Cole's Redemption By James
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Cole's Redemption
Chapter Three
What shall we use to fill the empty spaces Where we used to talk? How shall I fill the final places? How should I complete the wall? Pink Floyd Empty Spaces
First time he kissed a boy He had never, never known "Cover up" is what they told Feel so cold Kadie Elder First Time He Kissed a Boy
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It was the evening on which Cole would meet the leader of the White Avengers for the very first time, and he had been beaten by his father once again. At this point Cole didn't even try to think about why his dad had beaten him when he got home from work. Cole had missed a spot when cleaning the kitchen floor, and his mom was passed out in her and his dad's room which was nothing new, so she couldn't help him. He tried to clean it up as best as he could, but when his father saw a small speck of dirt that Cole had missed, he immediately became enraged!
"How fucking many times do I have to tell you to make sure you do the job right you fucking Bastard!" he screamed as he grabbed Cole by the shoulder, and slamming him up against the wall, and then grabbing him by the throat. "You fucking answer me right now you little Fagot!"
"Get your fucking hands off me!" Cole screamed pushing against his dad.
This was the second time since Cole had recently hit his dad back when he beat him just a couple of weeks ago, and it appeared that this time would be no different as to how his dad would respond.
"You little Mother Fucker!" he roared, then grabbed his son and rained several blows down on Cole's face, his arms then he punched him twice in the stomach, and now Cole was doubled over in pain. "That'll fucking teach you to put your fucking hands on me again! Now get the fuck out of here for a while! I don't fucking care where you go, just so I don't have to see your retarded face!"
Cole got up, and after making sure that nothing was broken, he ran out of the house and only after he was a couple of blocks away, did he start crying. He always did his best to never let his parents, especially his dad see him cry, and only privately would he let it out. He also knew that in that moment that he wouldn't ever let anyone get close to him ever again! All people did, the way Cole saw it was hurt you, and he was over people and their Bullshit! He ran faster, and faster feeling exhilarated with the understanding that he was done with his family and the bullies at school who had been tormenting him for years. The last couple of empty spaces in his wall were now being filled, and the mortar sealing them would come in the form of him meeting Edgar Bradly, the leader of the White Avengers. He was now 20 minutes from his life changing for what he thought would be the better, but would actually be for the worst, but he didn't know that yet.
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Cole
I walked along with Kevin beside me as we neared the Sunset Cafиж. It was a brick building that was colored a dark-brown, and the front of the building had two silver double-doors set in it's front, and a neon-colored sign made up of a dark-blue background on which bright green letters spelled out "Sunset Cafe". Under the letters was a small picture of a sunset back-lit by lights, and I thought they did a good job with the display.
"I'm glad we're here now," I said. I'm really hungry!"
"Me too," Kevin replied.
We entered the restaurant, and it had a large room with several tables, and immediately in front of us just a few steps from the door was the counter. There were two people in line in front of us, and Kevin and I stood there enjoying the air-conditioning. It had been hot out, and the humidity hadn't helped anything. Kevinn repeatedly armed sweat from his forehead, and I was doing that myself now as we got closer to the doors of the restaurant.
"Hot," Kevin said turning his head to look at me.
"Yeah," I said. "It really is hot out there."
"I can't wait to get our food," he said and signed this time.
"Yeah, I'm looking forward to that as well," I answered.
When I finished what I just said, one of the alarms made a loud and long beeping sound from where I guessed the kitchen was located in the back. It continued on as a series of rapid beeps, and I started whistling to each of them capturing the tone perfectly. Kevin laughed and did the same. That awarded us an annoyed look from a woman standing behind the counter to my left, and a guy beside her to my right behind the cash register was trying to keep from smiling. We stopped once the alarm stopped, and then looked at each other laughing.
"It sounds like it doesn't take much to keep you entertained," Kevin said smiling at me.
"Yeah, you could say that," I answered.
As we stood there while the man and woman in front of us continued taking their time selecting what they wanted from the menu, the song that had been playing over the sound system ended, and another song came on, and Kevin gave a disgusted look towards where one of the speakers was located in the ceiling to his right.
"I hate that fucking song," he said turning to me so only I could see what he was saying.
"What is it?" I asked.
"It's called U.O.E.N.O. by the Rapper Rocko," Kevin said. "Listen carefully, give it a moment and I promise you'll fucking hate it."
"Okay," I agreed.
I listened for more than a minute, and I had to work hard at understanding what he was even saying, as it sounded like unintelligible mumbling. That was putting it nicely of course.
"What do you think?" he asked smiling at me.
"What the fuck is any of this?" I asked trying to keep my voice down. "I can't hardly understand what the hell he's saying."
