CalGuy19
I've been a Backstreet Boys fan for 2 years now, ever since I heard "We've got it goin on" from their first album I got hooked. It didn't hurt when I saw the video for the first time, and discovered that they were pretty cute too. But only one guy caught my eye and made my jaw drop. Brian Littrell.
Let me say a few things about me first, my name is Darren and I am 18 years old, about 5'10, Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes, 160 pounds with a 8 and a half inch uncut dick. I constantly have girls hitting on me at school, there is just one problem. I'm gay.
I've known I was different for as long as I could remember, even as a kid I would play games with other boys in which we showed our tiny pre-pubescent cocks to each other. I had sex for the first time when I was 15 with a friend from school, and we ended up dating for a few months but sadly it didn't work out. I've had a few relationships throughout high school, but nothing lasting more then a few months. But hey, I'm 18, as much as I would like to fall madly in love for the rest of my life, realistically I know that at this age that is unlikely. So I just go with the flow and see what happens.
So for the last two years I've been drooling over "B-Rok." I even saw them on their small Canadian Tour last year, and none of the girls there screamed louder then I did!!! While my female friends (and some of the guys) drooled over Nick, I had a passion for Bryan, decorating my room with posters of only him, and pausing that one shot in "Quit Playing Games with my Heart" where he jumps up and his shirt flies up. When Kevin, Howie and AJ are all dancing around half-naked, I'm trying to resist kicking the screen out of frustration that I can't see the body of the Backstreet Boy I really want, Brian.
When our local radio station announced that the Backstreet Boys were doing a major arena tour coming to my city, I pulled some strings and got second row seats. But then the paper and radio station announced a contest the grand prize was 2 backstage passes to meet the boys. Although I knew I was hoping against hope, I filled out the entry form and sent it in, keeping my fingers crossed.
Finally the day came 2 weeks before the concert when they made the draw live on the radio for the backstage passes. I sat by the radio sweating with anticipation.. They announced that they had received over one thousand entries. My heart sank. I figured maybe a few hundred and even then my chances would be slim. But a thousand?? `Yeah right buddy. In your dreams.' I thought to myself. Still part of me clung to the hope that I would get to meet my dream man.
"Drumroll please!!!" Said Carter Pepper, the local DJ making the draw.
"This is so exciting. Someone is going to be very happy." Said his co-host Christina Rhodes.
"Ok, I have the winners name in my hand. It's right here in front of me. We have a winner." Carter announced
"Well, who is it??" Said Christina
"Hold on, hold on. Let me draw this out. Ladies and Gentlemen, one person in this entire city is going with a friend to meet Brian, Howie, AJ, Kevin and Nick backstage at the concert. One person will get autographs and get to spend time with the band. One person is going to be hated by the 15,000+ people at the concert."
"DAMMIT JUST SAY THE NAME!!!!" I yelled at the radio!!
"The winner of those backstage passes is none other then the one, the only, DARREN CLARK!!!!"
My Jaw dropped and my heart leaped into my throat. Did they just say what I think they said???
"Darren Clark?" Christina said
"Yes, the name of the winner is Darren Clark, let's give him a call and see if he's home."
At first I thought there had to be another Darren Clark in the city who had won. No way was I the winner. I had hoped and prayed, but realistically had tried to avoid setting myself up for heartbreak. Now they just said my name, and I didn't want to be upset when they called someone else then the phone rang.
"Um, hello?"
"Hello is Darren there?"
"This is him."
"Hi Darren this is Carter Pepper and Christina Rhodes from "Todays Top 40" Pop107 calling."
"Um, hi."
"Darren are you sitting down?"
"I am now I fell down when I was listening to the radio."
"Well then I guess I don't need to tell you that you and a friend are meeting the Backstreet Boys at their concert!!!"
At that point I screamed. I know, it sounds foolish at 18 years old, but I screamed. I screamed loud. I think Carter might have gone deaf, but I didn't care. I was going to meet Brian.
"Ok buddy, Calm down."
"AAAAHHHHHHH"
"Well someone is a little excited" said Christina.
