Cole's Redemption By James
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Cole's Redemption
Definitions of Terms
Raca: A term originating from the Aramaic Language, and means worthless or inferior. It originally derives from the word "reqa".
Chapter Four
"But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire." Matthew: 5:22
1 Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field which the LORD God had made. And he said to the woman, "Has God indeed said, `You shall not eat of every tree of the garden'"
2 And the woman said to the serpent, "We may eat the fruit of the trees of the garden;
3 but of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God has said, `You shall not eat it, nor shall you touch it, lest you die.' "
4 Then the serpent said to the woman, "You will not surely die.
5 For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."
6 So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate.
NKJV Bible Genesis 3:1-6
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Cole stood over the guy he had just tied up while the guy's boyfriend was tied up behind him with a stack of plates balanced on his back. Cole had broken in to the house about 20 minutes ago, and it was only now at this point that he had gotten the two guys to do what he told them to do. He had been ordered by Bradly to take any money from the house that they had been targeting for a couple of weeks, and Bradly also went on to tell Cole that he was to make the guys leave town.
By this time it was well in to the middle of 2020, and was nearing the end of August. Cole had tired quickly of being in the group, and he long-since saw that the group wasn't going to be the new family, nor was it going to offer him the new life it had promised him. He had learned that Bradly could be violent when he punched Cole when he brought him to the barn to sleep when he decided that Cole no longer needed to be staying in his and his wife's house back in June of the year before, but he had no idea just how bad things were about to get for him.
He looked back at the guy behind him, and stepped closer to him.
"Now remember Fag," Cole began. "I hear those fucking plates slide even a little, I'll slit Gay Boy's throat over here. I won't be quick about it either."
He then turned back to the guy's boyfriend he had just finished tying up.
"Please," the guy begged. "Just let us go!"
"Shut the fuck up!" Cole screamed and slammed his fist down on the man's shoulder. "You don't do as you're told, I'll go over to your little piece of shit tramp over there, and I'll slice his balls clean off. You don't believe me, just try me; just fucking try me Bitch!"
"I--I--I-- believe you!" the man said.
"What's your name anyway," Cole asked.
"David," the man said trying to get some of his composure back.
"Okay, and what's Gay Boy's name behind us," Cole asked contemptuously.
"My name is Trenton," the second guy said.
Cole ran to him, and he rained several blows on Trenton's back, shoulders and on his face.
"I didn't fucking ask you anything!" Cole screamed then kicked Trenton in the side which broke several of his ribs. "I should just fucking kill both of you right here, right now. You two are really pissing me off, really quickly. I already hate your kind in case you haven't noticed. You guys fucking disgust me. Where did you learn this filthy shit anyway? Who taught you that taking another guy's dick in your mouth is fun? Don't even get me started on when you guys stick your dick up another guy's ass. You guys should be shot without hesitation for that fucked up perverted shit! You two, and all Fags are a disgrace to humanity, as well as to our country! I won't be happy until each and everyone of you are burning in Hell! It's too bad that Adolf Hitler couldn't succeed in wiping all you filthy Fags and Queers out a long time ago. Sure, he took a few Jews out, but he could have gone further, and I'm sorry he didn't! The two of you truly are worthless, as well as totally inferior!"
"You really are deep in evil," David said struggling not to lose all control and go in to total panic mode.
"No I'm not," Cole said stepping up to him. "I'm simply doing the work of my group, and the work of God."
"You're doing work that could be described as of being of the Devil depending on one's religious beliefs," Trenton struggled to say as the pain continued on from his broken ribs. "Seeing the way you've treated us tonight, you have no idea of what God's work even looks like, and if you did then that group taught you how to forget what it looked like a long time ago."
"I really am sorry for who ever the scumbag was that got a hold of you," David said. "You've treated Trenton and I horribly tonight, and have hurt us both like no one we have known ever has before, and yet I'm more angry at the asshole who got a hold of you and groomed you in to the group you're in."
"You don't know what the fuck you're talking about!" Cole said feeling something awakening inside him.
"Yes I do," David said turning to look at Cole though all he would see, and had seen during all that time was a cloth sack over Cole's face which had holes for him to see and breathe through. "I can imagine that at one time you weren't always like you are now."
"Shut up!" Cole yelled, but with little force behind it.
"I'm far more angry at the shit family that it most likely was that left you open to being taken in by whatever group you're with," Trenton said through more intensifying pain.
