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Chapter 13
"No, not that. It was the fact of where we were. I mean, here we were sitting in a place where people normally think of death and ending. Then out of nowhere. I find my life just beginning."
"Whoa, that's amazing. I never really thought about that. That's awesome dude."
"Yeah, I guess it was."
I sat there and reached inside my shirt. There hanging on a chain was the ring Brian gave me. I slid the chain over my neck and handed it to Eric.
"There it is. That's the ring Brian gave me."
Eric reached out and took it gently in his hands. I could see him tilt the ring to the side. The inscription was still there.
NOW AND FOREVER
I sat there and watched Eric hold and caress the ring in between his fingers. I don't know why I still wore the ring around my neck. In a way I guess it was the same dilemma that Frodo had to deal with. To me the ring held a special power. I wanted to get rid of it, but could not. I tried many times, Every time always picking it back up and once again sliding it over my head. Once the ring was around my neck, I felt the power.
"So Scott, can I ask you a question?"
I looked up from the ring and stared into his eyes. There almost seemed to be a twinkle there. Eric held his hand out and let the chain holding the ring dangle in front of me. Reaching up, I laid my hand flat as he slowly let it coil into my palm. Clenching it tightly I felt its power consume me once again.
"Sure Buddy, what did you want to ask?"
"Well, I hope you don't think I'm being too forward here or anything. I was just curious. What happened with you and Brian? I mean. I have seen the love you have for him. I have seen you sad, I have seen you smile. I have seen you laugh, and I have seen you cry."
I looked up at Eric and felt all the emotions that had been brewing deep inside me all day. Like the dam gates had been opened, I felt almost out of control.
"What happened? You mean you want to know what happened to Brian?"
I squeezed my hand firmly around the ring and felt the power start to slip away. Slamming my fist down on the table. The anger once again consumed me. I squeezed my eyes shut and fought back the tears. I kept pounding my fist in anger down on the table. I just didn't know how to answer that question. I felt Eric's hand grab my arm and firmly hold it in place.
"Scott. Stop it Scott, you're going to hurt yourself."
I opened my eyes and looked down at my hand. The blood had stained my skin in between my fingers. Slowly I opened my hand and dropped the chain onto the table. The once burnished chain was now dull from my blood. The clasp on the chain had poked several holes into my fingers and palm. I looked up at Eric and saw nothing but concern, and compassion in his eyes. His hand still firmly holding my arm, I could feel the warmth of his touch.
"I.. um, Im sorry. I never meant to loose my temper. I'm sorry Eric."
Eric gently caressed my arm. I could feel the softness of his skin. I looked down at his hand and for the first time noticed how delicate his fingers were. They were soft, yet masculine in a special kind of way. Slender in addition to beautiful, they seemed perfect in a way. I could not take my eyes off of it, as he let his hand slide back and forth over my skin.
"Im the one who should be sorry Dude. I shouldn't be so damn forward sometimes. I guess I mean I know he didn't die or anything. I was just. Never mind Dude. Tell me in time if you want."
I reached over and open my backpack. Reaching inside I found several napkins left over from lunch. Placing them in my hand I wrapped my fingers softly around them to get the bleeding to stop. I thought about what Eric had just said and his statement puzzled me.
"What do you mean you know he didn't die? I never said one way or another if."
"I meant, I guess."
Eric pulled his hand away and it suddenly felt cold. He fidgeted with his hands and then looked away.
"What I meant was, I just assumed he wasn't dead."
"Why do you say that?"
"Look Scott, I can't always explain how I can feel and sense things. I just do. I just knew in my heart that Brian wasn't dead."
I took a long and labored breath. I cast my eyes skyward and then exhaled deeply. I thought about Brian. And thought about everything that he meant to me.
"No Eric, he isn't dead. I guess he might as well be though. Hey, I'm getting ahead of myself here. Did you want to here the rest of my sad story, or did you want me to jump to the last chapter now?"
Laughing, Eric threw his hands up in the air and coward back from me. I couldn't help but laugh. I opened my hand, and pulled the napkins back to survey the damage. Bits of paper had stuck to the cuts and dried in place. I stood from the table and grabbed the ring. Walking towards the edge of the water, I leaned over and washed the blood off the chain and ring. As I went to stand up, I tripped over Eric and fell backward. I looked up and saw Eric looking down at me and laughing.
"Ha ha. I bet we think were funny."
"Sorry Dude. I guess I was standing a little too close."