"I'd say so" said Carter. "Darren, stay on the line, we are going to get your info from you and tell you how to get your passes. Congratulations Buddy!"
"Thankyou, Thankyou Thankyou" was all I could say before they put me on hold. At that point a voice came on the line.
"Darren, you still there bud?"
"I am."
"Ok, you need to come by the studio by tomorrow at 5pm to claim your passes. You have to sign a waiver and bring ID. This pass is non-transferable. You have to be one of the two people to go in back and ID will be required. You got that?"
"I do."
"Great. Come to the desk at the station and we'll get you set."
He then gave me the stations address and we hung up. Immediately my phone rang. I answered to hysterical screaming. It was my friend Sandra, who was going to the concert with me. After I assured her that yes, she would be the one I was taking we hung up and I finally got to collect my thoughts. I was going to meet Brian. I was going to shake his hand. Although I suspected he was gay, I figured it was wishful thinking. I was going to be content just to meet him, then go home and jerk myself into oblivion.
So I got my passes, and all the girls at school who were going to the show literally begged me to take them. But I was determined that I was going to take only Sandra. This got a lot of hateful glares but I didn't care. I was in my own little world for 2 weeks.
Now, the passes entitled Sandra and I to go backstage before the show, meet the guys, get autographs, etc. Wether or not we got to go in back afterwards depended on how the guys felt after the show.
Now, by this age I am very much "out". I even have a "Nobody knows I'm gay" T-shirt. On a off chance that my suspicions were right, I wore it under a zip-up Short-sleeved vest. I wore a nice pair of tight black jeans that were also comfortable. I picked up Sandra in my car. She was wearing a Backstreet Boys T-shirt she bought at the first concert we went too, and a pair of blue-jeans. All she talked about on the way to the concert was Nick Carter. Nick this, Nick is so cute, Nick is such a great dancer If I didn't feel the same way about Brian I probably would have been willing to kill her to shut her up J Finally we got to the arena.
We walked up to the gates and showed our passes. The gaurd then asked me for ID. I showed him my drivers license. He checked a list, then waved us through.
We met up at the door with a guide, who asked our names and then took us to a waiting room. He told us that The boys were currently wrapping up a media session and would then go to the adjoining room where we could meet them. We could only get autographs and say hi, as they had to warm up for the show. However if the boys felt up to it after the show, we could come in back for more detailed, intimate time with them. I shuddered at the thought. To actually spend time with Brian
Finally we were ushered into the next room, and there they were. The 5 boys looked great, sitting in a row at a table, Kevin, AJ, Howie, Nick, and at the end, Brian. I had to resist the urge to run right to Brian and instead went up to Kevin, who offered me his hand. We chatted briefly, the typical "Pleased to meet you" stuff. He then signed my poster and we moved down the group, shaking each guys hand, and getting the autograph. When Sandra finally met Nick she raved about how much she loved him, so he signed her poster "All my love, Nick" and kissed her on the cheek. She nearly fainted. Finally I was about to go over to Brian. It was then that I did something unbelievably gutsy. I un-zipped my vest just enough that the words "ows I'm ga" showed. I figured if he read it he would get the picture. I turned and looked at him in all his glory. The pictures, seeing him in concert didn't do him justice. He was so unbelievably gorgeous and I was face to face with him.
"Hi there." He said, his accent driving me wild and starting a stirring in my groin. He offered me his hand. I shook it, speechless. He looked me up and down, I think. Did he?? Oh god, I must be imagining things. Then he paused when he saw what showed of my T-shirt. He grinned and signed the Poster. He looked at me, his beautiful blue eyes sparkling.
"How about a sign your ticket too?"
I stared at him dumbstruck then handed over my ticket. He scrawled something on it and handed it back to me. I didn't even get to look at it to see what it said before the guide was ushering Sandra and I out the door. "Enjoy the show" Brian called out as the door closed.
The guide took us to our front row seats (They came with the passes so we had sold our tickets to friends). Sandra was bubbling about Nick, but I was looking at the ticket. On it, scrawled in black ink:
"Your really cute. Call me tonight. Hotel Palisade. 555-1900. Room 201. I'll be waiting. Brian."
