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Damien and Alex
Part 1
Damien and Alex had been lovers for six years and had kept it quiet as they both lived in homophobic households. Alex's father already abused the crap out of him whilst he was drunk for no reason other than the fact that he was there. You see Alex's father had been sent to Vietnam and ever since he came back he drown his own sorrows with the bottle. Alex's mother had three jobs just to make sure the bills were paid and enough for her husband to buy more booze. Alex and Damien had grown up together so it was no surprise to either mother that they were spending a lot of time together. Most of the time, Alex went to Damien's place to escape the beatings.
One night when Alex didn't return Alex's father killed his mother. Alex was so furious that he planned to do the same to his father. It took all of Damien's strength and hours of calm speech for him to realize that if he went there he would be the same way as his mother. Damien also told him that he wouldn't be able to live without Alex by his side. As soon as Damien's parents heard what Alex's father had done they told him that he would stay hear for as long as he needed. This suited Damien and Alex just fine. They could be together even more and nobody would suspect what was really going on. Their love for each other grew stronger each day. Finally, they decided that it was time for people to recognize them as a couple.
They decided to tell Damien's parents first seeing that they were living there and they wanted them to hear it from them rather than an outsider. At first, both of them were speechless and then Damien's father, James explained, "We gathered as much but were waiting for the two of you to come out and tell us. We didn't want seem like we were pressuring you to admit who you really especially after what had happened to Jane (Alex's mum) but we are glad that you have finally found the courage to tell us" "I am even prouder that we heard it from you and not through gossip too" added Damien's mum Cara. " Both thought that you would prefer to hear it from us and you two are the first to know" Alex finished.
DAMIEN It was excellent the way mum and dad were accepting of Alex and my relationship. After six years, its good to know that we can act like a couple all the time. Last night was the best sex I had ever had. I think that it was because of the fact that we were proper couple and not an affair waiting to be found out. Alex even went as fair to ask me to marry him last night. I naturally said yes because there was nothing I would rather do than spend the rest of my life married to the most perfect person in the whole wide world. Just from the long blonde hair to his emerald eyes. I am glad his mine.
I know that heaps of girls are after him but I wasn't worried because we both had made a commitment to each other to be there till the end of time and we both planned to do it. The one thing that seams to hypnotize me when I'm with Alex is his voice when he sings. We plan to become a duet when we move out of my parents home. I just can't wait.
ALEX The meeting with Mr. and Mrs. Alexander went beautifully they accepted the fact that Damien and I are a couple. I knew how to top Damien's night. I had it all planned when we went up to his room. He went to take his usual shower and I got out the ring I had bought him earlier that day. When he walked through the door in his towel I closed the door and switched out the light. "Hay what's going on?" he whispers. I grabbed the towel as he turns on the light. He looked down to see me on one knee. "What are you up too?" he asked politely as ever. "As you can see I have been planning this for a while and now seems the perfect time to do it," I said. Damien Alexander will you do me the honor of marrying me?" I announced. "Of fucking course I'll marry you nothing would make me happier" he yelled at the top of his lungs. We heard his parents coming down the hall so I shoved the towel around him and placed the ring on his finger just as his mum and dad knocked on the door asking "what's all the commotion?" Damien opened the door while I stood up. But before he opened the door he went into his draw and brought out a little box and whispered, "what I meant to say was only if you will marry me?" "Yes god help me yes nothing would make me happier than being your husband" I whispered back. KNOCK, KNOCK his parents were now banging on the door so we quickly slipped the rings on each other's finger and then opened the door.
