"Coming Out Of The Dark"
By Chris Engelke
Disclaimer: No, none of this ever happened, only in my warped mind. Please e-mail any comments or suggestions to chris_engelke@yahoo.com.
Author's Notes: Yes, I am finally back. I've been so busy with my life that I haven't had the time to type out all that I have been writing freehand in a notebook. I have basically written the next couple of chapters also.
Last night, I had the chance to FINALLY see the Backstreet Boys live in concert. It was SO awesome!! They definitely are outstanding performers! Plus, I was very lucky in having what I felt was one of the best seats in the place. I was right by the end of one of the ramps, close enough to feel the heat from the pyrotechnics of the show. I even was able to look at both Alex and Kevin deep in their gorgeous eyes. Kevin even winked at me! I will remember that night for a very long time! If they are coming to a city near you, go see them! It definitely was worth the high price of a ticket!
CHAPTER FOUR:
Chris stopped Tom's rambling by kissing him squarely on the lips. Tom was stunned at first. His eyes bulged wide in surprise. "I cannot believe I am kissing him!" he thought to himself. "I'm kissing Chris and I think I like it!" Tom deepened the kiss.
Chris and Tom continued their passionate kissing after briefly stopping. They were both surprised what was happening. AJ and Kevin snuck out of the room quietly.
"Oh my God!" AJ laughed.
"I guess this means neither of them are in love with Lance anymore, huh?" Kevin replied.
As AJ and Kevin discussed what was happening between Tom and Chris, Lance and Justin approached AJ and Kevin.
"Hey, AJ...Kevin." Lance coolly said.
"What are you two *N Stinkers doing here?" AJ asked
"We're here to see our friend!" Justin replied. "What are you two Backdoor Boys doing here?"
"We were visiting a friend and heard Tom singing. He's a great guy." Kevin replied.
"Well, Justin needs to talk to Tom, so excuse us." Lance said.
"Don't go in there, Justin. Chris is with him now." Kevin begged.
"Why should we listen to either of you?" Justin steamed.
"Hey! We don't care if you listen to us or not! Lance might get hurt if he sees what's going on in there!" AJ yelled.
Lance and Justin ignored AJ and Kevin and entered the room. Unfortunately for Chris and Tom, Justin and Lance entered the room the moment Tom deepened the kiss with Chris. "Tom, Josh said that you..." Justin said, and then stopped dead in his tracks when he saw Tom and Chris kissing.
Justin stood there in shock with his mouth wide open. Lance didn't take it as well. All he could do was to shout "No!"
Out of the corner of an eye, Chris saw Lance and Justin. He motioned to Tom. Tom looked at Lance and Justin then smiled. "Follow my lead." He whispered to Chris.
"What the fuck was going on just now?" Lance screamed.
"Oh, God! James! We didn't plan for this to happen! We were gonna make you think we got together, but something happened when we kissed. I don't know what that something is or if something will come of it. Actually, I doubt something will come of it."
"How could you do that? I thought you loved me!" Lance cried.
Chris was angry when he heard Lance say that. "Gee, where have I heard that line before?"
Lance ran out of the room, crying. "Chris, I know you're still pissed off at him, but could you go after him?"
Chris couldn't believe what Tom was asking him to do, especially with what Lance did to him. "What? Are you crazy? Why me?"
"I need to talk to Justin. I promised Josh I would. Please?" Tom begged.
"Ok. But you owe me." Chris relented.
"Thanks, Chris! I owe you a lot already. You forgave me when James pulled that shit. I thought you'd hate me." Tom cried.
"I'd never hate you, Tom! You've become one of our closest friends so quickly."
"I still want to know the real story why you two were in serious lip lock!" Justin said.
"Justin, I'm still angry at James for all that he did to you guys. He hurt you all in one fell swoop. I was all ready for some big time revenge. What I told you two earlier is true. I was kissing Chris, but all I could think about was James. Then all of a sudden, I realized I was kissing Chris...and I liked it."
"Are you attracted to Chris?" Justin asked.
"He's gorgeous, but there's no real chemistry between us."
"What if Chris likes you?"
"Do you think that he could be attracted to someone else so quickly after James hurt him so much?"
"You're right." Justin said calmly. "I guess not."
"Exactly. The changes are even slimmer knowing it's me. I almost broke up the group!"
"Tom!" Justin hugged Tom. "We don't blame you. Get it through your thick skull!"
"It's still partially my fault, though. I should have let him know I loved him so long ago."
"I'm dropping the subject now! Man, you are so dense at times! Why did you want to speak with me anyway?"
While Tom and Justin continued talking, Chris ran after Lance. He was running so fast that he didn't see Michael in his path. He accidentally bumped into him."
"Hey!" Michael yelled. "Watch where you're going!"
"I'm sorry! Sheesh! I'm just trying to catch up with my friend!" Chris replied.
"What happened with Lance anyway? He almost knocked me down too. He took one look at me, started crying harder, then ran off." Michael related.