My heart had stopped beating. The screaming crowd around me faded into nothing. I just stood there in awe as the opening act took the stage. Sandra was to enthralled with the show to see I was lost in my won little world. He had actually written this on my ticket. Brian wanted me to call him. Brian thought I was cute. They guy I had fantasized about for 2 years, who had been the reason for many a wet dream and even more hot jerk-off sessions, thought I was cute. I fell down in my chair. It was at that point that Sandra realized something was up. She bent over and yelled something. I just sat there looking at the ticket. She bent down, grabbed the ticket, and read it. Her eyes widened, then she screamed. That broke my trance. She looked at me stunned then hugged me and whispered in my ear "You BETTER fucking call him!" I was to stunned to speak, so I just nodded.
After the opening act and a brief intermission, the lights dimmed. I finally broke out of my trance as "Get down" started and the boys took the stage as the fans erupted. Brian noticed me right away and smiled. I stood and danced and sang along as they grooved along the stage. Nick stood at the far end of the stage to sing his part, while Brian walked right up in front of Sandra and I.
"I feel in heaven when I look in your eyes, I know that you are the one for me." Brian sang, pointing at Sandra and I, but looking at me. "You drive me crazy cause your one of a kind, I want your lovin and I want it right now!!!"
Sandra of course realized this and screamed as she hugged me. She knew I had a crush on Brian and was almost as happy as I was that my fantasy was possibly going to come true.
Finally 2 hours later the concert ended and the Backstreet Boys took their final bow. Brian had spent a lot of time near us, and kept making eye contact with me. The lights came up to a loud chorus of boos. Sandra and I walked to where the guide was waiting for us.
"Brian and Nick say they are willing to talk to you. AJ and Howie and Kevin send their regards but say they are tired and want to get to the hotel."
"No problem" I said. That meant that those 3 couldn't interrupt private time with Brian.
Sandra and I went into the same room, where Nick and Brian were waiting. Sandra went up and hugged Nick, who hugged her back. Brian shook my hand, but seemed to linger holding it.
"Great Show."
"Thanks Darren. I'm glad you enjoyed it."
`Oh my god, he knows my name.' I thought.
"It's ok Pete, were fine alone." Brian told the guide, who nodded and walked out the door.
Nick and Sandra went and started talking in the corner, Sandra actually calm. Brian meanwhile opened another door and ushered me through.
"If you enjoyed that show, I'll give you a better one if you call me tonight."
"uhhhhh." Was my only response. Then he leaned forward, grabbed my head, and kissed me square on the lips. It was quick, but it was electric. I stood there stunned as he went into the other room where Nick was getting Sandra's e-mail address.
"It was a pleasure meeting you guys, but the car is going, so Nick and I have to take off." Brian said.
"Ok" I managed to gasp out.
"I'll e-mail you Sandra" Nick said as they walked out the door. Immediately Sandra turned to me.
"What happened!?!?!?!"
"He kissed me."
Another scream by Sandra. She seems to get excited about this.
"Your going to call him, right?!?!?!"
"Yes."
"Good, then take me home so you can get on with the important part of your evening."
So I dropped Sandra off and went home. I picked up the phone and stood there holding it for a few seconds, actually trying to get up the nerve to dial the number I had already memorized. Finally the phone started that annoying off-the-hook noise and broke my trance. I hung up and dialed.
"Good Evening, Hotel Pallisade, how may I direct your call?"
"Room 201 please."
"The name of who you are calling?"
"Brian."
There was a pause and I thought maybe she was going to tell me that she wouldn't send me through
"Hold while I connect you."
Even tho it was two rings before a answer, it felt like a year. I recognized Brian's voice right away.
"Hello?"
"Hi, um Brian."
"Darren?"
"Yeah."
"Great. I was worried maybe you weren't going to call."
"Are you kidding. I've thought about this moment for years, never thinking it would actually--" I stopped talking. I was choked up.
