Chapter 16
By 7.30am, I'd already been up for more than 30 minutes and was tiptoeing round the kitchen and living room, tidying things up, in a way that wouldn't wake anyone. My mind was on the flight back home later this afternoon and how it was going to be when it was just the two of us alone again, and what life would look like back home.
I filled the sink with warm water and started cleaning some dishes, when I heard slow footsteps behind me and a warm hand on my waist. Harry leaned in, kissing the back of my neck and I could feel his hardening dick push against my ass, on show through the jockstrap I was wearing.
I closed my eyes and leaned gently back into his body, enjoying the warmth of his skin and the sexual energy of him pressed against me.
"It's so sexy how obedient you've become. My hot little house boy" he said.
"It feels so good to please you sir".
I said it because it felt like what he wanted me to say.
"How was it sleeping in the cage last night?" Harry asked.
I took a second, but decided to answer honestly.
"I didn't sleep brilliantly. Woke up at like 5am, straining in it, and then just couldn't really sleep again afterwards".
He kissed my neck again. "I'm sorry baby. I'd like you to keep it on for our last day here though. It's cute having you locked while the other guys are around".
I nodded silently, and returned to washing dishes.
"Because you've been so good though, I'm gonna let you get down on your knees and suck off the hot taste of all that ass I was drilling last night".
Harry sounded so sexy, and I really wanted to be in the headspace for it, but I was feeling so anxious about what it all meant. How he didn't seem to treat me like a boyfriend any more. Whether this might even be the last proper day we spend together. Maybe when we got home he just wouldn't be interested in me at all. Maybe Josh would be coming back with us.
I felt his hands on my shoulders, gently encouraging me down to me knees, and I followed his lead. It did feel amazing being on my knees again for him and sucking his dick. It was honestly one of my favourite positions, feeling how hard it made his dick to get pleasured like this, and feeling his hands stroking through my hair.
He leaned back against the counter and so I had to manoeuvre round to the new position. Before I could get back onto his dick, he held a hand gently against my forehead.
"Ask me first" he said.
From behind I heard the sound of the door from the second bedroom opening, but it didn't matter right now.
I didn't hesitate. "Please can I suck your dick and taste the sexy asses on it that you fucked last night Sir?"
A voice from behind me laughed.
"Fuck you've trained that bitch well. Hope I end up getting a boy I can train to treat me like his god"
I started sucking Harry's beautiful dick.
"He's so good at it" Harry said laughing.
"Living the dream man" the guy said and I heard them high five as the guy headed on to the bathroom.
He was only a minute in there and as he came out he spoke again.
"Hey, if it's ok, can you send the slut through when you're done. Us guys always have morning wood that would love a well-trained throat"
"Sure man" Harry said, and I heard the door to the second bedroom close again as the guy went back in.
"Lucky boy" Harry said to me, stroking the side of my face. "More sexy guys to service. Best make the most of it. You might not be getting as much when we get home".
My heart sank. Was that a hint about him wanting to break up with me?
I kept on sucking, but I couldn't help the emotional pounding in my chest. I felt a tear forming in the corner of my eye.
Harry looked down, noticing my sucking speed had slowed down, and he pulled his dick fully out. My initial thought was that he was going to be annoyed that I wasn't sucking him the way he wanted.
He dropped down to his knees next to me though, and took my hands in his.
"What's wrong?" he asked, looking genuinely baffled.
"I can't believe I've fucked this up" I said, trying to hold back from crying. "I just want to be your boyfriend". More tears were forming in my eyes.
"What do you mean. You are my boyfriend. I love you so much".
"Not like before though. I don't want to be like your pet or your property. I want to be your boyfriend".
Harry sighed and looked troubled.
I carried on. "I don't want to be like a third wheel if Josh ends up coming back with us and you guys carry on together. Or if you find someone else when we're back. I can't only be that third person, serving. I can't do it".
I was almost trembling now, as I said the words. A couple of tears running down my cheeks.
"Fuck" Harry said quietly.
Before he could say anything else, the door to the second bedroom opened again and one of the guys stuck his head out.
"Hey is that throat ready for some hot hard dick now?"
I looked towards Harry. I half expected him still to say yes and send me in there.