DAMIEN "Bout fucking time boys" my father proclaimed and then froze noticing the rings on our fingers and just stood there. My mother walked in saw the rings and went all googly eyed and said, "Well this is a bigger surprises than the one at dinner" she then raised down to the kitchen to grab the first bottle of alcohol she found which happened to a bottle of tequila. We all had a glass celebrating the engagement and head off to bed. Of course Alex and I went for it but hay so did my parents as theirs and our doors were both open Alex and I laughed at first then I went and shut the door so I could be with my fiancé all by myself. Then we started our nightly ritual. First he would slowly undress himself just to tease me then he would slowly walk over, unless I grabbed him and pulled him onto the bed, which I did tonight I was just so happy that I couldn't wait any longer I wanted him and I wanted him straight away. He just laughed when he felt my grab him the waist and pull him to the bed. I greeted him with a long passionate kiss. He whispered into my ear "fuck me this time" I was a bit surprised as it been him fucking me before then but I wasn't worried I loved him and I wanted to make sure it didn't hurt. So I took my time first I started with one finger I loved that so much then I did it with two. I continued doing that until all five fingers were in then I took them out and slowly replaced them with my penis at first he jumped when he felt it coming inside him but he relaxed after that as to enjoy it. Which he did because I took it nice and slow we were going at it for half an hour before I finally climaxed leaving all my cum inside his arse.
ALEX I decided to let Damien fuck me for a change because he had let me do it since the time we got sexually active four years ago and man it was one heck of an experience, I wish I had let him do it earlier. Well after we had sex, we fell asleep while he still had his cock up my arse. Ok its Monday morning and we have school again year 12 what a pain. Damien and I have decided that we are going to wear our engagement rings at all times and not take them off for anyone.
Damien got his mum to write us a note if we were sent to Mrs. Pincer's office. We arrived at the gate as usual together only this time we didn't care what anyone thought about us being together. We heard two dickheads yell out "Look at the two faggots" I laughed to myself and yelled back "at least we are getting some."
I saw Damien look at me with some surprise but I smiled and kissed him in front of everyone, but believe me it wasn't an ordinary kiss it was a kiss of true love. Luckily for me, he returned me the favour by making it on heck of a kiss.
DAMIEN Ok here's how things are. Alex and I are engaged to get married ASAP both with engagement rings. I gave him a sapphire one because that was his word for my eyes and he gave me an emerald one the same as the colour of his eyes. We are now walking to school holding hands, the only reason we hadn't earlier was because he was scared of what people would think whereas I was just waiting for him to relax and then I would be glad to hold his hand as I love him so much. He means the world to me but I know that we have the rest of our lives to be together.
The biggest shock of all was when he kissed in the schoolyard not giving a damn about what anyone else thought. I couldn't leave this a one-way kiss, so I kissed him back with all my heart.
Well there goes the bell time to go to class. I just hope that everything goes smoothly. However, as usual it didn't some prick had to point out the fact that both Alex and I were wearing rings. The teacher, a sup statute, told us to take them of and we refused ordered us both to the principals office. We both gladly went to the principal's office holding hands and man you should have seen the look the teacher gave is was to die for. Once we were out of the classroom we cracked up laughing just at his facial expression of disgust.
ALEX Ok we are in class and Gary one of the dickheads from earlier decides to pay me back by telling this replacement teacher about Damien and I wearing rings. "Boys take those rings off and bring them up here" the teachers asks quietly "No we wont" Damien yelled back "Fine go to the principal's office the two of you" he screamed. "Fine it'll be better than sitting in this class" I joined in.
So with that said we stood up holding hands and walked out of his class with all our books in our hands. The look on that guys face was worth holding Damien's hand for. It was a shocker. We both laughed all the way to Mrs. Pincer's office. When we arrived at her office, her secretary asked what were we doing here seeing we were usually such good boys as we both tried to keep the attention away from our selves. "We are here to Mrs. Pincer the sub teacher sent us coz we refused to remove our rings" I explained to her "ok just sit down and I will let Mrs. Pincer know that you two are here" she replied "thanks Mrs. D" Damien replied.
DAMIEN Ok we have arrived at Mrs. Pincer's office and Mrs. D her secretary has asked us what is going on and as usual Mr. hero tells her before I have a chance to open my mouth. So there we were sitting there when I heard Alex whisper to me "you better grab out the letter from your mum" I had totally forgotten about the letter so I quickly grabbed it out of my back pocket and just as I had Mrs. D said "you can go in now" I grabbed Alex's hand as we stood up. He didn't resist it seemed to me that he was waiting for me to do it. We walked together past Mrs. D's desk but as we did Mrs. D said, "Well done boys." Both of us felt really special when she said that.