"It's ok. I'm sure you didn't think anything like this would ever happen to you but when I saw you I was stunned. It was instant attraction. Then when I saw the part of your T-shirt, I knew you were gay and just went with my gut. I haven't done anything like this before, because it's a risk to my career and my agent says I have to keep up this straight image for the girls but for some reason I think I can trust you."
"You can." I managed to say.
"That's what I thought. Look, can I come by and pick you up? I really want to talk to you some more in person."
"Yes. Of course.." I gave him my address and hung up, then fell on my bed. Brian was coming to pick me up. It seemed like hours before finally there was a knock on my front door. My parents were asleep so I snuck to the front door, opened it, walked out and was greeted with a warm hug by Brian. He took my hand without saying a word and walked me to a waiting limo.
Brian held open the door for me, then followed me in. The moment the door closed the driver started driving to a obviously pre-determined destination. Brian put his arm around me and I rested my head on his shoulder.
"I am so lucky to have met you tonight. It's fate you won that contest. Usually the passes go to two 13 year old girls who end up crying. Sandra's nice, Nick talked about her a lot on the way back to the hotel. All I could think about was you."
"I don't know what to say Brian. I've had a crush on you for so long, now to actually be here in a limo. I'm afraid I'm going to wake up any second."
"Don't worry, you're not dreaming."
"I hope not."
So we talked for a few hours, just driving around. He had known he was gay for four years, but had remained closeted, and he was thankful for that now that he was famous. "Otherwise it would have come out in the tabloids." He had secretly dated a few guys, including one for 2 years. But the relationship went bad when the guy couldn't handle Brian's fame and touring schedule so he left Brian for another man.
"It was a very difficult period in my life. I fell for him, and it hurt me that he left. But I'm ok now. I am really, really ok now." He said, smiling at me. He then leaned forward and kissed me. Not a quick one this time but a slow, passionate kiss. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and swirled it around with mine. After what seemed like a eternity he reluctantly broke the kiss.
"You're a good kisser." He said. I could only mumble in response. Then the Limo stopped.
"Well, I guess times up."
"What do you mean?"
"I told the driver to go around in circles for a few hours, then come back to your place."
My heart broke. Here I was with the man of my dreams and he was dropping me off just as things were getting good.
"Unless of course, you'd like to stay at the hotel with me."
"You didn't really have to ask that. I think you know the answer."
"I did, but I didn't want to offend you by taking you right to the hotel."
"You couldn't offend me" I said, leaning forward and kissing him again. He broke off the kiss and picked up the phone.
"Take us to the hotel please."
With that the car started and we were off to a night that my wildest fantasies couldn't compare to
We just sat in the car holding each other the whole way to the hotel. The car stopped and the driver opened the door. We got up and quickly went into the deserted hotel lobby. We moved quickly as the receptionist was not at the desk and got in the elevator.
"Think they have a camera in these things??" he asked.
"I doubt it."
"Good." Brian said, pushing me against the wall and kissing me. By now my dick was so hard it hurt and I could feel his dick pressed against mine and it felt big!! We parted just as the elevator signaled the floor and walked into a hallway that was blocked off at both ends.
"This floor is strictly for us" said Brian. "We all have our own rooms."
With that he swiped his hotel card key and we entered a huge room with a King-Sized bed, fireplace with a fire already lit, a wet bar and a great view of the city. I walked over to the window and looked out at the sea of lights.
"That is beautiful" I said.
"So are you," Brian said, coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around me. He slowly began kissing my neck, and I could feel his erection pressing against my butt. He reached forward and unzipped my vest, sliding it off my shoulders. I turned around and met his lips with mine. I closed my eyes and was swept away in the passion that I felt at that moment. Brian pulled away and took my hand. He took me over to the bed and sat on it. He helped me pull off my shirt and looked at my upper-torso. He grinned at me, making me melt, then proceeded to gently tongue and nibble my hard nipple. I moaned with pleasure as he moved on to my other nipple. After giving them each quite a few minutes of attention he began to kiss his way down my chest and stomach. He reached my belt and undid it, sliding my pants down to my ankles. He looked at the large tent in my boxers, the front so soaked with pre-cum it looked like I had already shot my load. He then pulled down my boxers and my cock sprang free.
