All the usual disclaimers apply to this story. I am not going to say this is all fiction, but I have tried to be as vague as possible to protect those who might not like to be known. The following story Involves sex between two teen males. If that bothers you, then please don't read. Please be at least 18 or within your Legal right to be able to read it in your area. Thanks 8-)
I also would like to thank 2 very important people. First. Billy Joe Walker Jr. You were always an inspiration to me. Your writing moved me more than you will ever know.
Secondly, Dave I love you. Thanks for being my best friend.
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Chapter 14
I stood up and looked at the ring in my hand. Glancing towards the lake I knew what I had to do. Just like Frodo, I had to let it go. I can remember what his ring was about and in a way it was also true with me.
One ring to rule them all One ring to find them One ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them
I remember going to Brent's grave every time I had a problem. Seems to me that it was so easy to go and sit and talk to him. Even though it was always a one sided conversation, I always felt better when I left. Now I had Eric to talk to. But the decision I had made was all up to me. This I had to do for myself. No ones advice could help. Just like that night at the cottage. The ring bought our love to a whole new level. One ring to bring them all, and in the darkness bind them. I looked at the single most important thing I have ever had in my life. I clenched my fingers around it and threw it as far as I could. A splash was all I seen. I fell to the ground and cried.......
I'm not really sure how long I sat there before I felt Eric walk up behind me. Strange how I could just tell when he was close. I stared at the water and just remembered. All the memories came flooding back so fast. It was like watching a movie on fast-forward. I remembered the first time I ever seen him. He seemed to dance as he ran around that court. Graceful, and yet so confident of his actions. The night I first stayed over to his house. I remember and still have the report card he gave me. Subconsciously I became aware that Eric was talking to me. I knew he was talking, but it took me a few seconds to gather my thoughts.
"You didn't hear a word I said did you?"
I looked up at him, still lost in my thoughts. I know I must have appeared as if I was still a million miles away. Slowly I focused on his eyes.
"I said, Brian was the luckiest guy in the whole world to have someone as great as you."
I thought for a second, and picked up a few pebbles lying next to the shore and started tossing them into the water. The words Eric had spoken rang through my mind like a distant church bell.
"Your wrong Eric. I was the one who was lucky. I was the one who should be thankful."
I looked up, and saw an expression of disbelief on Eric face. He started to say something and then stopped. He turned and started to walk away, and as quick as he had left he turned and came back.
"How can you say that? I mean, you are sitting here slowly tearing yourself apart."
"I can say that, because it's true. Believe me when I say that I have thought more about this than you. I don't know if I can explain it. I just know what I feel."
"Look Scott, I am trying really hard to understand. I just don't get it. I guess to understand love, you had to be in love."
I stood up and wiped the dirt off my knees. It suddenly dawned on me; I no longer had the ring. In my fit of anger I tossed the last thing I had left of Brian to the bottom of Lake Michigan. A mix of emotions screamed through my body. One told me good, the other told me I was a jackass.
"Shit"
That was all I could say. I looked one last time at the area where I seen the splash. Clenching my fist I turned and walked away. I walked away from everything that ever meant anything to me. I made my way back to the table and sat down on top of it. Eric walked up in front of me, his arms crossed. I could tell he was waiting for me to say something.
"So Eric, you wouldn't happen to know who won the game last night would you?"
Stunned he stood with a confused look on his face. I could see his mouth start to open and then stop several times before he finally answered.
"What.. What the hell are you talking about? I'm trying to figure out what just happened here and you ask about some game. I."
I couldn't keep a straight face anymore and finally busted out laughing. Now this really had him confused. The more I looked at him the harder I started to laugh.
"Sorry buddy, I'm just fucking with you."
Finally I think he got the joke and flipped me off. Now I was really laughing. Eric walked up and sat down next to me.