When we entered Mrs. Pincer's office, she looked somewhat surprised to see us there. My mum has allowed us to wear the rings and given us a note if anyone asks. So the two of us are content with how things have turned out since we came out to the people around us. I know there will always be those who will be an arsehole or two. Just because they can. But I am not going to let that bother me anymore. I have Damien and that all that matters to me.
No it can't be he isn't allowed here "NO" I hear some girls yell as I notice my father has a gun. Therefore, I grab Damien and raced up to Mrs. Pincer's office to let her know what's going on.
DAMIEN Ok this is how I noticed what was going on at break. We were walking happily arm in arm and then suddenly I was jerked away and only just got a glimpse of the reason Alex was rushing away. All I thought was `just fucking typical we are as happy as ever and he has to arrive' I pushed him making him go faster as I didn't want him to seen and then shot. He means too much to me for me to allow that to happen. We arrived at Mrs. Pincer's office just as she was about to head out for lunch. "Mrs. P, Mrs. P there is something you should know," I screamed racing up the hall. She turned stunned by the voice "My father is outside with a shot gun he has half the school held up out there. You need to call the police before anyone gets hurt by him" Alex explained very loudly even though we were right next to her. Well she raced to the window saw the gun and then raced to the phone and called the police and explained exactly what was going on.
The police were there in less than two minutes. They arrested Mr. Hallos there and then. Alex and I were both so relieved.
ALEX When they arrested my father, I felt an enormous amount of relieve that I thought that I would never have for a family member. As they drove away from the school I found Damien's arms around me as if to say `its all going to be ok. They have taken him away we can be happy' then I same them his perfect shaped lips heading straight for mine I wanted them so much that I went forward to them. I love Damien so much that I don't think I would be still here if it wasn't for him. He's just so caring and in love with me.
Well lunchtime was already over when we started walking down from Mrs. Pincer's office and everyone was at his or her locker getting their books for class. Damien and I did the same. We had English next so we hurried off because we knew that Mr. J would be furious if we were late for his class. When we arrived, Mr. J hadn't arrived yet so we took our usual spot down the back and waited for him. However, when the teacher walked through the door it wasn't Mr. J, it was in fact the teacher that had given us the greasy earlier. I looked at Damien at the exact time he looked at me and we both had a little giggle. The guy looked at Damien and I and just gave us another look like he had earlier, so I looked at Damien and as Damien turned to face me I kissed him and for the first time ever I had surprised him. However, he met my kiss with one of his own and man did we get a greasy for that. However, we didn't care because we knew that he wasn't allowed to do anything what so ever about it otherwise, it was discrimination. However, he noticed the rings and tried to get back at us with them. "Boys I want those rings on my desk right now" he announced "No. We don't have to. We have a note from Mrs. Pincer saying that we don't have too." I replied. He then walked up to us and whispered, "I would like to see this note boys" we both gladly grabbed out the notes and shoved them into his face. With that he grabbed both our hands and tried to force the rings off our fingers but we were both too quick for him and had how hands in a fist as soon as he grabbed both hands by the wrist. We both wrenched them from his grip at the same time packed up our books and walked out. Both our wrists were still red where he had grabbed them. We both raced up to Mrs. Pincer to tell her what he had just done.
DAMIEN We had that arsehole teacher again for English and the arsehole tried to force our engagement rings off our fingers. Man I was wild but luckily Alex said to me "let's go and put in a complaint about him and have him chucked out of the school" so that's exactly what we did we went up to Mrs. P and told her what had happened and showed her the red mark he had left on our wrists. Well to say she was furious would be understatement she marched straight down to the classroom and man did that guy cope it she went off at him that bad he was in tears. I couldn't help but feel sorry for the guy at that moment but then I realized that he was getting what he deserved for being an arrogant prick about the rings.