"From what I understand from guys who have reviewed this song on YouTube," Kevin began. "U.O.E.N.O. is their way of saying the phrase "You don't even know it.", and this is how they're saying it in the song."
I continued listening, and I was now hearing them talking about owning a half-a-million dollar car and you don't even know it, and something about having killers with them and you don't even know it, then them talking about owning a million-dollar watch and you don't even know it.
"You've got to be fucking joking," I said laughing now. "I mean, like what you like, but this is ridiculous."
"Yeah, my thoughts exactly," Kevin said laughing with me.
At this point the song was about over, and the man and woman were now talking about which choices they narrowed down as to what they wanted, and then behind us the door opened, and four people came in. I turned to look, and it was three guys, and two older women. They were all dressed as if they had come from a church service, or a bible study. They had serious looks on their faces, and one of the women who was to the right of the other woman in the group had a look on her face that seemed as if it was the only look her face was capable of expressing. It was a sharp displeased look, and she had a huge handbag with her that looked like it could hold everything but a cosmetics counter in it. She also had a huge black book I figured was a bible held tightly to her chest, and her lips were set in a tight line as if she had tasted something bitter.
I looked at Kevin, and leaned close to him.
"That one looks like she has the joyless life of one who hasn't gotten laid in years," I said laughing as quietly as I could.
Kevin laughed just as quietly, and then the beeping alarm sounded in the back with it's almost four-second long beep with the several quick beeps, and Kevin and I whistled to it like before as U.O.E.N.O. finally ended on the sound system. We laughed again thus ending our whistling to the alarm, and I heard irritated sighs coming from behind us.
"Hey Kevin," I said turning to him.
"Yeah," he said turning to face me.
"We just whistled to that alarm a second time, and you don't even know it," I said as we both started laughing.
"Then I just shifted standing position so I could be more comfortable, and you don't even know it," Kevin said, but we both said the "You don't even know it." phrase at the same time.
We started laughing harder at that moment, then I stood up a little straighter and looked over towards where the tables were to our right.
"Yeah, and I stood up a little straighter and looked to my right, and you don't even know it we both finished that last part again, and were cracking up totally at that point.
"Yeah, and we've been annoying the hell out of the people standing behind us, Kevin signed so that only I could see. "And you don't even know it." We both finished verbally and were laughing harder now.
The people behind us were making remarks among themselves low enough so that they couldn't be heard from far away, but I could still hear some of what they were saying, especially the woman who had the bible still pressed to her chest.
"We just pissed off a few Religious zealots standing behind us," I said softly to Kevin leaning close to his ear. "And you don't even know it." We both said totally losing control and laughing so hard that we couldn't have said anything else even if we wanted to.
By now the man and woman in front of us were ordering, and the man went after the woman did, and he was taking his sweet time in figuring out which drink he wanted.
"Look at what asses we're making of ourselves," Kevin said as we started laughing again.
"Yeah, I know," I said softly as we laughed. "Isn't it fucking great."
We cracked up again, and after the guy finally figured out what drink he wanted, it was mine and Kevin's turn to order. We got our food then paid the guy behind the register who wasn't even trying to hide his enjoyment at our antics from a moment ago, and after we moved out of the way so the Holy Rollers could get up to the counter, we looked out the windows set in the doors.
"Did you want to sit outside and eat?" I asked. "I did notice that they have picknick tables out front."
"I'd like that," Kevin said. "Maybe it has cooled down a little since we've been in here."
"Cool, sounds good," I said.
We went outside, and I did feel a difference. It was still hot, but it wasn't so bad now that we needed to run in to air conditioning. After Kevin sat down at the picknick table in front of the restaurant so that the doors to the establishment were to my left, I sat down on his left.
We unwrapped our food, and Kevin looked over his order. He got a Spicy Chicken Sandwich with Seasoned Fries, and I got a double bacon cheese burger with curly fries. We both got Cokes to drink, and we ate in silence for a moment, then I asked if Kevin wanted to hear some music or just eat quietly.
"I'm good with some music," he replied, and I put my phone on the table in the center of it, and I pulled up a random playlist, and the music started. The song that was playing was Give me a Reason by the Finnish Rock singer Ari Koivunen.
"I've heard this song before," Kevin said smiling in the direction of the music. "I really love his music!"
"I haven't heard this song yet, but it sounds really good," I answered. "I'm glad you like it."
"Me too," he said.
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Kevin
While we ate, I told Cole about what happened to me where I can only say a few words, and why I have to use alternative means of communication whether it be Sign Language to communicate the majority of what I want to say.
