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Chapter 4
It's been a couple weeks since Chase and I have been able to hang out.
Everytime we planned on hanging out, Chase always got "the call." He'd have the decency to tell me to my face, by meeting me by my locker and explaining what had come up.
"You understand, right buddy?"
Oh yeah, sure. I see that getting laid is way more important than your best friend.
"Yeah. See ya."
I just leave.
I can't look at him right now. I can't even think about him without almost breaking down in front of everyone.
I rush home. I need to be alone. I can't function right now.
As I get home, I notice a note on the fridge. Mom has explained that she's gone out to get some groceries. Good. I can be even more alone.
I head to the bathroom and start up the shower. Maybe a little shower will help calm me down.
---------------Chase's point of view-------------
I'm just now leaving Jessica's place. After a couple weeks of laying the `charm' on her, she finally did the deed with me. I think I see the prospect of a new girlfriend?
However, during the entire time, all I could see were hurt brown eyes. I don't even know why. Luke understands why I've not been around that much. He's said so himself. But he looked so torn apart earlier. It looked like I kicked the life out of him. I really need to actually hang out with my friend. Good thing it's the weekend. Maybe I can just show up?
---------------Lucas' point of view-----------
The shower did, indeed, help take my mind off of things. I've always loved a good warm shower. Sort of relaxes me.
"Sweetie! I home!"
I rush to the kitchen to see mom carrying some groceries in. One look at her, and I rush on out to the car to grab what's left. After all the groceries are in, I help her put them up.
"Thanks sweetie. How was your day? Are you ready for the weekend?"
"Yeah. I think I'm just gonna hang out and play videogames."
I head back to my bedroom and start playing one of my all-time favorite games ever. I cannot wait for the new release next year. It's supposed to release around the same time as the companies console. Good thing my birthday is around that time. hehehe
BOOM!
"Hey bud! Surprise!"
Did I just die? I think the wooly mammoth just trampled me. Again.
"What are you doing here? I thought `duty called.'"
He blushes a bit. Wait, what? Chase never blushes about sex.
"Yeah. It happened. But I promised you I would hang out with you, and that's what I'm going to do!"
It was a bittersweet feeling. He was here. But he also just got done humping princess boobs from a couple weeks ago. Ughghgh
"So what's the plan Luke? Watcha wanna do?"
"I don't know. My plans got thrown out earlier today."
I think he flinched a bit at that.
"Well, let's do something. Let's play videogames, or watch a movie or something. I know I haven't been the greatest friend the past couple weeks. But I promise to hang out with you more! You're always going to come first to me. If you really need me, just tell me. I can't lose you. You know me better than anyone else."
That's just it, I knew him too well. I knew that what he said was true. If I needed him, he'd be there. But I can't do that to him. I can't make him choose me over his sex life.
We started to play videogames. I really missed this. I missed just being with him. I know he doesn't know what he means to me. He never will. No one will. But that doesn't mean I'm not gonna whip his ass at this game.
He has improved, a bit, anyway. He's starting to learn how to block and dodge. I've taught him so well. But in the end, I remained victorious.
"Ha! Take that!"
"Yeah yeah. Go ahead and get the gloating over with."
"Nah. I like my silent victory."
Properly goaded, he tackled me to the floor and began tickling me. He really knows how to get me going. By now, we've rolled across the floor and caused enough noise to alert mom.
"WHAT IS GOING ON IN HERE?"
"Oops. Sorry mom. Luke here pushed some of my buttons and I decided to get even."
"Well then, you both can straighten up this mess. Chase, do you plan on staying the night?"
"I haven't really planned that far ahead. I guess so, since it's so late now."
"OK. I'll let your dad know. Clean this mess up you two, or it's no supper for you both."
We giggled and began cleaning up our mess. It wasn't that bad. We were just chatting away and had finished cleaning up the mess when mom called us down for dinner. She'd made taco soup. The name is self-explanatory.