"Shut the fuck up!" Cole screamed this time with total rage and hate in his voice, but both men heard the panic and deep pain that was beginning to come through. "No one left me opened to anything but the fucking truth, and the truth is that you both are degenerate pieces of shit who deserve to fucking die! If you both have AIDS, and knowing what sex-addicted perverts you are, then you probably do. If so, I hope you both fucking live a long and painful life watching each other slowly die from that disease! It's what you fucking deserve!"
"You can't possibly mean that," David said sad at what he was hearing at this point rather than angry. His anger at this boy had left a long time ago during the course of that evening's events. "I can only imagine how miserable of a life you must have to think and even say things like that."
"Shut up!" Cole said, and both men heard his voice quavering. "My life couldn't fucking be better! I'm standing up for what I believe in! I know the truth, and the truth is on my side!"
"You're standing by a pack of lies you believe is the truth," Trenton said as he was slowly losing consciousness.
"Just shut the fuck up!" Cole screamed, and he screamed it so loudly that he saw dark spots in the center of his vision.
He was feeling what was continuing to awaken within him, and he felt tears beginning to form. He then ran over to David and untied him.
"What are you doing?" David asked.
"Go help your gay lover!" Cole yelled as he desperately fought back the tears, then ran out of the house without the money.
Cole ran through the night, and he got to a bench and sat down hard on it as he broke down.
"It isn't fucking true what those two Fags said!" he said angrily wiping away tears.
What he felt inside was completely awake now, and he was sobbing uncontrollably, and for the first time in full consciousness, he had the thoughts he had been fighting back for the last several months.
"What if it had all been a lie!" the thoughts sounded loudly in his mind. "What if you are in something you have no control over! What if you've been wrong this whole time!"
Cole's crying eventually slowed, and stopped. Now he sat there full of nausea, and he stood up, leaned forward and threw up what felt like everything he had ever eaten. It went on for what felt like an eternity, and finally it was over. He knew that the leader would punish him for sure once he got back to the compound, but he didn't care at that point. He then thought in his mind in complete words what he felt, but never named.
"I want out!" he screamed in his head.
Once Cole got back to the compound and Bradly the leader asked where the money was, Cole told him he couldn't get it, and that there had been a struggle.
"That fucking does it!" the leader said, and he took Cole down to the basement of the second building next to the barn in which him and the other boys slept. In this second building, there was a couple of large rooms, but in the second room was a basement, and in the basement were three rooms each with a metal door with a huge lock that could only be locked and unlocked from the outside. The basement was also sound-proof, and this was where the punishments of the boys took place, and this was also where the boys were given even harsher punishments, as well as where Bradly the leader liked to make the boys do things, especially Cole.
Once in the first cell which was the one where Cole was brought when he was punished for the first time once living out in the barn with the other boys, this was the cell that Bradly would continue to use for him. Now in the cell, Bradly made Cole remove all his clothes, and as he prepared to slam in to Cole from behind like many times before, he was further prepared to make sure that it especially hurt worse this time around.
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Cole
I jerked awake just before Bradly could slam in to me in the dream which was more like a flashback than an actual fictional dream. I was calming down more quickly than usual, and as I lay there on my side, I felt my heart returning to a normal rate and I then sat up. I looked at the bedside clock, and saw that it was after 2:00 A.M., and I felt like I had been asleep longer than I had been.
I had gotten home about ten minutes before 12:00 A.M., and Justin was asleep in bed. Daniel was up and in his study. When I quietly knocked on the doorjamb, he motioned for me to come in. I came in and hugged him. He held me for a moment, then we separated and sat together on the couch that he had on the other side of the room.
"How was it?" he asked as we sat there and he put an arm around my shoulders.
"It was amazing!" I said. "I really loved the performance, and they did a really good job. Hanging out with Kevin was really nice as well. Our dinner went good also, and I'm hoping he and I can hang out again here soon."
"I'm really glad that you had a good time tonight," Daniel said. "Kevin sounds like he's a nice guy, and I'm glad you and him hung out tonight, as well as glad that your dinner together went well. You guys can talk, and just let me know and we can have him over here at the house sometime."
"I'd really like that," I said.
We talked a little more, then I felt myself getting more tired as the minutes went by. After Daniel and I said goodnight to each other, I got a shower, then went in to Justin's room and checked on him. He was asleep with the covers pulled up with just his head exposed.