I got an infection from bacteria that got in to my system when I was still in my mom's Womb, and it damaged my brain in terms of me having fully developed speaking abilities, but that was really the only disability issue I had that they found, and that I have to deal with.
"I'm glad that it didn't do any further damage, the bacteria I mean," Cole responded.
"Me too," I answered. "I'm glad you've given me a chance as far as you spending time with me tonight. I've really been enjoying our time together!"
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Cole
"Thanks Kev," I answered as I put a hand on his shoulder. "I've really been having a good tine hanging out with you tonight as well."
"I'm glad you feel that way," he answered.
"Me too," I replied.
"I'm surprised that you've been able to understand almost all of the Sign Language I've been using tonight," Kevin went on. "Do you know a lot of Sign Language?"
"I help a kid out who uses Sign Language who's in a few of my classes, and he's been showing me how it works," I explained. "It turns out that I learned a good amount of it easily."
"I'm glad you've been helping your friend," Kevin said.
"Thanks," I answered. "I'm glad I've been helping him as well. So do you have any brothers or sisters?"
"No," Kevin said. "I'm an only child. What about you?"
"I have a brother," I answered starting to feel unsure about how to continue, for I really didn't know exactly how much to tell him about my new family, and how I came to live with them. "My brother's name is Justin, and that's the only sibling I have."
"Cool," Kevin replied.
"I live with basically a foster family," I went on. "It's a guy named Daniel Rossington, and then Justin. Justin's mother has been out of the picture since she gave birth to him, but I still don't know the details as to how it came to be that she walked out on him just a couple of days after he was born."
"I'm sorry she abandoned him," Kevin said. "It sounds like Daniel has been there for him all the way, and it sounds like he's doing a good job being there for you as well."
"He is," I answered.
"How did you come to live with him and Justin?" he asked.
I stopped eating, and thought for a long moment. I wasn't quite sure what to say, and Kevin noticed.
"Sorry," he answered. "If you don't want to talk about it then we don't have to for now."
"It's alright," I responded. "It's just a really long and involved story, but I'll just say for now that my bio family are a bunch of Assholes, and they were physically abusive, as well as emotionally abusive. I definitely don't miss them. I also didn't handle the problems with my family very well, and made some bad choices along the way as well. So that's part of it, I'm working on living a better life, and have been doing good with it for a while now. I'm just working on making sure that it stays that way."
"I'm glad you're away from them," Kevin responded putting a hand on my shoulder and leaving it there for a long moment as he looked at me for an equally long moment as if studying me. "I'm also glad that you're working to make better choices now."
"Thanks, so am I," I replied.
Kevin removed his hand, then returned to eating. I had noticed the several times either his leg brushed up against mine, or when his arm would brush up against mine during the course of us sitting beside one another while we sat there. I wondered if he noticed he was making that casual contact with me, but I definitely noticed it. I didn't know what to make of what I was feeling at that moment, and then I thought back to when I shook hands with him during Intermission earlier at the concert. I remembered the surge of electricity that ran through my body, and how the touch of our hands seemed to trigger it, as well as remembering how that electric feeling ran through my arms, legs, stomach, chest then settled for a long moment between my legs, then disappearing especially after the loud laughter of the other kids running through the room broke whatever the moment was that we seemed to be having. It felt like something, and my mind had been trying to push it in to my consciousness, but I wasn't registering it, or didn't want to register it.
"No, it's not that!" I thought now in my head. "It didn't mean anything, you were just enjoying a really amazing event with another person who likes the same music you like, that's it!"
I returned to my surroundings, and Kevin was watching me intently. He seemed to be thinking hard, and he wasn't eating at that point.
"Are you alright Cole?" he asked leaning in to get a closer look at me.
"I'm alright," I answered returning to eating my food.
I was still slightly hungry, but I was starting to feel full, as well as feeling like I couldn't eat anymore given what I had just been thinking about. I did finish the last bit of food, then I leaned back slightly so as not to fall since there were no backs on the benches.
"I'll pick up our trash," Kevin said and he began gathering it up.
"Thanks," I said gathering up my plate and napkins then handing them to him when he reached for them.
He went in to the restaurant to throw them away, and as I sat there, I felt that surge that was like a fluttering in my stomach, and I kept looking towards the doors wondering when Kevin would return. While I sat there, a song that I didn't recognize came on, and I looked at my phone's display, and I felt my mouth go dry. It was a song titled First Time He Kissed a Boy by a singer named Kadie Elder.
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First time he kissed a boy He had never, never known "Cover up" is what they told Feel so cold," the singer sang.
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I listened to those words, and I felt a sensation inside me, as if something was fighting to come to the surface.
