It was the last week of summer and it seemed like everything was getting back to normal. Mom was about to retire and that caused a little buzz because we all thought she was gonna run for governor. I was still staying with Darren, I guess you could say I was hiding and maybe I was. I just wasn't ready to deal with all the drama yet. Senior year was about to start and my main focus was getting the hell out this city. My Mom was putting on the pressure to make a choice. She hoped I would follow in her footsteps and I already shut that dream down. I was leaning more towards Oxford University. I only applied there because JJ dared me too. I never dreamed that I would get in. I had the grades and everything but there is a lot to consider. My Mom would be here alone but Im sure she would be working all the time. Melody would be crushed if i left her. She seems to be doing ok but I know Im her only link to JJ, she's not over losing him yet, then there is Darren.
Things have been going great between us and I find myself not fighting the urge to open up to him. He has been patient and the sex jus keeps getting better and better. Look I know what some of yall are thinking right now and NO I'm not gonna let this opportunity pass by because of a nigga, but shouldn't I at least discuss this with him? Right? Being in a relationship means communicating and talking about life changing decisions or do I have the wrong idea? Ugh all this is confusing as hell and it making my head hurt. I must have made a face or something cuz next thing I know this bitch is hittin me in the head.
Mel: Bitch are you listening to me?!
DaeDae: Hit me again and watch I beat yo ass in this car...
Mel: when ever you ready baby... lol
DaDae: Anywho wat you talking bout?
Mel: I was asking you if heard the rumors thats going around town?
DaeDae: Bitch I been in the fucking boonies all summer and I have not been on the blogs or watching tv or answering the phone.
Mel: Well there has been speculation about the death of JJ and how your Mom and Dad is covering something up and some ppl even saying you was there and yo Mom's sent you away to hide and shit. You have some major damage control and I hope you get it together before school start cuz I dnt wanna be fightin every week this year.
DaeDae: Girl you so extra! I will take care of it. Babe go to my house there has been a change in plans.
We were gonna go back down south but in light of this news I feel its time to come out of hiding and give the fans what they want.
Darren: Are you sure thats a good idea?
DaeDae: No but we goin anyway.
Mel: Its bout to be an interesting week... lol
DaeDae: And you better know it... Hey where do you want to go shopping this year?
Mel: I don't know Im tired of the Miami trends. Don't you have a stylist or something?
DaeDae: Bitch do you see how I dress?!!! Wat da fuck I need a stylist for?
Mel: Gurl you aint all that. lol
DaeDae: Dnt worry we gon go out to Beverly Hills on Wednesday and Imma rock some jewelry this year.
Mel: So fuckin extra.. Lol... Hmmm and what about yo boy over there? He can't be on yo arm lookin like a thug. He has to look the part.
Darren: Aye dnt worry bout me.. I kno how to dress..
DaeDae: Now you do! I had to teach yo ass... Lol..
Darren: Man stop lyin... lol
DaeDae: Lol naw tho but fa real Mel he can dress I jus adjusted his style to be more camera friendly when he wit me... lol but my bae can dress his ass off tho
Mel: Awwwww Gag!
I was so wrapped up in our convo and textin I didn't notice we were at my house. You would have thought it was a red carpet event or something cuz all the press and shit outside my building.
DaeDae: Naw let me out right here.. And I'll meet you in the lobby.
Darren: You sure you don't want us to go in with you?
DaeDae: Yes Im sure cuz the way yall look right now I dnt want to be seen wit ya busted asses.... lol
I jumped out the car before they could say anything. My Mom taught me long time ago to always be dressed to take a picture. lol... I had gone unnoticed until Darren decided to peel out and haul ass up the street making everyone look my way. I put my shades on and prepared my self for the worst..
As soon as I was recognized cameras started flashing and the questions started flying. All the gossip blogs and Magazines were there.
Rep 1: Hey La'damien where you been hiding?
DaeDae: I haven't been hiding. I was grieving the loss of my brother in private.
Rep 1: really? Word is you were there?
I stopped walking and I was thinking bout tearing him a new one but I needed them so I kept my cool.
DaeDae: You on dangerous ground yo so I suggest you chill.
I walked inside the building and spoke to front desk person and walked to our elevator. I guess they went upstairs which was cool. I needed to make a phone call.
DaeDae:Hey Stella!
Stella: Why do you insist on makin my life hell?
Daedae: Because if I didn't I wouldn't be your number 1 client!
Stella: You right about that. Listen I'm sorry I haven't called you....
DaeDae: Listen I understand and I got all your messages so we good... But listen we have work to do.
If you haven't caught on by now Stella is my publicist/ PR person. She handles just about everything from red carpet appearances to party planning. Stella moves hell and Earth to make my every want come true and she has not disappointed me yet.
Stella: What do you mean "We"?
DaeDae: Lol... I know right... But listen I need several things from you. I want to schedule a press conference for Wednesday, I need a private flight soon after I want to do some shopping in Beverly Hills and then to New York Thursday. Also I want to throw a party on Saturday. Buy out Mansion and make sure we get all the necessary documents this time. 18 to party 21 to drink and Im also gonna need a VIP list of 100. I will forward you the names by Tuesday. Im gonna need a driver to drive my car to take us to the press conference and for the party.