I bent down and gently kissed his cheek, then lightly stroked his hair for a few minutes. I then kissed him again, then whispered goodnight to him, then returned to my own room and got under the covers. I was asleep within minutes and unfortunately the dreams started up again, but they didn't seem as intense as before.
They were coming less and less as time went by, and as I sat there now completely calm again, I thought about Kevin. Being around him made me feel more safe and comforted than I had ever felt in my life. Most might think this hyperbole, but for me it was true, for I was never safe around my bio family. I was also far from safe within the group, and I only wished I could have known what was in store for me once I was in the group.
The first time I had been raped was back when I was 12, and it was by my cousin who was 20 at the time. He had been staying with my dad, and he was my dad's brother's kid. My cousin was always a bully, and on the afternoon he raped me, we had been inside the house. It was a hot sunny day outside, and it was just the two of us since my parents were gone, and at that time my cousin's dad had been in prison for some financial crime he committed, but I didn't know what it was. I had been lying on the couch watching TV, and there had been a scene of a guy and girl kissing and heavily making out, and then it went to commercial.
My cousin then asked me if I knew what comes after all that hugging and kissing, and I said that I didn't know. He told me that he would show me, and then he told me to come with him to my room, and once there he moved me over to the bed, and bent me over it. I asked him what he was doing, and he told me to stay quiet, then he yanked down my shorts then it happened.
I never knew something could hurt that much, and he would make me keep my face pushed in to the bed, and a couple of times I was afraid I would suffocate! When I asked him what he was doing, he told me that he was making himself feel good, and then told me to shut up and enjoy it. It seemed to take forever, and then after he was done, I moved slowly, and cleaned myself up as best as I could.
He then told me that he'd kick my ass if I told anyone what he did, and he then said that it would be really bad if my dad found out that I was letting him do something gay like that to me. Then when I told him that I didn't understand what he had done, he just said that it was just something that kids have to learn about sometime, then he told me to shut up and for the next few months I did the best I could to forget about it.
I figured that this got me at least opened to the possibility of believing the fucked up things that Bradly taught us about LGBT People once I got in the group, and he knew how to get our anger going. Then the second time I was raped was by Bradly, and it happened around August of 2019.
He had just beaten me when I didn't get enough money from one of the houses I broke in to, and while he would beat me with a belt on my back side, when I might make a mistake for a second or third time, he would use a heavy chain with which to beat me. He would beat me on my shoulders and back with it, and it hurt even more than anything I had felt in a long time.
On that particular night, he had beaten me with the chain, then told me that he was going to show me how to not be tempted by Fags, and when he pushed in to me, it brought back the memories of when my cousin raped me the first time.
"Sounds like you're screaming so much as loud as you are, because you secretly like it!" Bradly yelled over my screaming as he slammed in and out of me. "This is to teach you what Fags do so you won't act like them, but I have to now wonder if you secretly like taking it up the ass."
I would never forget that first time he did that, nor those words, and that only fueled my rage and anger when I'd beat up people, especially those who were gay, or who I believed to be as such.
Edgar Bradly would continue raping me a couple of times a month for the rest of 2019, and rarely the next year, but the psychological damage had been already done. I just didn't know it yet.
I sat there thinking about all of that, and then I did what I could to direct my thoughts away from that, and I remembered my evening at the concert, and especially with Kevin. When I had been with him, I had felt safe as I mentioned before, but I felt a level of security with him like I had never known before, and I wanted to get to know him more!
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Kevin
Once I got home that night I told my dad and mom how the concert went, and I also told them that things had gone well with hanging out with Cole. I then told them a little more about him, and they were glad that things had gone well with everything for me both with the concert, and with Cole. I told them that I was glad it went good as well, and after saying goodnight, I went in to the bathroom that was within my room and got a shower. Once I finished with that, I got immediately in to bed, and I thought more about Cole.
He was really cute, and more than that though, he was really kind and deeply caring. I liked him immediately, and I knew that I was falling for him, and falling for him hard! I never had felt this way about any boy before, and I wondered if this was what they meant by "love at first sight". I was figuring that this was, and I hoped that there could be a chance for Cole and I if he was gay like me.
The next morning, I went with my dad in to town to get a few things done. I had a cross neckless that I would wear, and I kept it on me since I received it from my parents when I was 13 for Christmas. It was a sign of my faith, and I felt like it was also a reminder of my family being close by as well as my faith always being a part of me. The clasp had started losing its ability to hold, and so for the past couple of weeks I hadn't had it around my neck, and we hadn't had a chance to get it fixed until now.