He stood up and looked serious.
"Sorry man, change of plan. You guys need to go. Sorry to chuck you out early, but can you grab your stuff and head off?"
The guy looked confused but nodded. "Yeah man, sure". He ducked back inside, and a few minutes later all three of them emerged and filed towards the door, said quick goodbyes with Harry and headed out.
They all seemed fine about it and in a few minutes they were gone. My heartbeat started to slow down again to a slightly more normal level. Harry came back and sat down with his back against the cabinet, and I switched position to sit next to him.
"I'm such a fucking idiot" he said. "I'm so sorry. I didn't know you were feeling this. I thought your head was just totally in the fantasy while we were out here."
"It kind of was, but then I forgot about just wanting a boyfriend, and I've let my boyfriend fall for someone else"
"What do you mean? No, you haven't"
"But what about Josh? You and him are really into each other?"
Harry screwed up his face. "I'm really not. And he's not coming back to the UK with us. And even if he did move to the UK, literally there's zero chance of me wanting to date him. Like, he's fun to fuck, but we've got almost nothing in common. And honestly, I prefer fucking you"
Hearing him say those words did crazy happy things to every part of my body.
We heard footsteps in the hall, and Josh walked through.
"I'll try not to be offended" he said, without pausing, and disappeared into the bathroom.
Harry continued. "When we get back, I figured we'd probably just return to exactly where we were before. And from what you said just now, I think that even more. We can just look back at this as that crazy week we went wild. Maybe went too wild"
I smiled. There was a nagging doubt in my head about us just putting it all in a box, but what I wanted more than anything right now was just for it to be Harry and me again. Just a regular day enjoying the sun and some nice food and nothing more than that.
"Yeah, I guess that's best. We can kind of forget all of this and go back right to where we were.
We heard the sound of a flush and the bathroom door opened. Josh stood in the doorway and looked across at us sitting on the floor by the sink.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" he said.
We both looked up at him confused.
"Josh..." Harry jumped in quickly, "I'm sorry you heard what I said, but I really don't wanna fight about this..."
Josh smiled, and held up a hand. "No, no. Don't flatter yourself sexy. That's not what I mean. I knew this was like a one week playtime and I'm totally fine with that. You know how many handsome gays pass through here for a week or two at a time? It's a lot. This happens a lot for me. I enjoy it. We're all good. That's not what I mean here. I'm saying to the two of you not to be fucking idiots"
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Ste" he said. "Ten days ago, you were scared to even mention your need for submission to Harry, and you were scared to talk to him about specific things that turned you on, because you were worried he'd reject you. This week you've let him in, you've let him see all the weird and wonderful shit that turns you on, and here he is still sitting next to you telling you he loves you.
"And Harry. You have an insatiable sexual appetite, and you come alive when you're flirting and playing around with other guys. You enjoy the chase and those new sparks and connections. And until ten days ago, you'd never asked for the space to explore that, but this last week you've navigated that together, and you've seen that Ste can be ok with that..."
"No. I've seen that what I did isn't ok" Harry replied. "I almost completely fucked our relationship up, just to fuck a few random guys. I'm the one who fucked up here".
Josh said nothing but put his hands on his hips and turned to look at me.
It took me a few seconds, but my voice emerged from somewhere. "I think maybe he's right actually. I don't actually mind you being with other guys, if it's just that sexual thing, and if you come back to me after. It was the fear of losing you, and the anxiety that you'd stopped caring about me. That's what I couldn't cope with."
Harry looked into my eyes, as if he was trying to tell if I meant what I said, or if I was just trying to please him. Eventually he looked satisfied that I was being honest.
"Look" Josh said. "I'm sorry it got to this, and I know it was me that fucked up on this as well. I'm honestly sorry for being a dick and getting into role too much. I mean, I know you found some of it seriously fucking hot Ste, but we probably went too far. I probably went too far".
He went over to his jacket, hanging up on the side of the room, reached in and grabbed something.
"Here, catch" he said and threw it across. Harry caught it and I only really could tell what I was looking at when he opened his hand. He smiled and reached down to slot the small key into the lock of the cage around my dick. Really gently he pulled out the key piece and slid the shaft of the cage off. I wriggled the ring off from around my dick and balls.
