Confusing Life

By moc.loa@4002eiggajD

Published on May 19, 2004

Gay

No Longer Alone 6

Disclaimer: This story containts details of a consenting realtionship between homosexual males. If you are not of age (18 or 21 depending on where you live) or this offends you then go away and don't read it. All chapters are Copyrighted and I hold the rights to all of them.

Thanks to everyone for reading the past chapters. Some people and emailed me saying there where confused about who was with who in this story so here is a cpls list and sorta who everyone is.

DJ/Paite: Dating 5 months, DJ is Cam's roommate and CJ's best friend, Paite is CJ's roommate.

Cam/CJ: Dating 4 mths

Len/Bran: New friends of DJand Paite

No Longer Alone 6

"Hey, I am not going to be able to go with yall this weekend" Cam said coming home from work.

"Oh, why not" I ask

" Well I have decdied that I am going to go home and come out to my parents" he said

"Oh, are sure your ready" I ask concerned

"Yea, I need to do this so I can be totally happy and not have to worry about them finding out"He said

"Ok, when are you goign to leave"

"Tomorrow after class"

"Thats kewl I was going to stay with Paite anyway"

Well after we got home and bumed around the house for awhile me, Paite and CJ went to the mall to get some stuff for that weekend. We ended up running into my uncle while we where there and talked to him for a little while. After we left the mall we called Cam to get him to met up with us for dinner at a mexican food place in the mall. While we where eating my cell phone rang.

"Hello"

"Hey its Len, whats up"

"Not much just waiting on our food to get here, what are you up to"

"nada, I was just calling to let you know that me and Bran are just going to met yall at the hotel Saturday"

"Oh, ok thats kewl, I will just call you when we get close to Houston"

"Ok, well I will let you go, me and Bran are going to a frined of his for dinner"

"Ok, bye"

"bye"

We just talked and ate through dinner and then all headed back home, me and Cam had class and work the next day and Paite and CJ, had work so we all just went home and went to bed. That night I had a dream that something was fixing to happen and cause alot of pain amongst the four of us.

The next day after class I had lunch with a frined of mind named Lex. She is like one of the only people that I can talk to about anything and she would just tell me that I am nuts or I am letting things get to me to much.

"Hey babe" Lex said when she saw me walk up.

"Hey, how was class"

"Don't ask, was Dr. Novak a pain in the ass when you had him" She said

"Yep, especilly the week before the final, I think all of us wanted to kill him" I said laughing

"So where are we going to go eat at today, since it is your turn to buy i get to choose"

"Ok but it has to be on campus, I am poor boy today and only have meal plans" I said enjoying the look i got.

"ughhhh...you know I hate campus food, why couldn't you get money from your husband and take me somewhere nice to eat"

"We are going to pride weekend and are saving up so we can party" I said trying not to laugh at her.

"Fine, Ag Cafe it is then "She said" But next time we are eating off campus"

"Yes your majasty as you wish" I said running from her.

We went and ate and talked about class and how thigns between her and her bf where going. I tried to play off that nothing was bothering me. I manged to play it off until we where walking to my office.

"Ok whats wrong" she said looking at me

"Nothing, everything is fine" I said trying to be convincing

"You know you might be able to lie to everyone else but not me, now spill"

" I had a dream that something was going to come between me and Paite and that it was someone that I was friends with"

"Oh, D you don't have anything to worry about that boy loves you just as much as you love him, no stop worrying and go have fun this weekend, god knows you need it"

"Ok, when do you become a shrink" I said being a smart ass

"When i met you"

Well we got to my office and my boss met me at the door about some stuff that had to be done before I left for the weekend. I finally got to call Paite to come pick me up around 6pm and we went to dinner then to my house to get some clothes and stuff for the weekend. Paite had to get up early to go to work the next morning so we went to bed early and when the alarm went off I turned it off and gave him a very plesant wake up call. After he left I went back to sleep and slept til CJ came and woke me up to go running with him.

"Ok, whats on your mind I ask" We had been running for a few little bit.