Once we got my neckless fixed, my dad and I went out and got lunch to bring back to the house. On the way to the restaurant, we talked for a bit, and he was asking me if I knew anything more about Cole.
"I just know what he's shared with me so far," I answered. "I hope to get to know him more as we continue being friends though."
"I hope you do as well," my dad said. "It seems like you and him have really hit it off."
"I think we have," I said.
"Well, I'd love to meet him sometime," my dad went on. "Maybe sometime next weekend if nothing is going on, we can have him over for dinner. I'm sure your mom would enjoy meeting him as well."
"I'd really like that!" I replied.
My dad and I were going to be busy for the rest of the day, as well as on Sunday. We had yard work to do the rest of that day, as well as having church on Sunday, and then Sunday Dinner afterwards, but we were going to be doing it at our Minister's house otherwise we would have probably invited Cole over, and while I thought of asking about that, I would find out later that day when I talked with Cole that he had things going on the next day as well, but I definitely looked forward to the time we could see each other again soon hopefully!
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Cole
That Saturday was sunny starting out, and while Justin went to one of his friend's house to spend the night, Daniel and I did some work in the garage. We had to sort through several boxes of old tools and other things that he had stored for a few years, and that took us most of the morning, and part of the early afternoon. Once that was completed, we worked out in the yard pulling up weeds, and once finished we worked on trimming up a few of the rose bushes we had growing in the back yard.
As we stood there working on the second of the three bushes, we were working in silence, then we began talking.
"Have you had a chance to talk to Kevin yet today?" Daniel asked. "I would love to meet him sometime."
"I'd love for you to meet him as well," I answered. "We haven't talked yet, but we will be talking later this afternoon sometime."
"Maybe sometime later this up-coming week, or over the weekend you guys can get together," he went on.
"I'd really like that!" I said.
"I'm sure you would," he responded.
After we finished up the third bush, we went over to the porch swing that was on the back porch facing the back yard, as well as the vast amount of woods we had in back of our property. I sat down, and Daniel sat down beside me placing an arm around my shoulders. I moved closer, and just sat there enjoying the physical contact. I then turned to him, and while I had been feeling like I could trust him as the months went by of me living there, I felt more and more now like he was someone in who I could confide anything.
Daniel?" I said.
"Yeah?" he replied turning to look at me.
"I know I'm still learning when it comes to expressing what's on my mind," I began. "I wanted to say though that I really enjoy the time we spend together. I really have come to think of you as a friend, and kind of like a father figure of sorts. I hope that's alright with you."
He wrapped both arms around me, and I held him just as tightly.
"You're a second son to me Cole," he said as he held me. "I always felt like there was something about you that made me want to help you, and I have always believed that you were worth saving, and as far as I'm concerned, you're also my son. Us not having the same genetic material doesn't matter. I love you like I love Justin, and that will never change."
We hadn't said "I love you." To one another up to that point, as he probably figured that I wouldn't say it back, and though he would have been right, I didn't initiate that declaration at the time, for I wasn't sure if he would reject it, and I was afraid of being disappointed. I was finding out differently now, and I started crying. Though my Aunt and Uncle would say they loved me when I would stay over with them sometimes, it didn't have even remotely the meaning, depth and love within as it did when Daniel said it at that moment. I started crying at that point, and he held me a little tighter.
"I've never really heard that from very many people as I was growing up," I said through my tears. "I love you too Daniel, and hearing that from you really means a lot."
"I'm glad it means a lot to you Cole," Daniel responded. "I do love you, and I'm sorry that others haven't told you that in your life in the past, and you deserve to hear that, and you'll hear it a lot from me, as well as from Justin, as I know he loves you too."
"I truly do love both of you!" I said as we held each other.
My tears were slowing, then stopped as Daniel held me, and I felt safe in his arms, truly safe and I loved him in that moment more than I could tell him in words!
Author's Notes
I figured that this would be a good place to stop, partly because of the dark events in most of this chapter, as well as I wanted to deepen Daniel and Cole's relationship as friends, and bring it in to them acknowledging their love for one another as father and son. I hope you all enjoyed how I handled that, and I hope you liked the chapter in general though there were some hard parts to read obviously.
I'll also be continuing on with things between Kevin and Cole in the next chapter, and so I hope you guys like their interactions they have with each other. I hope you're all doing well, staying safe and I'll see all of you in Chapter Five.