Broken Tears - Chapter 8 By Andy Lake
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Stop if the idea of sexual intercourse between same sexed couples disgusts you, and if that's so, what the fuck are you doing here???
Thanks, Stephen, for editing and being available.
All usual disclaimers apply. If you are not supossed to be reading this, then you shouldn't, but I know I can't stop you. sigh
All the following characters are fictional, all made up by myself, thanks to my twisted, yet erotic, imagination.
I'm the author, so obviously, I own the story and copyrights. It can only be spread with my permission or downloaded for personal pleasure.
Recap - Me: I love you, too. I took time to realize it, but I know for sure now, and I won't take it for granted...So promise you won't break my heart, and I'll take care of yours.
J: You are more precious to me than anything else, so I promise to never hurt you, my love.
After that message, I had that tingly feeling. It was love...Did I just feel it?
I've been depressed lately, so please forgive me if it shows in my writing.
*********************** Confusions - Chapter 8 ***********************
"Class, for the end of the year, everyone in the musical department needs to write a song...A song that expresses who you are, your feelings, and the song must be good, so start working." Ms. Cadburry said as she gave us copies of Song writing for Dummies.
"Are you gonna write about being a faggot and how hard it is to get a cock up your ass?" I heard Brandon's voice say behind me.
"Brandon, I don't know who pissed in your pepsi, but you shouldn't take it out on me." I said reading the book, ignoring him.
"Look at me when I talk to you!" He said slapping my book to the floor.
"I don't want to throw up on my book." I spat as I stood up, took my bag, and made my way out of the theater.
"I was talking to you." A running Brandon said as he caught up with me.
"What do you want Brandon? Why can't you just stop hating me?!" I spat rolling my eyes.
"It's too much fun to pass!" He said smiling at me.
"Please leave me alone or I'll get my boyfriend to kick your butt!" I said looking at him.
"You have a boyfriend?" He asked indifferent.
"Yeah, and he's twice your size, so beware." I said annoyed.
"Ok. Calm down." He stormed off mumbling something I couldn't hear.
I walked around the parking lot searching for Mark's car. I was walking down the line of parked cars, and I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned to see Tom looking at me. It had been a week since I lunged at him. It's just that it hurts to think he would stop being my friend because I'm gay.
"Tom, I don't want to talk to you!" I said turning around, and I continued walking.
"Doesn't matter...Today is my last day here in Canada. I'm going to Europe for a year and a half, and I leave today." He said in a grim tone. I froze and couldn't walk anymore. I felt the tears well up in my eyes, and I turned around and walked up to him.
"W-Why are you leaving?" I said as some tears ran down my cheeks.
"You wouldn't understand." He said turning around.
"WHY?! You said that last time. I can understand. I'm more mature than I seem!" I argued.
"YOU WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND!" He screamed as he stared at me.
"Tom, tell me...please?" I said walking to him and wrapping my arms around his stomach.
"Be-because...I love you." He said lifting my chin and kissing me. My eyes instantly closed, and the world around me disappeared. I was feeling the fuzzy feeling I get when I kiss Jeff, a little less intense, but it's there. After what seemed like hours, he pulled away.
"W-w-why didn't you tell me?" I stuttered meeting his teary eyes.
"Because you love Jeff..." He said nodding in defeat.
"But that's not a reason to leave your life and escape." I said grabbing his hand.
"YOU DON'T KNOW HOW IT HURTS TO SEE JEFF KISSING YOU AND HUGGING YOU! IT FUCKING HURTS!" He said looking down at me. I cringed at each one of his curses.
"Still, we could've worked things out.." I said letting go of his hand.
"I don't want to work them out. I want you to love me! Can you do that? Can you love me?" He pleaded.
"I am with Jeff, and I love him, but you are hot, smart, and giving. You could get someone twice as better as me." I said soothingly.
"Better than you? I don't think that's possible, and even if it was, I wouldn't want it. I want you!" He said through tears.
"Tom, please just stay." I said as my heart felt pain.
"Why? Give me a reason...Give me a reason, and I'll stay." He said walking to me and looking into my blue eyes.
"T-T-Tom...I can't..." I said looking into his brown eyes.
"I leave today at 9 p.m. You have until then to choose..." He stated running away, and I just stared at him. How can he do this to me? How can he leave me with a choice this big? I was snapped out of my thoughts as I felt someone shaking my shoulders, and my eyes focused to Mark's worried face.
"Ty, are you ok?" Mark asked worried.
"I think I am. Did you know Tom was leaving?" I asked looking at him.
"Is that why you were crying? He is gonna come back. He has some love issues...It's better for him." Mark said hugging me.
"I know...but I don't want him to go." I said like a frickin' three year old.