Well its now three-thirty. Alex and I are walking home happily in each other's arms kissing here and there along the way. I was happy to see Alex with his face lit up like that it made my whole self was complete and that I was there to help him and to be there for him no matter what. I just love him so much that I would do anything for him and I know that he would do the same for me.
ALEX Well after Mrs. P went off at that sub everything went smoothly I mean he even came up and apologized to us saying "I thought you two had been trying to stir me by not taking off the rings and then kissing each other and holding hands in front of me. I didn't realize that you two were a couple and the rings were your engagement rings. I just hope you two are very happy together," he said.
"We will be as long as people respect us for being different but honest individuals. We also don't enjoy it when people give us greasies because we are holding hands," Damien replied.
Man, Damien really knew how to make a point get sunken in. but that's one of the things I love about him. I am daydreaming about those perfectly sculpted muscles of his and the long black hair and sapphire eyes that are as big as his heart and as deep as the ocean. OK SNAP OUT OF IT. Where were we oh yes that sub had just apologized. Well after that, we had a calm day with no problems I think everyone was still shaken up after Mrs. P's discrimination speech to the replacement teacher.
We walked happily back home, kissing each other passionately along the way making up for all the time we had lost whilst we had kept it a secret. When we arrived home, Damien's parents were waiting for us because they had heard about what had happened at the school and they wanted to talk to us about it.
DAMIEN Well when we arrived home, my mum and dad were standing in the door at us to make sure that we were fine. Once they saw us kiss, they both smiled knowing that nothing too bad had happened. Once we were inside my mum made us all a cup of tea and then sat Alex and I down to see how we were coping with the fact that Alex's father had been at the school with a gun. "We are fine. Once we both saw him, we pushed the other out of his site to make sure he didn't see the other. We then raced to see Mrs. P and she got the police there and it was all taken care of," I answered calmly whilst holding Alex's hand.
He smiled at me when ever I looked at him telling me that `he wouldn't let anything happen to me' and I whispered into his ear after the sixth time "Me either" he grin grew so I turned his head to me and kissed him. My parents both flinched at that but said nothing.
After all that was finished, I lead Alex up to our room so I could spend time alone with him. Once we got to the bedroom I picked him up carried him to the bed. I let him spread out and then I crawled up next to him and held him so closely as if to say `don't you ever leave me'. He cuddled me back with and I wont'. I was so happy that I just had to kiss him as much as I possibly could and he let me I started with his hands and worked my way around his head. I then went on to kiss his eyes before planting the most loved filled kiss on his lips. He was waiting for that kiss when it arrived that we both spent half an hour on that kiss exploring every inch of each others mouth and tongue. The only reason we stopped was because my mum yelled, "Boys dinner is ready" We both sat up hugged for another couple of minutes and then headed down stairs.
ALEX Man the way Damien kissed me was amazing. He knew exactly where to kiss to make my whole body tingle with excitement. After he had gone from my little finger on my right arm around the top of my head all the way to my little finger on my left arm he stopped. I didn't want him too. Then thankfully he started again he kissed both my checks and then my eyes. I knew the kiss I wanted most was coming and when it did, I wasn't going to let it go. He kissed my lips and I just kissed him back. I don't know how long we were kissing but the only reason we stopped was because his mum called us down for tea.
When we arrived down stairs, I was surprised to see my nana sitting at the table with Damien's parents talking about us. They stopped talking about us when they saw us walk in. We both laughed and said at the same time "if you want to talk about us go right ahead we don't care just don't do it behind our backs." Well the three adults all burst out laughing as we both said that. Damien's dad got up after he finished laughing to dish out tea for everyone.
"So nana what brings you here?" I asked.
"Well I had a phone call from the police telling me what your father did today and I wanted to see if my only grandchild was ok. I see that you have a very good friend there to take care of you" she replied.
"Nana he isn't just my friend he is my fiancé" I said almost shouting. "I thought so but I wasn't going to push and anyway you two look great together," she added. We both smiled and kissed her. She didn't even flinched when she saw us kiss. That I was a bit of a surprise to us.
"Gee it's good to see true love blossom like that" she said to Damien's mum.