We sat there in silence for a few minutes. I really liked Eric. For the first time, I felt comfortable. I trusted another once again. I turned and looked at Eric's profile. I think this was the first time I noticed how good-looking he really was. His skin seemed to have a natural dark complexion to it. His lips were perfect and pink. The size of his nose was small and cute. Yeah cute, that's the best way to describe it. The way his hair laid over his face made him look like.like an angel. He really was as good looking of a guy as I had seen in along time. I had come this far; I might as well let him in all the way.
"Eric, I might as well tell you what I meant earlier."
Eric looked up and a smile parted his lips and he breathed a sigh. It was as if he was relieved. I could tell he understood, and knew that I trusted him enough to share my deepest thoughts with. I didn't have to stand to get on my soapbox, but I started to explain in detail why I was the lucky one.
"You know that he is the one person when you think more about him, than you do yourself. All you can ever think about is him. If you don't tell him how much you love him, you feel as if your heart is going to explode. If you don't grab him and hold him in your arms, you feel as if you might die that very second. Secondly. No matter how bad things are, no matter how much you bitch or complain about the things going on around you, he cares. He really cares enough to let you vent, and make you feel as if you are the single most important person in his life. With a smile he makes all your pain go away, and makes you love him even more. Everyday that goes by, you fall more and more in love. He still takes your breath away, and makes your mouth go dry with a smile. When you're near him, your chest gets tight, and your stomach does flips. Last but not least, you would die for him."
Eric was looking at me with great interest the whole time I was talking. Not once did his eyes leave me. After I finished I looked up at him and smiled. He started to talk and then stopped. I think he was really trying hard to grasp everything I had just said.
"Die for him. What do you mean die for him?"
"I mean I would have gladly given my life to save his. If the house were on fire I would have risked my life to save him. I also would have killed for him too."
"WHAT. What do you mean kill for him?"
"I mean if his life was in danger, and it meant that I had to kill to save his life. Then I would have. I would have done anything for Brian. Anything."
"Whoa.. Damn dude, that's some shit. But that still doesn't really answer why you're the lucky one."
"Well, when one person can make you feel that good. When he can make you feel as if nothing could hurt you. To be able to say that you loved, and loved that strong, then you are lucky, or maybe even blessed."
"I'm so jealous of you Dude. I only wish I could have found a love that strong. Maybe I did, and didn't realize it."
"Give it time Buddy. You have to look long and hard to find that one special person."
"Yeah.time. Some things in life we take for granted. Like time. I want to find that kind of love. To be able to love someone that much, It would be so awesome."
"Well there is only one problem with having this much love for one person Eric."
I paused for a second and tried to put these next thoughts and feelings in order before I spoke. Eric sat and stared at me. It was almost as if ever word I was speaking was gospel. He truly seemed interested. I finally knew what I needed to say, and how to say it.
"You see, I came to a conclusion today. I think it had a lot to do with you. The major problem with loving one person this much, is trying to find a way of letting them go. When you love one person this much, everyone else never seems good enough. You always find yourself comparing them to him. In the end all you do is push everyone else away."
"Did Brian feel the same way that you did?"
"I don't know. I always thought he did. I know that he always made me feel special. Come to think of it. Yeah.. yeah I know he did."
"O.K. then tell me. If everything was so perfect, and you guys were so in love. Did something happen that weekend at the cabin to change things?"
"You mean that weekend that Brian had arranged?"
"Yeah."
"Oh god no. Everything was perfect that weekend."
"Well then. When and what happened?"
"Well I can see we are getting impatient, so I guess I better start to wrap this story up."
"Hey look Scott, I don't want you to skip any of the good stuff.. I mean I don't want you to leave out anything that is important to the story."
Good stuff. I wonder what he meant by good stuff. Well either way it was too early in our friendship to make any assumptions. Either rate, I had not found out where Eric lives, and.. SHIT.. Im getting way ahead of my self here. Slow down Scott.