"I know, but that would be selfish...He can't handle too much pain..." Mark said rubbing my back.
"Ok, let's go home. I need some rest." I said walking to the car.
We drove home in silence, and as soon as I was home, I went to the garden. My dad was sitting looking at the rose plant with tears in his eyes.
"Dad...You need to get help. You are not ok..." I said taking a seat by him. He looked at me and nodded before standing up and leaving. I waited a little and kept staring at the sprout, which now had some red folded petals.
"Mom, I love Jeff, but I know I have feelings for Tom. What should I do? I don't want him to go, but like Mark said, that would be selfish." I said stroking the sprout. I stood there thinking about choosing and looked at my clock. It was 6 p.m., and I walked back into the house. I went straight up to my room, and as soon as I entered, I saw Jeff laying there on my bed.
"Jeff, what are you doing here?" I asked happily.
"Well, today is supposed to be the day we tell your dad that we are dating." He said walking up to me and kissing me.
"That's right...I can't wait." I said hugging him tight and kissing him.
"Baby, when do you think you will be ready for...you know..." He said a little embarrassed.
"I know you are used to having sex, but you have to wait for me, Jeff. I need some time, and I am still young..." I said kissing him.
"I know. It's just that I've been dreaming about you and day dreaming and I can just barely wait. I know I'm pushing you, and I'm sorry, baby. You know how much you mean to me." He said kissing my hand as he led me to the bed.
"I know, Jeff. I love you too, so we are going to take it slow. This is our first month, so we are making progress." I said as we started making out. I felt his tongue invade my mouth as one of his hands grabbed the back of my neck, and the other my wrist. My hand traveled to his muscly chest as my tongue invaded his mouth and wrestled against his.
"I love you." He repeated as he kissed my face.
"I love you, too." I said looking over at my clock again. It's 8pm!! We made out for like an hour and a half!
"Baby, let's go tell your dad now before our lips get more swollen and before I chicken out..." He said giggling as he tickled my sides.
"Ok. I think it's time." I said as we walked down the stairs to the living room. My dad was using the laptop as he typed away.
"Dad, we need to talk to you..." I said as I sat down on the couch in front of him with Jeff by my side.
"Yes? What does this concern?" He asked softly.
"Mr. Jacobs, I am dating your son." Jeff said looking at my dad dead in the eyes.
"Ooohhh...Well, I guess that's ok as long as you treat him good." My dad said a little distracted.
"So, you are ok with it?" I asked a little stunned.
"Yeah. Just be safe, umm, and all.." He said as he continued typing.
"Ok" I said a little uncomfortable as I took Jeff's hand and led him upstairs.
"That was easier than I expected." Jeff said as soon as we entered my room.
"Yeah. It was odd. I think my dad is going through something, and he doesn't want to tell me or Mark. I'm worried..." I said more to myself.
"Baby, you worry too much." Jeff said as he sat on my bed dragging me and sitting me on his lap. We looked into each others eyes.
"You are so beautiful and lovable." Jeff said kissing my nose.
"You are handsome and lovable, too." I said kissing him tenderly.
"I love you." We said at the same time as we laid on my bed, my head resting on his chest. I started drifting to sleep feeling uncomfortable about my father and with a feeling in my gut telling me I was forgetting something. I shook it off as my man's arms wrapped around me and he hummed a sweet lullaby into my ear.
[ Tom's POV ]
There I was standing in the airport, with my suitcases around me, waiting. I really thought Ty was coming, and I was hoping he would burst through the doors and run into my arms and kiss me softly, or something romantic. No luck. I kept looking around everytime I heard the doors open, and I kept on thinking about the kiss in the parking lot. It was perfect, romantic, and loving, and I know he must've felt at least something. It was a powerful kiss, and I know he couldn't just ignore it like it was nothing. I felt it in the kiss, I felt that he loved me, too, and I was sure he would come.
"Germany flight 022 about to depart" The female voice said through the speaker. I glanced one last time to the doors to no avail, so I walked into the doors leading to the plane boarding lounge, and I was off to a new place. Maybe I can find someone out there that will love me and I will love with this intensity. I know my feeling for Ty would be back if I ever saw him again, so I'll do my best to forget him. I have to forget him, I thought to myself as I entered the plane. I took a seat next to a smiling boy about my age, 16 at least, and he smiled warmly. I somehow felt at ease, but this wasn't near as strong as what I felt for Ty when I saw him. Something about this boy drew me in, and maybe he was the first step I should take to heal my heart. I took the seat and talked with the boy throughout the flight. Ty was still in my mind, but the pain was reduced to a minimum.