Eric kneeled down next to me and then pointed to the water a few feet away. Standing he walked over and reached into the shallow water maybe a few inches from the edge. Bringing his hand up he showed me what he found. It looked like a penny.
"Here you go Dude. A penny for your thoughts."
"What did you just say?"
"I said. A penny for your thoughts."
I felt a cold shiver race up my back. The way he said it. It was not the first time I had heard the expression. I took the penny, and held it up to look at it.
"So, what ya thinking."
"I was thinking about the last time I heard someone say that to me."
I held the penny and couldn't help but remember the last time I heard them very same words..........
It was summer now and Brian had left the YMCA and was working at a private pool in a well to do association. It was a large neighborhood that had a public golf course, and a clubhouse with racquetball courts. The only thing that the public could use was the golf course. Everything else required a membership. I was working at Pizza Hut. I worked in the morning doing what they called Preps. I made all the dough's and sauces. My hours were from 6:00 A.M. till around 2:00 P.M. Brian worked a split most days. Usually from 9:00 till 2:00 then 5:00 till almost 8:00. With this schedule we would meet at the clubhouse during his afternoon break and do something. Today it was going to be golf. I changed and ran out the door to meet Brian.
"Hey Buddy, did you get us a tee time today?"
"Yeah, like we ever need one. I mean come on. This place is never busy in the afternoons."
"So, ready to go to school again today?"
Brian grabbed his crouch and gave me a smart-ass grin. As much as we loved each other, we were as competitive as archrivals. I reached in my bag and pulled out a tee and clean ball. I watched as Brian swung the club back and forth loosening up. The job as lifeguard had made his skin a dark bronze color. Lifting his shirt over his head he tied it to his bag. I stared at his magnificent body. Brian truly was a boy god. Everything about him was a sign of pure perfection.
"Hey. What's on your mind?"
"Huh.Oh nothing I was just thinking."
Brian walked over and reached into his pocket. Pulling out a penny he handed it to me. I looked at it and then back up at him.
"What's this for?"
"A penny for your thoughts. You got that weird look on your face again."
I smiled as I slipped the penny in my pocket and then just cocked a smart-ass grin on my face. It was driving Brian crazy.
"Alright already. Come on, what's that smirk for?"
"To be truthful with you. I was just admiring that great bod of your. Thinking how great it would be to sneak off behind the 6th green into the woods, and take advantage of you."
"Take advantage of me? I always thought to take advantage of me, meant that I had to be unwilling. Even though the offer sounds tempting. Remember the last time we did that? I do, I came out of there with a ton of mosquito bites on me."
Oh how could I forget? I can remember the first time we snuck off and did it in the woods. I started to get hard remembering how we snuck off and played a private game of our own.
"I guess you do remember that time. I guess it wasn't HARD for you to remember that at all."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. Just tee off already will you. The distraction tactic isn't going to help you today."
"We'll see"
Brian swung his driver, and put the ball straight down the fairway. Damn. This was going to be a long afternoon. All day long he kept playing this game. I would walk up to tee off and he would be sitting on the bench rubbing himself and moaning loudly. The warm afternoon sun made his skin glow with a light perspiration. When we reached the 12th tee. I was as horny as a three peckered goat. I walked over to the ball washer and began to clean my ball. I started the up and down stroke of the washer, and licked my lips as I stared at him.
"Oh, you think that's going to work on me do you? Well then here."
To that Brian looked around and pulled the front of his shorts down, and started to stroke his now hard dick up and down. I stared with the hunger of a man that hasn't had sex in 3 days.
"Now that shit isn't fair. Damn Buddy."
I walked over to where he was sitting and looked around. The course was practically deserted at this time of day. I lunged for him and grabbed his face. I began a soft and sensual kiss that had the desired effect. Brian moaned into my mouth and I pulled his hand away. Looking around once more to make sure no one was close by I dropped to my knees and preceded to make love to my Angel. I was now familiar with how Brian's body reacted. As I moved my mouth up and down his shaft I saw his stomach begin to tense. Brian let his head roll back and moan as he shot his load into my mouth. I was feeling a little devilish and kept the tight suction and motion going as his senses went into overdrive. The head was now overly sensitive, and this treatment was driving him wild. Finally pulling back he was bent over laughing. I smiled and just sat back.
"Oh man, you know that drives me crazy."
"I know. Why do you think I did it for?"
"Well two can play that game. Now its my turn"
I quickly jumped up and ran for the tee off again. I bent over and placed my ball on the tee and acted like nothing was going on. Brian walked up and kicked my ball off the tee.
