Chapter 27: The Night Before
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Note: So sorry about the long wait, I know I must be evil to make you guys wait so long for a new chapter, but just been real busy lately. I'm working on a big book, and it is taking up a lot of my time, work too...and a bad breakup that well just left me not wanting to write lately, but here it is. It might feel like the last one a bit, but I'm trying to create a chapter with substance. I think what makes me so different, is that my story is more than just sex, it is a story of love, desire, jealousy, fear, and realism. It is helping me work on my greater work, which is my dream. Well without further delay, enjoy guys! Wanted to remind you guys that you can also donate to Nifty, that what really helps to keep all of this free.
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It was the early morning hours when Logan found himself in the darkness. Carlos was gently snoring on the other side of the bed. Again he awoke to the same horrible nightmares that had been plaguing him. Even when he had talked about them, even when he got the weight off of his shoulders, the nightmare still haunted him relentlessly. He tried to run from it, but like a horror movie murderer it followed him, but lately the nightmare had become more vivid and disturbing.
It was like he was in a dark tunnel, running towards the light, but with each step the path grew longer. The walls narrowed down with each breath, and he screamed to no avail. Logan was alone and running towards a fading paradise. The. He stopped and started falling, that was when he had awaken. Logan was shaking, sweat building above his brow, and his eyes were watering from the horrible feeling. His heart was wildly beating way.
He sat up in the bed, and from the pale light from the moonlight, he could barely make out Carlos' body peacefully resting. Logan slowly got up and walked over to the sliding glass doors leading out to the balcony. The wind was blowing hard, yet it was mild enough that Logan realized he was only wearing boxer briefs. He put his arms over the rails and looked down towards the road. The light were bright, yet calming since traffic was almost non existent. He took a deep breath as he closed his eyes.
Logan could feel tears welling up again as he looked out into the heart of New York. As the tears rolled down his cheeks, Logan felt Carlos come from behind him, wrapping his arms around his waist. Carlos gently kissed the back of Logan's neck. He ran his nose a lower lower and took a breath.
Logan lowered his head feeling Carlos' warmth and comfort. As he lifted his head, he turned around. Carlos was crying as well, both of them with red eyes. Carlos put his hand around Logan's face. He wiped the tears away with his thumbs and then pulled Logan close. The two stood there holding each other, and time itself soon seemed to melt away.
"I heard you crying. I felt you walk over," Carlos said. "I hate to see you like this."
Logan dug his face deep into Carlos' chest holding him as tight as he could. Again they stood in place, no words were spoken amongst them, just a calm silence. The wind blew harder, but it only seemed to draw the closer to one another.
"I don't know what it's going to take, but I promise I won't give up until we get through this." Carlos kissed Logan's forehead. "I promise to you I will stand by your side always and forever."
Logan looked up into Carlos' dreamy eyes. "I love you. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me."
"I love you too. You're never gonna be alone. I'll hold you until the hurt is gone, and if you should ever fall I'll be there to pick you up," Carlos replied.
They held each other tightly again enjoying the moment. "Can we go back into the room?" Carlos asked. "Something near and dear to me is well you know."
Logan chuckled as the both entered the room again. The both sat down and fell asleep in one another's arms.
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I have always wanted you, and I just have to tell you that. Kendall thought to himself. If he could have the chance to have Logan in front of him, he would divulge his biggest secret.
It was late, and James was comfortably asleep, but Kendall stood in the bathroom again, looking into the mirror, not just at himself, but looking deep into his soul. He could see the torment and desire building within him.
Kendall had long dreamt of having Logan in hi arms, kissing him and making love to him. He would dream if laying beside him, looking into hi eyes, but those dreams had come to an end when Carlos had made his love known.
Kendall's entire world had come crashing down around him, everything had changed instantly around him. He could remember sharing the room with Logan, always glancing over at him when he could sneak one.
Kendall was always a little shy in expressing hi love, and Logan somehow always made him happy, even with a simple smile. Kendall knew deep in his heart that Carlos and Logan were prepared to be bonded for life, and nothing would change that.
Logan was an honest man, and even though he was very opposite of Carlos, they both completed one another in great harmony. Kendall had grown to love James, and it was a wonderful experience, but something was missing, they didn't seem to have the same deep connection both Carlos and Logan had shared since their first date.
Kendall looked out into the dimly lit room to see James at peace. He seemed to take in the sight pleasurably. Kendall turned off the light and walked back towards the bed. He leaned over and kissed James on the forehead. A smile came across James' face, Kendall found himself smiling as well.
Already two restless nights had passed, yet the temptation still rested deep in Kendall's mind. He looked again at James' face peacefully at rest, the moonlight just barely making the outline visible, but even in darkness, James still stood out as a handsome man.
'I have fought too hard, and spent so much time to make this work, I can't be foolish enough to throw that away,' Kendall thought to himself. 'It was so obvious, Logan and Carlos always seemed more connected, and James always liked to hang out more ever since all four of us hit puberty. James was always there.'
Kendall's mind was working with him, and for once he had a slight grasp over the situation. He thought of the romantic night he and James shared. The ocean was singing a sweet melody, both the wind and gentle waves softening the moment. The moonlight blanketed both young men in a loving warmth, and the ring. Kendall looked down at his hand, the promise ring still on his hand, and he could see James wearing his, he had taken it off only twice.
Kendall remembered the first time he had sex with James, how he just gave in to the temptation, and the first made they made passionate love as a couple. Their bare chest rubbing against one another, both of them exploring each others firm bodies, the first time Kendall felt James perfect lips wrapped around his pulsing member.
He had moaned when he felt James take him in completely. Kendall could feel his body tense up before he felt himself burst within the tight warm hole, feeling his heart beating wildly. What gave him a better memory was the first time both of them fell asleep together. The warmth between both of them under the sheets was amazing. Kendall could resist and gently nudged James.
He smiled as he saw the sleepy eyes struggle to look back at him.
"Is it time for the wedding already?" James asked, still groggy.
"No, I'm sorry. I just wanted to say I love you," Kendall said as he rested his head on James' shoulder.
"Awe, I love you too Kendall," James replied as he turned his head just enough for a kiss.
Kendall wrapped his arm around James nestling his nose right of the middle of the shoulders. The two simply faded away, enjoying the feeling of being together