"How did you know something was on my mind" he ask

"The fact that you woke me up to go running, you never wake me up when I stay over here"

"I am just worried about how Cam's parents are going to react"

"Oh, I am to but I think everything is going to be ok, Cam has dropped hints for awhile to them"

"I know, I am just worried"

"If it doens't go well he will call us"

"Your right, I guess I don't need to worry so much, I might turn into you" He said laughing.

"You better be glad you are my best friend I might just have to kick your ass"

Well we finished out run and got back to the apartment and went and played in the pool for awhile. Paite got home when we where walking back to get ready, so we ended up packing and getting ready to leave to go to Houston. When we got about half way there I called Len and the other friends that we where staying with and told them we where almost there. We got to Houston and got checked into the hotel and me and another friend of ours walked to get something to eat, when we got back Bran told us that the other three had gone to the Galleria. The three of us that where left decided to go down stairs and have a few drinks before we got ready to go. When we got back up stairs the other three where back and Len was sitting really close to Paite so I went and sat in Paite's lap.

"Did you buy me anything" I ask Paite

"Yep but you will have to wait until later to see it" He said

"why can't I see it now, you know i hate suprises" I said giving him puppy dog eyes.

" Your adrobable when you don't get your way you know that" he said and kissed me

"Yes and your such an ass hole sometimes, but for some reason I still love you" I said getting up to go get ready " you bitches need to get ready so we aren't late"

Well after an arguement between Bran and Len, and CJ telling me and Paite that we looked like crap we where finally ready to go. We got a cab and went down to the area the prade was going to be and met up with a frined of mine down there. We hadn't seen each other and where both goign to the prade so we met up.

"Yes, I am looking for this little twink that I am friends with" I said when I walked up behind him.

"Well you found him" He said giving me a hug and peck on the cheek

" Whats up mini me" That was his nick name since he was younger then me and we have the same name.

" Nothing, So where is this husband of yours i hear about all the time, I want to met him"

" OK OK OK, Paite this is D, aka mini me, D this is Paite and the other one is CJ" I introduced them

We all ended up talking and getting a really good place to watch the prade from. I wrapped my arms around Paite and kissed him on the neck, that was a big mistake. He brushed me off and then went and stood up againts the bulding behind us.

" What was that all about" I walked over and ask him

" You know I don't like you kissing me in public" he said

"Why because you are scared people will think you are a fag, baby guess what eveyone here is or they don't care" I said and walked off

I walked back over to where everyone else was and Steve came up to me.

"Everything ok" he ask

"PERFECT"I half shouted

"Umm ok" He said and walked off. He ended up going over and talking to Paite and a few mins later they came back. I ignored Paite for about 30 mins and he finally came up to me.

"I am sorry, I just am not comforatbale doing stuff like that in public" he said wraping his arms around me.

"Its ok, I just got carried away" I said and leaned back against him.

Well we watched the rest of the prade and ended up walking to the bar we where going to. We had a great time there, well atleast until the end of the night. See Paite had been staying close to Len all night and I got upset so, I got a tad bit carried away drinking that night and it all decided to come back up. I ended up having to be carried out of the bar by Paite and CJ. We got back to the hotel and Paite helped me take a shower and change cloths and get in bed. I woke up the next morning with Paite holding me. We ended up getting ready and going to the Galleria, while we where there Paite and Len where staying really close and where both ignoring me, but I burshed it off. We ended up leaving and heading home and I fell asleep in the truck with my head in Paites lap. He woke me up when we got to my house so I could take care of the dogs and stuff. A little while later CJ came over and mowed the yard and did some stuff in Cam's room. About an hour after he got there Paite called me.

"Hey babe"

"Hi" He said and I could tell that he had been crying.

"Baby whats wrong" I ask, i was really concerd Paite never cried. He didn't respond but I heard him start crying again. " baby i am on my way there".

I hung up and ran outside and got CJ to take me over there. When I got there Paite was curled up on his bed his eyes where red and he had tear stains on his face. I got in bed with him and held him.