"No," I thought in my head. "It's nothing!"
I did everything I could to focus on where I was, and who I was with, and then I thought about Kevin. I thought about his physical size, his friendly attitude as well as his kindness that seemed to be the first thing to show through about him. Then my mind as if of it's own mind pictured me in Kevin's arms with him holding me as we sat in some unknown area. Then my mind thought about us staring deep in to each other's eyes, and in my mind's eye, I felt lost in Kevin's eyes.
With intense effort, I forced my mind back to the present, and I felt excited and deeply terrified at the same time.
"Oh my god," I whispered as quietly as I could. "What's happening to me!"
With a deep and intense effort, I worked at slowing down my mind like my counselor had taught me to do. I then began focusing on places in which I felt truly safe, and after a moment it was working. Soon, I returned to my surroundings once again a little more calm than before, but I knew that something was changing within me.
As I sat there, I looked up to see a shadow filling the doors of the restaurant. The doors opened, and Kevin came out carrying something with both hands. Once he came up to the table, I saw that it was two large Sundays, and it appeared as if they were Hot Fudge Sundays.
"Wow Kev!" I said truly surprised and happy that he thought of this. "Thanks! That was really nice of you!"
"You're welcome," he answered, and placed mine in front of me then held out a spoon and napkins.
He sat up on top of the picknick table on my right, and he was sitting so that he was facing me, and he was in a position so that he could look down on me. He began eating his Sunday, and I finished the second bight of mine.
"Thanks again for this!" I said. "This is really good!"
"You're welcome," he answered verbally this time. "I'm really glad you like it!"
"So am I," I answered. "Just let me know the total so I can pay you back soon."
"Thanks, but you don't need to do that," he said. "This part of the meal is on me."
"Thanks," I said. "That's really nice of you."
"You're welcome," he replied. "I was glad to do it."
We ate in silence for a bit, and Kevin looked down at me frequently as if studying me, and I would look up at him when he had his eyes turned away from me at certain points. I continued having the feeling that had began as we started talking when we met at the concert, and it had been increasing more and more as the evening continued on. It was that feeling first, that I knew him my whole life, or that I could have. Then the second, that I didn't want to be apart from him. There was of course the feelings I had when he had been inside after we finished the first part of our meal, and I shifted my thoughts away from that though. I only knew how I was feeling about him thus far, and I hoped that we could stay in one another's lives beyond that night.
We did eventually start talking again as we finished our Sundays, and then after I cleared our trash from the table, I returned to my seat where Kevin was still sitting on top of the edge of the picknick table with his legs dangling near the seat beneath him. He had his phone out when I sat back down, then he put it down beside him.
"It's almost time for me to go home," he said. He put his hand on top of mine. My first reaction was to jerk my hand away, but something kept me from it.
I grabbed my phone with my left hand, and then checked the time.
"Yeah, it's about time for me to return home as well," I said and I noticed that I felt a sudden sadness and deep loneliness dropping down upon me as if a wet blanket had been dropped over me. What was that about!
"My house is close to where we are right now," Kevin said. "I'll be alright walking home on my own."
After checking my Maps App, I saw that my house wasn't too far away, and after I checked the rout I put my phone down.
"Interesting," I said. "My house is close to here as well. I'll be alright walking home as well."
"I was hoping that you could walk a little with me, at least until we got close to the road where my house is," Kevin said, and when I looked at his face I saw mirrored in his own eyes what I was feeling inside.
"I'd like that," I said.
We got up, and we walked in silence for a while before Kevin spoke again.
"I've had a really good time with you tonight," he said as we walked past several street lights.
"I've really enjoyed our time together as well," I said.
We kept talking as we got close to a street on which several houses sat. Kevin slowed, and pointed to the first house on the right.
"This is my street," he said turning to me as we stood under one of the street lights.
I turned to him, and we stood close to one another and I came closer to him as if guided by a force not a part of me, and I could feel that feeling within me increasing, and it was a feeling of not wanting him to go.
"Will I see you again?" I asked as his eyes looked in to mine.
"I would love to see you again," he said and pulled out his phone. "Would you mind giving me your number, and I can give you mine as well?"
We exchanged numbers, and then put our phones away.
"Thanks Cole," Kevin said and he stepped closer closing the distance in front of us.
"You're welcome," I said and I felt his arms slowly incircle me.
A small part of me wanted to resist the physical contact, but I ignored it, and I practically melted in to his embrace. I then wrapped my arms tightly around him, and we stood like that for what seemed like an eternity! I had my head resting on his chest with the side of my face pressed to his chest, and I closed my eyes and just let myself be in that moment.