DAMIEN Alex's nana is a wonderful, caring person so I can see where Alex gets it and after she said to my mum " Gee it's good to see true love blossom like that." I whispered to her so no one else heard "I see where Alex gets all his love, compassion and understanding from now that I have met you."
She just smiled at that, and at the precise moment, my dad walked in with our meals. Therefore, I sat back properly and as I did Alex asked, "What did you just say to her?"
"I will tell you in bed" I replied. I suddenly felt a hand move across my thigh and finish just above my bulge. I decided to repay the favour and put my hand above his. He looked at me with such content that I felt like I had just melted right there and then. He seemed to be doing that to me a lot lately but I don't care I love him and want to be with him regardless of what other people might think.
ALEX Tea was an event as Damien said something to my nana that I don't know. But he said he would tell me in bed. So I moved my hand from my lap to his cock letting him feel it just to make sure he was nice and hard. Which it was when my hand landed on top of his bulge.
I realized there and then that my fiancé truly wanted to please me because he placed his hand on my bulge seconds later and when I looked at him I just dissolved into his sea of memories. I see the one where we are on our first day of kinder together. We always did things together we are almost inseparable back then. Ok we are inside the kinder and the teacher is asking us in order to tell when our birthday is. "Who has a birthday in February?"
I hear her ask then I see both Damien's and my hands go up.
"Ok boys who is first?" she asked. We both said in chorus, "Both our birthdays are February 14th Madam."
I just can't believe how cute we were back then. Well Damien's dad has out done himself again. I think he is doing it to impress my nana. But I don't care a fully done roast leg of lamb with roast potatoes, carrots, pumpkin and turnip with boiled vegetables. My nana looks impressed so Mr. Alexander offers, "Would you like some gravy or applesauce to go with your meal Mrs Linker."
"Oh no I love lamb without anything on it," she replied then stuffed a piece of lamb in her mouth and started eating.
Once tea was finished Damien and I cleared the table and stacked the dishwasher and brought out dessert. It consisted of red jelly, and ice cream or chocolate pudding, custard and ice cream.
Mr. and Mrs Alexander choose the jelly and ice cream and the rest of us had the pudding. As everyone ate their way through the desert Damien and I were secretly hoping that we were finished so we could get away from them for a bit. But we lucked out, as Damien's mum wanted us all there to go through the photo album. The both of us looked at her with pure disgust as we knew there were some very incriminating photos in there of both of us including one of us both in a bath the day we started going out, typical fucking parents to take photos when we are getting ready for some stupid party that they had arranged.
DAMIEN Well tea was good and desert even better especially when you have your boyfriend's hand just above your cock.
Then came the disaster, my mum dragged us into the lounge room to show off the photos of Alex and I over the years. The first one was when the two of us in the incubator room next to each other crying. "Those two have done everything together including birth" my mother joked. "Now they are in love at the same time. When will they do something without the other?"
"Nothing I plan to live with him and die with him" I replied. The next photo jogged back a memory. It was the first school disco and Alex and I were really nervous. I actually held his hand to tell him `it was ok I am scared too.' We arrived and were no longer holding hands but danced with each other for the whole time the disco was on.
My mum was right we were inseparable but hay, I didn't care he was my rock through a lot of problems that my parents don't even no about and I was the same for him. I became more of a rock after his father returned and started beating him at the age of four. Sleepovers at my house became that many nights that at one stage Alex and his mum lived at our place. Pity she loved him as much as she did because she moved back and coped with all the pain being dished out fending for her son.
ALEX Ok the photos are over enough memories have been remembered by Damien and myself to last us another fucking lifetime and we are finally allowed to go to bed. It's about time too I don't know if I could have looked at another photo from my past.
Damien and I rush up to the room, lock the door and strip each other and get into bed mouths locked together.
"Alex, Alex, ALEX" a voice cried in my ear. "What? Who's there?" I whispered back.
Not before the voice answered I knew exactly who the voice belonged to. My mum. "Its me mum, she said. "I have to warn you that your father is not a force to be reckoned with. SO don't you or Damien EVER go near him? Ok?"