"Wow. It's beautiful" he said and I blushed. He bent forward and slowly licked pre-cum off of the exposed tip. A shiver ran up my spine. He ran his tongue underneath my foreskin and cleaned up the precum from all around the head He then looked up at me, his eyes sparkling and driving me wild. He began to slowly slide his head down my long cock, taking every inch of it. He was obviously a expert cock-sucker, as next thing I knew his nose was buried in my pubes. He paused there, allowing himself to adjust his jaw to the length and girth of my dick.. I was still waiting to wake up, because part of me kept yelling in my mind "your not being given a blowjob by Brian. This is all a dream." But it wasn't. It was Brian's warm mouth sliding up and down my cock. He began to play with my balls, which were tightening as I felt a familiar tingling in them. This was so hot I knew I wasn't going to last much longer before I shot. He began to suck faster as my balls got closer and closer to my spit-slicked cock.. Finally I could hold back no longer.
"Brian, I'm cumming." I cried out. Brian only grunted and slid back so that the first shot landed right on his tongue. I shot like I never had before. I didn't know I had so much cum in my balls. Brian tried to take it all but couldn't, finally withdrawing and jerking the last few shots onto his face.
Brian gently turned me around and sat me on the bed, then took of his shirt. Finally I could see the body that had been hiding in all those videos. I don't know why he hid it and I never did ask him, because it was all muscle. Nice, smooth chest and a six-pack. He used his shirt to wipe the cum off his face and smiled at me.
"You taste great."
"Yeah well, let's see how you taste" I said, grabbing his belt and undoing it. He just looked down at me while a Pulled down his pants and boxers in one move. Before me was the most amazing cock I had ever seen. It was cut, with a big, purple mushroom head on it. I couldn't get my hand around it it was so thick, and had to be at least as big as mine.
"You like it?" he asked, worriedly.
I responded by sliding the head into my mouth. Now, I know how to suck cock, and have done it before, but I have never had anything this thick in my mouth before, so there was no way I was going to get it all the way down as much as I wished I could. So I worked over the head with my tongue as he moaned in approval. Surprisingly my cock was springing back to hits full height again. I sucked Brian for a few minutes before he pulled my head off his dick and leaned over and kissed me.
"Let's see if your dick is as good in my ass as it was in my mouth" he said. That stunned me. I figured that we would suck each other and jerk off, but I didn't think of anal. Even if I had I had assumed Brian was a top. But he wanted me to fuck him!!! I could only nod, so Brian reached into the nightstand and brought out a bottle of lubricant and a condom.
"Go as hard or fast as you need, I can handle you" he whispered as he applied some lubricant into the condom and then rolled it down my hard dick. He then squirted more lube on the condom and stroked me to get it properly lubed up. Then he laid on his back on the bed and spread his legs.
"I want to kiss you while you do this, and I want to cum between us" he said.
I bent over and kissed him, then hiked his legs up on my shoulders. I pressed the head of my dick against his asshole and pushed. He groaned as the head broke through the ring. I stopped, worried.
"No, keep going. It's been a while but it feels good" he said. So I began to slowly slide my cock in and before I knew it my balls were resting against his smooth ass. I leaned over and began to kiss him as I slowly slid my dick in and out of his ass. He groaned with pleasure as I nibbled on his neck. I found my rhythm and began to fuck him faster, causing him to cry out orgasmically. Next thing I knew something wet and sticky landed on my chest. Another splatter hit me in the stomach and I realized he was cumming! This caused his sphincter to tighten, making me lose it. My cock swelled up and then began to fill the tip of the condom with another big load of cum. We gasped as our orgasms subsided and my softening cock slipped out of his stretched hole. He kissed me again, then grabbed some tissue and began to slowly clean the cum off of my body, then his. I stopped him, and licked up the last few drops.
"Yummy" I said. He kissed me again, and tasted some of his cum that was still on my tongue.
"Yeah, but not as tasty as yours" he said. He gently unrolled the condom from my cock, tied it up, and tossed it into the garbage. He kissed me again and I laid my head on his muscular chest. He played with my hair for a bit, and next thing I knew I was asleep in Brian's arms.
