Dan and Ben at Sixty-two

Dan and Ben at Sixty-two--Chapter Fourteen By Ezra Randle

Dan waited a few more days after seeing Ben before he called Alex. It was time. Past time to take care of their relationship. If Alex told him he was finished with Jorge, would he be ready to resume their love affair? Had it been irrevocably breached? He had never felt much ill will toward Alex throughout his time with Jorge. Disappointment? Wounded? Certainly. Perhaps he was deluding himself about not feeling jealous. Still, Alex knew him so well and through difficulties that ranged from the death of his daughter to his divorce to the ups and downs of his affair with Ben. It was impossible to see Alex gone from his life. They knew each other too well. Might they become close friends? Close friends with benefits? The latter seemed impossible. How many old friends with whom he had occasional sex could he handle? Not many. Even that level of love with Ben was sometimes a struggle. Though the other night with him was rejuvenating. Not just sexually. Though the sex they had was tremendous. After spending the night and sleeping soundly, they woke at six in the morning. They had a coffee a returned to bed. This time it was pure lovemaking, with kissing and touching, combined with a profession of their unique love for each other. They didn't even orgasm. Dan felt like it could be the last time with Ben and had even asked him if that was what was going on. That Ben was saying goodbye to this level of intimacy. Ben's response was riveting as well. "How could we ever not see each other, Danny. And see each other just like this."

Alex invited him to an early dinner. They started with a glass of wine on his porch, the place where so many moments of intimacy had begun. He sat in his familiar chair and reflected back on the many moments he had gone from this chair to making love in Alex's bed. Alex prepared a simple meal: a green salad and fresh bread, with artisan cheese on the side. Dan declined any more wine. Eventually, they got to his relationship with Jorge. "What's he like, Alex?"

"In some ways he's like you. Thoughtful and sensitive to my needs. I try to be the same."

"You were always that way with me."

"Thanks. That sort of thing was never the problem with us."

"Do you enjoy the lovemaking?"

"I'm a different lover now than I was when he and I dated years ago. You had a big hand in that. Maturing me into a man who could be a good lover. So, we interact differently in bed than we used to. I didn't understand much about topping and bottoming when I dated him earlier. Even if that doesn't involve penetration, it's a state of mind. He's a very passive lover in one respect. He has no interest in topping me. As a result, I've become a top with him when we do anal sex."

"Wow. That's quite a change. I think I can count the number of times you topped me on one finger."

They both laughed. "It's not my first choice, and often we satisfy ourselves with toys or oral sex. But I've kind gotten into it. As a result, I miss a cock up my ass. Toys only go so far."

Dan was amazed Alex was so frank about his sexual interactions with a man he'd never met. "Are you surprised at the discussion?"

"Of course. But then you are a professional, and you've probably examined your relationship with Jorge through some of that lens."

"I have that propensity, don't I?"

"In spades."

"Have you given more thought to us seeing each other while I see Jorge?"

"Which one of us would be on the side?"

"I don't think Jorge could handle it. Maybe you can't either. You have your experience with Ben as a measurement. Are you still seeing him once in a while?"

"Yes. It's possible we will always see each other in one way or another."

"So, that's what we'd look forward to. You seeing Ben, me seeing Jorge. It's a life style choice perhaps."

"I know it's hypocritical of me to say I couldn't handle that. But that's likely the case."

"Are you seeing someone else?"

"I've dated. Just one man. I'm uncertain if it has legs. What about you, anyone besides Jorge?"

"Yes. He's a previous lover as well. We see each other occasionally. He satisfies another part of me."

"He likes to top?"

"Yeah. Like a machine. I can't take too much of it, but when I get the desire back there, he satisfies it. I've gone on PrEP. I am still making up for lost ground when I was such an incompetent lover."

Alex paused and let Dan compute all the information he'd just revealed. "Are you overwhelmed?"

"A little. I figured if you were seeing Jorge, you'd likely be seeing some others as well."

"I'd like to see you, too. I wish it could be tonight. Just seeing you here again, in my home, revives what we had. That I still have. Would you sleep with me tonight?"

Dan thought about the proposal. He was fortunate to have had such wonderful sex with Ben just a few days ago. He didn't feel in the least lusty. Though he was sure he could get that way quickly. Even with Alex. He simply had to lower his barriers. Having sex with Alex would be easy. The moment they started kissing, his desires would kick in with the man not too long ago he was convinced was his life partner.

"I'm sorry, Dan. I've asked you so little about your family. Your son and your dad."

Dan smiled as he realized how important those two men were in his life, and how they sustained him every day. "They're both doing really well. Astoundingly well. Jerrad has made remarkable changes. I'm so proud of him. And Dad, well, he's my dad and I love him dearly. He's been visiting all summer and is staying to October."