"Ok, and I don't ever plan too. I have Damien and I want to be with him forever. I love him so much" I replied razing my force a bit. "It's ok Mrs L. I will look after him and I wont go near your murderer of a husband" I heard Damien add and with that she left.
I was so proud of Damien as he knew just how to say the right at the right time. I rolled over and found his face waiting to kiss my lips and all I wanted to do was kiss him back. We stayed like that for god only knows how long. The reason we eventually stopped was because Damien's mum yelled up to hurry up and get down here otherwise they were leaving without us. With that we jumped out of bed raced into our private bathroom showered, did each other's hair and raced back into our bedroom to dress each other.
DAMIEN Well hearing Alex's mum's voice was a bit of a shock when I heard it but the promise I made I meant. I loved Alex too much to lose him to the hands of that arsehole. As to where we are going it's Gay Pride Week and Alex and I have been whining to my parents since we came out to take us and it is finally here. All I plan to do is hang off his shoulder the whole time talking to people with him.
The whole time we were at the parade I did hang off Alex's shoulder and he did the same with me. We didn't see any of the kids from school. But hay, who cares what some a couple of snotty arsed kids think anyway. I was with the most important person in the whole world my fiancé.
ALEX The gay parade wasn't as much fun as we thought it would be. I was more interested in Damien's tonsils than anything going on around me. Man I don't know how I would cope if something should happen to him after all the bloody support he has given me since my mum died. Not to mention coming out at home and school. I don't think I could find anyone as caring as him if I searched the far reaches of the universe.
Ok after the parade we were all stuffed so we grabbed some pizza ate it and went to bed. The moment my head felt the pillow I was fast asleep and Damien was there with me. I woke up early and noticed him starring at me smiling. "Man you looked like an angel sleeping there," he whispered in my ear before planting his lips on mine.
We kissed for a few minutes until I broke to reply, "You think I am the only one? You look so peaceful sleeping when I wake up in the middle of the night I just want to take a photo and lock it away for ever."
I noticed he had his imitation smile on that goofy face of his "You better not have" I said realizing what he had done and he was to busy laughing to even say anything so he just nodded.
Ok maybe now I should tell him bout the photo of him that I do have locked away seeing he now has one of me. I reached under our bed and got my special box. I noticed that he sat up to see what I was up to giggling here and there still. I grabbed my house keys found the one to the lock on the box opened it and pulled out my most treasured possession I showed him it and burst laughing as it was indeed a photo of him sleeping I took the day we came out.
"And you had the check to be mad at me when you already had one of me?" he joked grabbing me to make sure I didn't run away while he started tickling the crap out of me.
The only reason he stopped was because I put my lips onto his then whispered "If you don't get off you'll be covered in urine in about five seconds."
Well he was off in a flash as we went into our private bathroom to empty both bladders. Damien finished first so he started kissing my neck.
"I guess now we are even about those photos?" he asked.
" No we ain't hun you need to meet me on the bed and when I finish then we will be even" I replied.
Well I was surprised to see him sitting on the bed waiting for me. But I raced over grabbed him and started tickling the crap out of him and didn't stop until there was a knock on the door.
"Alex, Damien can you two come down stairs ASAP we need to talk to you about something," we heard me gran say.
Well the two of us were curious as what could be that important that they would ask for us to both come down straight away. So we both raced down stairs to find out what was going on. We when got to the table we saw that all three of the grown ups had terrified expressions on there faces.
DAMIEN Alex and I had been having a special moment just laying in our bed kissing. But it was interrupted when his Grandma knocked on the door and whispered "Alex, Damien can you two come down stairs ASAP we need to talk to you about something."
We were both so worried that we shoved on a tee-shirt and our boxers then raced down to see what was hell the grown ups wanted. The looks on their faces told me that it wasn't good.
"Ok. What is going on?" I found myself asking them once the two of us had sat down.