Stella: Anything else?
DaeDae: Not at the moment but if I think of anything make sure Im able to get you.
Stella: Ok love I will get back to you tonight around 7
DaeDae: ok love Ciao
Damn I love her and Im sure she will have everything settled by tonight. Its going to be a long week.....
Darren's Point of View
I don't know what's going on in his head but this party is a bad idea. Melody and I both think that it should not be as big as it is. He won't listen to anyone, not even his Mom. I have been hearing some things thats got me worried. Now that J Sr. is locked up there has been a lot of tension and the boys are starting to divide. Everyone thinks DaeDae is going to step in and take over. Some of the young niggas are loyal to JJ so they gon be loyal to DaeDae but some niggas are loyal to J Sr. It's been hard for me to get back on the inside cuz everyone thinks I'm spyin on em. All I want to do is keep my baby safe.
Melody: Hey you got a min?
Darren: Yeah wats good shawty?
Melody: I just got some news that has me a lil bit worried.
Darren: Yeah me too... Something big is about to go down and I don't know wat it is yet.
Melody: Well listen to this... You know Ramon was Christian's cousin right? Well rumor has it that that he is back in town and is plannin to get back at Damien.
Darren: how do we tell him?
Melody: maybe he already knows? I'm sure he's been on top of things....
Darren: Naw not really.. He mostly slept or jus laid in bed most of the summer. I had to make him get out the bed most times. He only ever touched his phone if it was you or his Mom.
Melody: Well its tradition and I think he doin it for JJ.
She looked sad at the mention of his name. I felt her pain she really loved him. I missed my dawg so much. Sometimes it was hard to be around DaeDae without crying. I guess we got caught up in our thoughts, we didn't notice him come in the room.
DaeDae: I know yall in here talking bout me....
Melody: Bitch shut up! Aint nobody talkin bout yo raggedy ass.
DaeDae: Lies!! Any who, are yall ready for tomorrow?
Melody and I exchanged looks cuz neither one of us knew how to tell him the news.
Darren: look, don't be mad but I can't go. My Mom needs me to babysit this week cuz she workin double shifts. I haven't really been there to help out so she pickin up the slack. Plus I don't think it's a good idea for me to be at any press conferences just yet bae.
DaeDae: why?
Darren: I have to think about my fam shawty. This don't just affect me anymore.
DaeDae: WTF they have to do with anything?
Melody; think about it love... Remember how hard it was for me? they live in the trap and its gon be twice as hard for them.
Darren: You know I want nothing more to be there by your side but I gotta be extra careful now.
DaeDae: I understand. I didn't think about it like that.
Wow... That threw me off balance. I was expecting an argument. There were a few minutes of awkward silence of us looking around at each other not saying anything...
Melody: Fuck it! Look nigga we both feel like you need to cancel this party. We have a bad feeling something bad is going to happen. I jus heard Christian is back in town and is lookin for blood.
Darren: Not only that but there has been talk that you gonna take over for yo dad and a lot of the old heads not happy with that idea. The streets are starting to pick sides and something big is bout to go down.
He was quiet for the longest time. It was as if time stood still and for a minute it actually seemed like he was going to cancel the party.....
DaeDae: Are you staying here tonight or are you going home?
What the fuck?!?!?
Darren: Did you hear what we said?!
DaeDae: I heard you... So are you staying or going?
Darren: I'm out Bruh... Mel can you drop me to the crib?
Melody: Ummmm???
DaeDae: That's fine...... Imma be busy most of the morning so imma call you from the plane....
Darren: Fuck this... Yo Mel take me home....
I walked out the room feeling a whole bunch of different emotions. He starting to act like he used to and its pissin me off. We made so much progress and now it's back to the same ol bullshit from him... I'm really starting to doubt if love is enough.......
DaeDae's Point of view
Dammit!!!!!!! See this is what I get for letting these fucking feelings run lose. I'm slippin and let my guard down and this might come back to bite me in the ass. If this is wat comes of being in love then do I really want it? Ugh!! I should have just played the game for awhile and not fall for this nigga. The worst part is I fell every single time I fall this nigga is right there to catch me... I'm so confused... these fucking feelings are running free and I can't get em back under control to shut em down so I can do what needs to be done.
First things first I need to get my emotions in check, and I have to cancel my New York trip. I don't really need more jewelry but I did have a piece made for Darren and Melody. I will tell Stella to take care of it. I have to go see him. I haven't seen or spoken to him since the funeral and I hate to say this but I'm in over my head and I need his advice. Since the funeral he has made several attempt to reach out to me. I've hated him for so long , how do I even begin to forgive him? I know it was me who pulled the trigger and I have accepted it but shouldn't he be held accountable? I know what you thinking and yes he is in jail but that's jus for now... I need to make a phone call.. some things are gonna change.
DaeDae: Hey Stella how are you?
Stella: I'm ok what do you need darling?
DaeDae: I want to push back the press conference to Friday and cancel the trip to New York but I also need someone to pick up the pieces I had made I need them by Friday night the latest.
Stella: No problem but you know you gonna pay for pushing the press conference back... May I ask why?
Daedae: I'm going to see my dad.....