"Wow. I'm impressed. Tell me more."

"Actually, I think I'm done talking tonight. I need to be somewhere. So, I'll scoot out of here. Thanks for dinner."

"Don't leave yet. We haven't reached any kind of resolution. We were lovers in the dearest of relationships. We owe it to each other."

"Maybe some other time."

"I still love you, Dan."

"I'm not sure you do. And I'm not sure what you mean to me anymore."

"You're angry?"

"Not really. Maybe disappointed. Let's leave it at that. I do hope we can remain friends."

"It would be a shame to lose that."

"I agree."

Dan exited out the porch door with Alex close behind. Just before he got into his car, Dan opened up his arms and Alex gave him a deep hug. Alex held his hand and said, "I recall years ago. You propositioned me and I said I didn't think it would be a good idea. You came out to your car, in this very spot in my driveway, but you didn't leave. Finally, I came out to see if you had a problem. You basically said you wanted us to be lovers and couldn't believe I was turning you down. I saw the light in that. And we became extraordinary lovers. I'm asking you to come back in and be my lover again."

"Not tonight, Alex. Thank you for all you've been to me. I can't possibly express my gratitude properly. But I do need to go."

Alex smiled but Dan could tell he was mystified by his rejection. Something didn't feel right to Dan. He'd think about it more. Maybe someday he'd be back in this same driveway preparing to enter the home of his lover. But not tonight.

He drove off but pulled over onto a neighborhood street and sent a text to Dolph, hoping he was well. He'd been doing that most days since Dolph dismissed him after their night of lovemaking. Occasionally, Dolph replied with something simple like "Thanks" or "Good of you to text." More often the texts went unanswered. He set his phone down and immediately there was a text response. "Hi. Thanks for all your greetings. I do appreciate them. And your outreach."

Dan responded. "What are you up to?"

"Not much."

"Would you like me to stop over?"

"Do you have time?"

"Yes. I'd love to see you."

"Please come by then."

Dolph was waiting outside his condo complex when Dan drove up. "Park behind my car. For whatever reason, the police have been ticketing people for parking in the street for long stretches."

They went upstairs and sat in the living room. "Thanks for inviting me over. I've been wondering how you are. A very good friend of mine advised me that you needed some time. That what happened with us that night was so intense that you had to take some time to figure it out."

"Your friend is very astute. I'd like to meet him sometime. But first I need to apologize for treating you so poorly. After I got over whatever happened to me that night, I was so embarrassed. I needed to apologize but I figured you had already written me off. And that made me even more reluctant to speak with you. When you texted me tonight, I wanted to clear the air. And here we are."

"I was mostly puzzled. And you didn't offer any explanation. So, I was left in the dark. It seemed prudent to just leave it alone."

"We hit it off so well and then the sex thing happened. You were on fire which triggered the same for me. It was very good and very intense. But I think it was too much. Too quickly. And I just freaked out. And handled it very poorly. What I should have said was, let's slow down, but instead I told you to get out."

"Would you like to try again, at a slower pace?"

"Yes. Very much. And I'd like to start with a kiss if you don't mind," Dolph said.

Dan stood up and Dolph approached him. They held each other, and kissed gently. "We made lots of magic in those four dates. Four days over just two weeks."

"It was wonderful. Beyond description. And we talked, too. It was all so glorious. I realize now I was out of my mind sending you away," Dolph said.

"I'd like to lie down with you. To show you how I've missed you."

They stretched out on top of the bed and held hands. Dolph wanted to kiss, and Dan was surely willing, though he was concerned it would lead to the same thing that Dolph implied they needed to avoid. But once their tongues touched, Dolph was eager to do more. "Hold on, isn't this too fast?"

Dolph shook his head. "I have to come to grips with the reality that I can be a very sexual creature with someone like you. I know it may seem quite irrational."

They kissed again with more passion. "Dolph. Please stop for just a minute."

Dolph paused, and Dan sat up in bed. "I really like you. I enjoy our conversation. You are a very smart guy. And if you enjoy passion, that's great. I do, too. But I'm worried we're heading down the same path that upset you a month ago."

"I'm a bit confused, too. Forgive me. I seem to be saying that a lot tonight. But you trigger something in me. I've not experienced this before. I want to be naked with you. And this comes on the heels of me saying we need to do this slowly. Maybe you and I are destined for intense lovemaking and I need to get used to it."

Dan laughed. "Are you just feeling horny?"

Dolph laughed back. "Yes, but it's something else, too. Would you like to listen to music as we lie here?"

"What do you have in mind?"

