Forced myself
Hi I wrote before a series of stories with a lot of fantasy in it, besides the place it started called "bisub at the parking". This one is a real story about me and submitting to my fetish for a cock that I often have when getting horny. Being perhaps more hetro/bisexual than gay I find myself often split between getting extremely aroused by the view of a nice fat cock and actually doing something with/about it. The idea of having to suck another guys dick is actually always one in the front of my horny mind instead of anything else and at the same time it is a humiliating idea, that is also turning me on in itself. There is also the barrier of really doing it. The last few days I have been chatting on bullchat looking for another bi/gay and preferably slightly dominant male. A good looking cock is pretty important therein since that is my main attraction on men, but a nice guy is equally important. As you can imagine the wishlist is strong. But so is in the right mood the desire to just submit to it and start finding a cock and suck it. I also looked at a large number of 7 inch cocks after googling it. Seems the perfect size for me. Like some size, but massive seems to be less attractive as a nicely shaped 7 incher. Shape is very important though I noticed. Precum drooling out my cockhead doing so. In the heat of it all decided to go to "Ruyven" a well known gay parking/park. I went there just a 2-3 times before and it always took a long preparation time with perhaps 25 intentions before finally going. I watched a cock whorship hypno file to get me to cross the line, and some nice looking cocks while having my own cock drool more and more. Eventually I bailed out and did not go (again). It seems to be that I have to be in my most slutty mode to get over it. I know from the last times I did enjoy it and felt very horny, sub, slutty by doing so, willing to totally surrender myself to the urge, feeling and exposure. (Besides the moment after when the hormones crash and it feels very weird suddenly what just has happened).
Than I came with this deal with myself, perhaps also a bit on the kinky/sub side, that I was not allowed to cum before i would suck somebodies cock. The moment I made the though I got stone hard and jerked nearly over the edge, but stopped knowing my just made restriction. horny like hell laying in bed knowing that tonight I was not going there because I had to get up early and it was already late. Eventually I did not sleep a lot troubled by my high level of arousal.
The next evening I started again without thinking to much about it on the internet looking for cock pics, forced suck movies etc. Logged in on bullchat to watch more cocks. Got a boner like hell again, drooled and jerked for like 3 hours having to stop multiple times to keep my own promise and be left frustrated. I knew what to do and would do it first thing in the morning (I had a day of). After waking up I quickly had my morning booner but it did not get me out of the house. My brain was filled with arousal and cock images the whole day, cock often hard in my pants, some precum stain forming now and then because I did not wear underwear and than in the end of the day I switched my rational brain out, took my carkeys and drove to the parking. Last part nerves were through the roof but with the idea of keep driving and you will get there anyway I arrived. Some cars were parked but I did not want to take the time to look around and perhaps stall. So I parked got out, locked and immediately walked down the path to the secluded area. Before entering the bushes I stood overlooking a field that is in front of it and heard some noise behind me. A guy came to stand next to me. My heart was racing, but no way back now just go for it. The slut in me was awake enough and I definitely needed to be allowed to cum again soon or explode I think. I looked aside and perhaps it was meant to be or karma or so, or it did not mean what I thought it would. A black guy a head shorter was standing there in shorts. I turned around and went into the bush and he followed. The slut in me had taken over completely. My hand reached out to feel his bulge as his did with mine. He opened by belt and zipper resulting in me standing naked in front of him with my pants fallen down to my ankles. Without any underwear to cover up i was butt naked directly. I opened his pants as well and felt his package through his boxers. My expectations might seem correct because it felt solid. I pulled his boxers down his balls and a godly i think 20 cm perfectly straight shaped cock came out with nice veins on the bottom of his shaft. Couldn't help myself to say "wow". He laughed. In a sort of automatism I sank to my knees and very slowly jerked his skin back a bit exposing his cockhead. I have never seen a black cock before but also not any that was ringing all my cockfetish bells like this. I liked the tip a few times and than circled my tongue around his cockead. A few moans came from above. Tongue sliding behind the rim and then taking it into my mouth. It all went like it was my second nature it seemed. I felt his hands take my head while he pressed his cock deeper into my mouth. I gagged a little and pulled back. Afterwards I slowly took his cockhead in my mouth again and circled with my tongue. His size I could never get it in my mouth very far but I was horny like hell to have this cock to service. His hands were back on my head pushing his cock in a bit again. I think he knew more or less where I started to gag because he kept it just before that point but firmly. He started to thrust in my mouth holding my head. I noticed him to get more and more excited and hold my hand firmly thrusting his cock in and out to the right spot. I knew he was close to cumming and the thought of him cumming in my mouth and for the first time accept a mans cum crossed my mind but at the last moment decided it to be not safe enough. I let his cock leave me and jerked him of further. quickly he came and while I was turning away some hit me. He pulled his pants up closed and left. just like it started out of nowhere it finished. I was still kneeling on the forest floor with my pants on my ankles. It took some seconds for me to get out of the situation and stand up. I was totally hot, jerked myself a little, but it was a bit to much or to much over. pulled my pants up and walked to my car.
hope you liked this real time story as well.
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