Banging B-Rok (Part 2)
*Note: Thanks to all those who in the last few days have began to fill my hotmail account with letters. It sure is a boost to the ego to have someone enjoy your writing. Keep on e-mailing, I will respond, flames will be ignored. Story contains m/m sex, blah blah blah, is a fantasy (sigh, if only) don't read if your not into this stuff.
J.
I woke up the next morning to Brian's soft breathing. I listened to his heart beat, thankful that his heart was ok, after his operation. I also noticed that even in his sleep Brian was making a tent under the covers. Deciding Brian needed a nice wake-up call, I peeled back the sheets and looked down on his perfect cock. I slid my head down and gently licked the shaft. Brian didn't stir. Determined to wake my beautiful Backstreet Boy, I wrapped my lips around the head of his dick and began working my tongue on it. Brian stirred, a soft moan escaping his lips. I began to slowly slide my head down the shaft until I felt the head hit the back of my throat. Steeling myself for the intrusion of his big cock, I began to push his cock farther into my throat, trying hard not to gag. Brian moaned even louder, and began to stroke my hair, signifying he was awake. Finally I was able to rest my nose in on his balls. I was having difficulty breathing however, so I pulled back and began to jerk his cock into my mouth while I worked over the head with my tongue. Brian began to breath faster and it didn't take long before he let out a groan and his seed blasted into my mouth and down my throat. I was able to swallow it all. I pulled off, looked up and smiled at Brian.
"Well, that way nice way to wake up." Brian said, his eyes sparkling.
"Well, I wanted to give you a morning to remember as much as I will remember last night."
"Well, why don't I give you a morning to remember too then??" he asked, grabbing my hand and leading me into the bathroom. I let out a gasp at the sight of the heart-shaped hot-tub.
"I usually use this to soak in after a concert -- all the hotels we stay in have them. But now I'll use it for something better." Brian kissed me, then sat me in the edge of the hot tub and began to nibble and lick the shaft of my cock. He licked my balls, working them over for nearly a minute as I writhed around on the edge of the hot tub. He moved up and licked all the way up and down my shaft and ran his tongue around the head. I was in ecstacy but there was something I needed. Something I wanted.
"Brian, fuck me," I said.
Brian stopped working over my cock to look up at me with concern.
"You sure?? It's pretty big, I don't want to hurt you."
My heart (and dick) swelled knowing he cared enough about me to be worried, but even though I knew it was going to be difficult at first, I needed Brian up my ass in order to feel truly complete and finish my fantasy.
"Yes, Brian. Go slow, let me get adjusted, but I can take it."
"Ok." Brian said. He ran out of the room and came back with lube and condoms, his once-again hard cock bouncing around and slapping against his stomach. I sat on the edge of the hot-tub and jerked him off, getting him completely hard while he tore open the condom packet. He helped him stretch the latex down over his cock and smeared the condom with a healthy amount of lube. I then climbed into the tub, stuck my ass in the air and braced myself against the edge of the tub. Brian stepped into the tub behind me and pressed his cock-head against my love canal.
"Ok, Brian, push it in," I said.
I heard Brian grunt and felt a moment of intense pain as he pushed the head of his thick cock into my ass. I must have yelped without realizing it because he stopped short.
"You sure your ok???" he asked, the concern in his voice very evident.
"Yeah, just keep going slow." I replied.
I tried to relax as more and more of this thick cock slid unto my guts. I felt him hit my prostate and the pain began to be replaced by a intense feeling of pleasure. Finally I felt his balls rest against my ass. Brian paused, breathing heavy and allowing me to get adjusted to the feeling of his massive intruder. He kissed the back of my neck gently.
"Ok, I'm ready." I said
Brian withdrew his cock until just the head was in me, then slammed it back home. He repeated this until he got a strong rhythm going. I was in absolute heaven. Any pain that there was in the beginning giving away to pure physical pleasure. I felt Brian reach under me and grasp my cock, jerking it to match the pace off his dick ramming me. I nearly blacked out from the pleasure as I felt a really intense orgasm build in my balls. Brian was breathing a lot faster and I knew he didn't have long until he would shoot. Finally I could hold back no more and let out a cry as my cock began shooting long strings of cum into the water below me. Brian pulled out his cock and a I sat down in the tub. He ripped off the condom and together we jerked him until he shot all over my face and chest. He collapsed into the water across from me and I turned around and sat between his legs. My head resting on his chest. He kissed the back of my neck.