" Whats wrong baby" I ask after he stopped crying

"Just everything that hppended this weekend" He said

" What stuff"

"The fight at the prade, you getting as drunk as you did it just seems that all we do is fight or piss each other off"

" Paite, I know we are fighting alot right now but we are both dealing with a lot of stuff, your having a hard time at work and I am stressed out about school. I am sorry if i seem to take it out on you. I am not doing it on purpose"I said

"I know, I am just tired of all the arguing that we do" he said with tears in his eyes

"I am to, Lets make a deal if things don't get better we will take a break" I said trying not to cry

"Ok" Was all he could say.

Well we ended up both crying ourselfs to sleep holding each other. When we woke up we talked and took a shower that lasted a tad to long (hehehe). Then we went back to my house and hung out with CJ for awhile til we decded to go to bed. We went into my room and as soon as the door closed we where all over each other and ended up making love almost all night. The next morning I had to get up to go to class and work and Paite had the day off. After work Paite picked me up and told me that Len and Bran and broke up and that Len was staying at his house until he found a new place to live. He also broke our plans for that night which lead to an arguement. Paite dropped me off at my house and then left to go to his, we didn't talk to each other for the rest of the night or the next day. Finally I went over there after work a cpl days after the fight and Len anwserd the door in his underware.

"Paite is asleep and i don't think he wants to talk to you" he said

"Len fuck off, he is my bf and I need to talk to him" I said walking through the door.

I went back to Paite's room and he was awake and turned his head when I leand down to kiss him. We ended up talking for a few mins and I left, Len had left leaving a note saying that he wanted to give us privacy. I ended up going home and watching TV, then went to bed early, I was emiotionally drained.

I woke up the next day late since I had the day off work. I hung aroun the house and did landry and cleaned my room. Paite called me late that afternoon when he got home from work and ask if I was busy and if he could come over. I told him to go ahead and come over that I was just fixing to take a shower. He got there right when i finished getting dressed.

"Hey"

"Hey, we need to talk" He said

"Ok" I said and went and sit down on the couch he sit downon the one acorss from me" whats up"

" I can't do this anymore, I can't put up with the argueing and fighting." He said " For the past month that is all we have seemed to do, I can't handel it anymore. I would say lets take a break but I don't think you could do that"

I just sat there in shock

"D...I" he started to say

" What the fuck.. I thought we agreed to try to work things out and now here you are breaking up with me because we are going through some ruff time. You told me the other night that you loved me and wanted to work things out. How many other lies have you told me" I said and just started crying

" I never lied to you, I do love you, I am just really confused about thing right now" he said moving over to the couch i was on. He tried to put his arm around me and I pulled away.

"Then why did you say what you did the other night, you promised me that we would try to work things out and now here not even a week later your saying its over, If you didn't mean what you said why did you say it" I half yelled at him.

" I did mean it when I said it, things have just changned since then"

" The only thing that has changed is that Len and Bran broke up and Len is staying with you" I said

" I just need some time to think and figure things out about myself, I still do love you, and as much as you probly don't want to belive that right now I do"He said

"But why can't we go through things togeather, if you say that you love me why can't I be there to help you figure thigns out. Paite you mean more to me then anything or anyone, but I guess I don't mean as much to you" I said

"I do care about you and I always will, If I didn't care about you I would have broke up with you over the phone. Why don't you go wash your face and lets go get something to eat and talk" He said

"I can't right now, I need some time alone to think" I said not looking at him.

"Do you want me to bring you something back?" he ask

"No" I said as he got up to leave.

I got up and followed him to the door and he gave me and hug and held me for a few mins. He told me that he would call me later. After he left it finally hit me that I was alone again and I broke down and cried myself to sleep and slept until Cam woke me up.

"Bubba whats wrong" he said

" Paite broke up with me" as soon as I said it I broke down and started crying again and I realized that I was now Alone again.

Ok guys this is possibly the last chapter for this part of the seris. I am still trying to figure out if i want to add some stuff to No Longer Alone or just start with the new part of the series. Please email me your suggestions and ideas. Also, I am going to take some time away from writing as i just lost my job and am having to find a new one. I am hopefully going to have the next part out in late May or early June. Please email me with comments and suggesstions.

Thanks DJ

email: dja778@aol.com AIM: dja778 Yahoo: djaggie04

Next: Chapter 10: Starting Over 1


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