[ Ty's POV }
"TOM!" I screamed as I woke up. GOD! I forgot about him, and he is gone. Tears started to run down my face. What can I do? I love him, and I just let him go. He is going hate me, but will this be working out for the best. Me and Jeff are in love, and maybe he really needed to forget about me. Maybe this really was the best choice he could've made.
"Is everything ok?" I heard Mark say from the other side of the door.
"Yes, just had a nightmare." I said as the door opened.
"Want me to sleep here?" He asked concerned.
"YEAH!" I practically screamed, which made him smile. He crawled up in bed with me, and I snuggled to him and hugged him like a teddy bear.
"I love you lil bro. Now go to sleep." He said tenderly.
"I love you, too, Marky. I know you will always protect me and keep me from hurting." I said as he hugged me tighter.
"Always. So, how's Jeff treating you?" He asked tenderly.
"Well, he is a great boyfriend, and he gives me cute stuff everyday. He has been a little pushy with sex, but all of a sudden he's let go of it." I said. My suspicion was that with Tom gone he didn't feel threatened.
"Well, I'm glad. Just don't let him push you into something you don't want to do." He said as he yawned. We got sleepy and both drifted off to dream land.
I woke up in the morning at 4 a.m., walked out of my room, and started walking downstairs. I got to the kitchen, got a glass of water, and drank it slowly. I placed the glass on the counter and heard some whispering coming from the garden. I was a little scared, and as I walked to the crystal door, I slid it open and looked around...No one. I walked to the sprout in the garden and nothing. Just some wind blowing, and then I swear I heard something.
"Hold on" The soft whisper said, but no one was around. The whisper repeated itself several times, and I got freaked out. I looked at the sprout, and everytime the wind passed through it, the whisper was heard. I ran to the house and sat at the kitchen table, my hands fidgety.
"Hey, son. I heard some running downstairs. Are you ok?" My dad asked coming down the stairs.
"Yeah, Dad. I'm fine. Just needed some water." I said a little nervous.
"Is Jeff still here?" He asked indifferent.
"No. I don't know when he left." I said as he nodded and went back upstairs.
I paced back and forth in the kitchen...WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?! I couldn't sleep anymore, so I took a long bath and dressed for school. I cooked breakfast for Mark and my dad, and they seemed to like it, so I was pleased. Mark drove me to school, and he was real chatty this morning. We arrived at school, and I was sitting with Jane as she talked to me about my classes and asking for my grades. I don't know why I have this powerful connection with her, but it's awesome.
"So, Tom is gone?" Jenni said stroking my hair.
"Yeah. I miss him." I said looking at her with sadness in my eyes.
"Don't worry. He will be back, and when he is, you are gonna be here for him." She said kissing my forehead.
"I know. I just miss him." I stated sadly.
"Miss who?" Jeff asked from behind me.
"Tom" I said looking at him.
"Well, it is kind of sad." Jeff said indifferent.
"Question! Are you two going to come out to the school anytime soon?" Jenni asked excited.
"Well, I'm practically out. Many people know I'm gay and most seem not to care." I said shrugging my shoulders.
"NEVER! I won't come out!" Jeff screamed at us. I looked at him a little disappointed, but I understood.
"I know, Jeff. I would love you to be out, but I know you can't." I said smiling at him as he relaxed.
"I'm sorry, baby, but you know I can't." Jeff said soothingly.
"If you love him enough you can." Jenni said in a motherly tone.
"Jenni, stay out of it. I'll come out as soon as I feel comfortable."
"Mmmhmm" Jenni said sarcastically.
"Guys, chill out. I gotta go to class." I said rushing away to meet Li and Cale.
"TY!!!" Caleb said hugging me tight.
"Hey, Cale." I said hugging back.
"Hey, Ty!" Li said joining the hug.
"Hey, Li. How are you guys doing?" I asked as we walked, with me in the middle.
"Well, I'm great!!" Cale said with a huge smile.
"Hmmm. We need details! Today at my house." I said smiling.
"Yeah. PIZZA!" Li said as she hooked her arm in mine.
"PIZZA!" Me and Caleb said in unison.
I was in my third class of the day, Science. We started learning about the heart, and well, it was kind of easy. I was barely paying any attention, and out of the blue, a paper ball fell on my desk.
"Hey, would you go out with me?" The letter said. I looked around and saw Kyle looking at me. Well, Kyle is this cute American kid that, according to Li, moved here two years ago. He has the swimmer look to himself.
I took a pencil and wrote "Taken" on the ball. I threw it at him, and he frowned at it before giving me a sad smile. The whole time, Cale was staring at us. We walked out of class, and Cale asked me to come to the bathroom with him.
"Hey, what did Kyle want?" He asked whispering.
"A date" I said looking up at him.