"Come to the next show with me," Brian said, finally catching his breath.
"What???" I said.
"We have a show tonight in a city 3 hours away. We are leaving at 1, I want you to ride in the bus with me."
"But I have to work tonight and--" I said stupidly, actually close to turning down his offer.
"Call in sick. I want to be with you Darren, I want you to be in the front row when I perform, you give me a extra push and I want to get closer to you."
I didn't even really need to think about it. Here was the man of my dreams asking me to tour with him, to go to the next show, to be his guest, I wasn't going to turn him down!
"Ok, Brian. I'll come with you." I said.
"Thank you" Brian said, turning my head and kissing me..a kiss that was sadly cut short by a knock on the door.
"Shit" Brian muttered, getting out of the hot-tub and wrapping a towel around his waist. Brian left the bathroom and answered the door.
"Yo, Brian, you're late for Breakfast man." I heard Kevin's voice at the door.
"Sorry man, I've been kind of tied up" Brian replied.
"Tied up???" Kevin asked. "As in what???"
"Don't worry about it," Brian said.
"Wait, you didn't again."
"I'll be down in a few Kevin, just let me get dressed." Brian said, a second later I heard the door close. I sat in the hot tub trying to figure out exactly what Kevin was talking about when Brian came in and kissed me.
"Get dressed, let's go get some breakfast." he said.
"Ok." I said, not realizing at first that it would be with all the guys. We got dressed and went across the hall to a room that had been changed into a dining-area. A large buffet-style setup was on one table, and the other 4 guys were sitting at another table eating. They all paused as Brian and I walked into the room.
"Hey guys, y'all remember Darren from the show last night." Brian said nervously.
"Yeah, we do," was the only thing said, by Kevin, giving me a look I really didn't like.
"He's coming on the bus and goin to the next show with me," Brian said.
"I see," was all Kevin had to say, the other 3 remaining quiet and just watching. Suddenly I felt very uncomfortable.
"I think you and I should go have a few words Brian," Kevin said, standing up. "Let's go into my room."
This was not going well, there was definatly something up.
"Maybe I should go--" I started.
"No, It's ok, come and eat" Nick said, speaking for the first time. Brian just nodded in agreement.
"Help yourself Darren, I'll be right back." With that he and Kevin left the room. I went over to the fruit tray and took a bunch of slices of melon and other assorted stuff and sat down next to Nick. Howie, AJ and Nick all sort of looked at me strangely for a second.
"Is something wrong??" I asked.
Banging B-Rok (Part 3)
Nick, Howie and AJ glanced nervously at each other.
"He's gotta know guys, he seems like a nice kid." AJ said.
I got a knot in my stomach what did I "gotta know??" What was up??? I gulped in some air and spoke.
"If something is up, I think I should know." I said.
"It's like this," AJ said. "Brian, he's one of my brothers and I love him, but you're not exactly the first guy he's picked up."
My heart plummeted into my stomach.
"Brian has a tendency to pick up a different guy every night." AJ said, looking upset that he had to break the news.
"He told me -- he told--" I stopped. The lump in my throat wouldn't let me speak.
"He told you he's had to protect his image and he's only had 2 relationships and didn't pick guys up." AJ said. I looked at him stunned.
"He uses that line a lot, and it's true. He's had 2 relationships with guys, and our management doesn't particularly like him fucking around like this, especially with guys, but they can't control him. He does what he wants."
I felt my eyes start to fill with tears, which I blinked back.
"This is the first time he's wanted to bring a trick to the next show you must have been good" Howie said, before immediately realizing that it was the wrong thing to say. I stood up and walked away from the table.