Well I thought for a moment to where I left off last time we talked. I remember driving back that weekend from the cottage feeling like I was on top of the world. Everything seemed to be patched up between Brian and myself, and we had a new agreement between each other. I looked over at Eric. He had assumed his normal listening mode. He had his elbows rested on top of his knees, and his head on top of his hands. I remember pulling into the entrance to Brian's neighborhood. The streetlights were on, and the area seemed quiet for a summer night..........
I had been holding Brian's hand all the way home. He had fallen asleep shortly after leaving; I think it was because he was so drained emotionally. I remember him telling me that he was just scared of loosing me. I gently caressed the palm of his hand. Brian always loved that. I use to joke with him, that in a former life he had to have been a dog. I stopped caressing and snaked my fingers around his again. As we got closer to his house I started out by whispering his name, and slowly got louder till he started to stir.
"Are we there yet?"
"Yeah Buddy we are."
"You going to come in for awhile?"
"I really should get home and to bed. I have to work tomorrow."
"Why don't you just stay here, I can set my alarm clock for you and you can go from here."
"You want me to stay tonight Buddy? I would have thought you were tired of me by now."
"No not yet, and I do emphasize yet."
"Smart-ass, how did you ever get to be such a big smart-ass?"
"I wonder."
Brian shot me that great smile and we got out of the car. As we walked into the house I can remember how I was still flying high from the weekend. I loved spending time alone with Brian. I guess the more time that went by, I envisioned us being together forever. I could see us coming home from a weekend at our own cabin and walking into our house. Brian's mom was up and asked how things went. We told her great and said we were calling it a night. I stopped by the phone called my mom, and told her I would see her tomorrow after work.
"So Dude, what time do you need to be up tomorrow?"
"I have to be in a 7:00 A.M. So set the alarm for 6:30. I can drive there from here in 5 minutes so I will have plenty of time."
We sat around for a few minutes waiting for Brian's mom to say her goodnights. As if on a clock, there was a slight knock on the door. She stuck her head in and said goodnight.
"She is getting to be so predictable isn't she?"
I laughed a little and Brian got up and quietly locked the door. This was getting to be a routine of ours. Once Brian's mom said goodnight. We knew that we were good to go till morning. As long as we remembered to be in a somewhat order in the morning, no questions were ever asked.
As the room got dark I felt Brian's warm smooth body cuddle over next to me. I can every once in awhile still catch that smell in the air. It was the smell of Brian. Nothing ever smelled as good as he did. It wasn't any cologne or anything. It was just him, and when I was lucky enough to stay there. That smell was everywhere.
"Hey, you tired?"
I could feel the bed jiggle a little from Brian snickering to himself. I could always find a newfound energy when it came to being intimate with Brian. We just had to be real quiet and careful. No need to alert the neighbors of our love. I wrapped my arm around his waist and pulled him tight. I sighed out loud.
"I guess if I have to, I can force myself to do this again."
I reached down and grabbed his still semi soft cock. Brian rolled back towards me.
"Funny, I was thinking the same thing. I think I have gone up and beyond the call of duty this weekend. I mean gees; I even pretended to like you."
"God, I have created a monster. No two smart-asses should ever be allowed to be in the same room together, let alone in the same bed."
I pulled him on top of me and caressed his lips with mine. The firmness of his body, and the silkiness of his skin was all it took to place me smack dab in the middle of another night of love.
"Have I told you today how much I love you?"
I knew that I had. I had probably told him at least twenty times I had. It seemed to be a game we played with each other. He would always act like he was thinking for a second.
"No. I don't believe you have."
"Well I do, a ton."
With that I squeezed him tight and we proceeded to caress and hold each other gently in the bed. The feel of his soft skin and the obsessive nibbling he was doing on my neck had me hard and unbelievable horny once again. Slowly I could feel Brian start to grind his hips into mine. There was no mistaking that hard bulge I felt.
"Brian."
I said this softly and almost out of breath.
He stopped and looked down into my eyes. I reached up and ran my fingers into his soft brown hair.
"I have been thinking a lot about this. I want you to make love to me."
