It was the most beautiful winter I've ever seen.The snow petals fell ever so slowly.I was looking out of the window.I loved winter in my grandparents house.They had a huge house and it wasn't all bright and sunny like ours.It was dark and gloomy and very English.Me and my mom came over for the Christmas break every winter.I fucking loved this house to death.The fire was making nice sounds in the fireplace while the house was scented like a Xmas tree.I saw grandpas two dogs,Rene and Peter, playing outside. Peter was a cruel animal.His movements smooth and clever.His body built and every one of his moves fast.He bit Rene's neck while the other dog tried fighting back but finally gave up and squealed with defeat.I heard the stairs cracking, announcing somebody was coming up. "Honey,what are you doing?" "Nothin much Grace,just watching the snow" "I would offer making a snowman but it's freezing outside so there's no way I'm going out" she said with a big smile on her face. "Oh it's fine,I wasn't expecting you to even ask" She smiled sadly and sat on the big puffy chair next to my bed. "Look I know I'm not the greatest mother sometimes..but I do everything I can" "Yeah yeah just don't start.I don't wanna listen to any speeches right now...so save it to yourself" "Aiden do not talk to me like that,it's awfully rude" "I have to go to the bathroom" "Okay but we're not done young man" Fucking cunt.I hated that woman more than life itself.I didn't need to go to the bathroom.I actually just wanted to go outside,into the cold,into the mid dark.I sneaked out of the house and made my way over to the lake.It was a few miles away from my grandparents house.When I got to the lake a weird longing came over me.It was so cold outside,and the snow falling on my clothes and my fluffy hat.I felt a certain nostalgia..I didn't know what I was missing,but it was something big. "There's a weird aura around here" I heard a voice from behind me say.I turned around.It was a boy.Taller than me,pitch black hair,tan and pools of green eyes.Cal.He was surprised to see my face."Oh hey matey,I know you from somewhere huh?" "Yeah,we go to the same school" "Oh we do...shit my memory's so bad," he said and walked a little closer to the lake leaving me behind.I caught up with him.I waited a while to think of what to say,finally I mumbled "So what did you mean about the aura" He looked at the lake with a strange expression.He remained me of myself a few minutes ago,longing on his face.Finally he blinked and said "10 years ago 6 people were murdered and thrown into this lake on Christmas eve.All of them were under 14." My jaw must have hit the floor.I knew something wasn't right with this place.The quietness..the dreams of a child. "Everytime I come here,it's the same.I get the same feeling.Voice in my head.Have you ever heard voices that do not belong to you in your head?"He said suddenly looking like a maniac.His eyes were watery and sad. "No..I thought only schizophrenic people heard voices" He laughed sarcastically.I was afraid to see him like this,he looked so hopeless. " Sometimes I'm so..so afraid.I can't be by myself,I can't be alone.They..they talk and talk and never ever stop.You don't know what it does to me..it's ruining my life." I didn't know what to say so I just stood looking at the love of my life.And I thought my problems were big,now I see what it means to have real problems.He was so torn. "I'm here Cal" I said,trying to comfort him a little.He looked at me with a delicate face[over time I've learned that his facial features could change within a minute]. "Come here," he said.I wasn't sure what he meant but I got a little closer to him.He took his hands from out of his pockets and put both of them on my face.I flinched at the coldness of them but didn't dare to move away. "You wanna be my angel?Wannna be the one to save me from this sickness?"He asked in all seriousness,as if he really thought I could do it.I just nodded my head. "The candle is burning so low for me," he said looking away.I just threw myself into his arms and hugged him.He put his arms around me "my angel," he whispered "you'll be my angel" >From that time I made it my goal to reach out and help him.To stop the hurt and the confusion.I was very stupid,and my constant belief that I would be able to help him makes me laugh a bitter laugh right now.But then,well it seemed so noble,my friends,so pure.I thought that's how true love looked like.I thought I was going to be his guardian angel,for life.Little did I know.I wanted to take him home with me but apparently someone was waiting for him,he wouldn't tell me more.But before he walked away he leaned in...and when I didn't feel his lips on mine after a moment I opened my eyes.He smiled and said "next time..that way I know you'll show up" and he left.I had so many questions.When?When?and WHEN!? I made my lonely way home.A half smile playing on my lips.The trees were covered in white.The snow was still falling,sending little shudders through my body every time a flake landed on my nose.