"Well boys. Alex's father has been released from jail. The three of us thought that you two should know and make sure you are always in the middle of a group so that he cant find the two of you. We don't want anything too happen to either of you," my father announced before breaking into tears.
I looked at Alex and he had the same look as to what I was thinking `fuck, what are we going to do.' I couldn't lose Alex now or ever. I was to protect him from this monster no matter what the cost. He is just too important to allow anything to happen to him.
The two of us decided to go back up to the bedroom to think about what we were going to do just to make sure that he didn't have a chance at finding either of us. We talked for quite a while and nothing we could think of would help us.
ALEX `What the hell were we going to do?' He was on the loose and there was nothing Damien and I can do to stop him. After not being able to think of anything I decided to go and have a shower and for the first time ever Damien didn't come and join me.
Once I had gotten out of the shower I heard something that I hadn't heard for quite a while "he means everything to me/ I just want him to know/ that he has every part of me" coming from the bedroom "I just wish he would tell/ if something was wrong/ because I love him so/ I love him/ I need him/ so don't hide away/ come to me"
I knew that he was pretty much telling me to open up to him but I wasn't ready. But it was good to hear him sing again after all those months. I went out and saw that he was crying and knew that he had meant every word of it. He was telling me how much he loved me and here I was thinking only of myself and not realizing how hard he had taken to me shutting him out since my mum had died.
I went over to him and told him "Hun please don't take it personally I just want to work out what is going on inside my head before I dump my problems on you?"
"Don't you realize that by not opening up you have been pushing me out of your life. I want you to come back because I need you as much as you need me. I can help remember when I was almost about to run away four years ago and you told me to open up and tell you what was wrong, and how you told me that keeping it bottled up inside was what made things feel worse" he managed to get out before falling onto my lap crying his heart out.
Well that was the end of me. I burst out crying and felt his hand move up to comfort me whilst he still cried everything out himself. I didn't notice it at the time but my nana had been standing there the whole time Damien and I were crying.
I decided right then to spill out everything that was on my mind. After about an hour of crying we both stopped and Damien asked, "Can you please tell me what is wrong honey?"
"Well at the moment I am scared of losing you like I lost my mum and knowing that my father had found another way to hurt me. That's why he killed her to get me and I don't know why I have been a good kid all my life we've never gotten into trouble before. I wish I knew why he hated me?" I responded.
"He doesn't hate you Alex he is just jealous of all your happiness and is trying to destroy it" I heard my nana reply.
DAMIEN I started singing again thinking that it would help Alex open up to me but at first it didn't look like so I couldn't help myself I had to cry and then he came over and whispered to me, "Hun please don't take it personally I just want to work out what is going on inside my head before I dump my problems on you."
Well that was it I couldn't hold it in any longer I dumped everything onto him and didn't care what he thought and once I was finished I couldn't hold all the tears in any longer I had to let them out and cry. Once I started I just couldn't stop and then I noticed the door open and Alex's nana standing there and at that precise moment Alex let out all his tears as well. Man we cried for about an hour according to his nana. I was happy that he actually opened up to me after we had cried I felt him returning to my side like the old days.
It is February fourteenth and it's our twelfth birthday. The stupid party and we are heading down to the beach to spend some time alone. He told me that he has something to tell me. I am hoping that it isn't to say that he is moving away. I would miss him too much.
Anyway we walked slowly there just to make sure we got there when most people were leaving that was when Alex and I would always go there because we knew that it would be quiet and we could relax and just hang out.
Well we got there and as we had hoped the majority of people had either already left or were packing up. We both looked at each other and smiled.
"Ok dude what did you want to tell me?" I asked
"Well," he said. "This is hard to say but I feel you should be the first to know. But the fact is I'm gay."
"Don't worry about it. I thought so before hand but was waiting for you to say so. The fact is so am I and I am in love with you," I told him proudly and with that I kissed him.
Alex kissed me back and we laid there in each other's arms watching the sunset before walking back to my house for tea.
Gee that was a long time ago but hay we are still together and getting stronger. I think when the time is right I will tell the three adults about that story or better still write it down so it can be stored away somewhere safe.
To be continued