"REALLY?! KYLE IS SOOOO HOT!" He said more to himself.
"Yeah, but I'm with Jeff." I said looking at him.
"Yeah...And what is it about you that makes guys want you? I am your friend, you know that, but I just don't get it. You are cute and all, but I'm hotter, and guys don't even look at me." He said pouting. He is right though. I'm nerdish, and he is hotter. His hair is wavy with soft brown curls, he's at least 5'11", and has a nice slender build and a very cute face.
"Well, maybe it is the need to protect me that I trigger in a guy. I look smaller and defenseless, so maybe they feel the need to protect me more. Don't get jealous." I said giggling as he laughed, too.
"I love you!" He said wrapping an arm around me as we walked out of the bathroom.
"So, he is your boyfriend? Twice my size? Funny." Brandon said as he was about to enter the bathroom.
"He is my friend. You know my boyfriend, though." I said smiling dreamily.
"Disgusting faggot" He said as he entered the bathroom.
"Don't mind him. I think he likes you, too. One more to the list." Caleb said with a sigh and a fit of laughter.
"Shut up!" I smacked him on the forehead as we made our way to our next class.
School ended as Li, Dina, Jermz, and I left the school, and Caleb and Trev had track practice today.
"Pool Party at my house today!" Kyle, the guy that gave me the note, said as he approached me.
"Thanks, but I'll pass." I said smiling.
"I'll go." Jermz, Dina, and Li said at the same time laughing.
"I know you'll go, Ty. Please go." He said giving me a puppy face.
"Ok, I'll go. What time is it?" I asked indifferent.
"Well, it's a night pool party, so it'll be at 7 p.m. Mom and Dad are outta town, so we got boooze!" Kyle said excited.
"Cool. Since when do 14 and 15 year olds do booze?" I asked sarcastically.
"Don't tell me you're a prude!" He said laughing.
"What if I am?" I asked a little upset.
"I think it's cute." He stated making me blush.
"Nice flirting guys, but Ty here has a boyfriend twice your size and as jealous as it gets." Dina said making us laugh.
"I know. Bummer." Kyle said a little sad.
I motioned to him and leaned to whisper in his ear.
"But I think Caleb is free." I said as he grinned wider.
"Not you, but he isn't bad." He said smiling.
"Isn't bad?! That guy's hot!" I said making him laugh.
"Yeah but I like a cute, shy, boy that I can protect." He said grabbing my hand. I hugged him in a friendly manner, looked up from his shoulder, and a PISSED looking Jeff was staring at us. I sighed and let go of him.
"Well, get your own shy boy." Dina said punching him playfully.
"Well, gotta go, guys. See you at the party tonight." Kyle said running off.
"Well, guys, I'm going with Jeff. So, see ya later. Li, today at my house, and text Caleb not to forget." I said walking to the angry jock with his nose flaring.
"Hi, Jeff!" I said trying to play it cool.
"Who was that?" Jeff asked with fire in his eyes.
"Just a guy" I said indifferent, but he didn't buy it.
"WHO...WAS...THAT?" He asked a little angrier.
"Well, he is Kyle, a friend of mine, who just invited me to his pool party." I said a little too excited for Jeff's taste.
"You are not going." He stated as he opened the car door for me and walked to the driver seat.
"I will go Jeff. You are being so immature. You know I love you." I said a little frustrated.
"I don't want this guy getting you drunk and ending up in bed with you." He sounded so pissed.
"Jeff, I am going, so deal with it. You are being a big baby." I said. He pulled out of the parking lot and into the street towards my house.
"But you are mine, baby. You are dating me, so you should do what I say." He said as if I were his property.
"Jeff, I'm not something you own! I'm a person." I said as my eyes watered.
"Ooohh Fuck, baby. Don't cry. Forgive me. It's just that I hate the way you hugged him, and you should only be in my arms. I am yours, and you are mine, and I'm not sharing. So, please forgive me, baby." He said pulling my hand to his face and kissing it all over with soft pecks.
"Ok, but I'm still going to the party!" I stated looking at him, and he nodded.
"Ok, but behave. Now go inside, but before you do, gimme a kiss." He said as we tongued for a good three minutes. I bolted into the house and was shocked at what I saw. There was my dad looking pissed and punching the hell out of a punching bag in the middle of the living room.
"Dad, what are you doing?" I asked as I walked to him.
"Realising" He said out of breath as he kept punching away.
"Dad, is there something wrong?" I asked concerned.
"Nothing" He said stopping and looking into my eyes. There was a hollow expression in his eyes, and that look still haunts me. He looked empty...That look...It left me...Confused...
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Next Chapter will be up sooon!!
Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D.
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HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER! STICK AROUND CAUSE THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET STEAMY!!