He was built large, and I could tell that a huge portion of it was muscle. I could feel his warmth as well, and knew that some of it was from the intense heat outside, and I could smell his natural sent, and could also tell that most of his deodorant had melted away long ago, but I didn't care. His sent made me feel safe, and though I wasn't hard, I did feel the beginnings of the thickening at the base of my cock that signified the beginnings of an erection, and I knew that if I held on much longer I'd be totally hard. I still held on though, and my focus shifted from the feelings between my legs to what I was feeling emotionally, and I was feeling safe, protected and well, loved. I was feeling feelings that I hadn't ever felt before, and I never wanted it to end. I could question things later, but I was going to enjoy what I was feeling in that moment.
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Kevin
It was far from like me to hug a boy I had met just minutes or hours before. Chance and I hugged regularly, but we had known each other for the past five years, so of course we would have that physical contact, but Cole was a guy who I knew for only about five hours at that point, and he could be someone who hated physical contact of any kind for all I knew, but yet here I was wrapping my arms around him, and he just as easily hugged me back, but also melted against me. It was as if he didn't want to be apart from me, and I knew I certainly didn't want to be away from him, not ever. I knew that I was in to him, and in to him really deeply. I didn't believe in love at first sight, nor in the whole Star-Crossed Lovers thing, but I was believing in it now!
I wanted to hold Cole all night long, and I felt like I had known him all of my life, and the connection that I was feeling with him for that evening felt stronger and deeper than any I had ever felt for any other boy I had known, and I wished he and I could be together all of the rest of that night.
I held him, and I could feel how small he was. I felt the warmth of his body against mine, as well as I could feel his torso rising and falling with his breathing, and I could smell his natural sent, and it was really pleasant! If he had used cologne earlier that evening before coming to the concert, it had clearly sweated away as the hours progressed. I was one who never liked the smell of cologne. Sure, I liked when people smelled clean, but cologne could be over-powering on some guys, and then there were just some other guys who smelled really good without it. Cole was one of these guys, and I thought about this as I felt the beginnings of an erection, and then my thoughts shifted away from the physical to the emotional which stopped my flesh from hardening any further.
I felt like I could hold Cole all night, and I wished once again that we didn't have to be apart from one another. Cole then raised his head and his deep-grey eyes looked in to mine. I had noticed them at certain points throughout the night, and as I looked deeply in to them now, I noticed that within him there was a story that had yet to be told, and it was a story that would probably be hard to hear. I could see from his eyes that a lot had gone on for him, and that whatever his life was like before living with the family he lived with now, that his life before that hadn't been a happy one.
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Cole
I looked deeply in to Kevin's eyes and saw deep kindness, compassion and love! I saw from those eyes the person he was, someone who loved, and loved deeply! I was lost in his eyes at that moment, and a severe natural disaster could have been happening around us at that point, and I wouldn't have noticed!
I somehow did find the strength to pull my eyes away from his, and we then separated. I backed away from him slightly on legs that felt like rubber, and he stood there watching me.
"I'll call you tomorrow sometime if you'd like that," I said trying to work up some saliva in my mouth.
"I'd really like that," Kevin said, then we hugged once more. "I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"The sentence was far from understandable if you didn't listen carefully and were standing far away from him, but I knew what he said.
"I'm looking forward to that!" I said looking up at him as we held each other tightly. "I'll talk to you tomorrow as well."
We then separated again, and he headed in the direction of his house, and I stood there returning the wave he sent me. I then stood there for a long time long after he had vanished in to the distance.
I stood there thinking about everything that had played out between us that evening from the time spent together at the concert, to our dinner together to the feelings I was feeling when he left me alone for that moment when he was in the restaurant, then to our time spent standing on that sidewalk close to where his house was and what had just transpired between us! I then looked up at the stars, then looked around me feeling like things were rapidly changing.
"I can't believe that this might actually be possible," I whispered. "It can't be can it?"
I then checked my phone's clock, and I fortunately still had some time before I would be late for my curfew. I headed in the direction of home, and my mind was completely immersed in thoughts of Kevin, and my need to be with him was all consuming at that point as I walked home!
Author's Notes
You guys might or might not have seen this coming, and of course what will happen between Cole and Kevin will be slow-growing like with my other stories. I hope you all enjoy how I handle things as they progress between the two boys, and you'll see things get deeper between them as the chapters progress. They'll be sharing more time together in the next chapter, and will be getting to know each other a little more as well. I hope you all enjoy when you read about all of that.
I hope everyone is doing well, and staying safe. I hope you're all having a good night as well, and I'll see all of you in Chapter Three.