After doing the dishes, and told mom goodnight, Chase and I headed back to my room. We decided that we'd played enough games for the day, and decided to watch some movies. I let him pick, since he can't really pick a wrong movie.
I was really into the movie, it was at a really suspenseful part, when I felt a rumble next to me. I looked over at Chase, and the little shit was sleeping. Ehh. He probably needs it. I managed to pull the blankets out from beneath him and got us both covered up and proceeded to get back into the movie when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me, and pulled me close. I know he's still asleep, and this isn't the first time that this has happened. So I just go back to watching the movie, enjoying the extra heat.
After the movie ended, I decided it was time to go to sleep. I laid down with my head on the pillow and was out like a light. I haven't slept so comfortably in a long time.
-------------The next morning------------
The first thing I notice after waking was the warm body next to mine. Then I notice where exactly my head is. It's on his chest. Then, I notice the strangest thing. I even stopped breathing a bit, just to see if I was going crazy.
I wasn't.
His heart was changing to match mine. Chase's heart was matching my own beat. I started getting nervous. My heart rate picked up, and so did his. I slowly extracted myself from him, careful to not wake him. After safely out of the bed, I made my way to the bathroom. As soon as the door is closed, I bawl.
Why? What does this even mean?
I need a shower. Waste of water, but I'm really stressed, and my other stress reliever is the cause of my stress right now.
------------Chase's point of view--------------
Where did the heat go?
I remember where I'm at. Where has he gone? He never wakes up before me...
I hear the shower running and sigh a bit in relief.
I can tell something is off. I'm not sure how I know. But I can feel that something is bothering my buddy. I can feel his pain. But I can't bother him right now, he's busy. So I wait.
As soon as he gets back in the room, I look into his eyes. The usual warm soft brown is hard and stressed. What's up with him? What can't he tell me? I would love him no matter what. He's been there for me when no one else has. So, what is troubling him so that he can't tell me?
--------------Lucas' point of view------------
After getting out of the shower, I head back to my room. I don't expect Chase to be up yet, so I don't even notice the stares.
"What's up bud?"
I scream a bit.
"You scared the shit out of me."
"Sorry. Should have notified you to my being awake. So. What's troubling you?"
You. You are. Well, not really. It's more like I'm a freak. A plague. A virus.
"I can't tell you. It's the thing that's been troubling me for awhile now."
-------------Chase's point of view--------------
This again?!
What is this issue? Why doesn't he know that our relationship could never be broken? I love this guy more than he will ever know!!!
"I understand bud. I'm still going to wait for you to tell me. I know it's a big deal for you, whatever it is. But know that I'll love you no matter what. I'll always be your friend. I'll always be your brother. I'll always be yours. Just know that. I will always be there for you. I'm still going to wait. You'll tell me one day. And I'll still be there. No matter what."
I can see some tears by now. He's hurting. And I don't know how to help him. I don't know what I can do to soothe my friend. I feel so helpless. I wish he would tell me.
--------------Lucas' point of view----------------
I've started crying again. I know that I'm hurting him right now. I know that he somehow feels that he needs to help me. But I can't be helped. I can't run for much longer from this. I have to tell him soon. I can't hold on to this for much longer.
"I'll tell you. I'll tell. One day. You'll think of me differently. I know you will. Trust me, I know. But I can't tell right now. Soon. Very soon. I don't know when. But I can't run from this much longer. I'll tell you someday. But not today."
"I could never think of you with anything but love. I'll always be there for you. You're my best friend. You've been there for me forever. I'll be there forever. I promise Lucas. I'll wait for you to tell me. And I promise that my love for you will still be the same."
So, there's chapter four. How was it? I've had difficulty writing this one. I decided to try adding a new perspective for the story. How is it? Do you like getting a look into Chase's mind?
I hope to have a method of letting you all know when I've submitted a new chapter soon! I'm still looking into different methods. Do any of you have a recommendation? Email me at sammcma@yahoo.com
Sam