"One"
"I don't think so."
"Well then come here and let me. You know."
"Tell you what stud. If you can beat me, then you can eat me."
Well the afternoon drug on and the final score showed me the winner by 3 strokes. I could tell Brian was going all out to try and beat me. I don't think it had anything to do with our wager. We always played hard. Like I said. We played to beat each other. It didn't matter what we were playing. The thought of letting the other win was not an option.
I walked with Brian back over to the pool. He had just a little over 5 minutes before his next shift. I had been there so many times, that all his co-workers knew me. We chatted for a few minutes before Brian was asked to go and clean the filter on the main skimmer in the pump house. Brian motioned for me to follow him as he walked into the lower level of the clubhouse. We made our way down a short dark hallway before reaching a door with vented slats on the bottom of it. Unlocking the door we walked inside. Brian reached up and pulled a string that lit the room up. Inside were bags, and buckets filled with chemical used for the pool. Brian turned and shut the door.
"Beat you or not, you are going to get yours before you leave here today."
Grabbing me he pushed me back on top of a stack of bags. Kneeling in front of me he pulled my shorts down and started to treat me with a loving and incredible blowjob. I could feel the tingling start in my stomach, as I knew I was getting close. I reached down with my hands and grabbed the top of his shoulders. I was so close to shooting, and knew that it was only a matter of seconds before I would cum. I started to moan and Brian stopped and stood up. I opened my eyes and just stared. Wondering why he had stopped.
"You will have to wait till tonight for the rest."
I stood there in shock as his words sunk into my mind. The smirk he had on his face was that of an evil man that had this planned from the very beginning. I felt my balls start to ache from not being able to release.
"What? You kidding me right, I can walk out of here with this."
"Well I guess next time you wont drive me crazy after I cum now will ya."
Brian started to laugh; I myself didn't think this was funny. I grabbed his hand and started to beg him to finish me off.
"Please Brian. I can't walk out of here with this."
I pointed down to what would obviously make a tent in the front of my shorts. Brian smiled and walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me. I grabbed him and pulled his smooth skin to my face. I laid my cheek against his tight stomach and enjoyed the feel of his warm smooth skin.
"I was just playing with you Dude. You know I would never turn down the chance to make love to my man. Lay back and let me show you what I wanted to do to you out on the course."
The smoothness of his skin as he ran his hands under my shirt was driving me nuts. I was shaking at the very thought of what was about to happen. No matter how many times we ever did it, I loved each and every time. There was something magical about our relationship. I would never, and could never get tired of Brian.
"Oh god. Don't stop now."
That was all I could say as I reached to point where I couldn't stop if I wanted to. My body contorted, and I felt the release I had been waiting for. Needless to say, this would not be the last time we would sneak away to the pump room this summer if it were up to me.
"I love you Scott. I know I will never find anyone else as long as I live that I can ever love as much as you."
I wrapped my arms around Brian and held him as if I was clinging onto him for my very life. I always felt safe with him. The cruel misunderstood world could fly by me unnoticed. I didn't care. With Brian everything always made sense.
Summer was in full swing, and the time we spent with each other was always great. There were times when I really wanted to spend more time with him, but work would not permit it. Im sure the same was true for Brian. I started to make some friends at work and the same with Brian. We both needed more friends. I never for one minute ever felt threatened by his friends. As time went on, we both developed friendships with several of the girls from the pool. Both lifeguards, and both figured out in short order that we were more than just friends.
"So what do you want to do tonight Buddy?"
"Not sure. Stacey and Melissa wanted to go and see a movie or something. Is up to you."
Brian kicked back on his chair behind the desk and ate the lunch I had brought him. Seemed Taco Bell was becoming a staple for his diet.
"Ya know I am starting to get the impression that maybe Stacey is getting hots for my boyfriend here."
"Dude, please. She's a.A woman."
"Uh huh. I can see that, I can tell by the way she looks at you. She gets this weird look on her face every time you're around."
"Hmmm. You mean the same look I see on your face sometimes?"
"Smart-ass"
I reached over and wiped a trail of sauce off of Brian's chin and we both started to laugh. Stacey and Melissa walked up behind us, and had seen me wipe Brian's face.
"Aaahhh now isn't that cute. I suppose you help pick out his clothes for him too."
Brian's face went pure white. I froze and pulled my hand back. Thinking fast as I could, I tried to play it off. In my best wispy voice I turned and faced the girls.