Even though I had made love to Brian, he had yet to ever do it to me. He had never asked, and I didn't know if I was ready for that yet. I now knew I was. More than anything I wanted to feel him inside of me. Everything just felt right about it. Just the thought made me shiver with excitement.
"Really, are you sure? I mean we don't have to if you aren't ready."
"Yeah im sure."
"I just don't know if this is the right place to do it or not Dude. We might wake the house and neighbors up. I have waited this long. I can wait a little while longer."
"I'll be quiet Buddy, I promise I will be. Please I really want to. And tonight just seems so right."
"Well you may be able to be quiet, but I might not."
He giggled a little and kissed me gently. I pulled him to me and held him as if my life depended on it. Everything was perfect. For once in my life, I was as happy as I ever could be.
I could feel Brian starting to grind into me again. The pressure he was applying and the friction he had created was quickly sending me to my umpteenth orgasm of the weekend. As he continued to grind I roamed my hands up and down his back. Reveling in how soft and smooth his body felt. I always thought I could cum at the very feel of his skin. I buried my head into his neck and had to stop myself from placing any tell tale signs of our love. I gently kissed his neck, and sucked the bottom of his ear. This was Brian's weak spot. Soon enough I felt Brian's urgent reaction, and he lifted his head. Arching his back, his voice rough and out of breath.
"Oh god. I'm going to cum."
As his body twitched, and his face contorted, I felt his cock throb out an intense orgasm. Finally his body collapsed on top of mine. I gently caressed his back, and ran my fingers into his hair as he regained his breath.
"Your right Buddy, I don't think you could have been quiet."
I started to laugh. I could feel his body start to shake, as I knew he was laughing too. I could have died at that moment and been perfectly happy.
"Well to be truthful with you, I wasn't worried about me. I was just afraid that you would start yelling my name and screaming."
"Yelling and screaming?"
"Oh yeah. I can hear it now. Harder. Harder. Take me you big stud. Make me your love slave."
I couldn't hold back anymore. I busted out laughing. Brian quickly put his hand over my mouth trying to keep me quiet. But in doing so, he started to laugh to. I placed my hand up and over his mouth. After what seemed like minutes, we both gave up and decided that his mom had to have heard us. We waited and listened. Nothing. There was no movement at all. I darted out of bed and ran to Brian's dresser drawer. I grabbed a new pair of boxers. I offered to pull his old one off, and clean him up.
"Yes, that would be nice. Be a good love slave, and be quick about it my good man."
He closed his eyes and placed his hands behind his head. That was a big mistake. I grabbed his boxers and slowly pulled them down. The evidence of our love session was confined to the patch of hairs above his now limp cock. Pulling them completely off, I reached up and wiped him clean. Pulling the new one on, he raised his butt off the bed.
"There my master. Will you require anything else this evening."
"No slave, I think that will be all."
"Very good sir, here you can put these away."
I tossed his shorts at him and landed just below his face on his neck. Quickly I turned and high tailed it towards the door, and made my way to the bathroom. All the way out the door I heard Brian whispering loudly that he was going to get me for that. When I re-entered the room he was sitting on the bed, arms crossed and smiling like he was up to something.
"Oh how sweet. You waited up for me."
"Uh huh."
I could tell he wasn't mad at me, but I wasn't sure of his angle. I could always tell when he was up to something, and he was defiantly up to something.
"Wow look at the time. I guess I should be getting ready for bed."
"Uh huh."
Oh shit. The grin on his face told me that I was in for a good one. I made my way over to the bed and carefully pulled the sheets back. Nothing, nothing was there. I lifted the pillows up and checked underneath them too. Once again nothing was there.
"Your up to something aren't you?"
"Uh huh."
"Ummm, when can I expect to find out?"
"You have to sleep sometime tonight don't you?"
"Look Buddy, I was just playing with you. You know I love you."