"Tom and I were so angry at him that we were planning revenge." Chris explained.
Michael didn't like how that conversation was progressing. He asked Chris how they had planned on getting even with Lance. Chris didn't know who Michael was. "Why should I tell you? You're a complete stranger." Michael explained whom he was and that he and Tom were friends. "You're Michael? I heard you just kicked Lance and Joe out of your house after you invited them in."
"Chris, you have to understand something, something that even Tom doesn't know. I'm very protective when it comes to Tom. I'll do anything I can to protect him from getting hurt." Michael replied. "We'll talk later. Go find Lance."
"Thanks! I'll see you later." Chris ran off to look for Lance.
"I'm gonna fucking kill Tom!" Michael steamed. He went over to Tom's room, where he saw Tom talking to Justin.
"Justin, please don't break it off with Josh. He really does love you." Tom pleaded.
"He loves me?" Justin yelled. "He has a fucking funny way to show it! He slept with Joe's brother!"
"He must have had a reason to do that." Tom said, trying to calm Justin down.
"He did...he couldn't keep that dick of his in his pants!"
"I bet it's a small dick, isn't it?" Tom asked, hoping that would make Justin laugh.
"No. In fact, it's quite big. He's not as hung as Lance, but it's close."
That was not the reaction Tom was expecting. He blushed a deep crimson. "You've seen Lance's dick?"
"Tom, you have to realize that we've seen each other naked. That has to happen with all of the time we spend together. We've even seen each other jerking off at least once."
"I feel slighted. I haven't seen any of you naked yet!" Tom snickered.
"And we haven't seen you."
"I know how that can be solved."
"How?"
"An orgy! We can have an orgy!"
"You are so funny! I almost believed you!"
"The funny thing is I don't know if I'm really joking or not."
Justin was stunned at Tom's admission. "What?"
"It's part of the reason I did what I did with Chris. I have a sexual addiction. It's no excuse for what I did, but it is an explanation." Tom admitted. "I have a lot of issues I need to work through before I can commit myself to anyone. I do love him, but I'm still so screwed up. I haven't gotten therapy because of my suicide attempt yet."
"Why haven't you done that yet? We're all worried about you."
"I've been busy fucking up my life, Lance's life, and Chris' life. I've also been trying to save the relationship of my best friends."
"You don't have to worry about Josh and I." Justin responded.
"Of course I will worry about you. I don't want you two to break up."
"We won't break up."
"Really?"
"I love JC. I never stopped loving him. I just need some time. We're getting off the subject, though."
"What was the subject?" Tom said, hoping the subject would be dropped.
"Nice try. We were talking about you and Lance. Do you love him?"
"Yes."
"But..."
"Let's put it this way. Would you sleep with James, Chris, or Joe if you had the chance?"
"God, no! They're my bros!" Justin said. Inside, Tom groaned. He had always heard about Justin going into his "Justin-ebonics", but had never heard it first-hand. He hoped it wouldn't start now.
"What if you just met them?"
"No! I love Josh!"
"That's my point!"
"You would sleep with any one of the rest of us?"
"I don't know...maybe."
"Wow! I'm stunned!"
"I already told you my sex drive is high. All five of you are gorgeous."
"Who would be your first choice." Tom laughed when he heard that. He knew that Justin was hoping that he would say him.
"If you asked me a year ago, I would've probably said Josh. Now that I know him, I probably couldn't sleep with him, though he is incredibly sexy. He is my best friend."
"You're stalling!"
"Damn! I was hoping you wouldn't notice!" Tom laughed nervously. "It's Chris."
"Chris?" Justin was doubly surprised. He really thought Tom would have said him, but mostly because of what had earlier happened. "It's not me?"
"Sorry, Justin. I'm just not that attracted to you."
"Why not?"
"I'm usually not attracted to blondes."
"Lance is a blonde, if you hadn't noticed."
"Yes. I noticed that."
"Why is Scoop different?"
"Physically, it's his eyes, his voice, even his adam's apple. I know how strange that sounds."
"And otherwise?"
"His heart. He is about the nicest person I ever met."
JC walked into the room angry. "How could you do what you did to him, Tom?" JC steamed.
"Who the fuck are you to talk? At least he didn't fucking cheat on him with his best friend's brother!" Justin yelled back.
"Please! Not now!" JC replied back, with hurt in his voice. JC regretted cheating on Justin tremendously and felt that his love would never be able to forgive him.
"Where's Lance?" Tom asked.
"He's gone." JC replied.
"Gone?"
"Yes. He's going back to the hotel to pack and then he's flying back to Orlando."
"See?" Justin told Tom. "You really hurt him!"
"I didn't know he would react like that!"
"We'll talk to him for you." JC said. Tom had agreed to talk with Justin for him in order to try to get Justin to forgive him, and felt he needed to do the same for his friend.
Justin was not able to be so gracious to Tom. "No, we won't!"
Lance walked into the room. "Don't fight because of me. I'll talk to Tom."