The events, name, story, places, occurrences in this store are all fiction. Any information which can be traced to anyone is purely coincidence. I have written this as if in the eyes of a young man, at the tender age of 21. Each chapter will be in the form of a journal entry, as young Corey adds events to his journal. If you have any comments or suggestions you can email them to me at: ppdanny@gmail.com
Corey's Dear Journal!
Chapter 1: The online meeting.
Sunday April 8th, 2007 -- Easter.
As I lay there in the bed, the tears streaming down my face of my dream come true. Jason. I feel for him and I fell for him hard. We had a fight and he yelled at me. I don't know, something about him yelling at me made me snap. At the time I managed to collect my cool and in a low, firm voice I declared to him: "I never want to talk to you again". That was the end of it. The relationship was over. I lay here now, thinking back to that moment when I shouldn't have told him to go away. I miss him, and I miss the relationship I had with him.
To take my mind off things I am playing bingo online. Setting the dabber to manual so I have to concentrate on not missing a number. Tomorrow morning there is a major tournament. I am really looking forward to it, though I haven't been up at that hour in years. Anyways, after playing for a few hours people went offline. There were no more games running and I was still wide awake. Onto the internet I went, to a personals site. I figured the best way for me to get over Jason would be for me to meet new people. Just friends.
I saw only 1 person that stood out. His name is Chris and I am 4 yours his senior. I decided to add him to my msn. Shortly after that I went to bed.
This is the story of me, Corey, meeting someone, Chris, who in a matter of days has had a huge impact on my life.
I woke up the next morning with my alarm clock buzzing. Within a few minutes I was up and about and right back onto my laptop. Registering for the tournament and getting set to win. It was Single elimination, first 10 in the first round get through. Either way it didn't matter much. I didn't make it through the first round. I lost, and not only did I lose -- but I was dead last! I decided to look around some of my online profiles and if there were any updates. Nope, not one. 9am rolled around and right after that Chris signed on.
I sent him a message and he asked me how I got his email. So I told him here I got it from and this started us off in our conversation. Throughout the day we talked about various things. We got interrupted various times by things we had to do. I didn't really mind. After all once cant sit in front of a computer for 16 hours without taking a break of some kind. We talked about all kinds of things. From past relationships (briefly) to hobbies, to the kind of music we liked.
Over the coarse of the conversation I told him what I look for in friendship, and what I am looking for in a relationship. We talked a bit about me and Jason. We also talked about me and the relationship I had with Dane. I told him about various friends of mine, including a friend that had a name similar to his. Christopher. I also told him about Tyler. I guy I had know for a while that I met online that lives in a town near him.
I am from Milton, Ontario, Canada. Chris was from Kitchener, Ontario, Canada. And Tyler, Tyler is from Waterloo, Ontario, Canada. Its pretty cool, because apparently Tyler and Chris have talked before. Chris seemed like a really nice guy, someone that I could definitely have a friendship with. Better yet, someone I could possibly one day consider for a relationship.
The only catch was, Chris was already seeing someone. My heart sunk to the floor when I found this out ... even though I barely knew him. I made my first mistake then. I told him how I was still having trouble with being lonely. I feel like I made him feel sorry for me, and pity me. Not really what I wanted at all, but I was foolish. I did apologize to him the next day, but he seemed to think an apology wasn't necessary. I soon introduced him to my friend Alex. Alex was from the States and was someone I only knew online, but a close friend at that. Someone I trusted. I told Alex about some of the things I knew about Chris ... and he could see I was hurting and how much I needed someone. I told him that I think I really like Chris and want to get to know him. We talked more about it, and I was telling him about how I found I was being foolish and trying to impress Chris.
I was being really immature. I knew I was, but I couldn't help myself anyways. I really am sorry I couldn't be myself ... because even now I feel like I have already shut down any possibility of even a friendship with Chris. I know he thinks I am irresponsible because of some of the things which I had told him. I don't know what to do anymore ... and I don't know how to handle this situation. I sit here, writing this now -- constantly being interrupted. I haven't been getting along with my parents lately, so they are making things even more complicated for me. Maybe when I am comfortable with it, and know that my parents cant find my journal I will write some of my thoughts about that in here.
Corey. - /end