To this comment he smiled real big and gave me a real evil laugh. I sat down on the edge of the bed and laughed along with him. Even though I knew he was going to get even with me. The love I felt for him at that moment was overwhelming.
"I can tell you this. I may not get you tonight. I may not get you tomorrow; hell I may not even get you back for another month or two. But when I get you. I will get you good. Now get in bed. I was getting lonely while you were gone."
We lay in bed that night and talked till I fell asleep. We had made plans to either go to the cabin next weekend, or we would go camping. Either way next weekend was going to be a special time. I was going to give Brian something I could only give one person. I was going to give him my virginity.
All through the week we made plans for the weekend. As the time got closer it was obvious that the cabin wasn't going to be an option. Brian's parents had given the cabin to his older brother to use for a skiing party. It looked like to only choice we had was to go to Chain-O-Lakes State park to go camping. I was familiar with that campground and knew there was only one really good spot to get. Thursday after I got off of work I ran up and grabbed it before the weekend. I set the tent up and paid through Sunday. This way, I knew we would have the perfect spot. I got home and finished packing the truck up for tomorrow. Friday came and Brian traded off with another guard to get off by 4:00.
"You ready for this weekend Buddy?"
"I have been ready all week. Lets go."
We made the short drive north and settled in for a nice comfortable night around the fire. I don't think we could have asked for a better night. The campground was a little crowded, but by 10:00 P.M. all was quiet and peaceful. The one thing I loved most about Brian was our comfort level. We could be content either talking or just sitting quietly. Either way, there was no need or urge to feel as if we had to entertain the other. Both of us seemed content with the others company. I stretched my arms and faked a yawn.
"Wow. Look at the time. I think im going to hit the sack early."
Brian acted like he was stretching and yawning too. We started a tradition that night. >From that moment on, anytime we went camping we always pissed on the campfire before we went to bed. All you had to do was make sure you were upwind of the steam.
After we settled into the tent, there was defiantly nervous tension in the air. I was excited and yet a little scared at the same time. All week long I kept telling myself that this is what I wanted. I wanted to take this to the next level.
"Hey, you seemed a little quiet tonight dude. You O.K.?"
"Yeah. I guess I was just kind of deep in thought."
"You know, we don't have to do anything that you're not ready for. I guess what im trying to say is. You don't have to do it to prove anything to me."
I was staring at the ceiling of the tent. I turned and rolled onto my side. I reached my hand out and caressed the side of his cheek.
"I just wanted this to be perfect. I wanted everything about this moment to be.perfect. I wanted it to be with the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with."
I bent over and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. I laid my head down on his chest and let my face soak in his warmth. This was the perfect night. I was with the perfect person. I knew at the moment that everything I ever wanted I had right next to me. I felt Brian's hand softly caress my back and stop at my neck. Moving his hand down my chin he raised my face up to look into his eyes.
"Am I that person?"
I looked deep into his eyes. I lowered my head and gently kissed the hand that was holding my face. I loved his hands. I don't know if you could call it an obsession, but I really loved the look and feel of his hands.
"Yes. Yes you are."
He raised his hand up and placed it on the side of my face. Holding it as if he was trying to memorize everything about me. He just kept looking at me. I finally rolled my head down trapping his hand between my shoulder and cheek.
"I love you Brian."
"I know you do. Now let me show you without a doubt, that I really am that person."
Brian pushed me back and started to softly kiss me. Gentle and slow at first. Then as he proceeded, his touch became more urgent and lustful. He was in total control. I was now merely a player upon his stage. He was the director, and I was following his lead. As his touches and movement made there way down my chest and stomach, I could feel my need to release.
"If you aren't careful, this is going to be over before it starts."
"We cant have that now can we? Just take it easy, and we will slow down a little bit."
Brian reached over and grabbed something from his bag. At first I wasn't sure what it was, then I could see it was lube. I felt totally at ease with everything he was doing. I knew he would be gentle and not hurt me. Once again he started his descent down my chest. Working ever so slowly he had me yearning for more. Lubing his finger up, he started to penetrate me. The feeling was strange at first. I mean lets face it, your body isn't use to something going in an end that was only meant as an exit.