"Of course. You don't think I would let my man out not dressed right do you?"
Brian went silent, and I just laughed and tried to make fun of the situation. The girls laughed and the subject went by the wayside. I could tell that this was bothering Brian, he was as quiet as could be. I tried several times to talk to him and he always made excuses and walked away. Finally after almost an hour I cornered Brian and tried to find out what the hell was bothering him.
"Come on Buddy, what's wrong?"
"Nothing is wrong, nothing. What makes you think anything is wrong?"
I didn't like the tone of his voice and I just walked away. I was hurt. I couldn't believe Brian was treating me this way. I stood around for another hour and after being treated like I had the plague. I walked to my truck and left.
I sat in my room in complete silence. Finally the sunset and the room became dark. My mind drifted in and out of different thoughts. I tried to remember my life before Brian. I thought I was happy. I can remember being content. My life was planned out. Then out of nowhere, that all changed. I can say for the first time in my life, I was a better person. There was a knock at my door and it opened slightly. It was my mom.
"Hey, are you going to sit in here in the dark?"
"Hi mom, yeah. I have a headache and the dark room didn't make my head hurt as much. I think Im just going to go to bed early so I can get an early start on tomorrow."
"Are you feeling sick?
"Nah. I just have a headache."
"Well if you need anything honey, let me know."
"Thanks Mom I will."
She started to close the door and then stuck her head back in again. I rolled back over and looked up at her.
"So what are you and Brian's plans this weekend. You guys usually do something, I was just curious if after work tomorrow I was going to see you. Or should I just plan on seeing you sometime on Sunday?"
I rolled back over and stared out the window. I just didn't know. I wasn't sure what was going on anymore. I shrugged my shoulder and told her I didn't know. She started to ask me question about whether or not we had gotten in a fight or anything. I fluffed the pillow up and laid my head back down.
"Im really tired Mom, I think Im just going to go to bed. If anyone calls, just take a message."
I heard the door quietly shut and I looked out the window and just thought. This all has to do with Brian getting paranoid about someone finding out about us. I know that's what this is all about. Damnit that makes me mad, I mean I don't go around flying the rainbow colors, but I cant help the way I feel about him either.
I woke up at 4:45 A.M. I still had over an hour before I had to be to work. I rolled over and stared at the clock. I know I was still out of it a little, because I finally dawned on me that Brian did not call or come over after work. My chest tightened and I felt so empty. How the hell could he do this? I mean here I was ready to roll over and die, and he walks away from me at the first sign of trouble. I crawled out of bed and made my way to the bathroom, turned on the water and jumped in. I kept replaying in my mind what happened yesterday afternoon. The water was hot, but my mind was still numb. I moped around my bedroom and.well I guess I just pouted. Nothing else could describe how I was acting. I was having a pity party for myself, and no one else was invited.
I walked out of my room and ran into my mom getting up to go to work.
"Morning Mom."
"Did you get the messages I laid by the phone?"
"No. I haven't been downstairs this morning. Why who called?"
"Several people. I wrote them all down. I have to get moving, or Im going to be late for work. See you on Sunday honey, be careful this weekend."
I didn't bother telling her that I would probably be home right after work. I don't think Brian was going to recover too fast after what happened yesterday. I walked downstairs and past my dad on the way to the bathroom. Seems Dad fell asleep again in front of the T.V.
"Your mom tell you that you have messages over by the phone?"
"Yeah. Thanks"
I walked over and seen that Chuck had called, and Brian called 4 times. I grabbed a pop from the fridge and walked out to go to work. It was Friday and that always meant a hard morning. With all the pizza dough I had to make today I would end up using more than 400 lbs of flour. I groaned as I walked to my truck. God how I hated Fridays, and the fact that Brian got mad at me yesterday wasn't going to help my mood this morning.
I opened the door and lying on my seat was 3 red roses, and an envelope. I opened it and read the card.
"I need to talk to you. REAL BAD. I will call you at work. I love you.
Brian
Scooting in the truck I held the roses. I re-read the card at least 5 times before starting the truck and heading to work. I stopped at Brian's on the way and left one of the roses and a note.
"I love you too"
Driving off I felt a little better. Either way we did need to talk. I got to work and started the daily drudge. Shortly before 10:00 I got a phone call from Brian.
"Morning Scott. Are you still mad at me?"
I sighed heavily and said "No, yet we do need to talk."