"Darren, wait" Howie said, but I ignored him. I walked out the door towards Brian's room. I walked past what was probably Kevin's room and heard rather loud speaking, but I didn't care. My heart was in pieces, and I just wanted to get the hell out of the hotel. Brian had used me, and I was so blind that I couldn't see it. I heard a door open behind me
"Hey Darren, what are you doin out here???" I heard Brian say. I just ignored him and walked into this hotel room. Brian followed and put his hand on my shoulder. I jerked out from under it. I felt Brian stop.
"What's wrong?" he asked worriedly. I ignored him and began gathering up my stuff.
"Dammit, Darren, talk to me!!!!" Brian said, stepping in front of me and seeing the tears I had been trying so hard not to let go begin to flow down my face like a river. "Why are you crying??? What happened?" Brian asked.
"Fuck you" I said, the fury strong in my voice. Brian looked like he had been slapped. He tried to grab me, but I shoved him off.
"You keep your fucking hands off me!!!" I yelled, no longer able to contain my hurt and embarassment.
"What?? What did I do, Darren???" Brian pleaded, his own eyes starting to well up with tears.
"You lied to me. You fucking lied to me about everything so you could get me in bed!" I accused. Brian sat there stunned, and I turned away from him.
"I don't understand, Darren, why are you saying this???" Something in his voice made me stop and for a moment my heart twitched. But then the last few minutes flooded back to me and any feeling I had quickly dissipated.
"You told me you didn't pick up guys. You told me you were totally closeted. You lied to me."
"Why would you think that???"
"AJ told me everything Brian. A different guy every night??? And I was just another fuck I guess I must have been good if you wanted me to come with you. Or were you going to leave me there when you found some other cute guy to screw?!?!?!"
Brian's face registered a thousand different emotions at once. confusion understanding, and then anger.
"Fuck." He said quietly.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Have you been busted?? You're not going to get to fuck me again because I was told the truth?!?!?!" I turned away and once again tried to leave.
"Darren, don't go. I love you." I barely heard it, but I did. I tried to pretend I didn't, but I couldn't force myself to keep walking. I wanted too, but I couldn't. I felt Brian come up behind me.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Brian said.
"Sorry for what? Because you hurt me? You used me? Or because your losing a fuck. Because I wouldn't worry Brian, you're famous, you could get any guy you wanted."
"I don't want any other guys, I want you." He said behind me, still not touching me.
"I wish I could believe you Brian."
"I'm sorry. Originally I picked you up for sex. But I felt something different about you Darren. I wouldn't have driven around for hours in the limo unless I wanted to know you."
"I'm sure you say that to everyone."
"No, I don't. Anyone else I ever fucked, I just picked up, I didn't even bother to know there name. They were made clear from the beginning that it would be a one time thing, and that they were not to go public or there would be problems. I didn't do that with you because I knew you were special."
"I wish I could believe you."
"You do believe me. You know it your just to upset to admit it." With that he came behind me and put his arms around my waist from behind. This time I didn't struggle.
"I love you Darren, I know it's quick, but I have to go with my heart, and it tells me your special, your someone I want to be with for a long time. I wouldn't have asked you to come to the next show if I didn't care for you. I haven't been the most innocent person on the planet and I love the guys, but they reacted without thinking or speaking. Kevin is ticked off because he thinks your going to out me if I go anywhere with you. But I don't care what they think right now. All I care about is you."
I couldn't take it anymore. He'd convinced me. Maybe I was making a mistake but I didn't care, because I too had to go with my heart, and my heart told me that Brian was being truthful, and that I felt the same for him as he did for me. I turned around and deflated, my head landing on his shoulder as I let my tears out. He led me over to the bed and just held me for 5 minutes while I cried. And he cried too, I could feel his warm tears on my neck. Finally I was all sobbed out and just held him. Finally I pulled away. I leaned forward and kissed him. He responded in kind. There was nothing sexual about the kiss, it was simply a kiss to show that I loved him.
"I'm going to talk to the guys" Brian said, standing. "They had no right to do that to you, they should have talked to me first, and we need to clear the air."
I only nodded and laid back on the bed while Brian left. Next thing I knew I was asleep on the bed.