"O.K. Dude. This may be just a little uncomfortable at first."
"Its O.K. Buddy. It isn't that bad so far."
That's when he stuck a second finger in. I clenched down on the sleeping bag and rode out this new sensation. My body adjusted to the second finger faster than the first. I was now as ready as I ever was going to be. I turned around and got into a 69 position and took him into my mouth. He was already hard, and obviously very ready. I grabbed the lube from him and applied a large amount to his cock. Gently and almost teasing him I stroked it up and down.
"Scott get on top. That way you can control at first how much you take and how fast you take it."
"O.K. lets go slow till im really ready for it."
I placed my leg over top of him and took his cock in my hand. I lowered myself down till it was pressing hard against the opening. I pressed down till I felt it starting to go in. With no more than 2 inches in I had to stop for a second. I opened my eyes and looked down at Brian. All I saw on his face was concern and love. Keeping my eyes locked on his, I sank down further. I took another two inches and stopped once again.
"You O.K. Dude?"
"Yeah. Have I told you today how much I love you?"
"You know, as a matter of fact you have, but I still love to hear you say it. Tell me again will you."
I bent over placed a deep and passionate kiss on his lips. With my lips locked firmly to his I took the rest of him in. I now was resting on top of his thighs. Every inch of Brian was inside.
"I love you Buddy. I love you more than anything."
Brian moved his hands all over my chest and stomach. I proceeded to move up and then slowly back down. After a few minutes I started a slow and very cautious pace. What felt like hours, couldn't have been more than a couple of minutes. I was now able to pick up the pace.
"Oh my god. This feels so good. You keep this up Dude and I wont last long at all."
I now found a pace that seemed to make us both happy. I was really starting to get into it now. A warmth circulated through my body. It wasn't long before I heard Brian really start to moan loud. A new feeling started to consume me. An awesome sensation I had never experienced before.
"Oh god.. I love you so much Scott. Don't stop, please don't stop."
Not only did I not intend on stopping I wanted more. I wanted this to never end. I was really going strong now. I tossed my head back and felt Brian starting to stretch my insides out more. I reached down and grabbed the hands that were on top of my thighs.
"Ohhh.uh god. I'm Cumming. Im.. ahhhhh."
With that last scream of Brian's, I could feel ever pulse of his cock as he poured his love inside me. Finally I felt a tingle and my body felt like it was shaking. I almost thought I was having a convulsion. I fell forward and collapsed on top of Brian. I don't know how long I lay there before I lifted my head. We were both covered in sweat. Brian looked more beautiful than I can ever remember. I rolled off and felt totally drained.
"Jesus Scott. Look at this."
I looked down at his sweat-covered body. A huge wet spot covered his stomach and chest. I didn't even know it, but I had shot my load all over him. He was covered. I don't think I had ever had that big of an orgasm before in my life.
"My god Brian. I don't think I felt anything like that before in my life. That was. It was AWESOME."
"I know. That's the way I feel every time we do it. I don't know about you, but lets sneak over to the showers and get cleaned up."
We made our way over in darkness. I felt a sudden urge to have to shit. Brian said he thought that must be normal after the first time or something, cause he felt the same way. We cleaned up and made our way back to the tent. That night we laid with our heads sticking out the entrance of the tent. We held each other and stared at the stars.
"Scott. Have I told you today how much I love you?"
I thought for a second and rolled my head to look at him.
"As a matter of fact, no you haven't."
"Well I do, a ton."
"I don't think I will ever look at the stars the same way again. Now every time I look up, and I see the North Star. I will remember this night and I will always think of you. I love you Brian. Now and Forever."
I fell asleep that night with Brian's head on my chest. I now knew what it was to be loved. Loved so completely. I gave Brian the most precious gift I ever could. I gave him ME.
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