Well, what time are you going to get off today?"
"Not sure, I guess it depends what time I get the afternoon dough done. What ya got in mind?"
"I will be by your work around 2:00. Sound good?"
"O.K. Buddy. I will talk to you then. Love ya pal."
"Im glad to hear you say that. I have got a surprise for you."
"Yeah. What ya got?"
"If I told you, then it wouldn't be a surprise then would it? Love you too Dude. See ya this afternoon."
Well the day drug on. Going slower ever time I looked at the clock. I could hardly wait to see what Brian had planned. Just before I was to get off I saw Brian walk in. I gave him a Personal Pan Pizza, and a drink. He said he would be outside when I got off. I walked out and was more curious than ever to what Brian had up his sleeve.
"Im sorry Scott. I think we need to talk. What are your plans this weekend?"
"Well I wasn't sure till now. I want to do something with you. Anything, I just want to be with you."
"Jump in Dude. We have a busy weekend planned."
"What about work, don't you have to be back to work this afternoon?"
Brian smiled and just pulled out of the lot. As he was driving I couldn't help but see the smile on his face. I knew he was up to something, but he wasn't telling. I looked around and couldn't help but notice that we were heading north.
"Where we going Buddy?"
"Well I guess I should tell you. I thought we needed to talk, and I knew the perfect place to do it. We have the cottage all weekend. All weekend, and all to ourselves. I stopped by your house and packed a few things for you. Lets go and have a great time"
We stood on the deck and watched the sunset. I remembered the last time we stood here. That was the night I knew I was in love with Brian. That was also the night Brian said he knew he was in love with me. I couldn't think of a better place. I loved the lake, and the way the sun would set on the water.
"Come on Dude. I have a surprise for you."
I followed him in, and sat on the couch as he started a small fire. The room was getting dark, and the only light would soon be just the flames from the fireplace. I joked that it might be a little hot, and he assured me that as small as it wouldn't be that big of a deal.
"I scooted down on the floor next to him and we just stared at the flames. It wasn't long before he turned and laid his head on my lap. Grabbing my leg he squeezed it tight.
"Im sorry Scott. I.I guess I just freaked out. I...um well I just didn't know how to act when they saw us. I don't think I could handle it right now if anyone found out. I.I just don't think I could handle it."
I reached down and let my finger run through his hair. I caressed the side of his face. I always reveled how soft and smooth his skin was, and enjoyed the close contact.
"Well, why did you have to just walk away and treat me like I was some leopard or something. I mean damn. I always thought that no matter what happened, we would always face what came our way together."
Brian sat up and looked away towards the patio door window. I could see something was really bothering him. I didn't know what I could say, or do to make it any easy on him. I scooted over closer and wrapped my arms around him.
"You just don't know what its like having to hear my dad make comments to me all the time. So Brian, got a hot date tonight? I'll bet you and Scott are just knocking the lady's dead huh? I just hate it."
Brian turned towards me and just cried in my arms. I leaned over and hugged him as tight as I could. I kept whispering in his ears how much I loved him and that everything would be all right.
"Im sorry Scott, I guess I just don't have the courage you do. As long as you holding me, I always feel great. I know I could take the world on if I were in your arms. But today I just got scared. I don't want everyone at school to find out. You're not going to be there next year. Im going to have to face them all on my own, I have to be careful."
"School or not, I will always be here when you need me. Always."
"Scott.Would.Would you make love to me?"
Brian turned his head and faced me. I leaned down and kissed his delicate lips. Oh how I loved him. And he loved me. I kept the ring he gave me on a chain around my neck. If I ever started to doubt myself, all I had to do was reach up and feel the ring through my shirt. NOW AND FOREVER that's what he said. Now and forever....
I stood up and looked at the ring in my hand. Glancing towards the lake I knew what I had to do. Just like Frodo, I had to let it go. I can remember what his ring was about and in a way it was also true with me.
One ring to rule them all One ring to find them
One ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them
I remember going to Brent's grave every time I had a problem. Seems to me that it was so easy to go and sit and talk to him. Even though it was always a one sided conversation, I always felt better when I left. Now I had Eric to talk to. But the decision I had made was all up to me. This I had to do for myself. No ones advice could help. Just like that night at the cottage. The ring bought our love to a whole new level. One ring to bring them all, and in the darkness bind them. I looked at the single most important thing I have ever had in my life. I clenched my fingers around it and through it as far as I could. A splash was all I seen. I fell to the ground and cried.
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