"Thankyou" I said to Josh.
He nodded his head in a weird kind of humble way.
"I'm going to get out of here too" he said. "I reckon you guys will want this last morning just for you".
He disappeared, and as we were left back alone again, Harry put his arm round me and I leaned into his shoulder, enjoying the warmth and the smell of him.
A few minutes later Josh re-emerged, fully clothed and with all his stuff. There was a weird stand off for a moment, where I think none of us knew what happened right now.
I stood up first, figuring that it was probably my call as to exactly how this farewell went. I walked across and put my arms around him to hug.
"I think this last 10 days might take me quite a while to fully process. But I think, just maybe, by the end of that, I might not think you're a completely twat" I said.
Josh laughed. "I'll take that. Genuinely though, I hope you had some fun along the way, and learned some about what you want and what you don't. And by the way, Nathan said you take dick better than almost anyone he'd fucked before. Obviously he wouldn't have told you that himself".
I smiled.
Harry got up and followed my lead, going in for a hug.
"Go well man. It's been fun." Harry said.
"I had a great time" Josh said. "With both of you in fact."
"What's your plans for the rest of the week?" I asked.
Josh smiled. "Well, you know two of the three guys that stayed over last night are a couple right?"
Harry shook his head. "Just play nice with them".
"Whatever they need" Josh said with a wink, and turned to the door. "Safe travels sexy men. See you next time!" and in a second he was gone.
The void left after the door closed was weirdly silent and left me feeling a bit empty. We turned to each other and hugged for maybe a full minute or two. When we broke away I returned to tidying things up, and after a moment Harry joined in and we worked together. We didn't actually talk very much, I think our brains were full, but every time we passed each other we touched or kissed.
We kept on going until everywhere was spotless and our bags were all packed and ready, and we were all showered and ready to go. By that time it was just 9.30am and we realised there were a couple more hours before we needed to start heading for the airport. We decided to take a walk out and get some breakfast.
As we sat at the breakfast table, looking out at the sea, in the same café bar where we first met Nathan, I felt hugely peaceful, probably for the first time since the start of the trip.
"Josh was right you know" Harry said, "...about the stuff you're into. It doesn't change what I feel about you at all. If anything it makes me love you more and want to care for you more. And if I can't give you all the stuff you need, I'm cool with us looking at how you can get that"
I smiled, which turned into a grin. My heart felt so full of happiness.
"I don't want you to be mean to me" I said.
"I won't"
"Even in roleplay though. Like maybe I want that sometimes from some guys, but I want you always to be there to care for me."
"I can do that"
"Like I still want you to fuck me rough and make me your bitch..."
"I can definitely do that" he said grinning.
"...but in a loving way. I need to know I'm always fully safe with you."
Harry nodded. "You always are. And we can work all the rest out. You can talk to me about any of this stuff and I won't judge. It's part of who you are, and I really like who you are".
I smiled and scooped a bit of froth from my cappuccino and put it on his nose.
"You're too cute" I said. I leaned over and kissed him, inadvertently getting some of the cappuccino froth back on my nose. "Thank you though. It means so much to me"
"And with what Josh said about me, honestly I think that's less of a thing" Harry continued. "I don't plan to carry on going round fucking random guys when we're back home. You don't need to worry."
I gave him a hard look.
"Don't do that. This is a two way street. You give me more scope to explore, and I give you more as well, but we always come back to each other. I won't judge you for wanting to have sex with other hot guys if that's what you want and need sometimes. I wanna give you everything you're giving me. And the details on it, we can work out. But don't close yourself down. I really like who you are too ok?"
Harry nodded and smiled. "Thanks babe".
"If you are playing with another guy though, I don't wanna be a cuck any more. I'm definitely done with that"
Harry laughed. "Sure. Noted".
We ate our croissants and listened to the sound of the waves. I think in both our heads we were playing through films of what our lives might look like and turn into when we got back to the UK. This hadn't been a restful holiday in any sense, but still we were heading back as a slightly different couple than the one who flew out 10 days ago. A better couple. It was kind of exciting thinking about what might happen next.
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