"I've been enjoying a jazz guitarist lately. Martin Taylor. He plays songs from the American Songbook as well as his own stuff. It creates a mood."

"Sounds nice."

Dolph started the music and Dan sang along. "Do you know this song?"

"Yes, it's Gershwin. `Embraceable You'."

"Mellow enough for you?"

"It's nice. I'd like to hold you again if you're ready."

They kissed again. "Do I excite you like you do me?" Dolph asked.

"Yeah. Very much."

"I've thought about what we did that last night we saw each other."

"When we fucked?"

"Maybe that's what did it. That I can completely be a gay man with you. You sucked me and fucked me. Then, amazingly, let me fuck you."

"You told me Gary fucked you years ago?"

"I was too young and too new to this to appreciate what he was doing to me. But with you, it was real. I'm old enough now to be this person sitting here beside you. Jesus, I sound like a nut case."

"Dolph. I think we need to slowly take our clothes off. And enjoy this."

"Yes."

They stood up and kissed lightly. They took turns removing their shirts. They touched each other on the chest and belly, kissing as they did. Dan was wearing khaki shorts and he unfastened the snap. Dolph pulled them down, and Dan then pulled Dolph's gym shorts to the floor. They kissed again. "You OK?"

"Yeah. Thanks for slowing me down."

"Let's get under the sheets."

They kissed as they let the cool sheets temper their bodies. "I'm so sorry about before. I think I have fallen for you, Dan. It's the first time for me. That's why I was speaking gibberish. You feel so good next to me. You don't know how damn excited I've been in your absence."

Dan reached down and touched Dolph's genitals inside his underwear. "I love the way you fill your shorts."

"Keep your hand there. Rub me."

Dolph kissed him as he did. "Thanks. It feels so good. You feel so good."

Dan pulled Dolph's shorts off and felt his hard cock. "O my, that feels good," Dan said.

Dan let his hand slide down to cup his balls and slide through his taint. Dolph spread his legs and said, "More please."

Dan let his hand go all the way to Dolph's ass and Dolph sighed. "O, that's it. My spot."

They kissed again and Dolph pulled Dan's shorts off. The kissing built again, but not in such a frenzy. Dan slid down and tasted Dolph's cock. "It's easier to take it all each time I do this."

"Good. Because I want it to become a regular thing."

"Just let yourself go, Dolph. Don't worry about reciprocating right now."

Dan licked his shaft, then down to his balls, coating them with his desire. Dolph reached for the lube and Dan massage Dolph's hole. Dolph moaned as Dan slowly moved his middle finger inside him. Dan returned to Dolph's shaft and knob which was lathered with a generous amount of precum. He took the cock in slowly until it was deep in his throat, licking the frenulum area of the shaft. Dolph's moans increased and Dan could tell he was just a few moments away. The eruption inside his mouth was intense. He kissed Dolph immediately after leaving some of the cum in his mouth, but using most of the jizz to jack himself as he knelt between Dolph's thighs. As he approached his own orgasm with grunts and moans, Dolph said, "On my face. I want it on my face."

Dan spurted onto Dolph's chin and cheeks but mostly at his mouth, then kissed him tasting his cum as they collapsed in ecstasy. Neither of them fell asleep. Finally Dan said, "I hope you're OK, because that was very, very intense."

"Yes, I'm more than fine. Do you want to spend the night? I need practice with that, too."

"No, that would be too fast again. Let's shower and I'll take off."

"Go ahead. I want to lay here for a bit."

"I can linger with you. I like that."

"Good. I won't ask you to compare what we do to the others you've been with. You already know, other than Gary, there hasn't been much."

"It's really been just two men before you. Who mattered to me. And you rank right up there."

"Nice of you. I keep a journal on my computer. About sexual stuff. I've written more about you than everything else in the journal."

"What will you write about what happened tonight?"

"I don't know. It's quite spontaneous."

"Can I guess?"

"By all means."

"Something like this. `Dear Diary. He came back again. I got past my stubbornness and invited him in. The moment I saw him I felt the charge within me. I wanted him again despite the warnings I've given myself. But he had to slow me down. He kissed me like I needed to be kissed. Diary, you know about me and kissing, right? He sucked my enormous stiffy like it was just three inches, making me cum like only he can. Then he jacked off using my cum as lubricant exploding onto my mouth. His cum was all over my chin and lips. It was glorious as he kissed me over and over tasting his own cum. O, Diary, you should have been there. I asked him to spend the night, but he said I'm not ready for that yet."

Dolph had been laughing throughout Dan's retelling of what happened over the past hour. "Did I get it accurately?"

Dolph kissed him. "Nearly perfect. Almost word for word. Except there is a last line."

"What's that?"

"I need him to come back."