This is a true story and it is very close to my heart. It tells about the one guy that I would use the term "lover" to describe. I am opening my soul, here and I know that that can be dangerous. As always your coments are welcome.
ben_sc@hotmail.com
David
I am a gay married male with two teen-aged boys both living at home. I hadn't really done anything to appease my feelings of curiosity and attraction for other men until I was nearly 30 years old (I'm now 44). The circumstances presented themselves, along with a willing partner, and I found the experience quite natural and fulfilling. There is enough memory and substance to make this a whole other narrative, but, for now, let's stay on the subject of David.
After my 'initiation' into male-to-male sex, which amounted to six total meetings with the same guy over a period of about 18 months, I had no sexual contact with another man for about 8 years. When I took a job that allowed me to have internet access, I began to explore and was soon to discover that there are a LOT of guys, married and single, who are looking for sexual contact with other men.
Over the course of the next three years I met many men and got close to some, others were "one night stands". I had a thing for a 22 year old guy for awhile, but it was not a mutual affection. It became routine for me to run a personal ad on one or more Internet classified sites and to respond to the ads others had placed. I met several guys at their homes, some at hotel rooms and for a brief period when my family was out of town, a few of them came to my house.
It is important to understand that during this whole time, I was careful not to let my wife know about any of my activities. We had not been intimate for a number of years because I had become increasingly aware that I was, in fact, gay and not bisexual, as I had always thought myself to be.
I was extremely careful when it came to having "safe sex". I always used a condom for anal sex, whether I was the "top" or the "bottom" in the union. I also was adamant about not allowing anybody to cum in my mouth (with a rare exception of the 22-year-old, right after he had gotten a negative result from his HIV test). I was also regularly tested at the local health clinic.
To say that I was promiscuous would be a huge understatement. I never had a problem finding willing partners for sex. I had even involved myself in group situations and had attended an orgy out of town as well as visited a "bath house". In short, I had done it all, sexually speaking.
When I received a response from my latest personal ad, I treated it as pretty well routine. Then I looked and saw two more responses from the same guy, all in the same day. This was NOT routine and it certainly got my attention. The messages read as follows:
(Please note that I have x'd out pertinent numbers and may have
changed some information and names to protect anonymity)
MY NAME IS D. I AM A FIRST TIMER AND I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME HOW IT GOES. I LOVE MASSAGES I LIKE TO GIVE AND RECIEIVE !!!!! I TOO, LIKE YOURSELF, AM ALWAYS HORNY. CALL ME AT xxx-xxxx (GOOSE CREEK). OR E-MAIL At xxx@xxxxx.com
MY NAME IS DAVID I AM A 33 YEAR OLD BWMM I HAVE BLACK HAIR, GREEN EYES, 5'11"175#'s. WAITING ON YOUR REPLY .YOU HAVE A VERY UNIQUE WAY WITH WORDS " I LIKE THAT IN A MAN. CALL ME AT xxx-xxxx OR E-MAIL AT xxx@xxxxx.com
FIRST OF ALL MY NAME IS DAVID, I AM IN TO THE WAY YOU WOULD MAKE ME FEEL INSIDE & OUT. SOME OF MY INTEREST ARE HORSE BACK RIDING, PLAYING THE PIANO, WALKING, TALKING, GIVING BODY MASSAGES. I AM OFF OF WORK EVERY OTHER MONDAY & EVERY WEDNSDAY, CALL ME SOMETIME. I AM 5'11 &175# BLACK &GREEN EYES (WBM). CALL ME AT HOME xxx-xxxx / WORK xxx-xxxx
*A note to the reader: Whenever possible, I will use the actual email messages that were sent and received. It just happens that I had saved them.
I sent a reply to these messages:
Hello David! Wow, 3 messages! I am flattered. I'm very glad that you contacted me, you sound like a nice guy and also sound like you are ready to go. I'll give you a call in just a little while. I can't wait to talk to you. I am not clear about a couple of things. You have used the WBMM as well as WBM, and I'm not sure what that means. When I see W OR B in front M, that usually means white male or black male. MM usually means married male. You said you are a first timer and that could explain it. It doesn't matter to me whether you are black or white (or green!) as long as you're clean, discrete, safe and a nice guy. I have a feeling that you are all of these things and more. I'll know more when I talk to you. As for being married, I'm cool with that if you are, or if you're not. I just kind of like to know what to expect. Let me give you my work number as well: xxx-xxxx extension xxxx. I'll call you after 9 A.M. Ben
I called David at his home number on Tuesday morning, the 26th of January 1999. We talked for quite awhile and got to know quite a bit about each other. In fact, after my initial call, he called me back twice that day to talk some more.
I could tell he had a good sense of humor and laughed easily. He was a bit nervous but was looking forward to meeting me. He also told me a bit about his history.
David had been married for nearly 7 years. About 3-1/w years before he met me, he was employed in a men's clothing store in a local mall. He developed a crush on a male coworker, named Howard, and as time progressed, his feelings grew.
David's brother, Joey, is gay and David turned to him in confidence to ask Joey's advice about his feelings. I am assuming Joey encouraged him to explore a relationship with Howard, and he did. He began to spend time outside of work with Howard, as well as with Joey, frequenting a local gay bar, even bringing his wife along.
David's wife, Lisa, began to suspect that he had strong romantic feelings for Howard and confronted him. He admitted his feelings and they decided to separate. David continued to see Howard And they were close, kissing and touching but did not have sex for a period of 8 months. It was at that time that David found out that Howard and Joey had been seeing each other and having sex for the entire 8- month period.
David was deeply hurt and there was a huge confrontation that caused a rift in the family. David and Lisa decided to get back together and moved to Georgia, near David's father. They lived there, apparently happy for 3 years. Then they moved back to this area and a few weeks later, I received David's responses to my personal ad.
During the course of our phone calls, David invited me to his apartment the following (Wednesday) morning. I left work on the premise that I had to do some work "on the base" and went to David's place. He lived in a townhouse in a fairly large apartment complex. I walked to his door as I put a drop of breath freshener on my tongue. I went to knock on the door, but it was opened before I could. David greeted me and asked me to come inside.
I stepped inside past him and he shut and locked the door. He turned toward me and leaned forward to kiss me. David is an excellent kisser and we were soon locked in an embrace, touching and holding onto one another tightly. I became aroused and could tell that David had, too.
We finally broke the embrace and I got to take a good long look at him. He had clean, shiny black hair, cut short on the sides and back, a bit longer on top but neatly styled. He had beautiful eyes, slightly almond shaped, green at the outside of the iris, blending to brown toward the pupil. His eyes tended to squint a bit and he had laugh lines when he smiled.
His smile was brilliant. Beautiful, straight, white teeth sensuous lips and slight dimples, he had a neatly trimmed moustache but was otherwise clean-shaven. I cannot tell you what he was wearing, except for his underwear.
We kissed again and began to search each other's bodies with our hands. I put my hands inside his shirt and caressed his stomach, chest and nipples. I moved my hand further down and grasped his hardening cock. I could already tell that it was quite impressively sized. I unbuttoned and unzipped his pants and put my hand inside them, He was wearing a black thong that tied together at his left side. I grasped his hard cock again through the thong, all the while kissing him as our tongues battled with each other.
I reached my hand through the waistband of his thong and withdrew his cock. I broke our kiss and began kissing down his neck and chest. Lifting up his shirt to bare his smooth skin, David smelled clean and had a faint fresh scent and just the slightest hint of male musk that I find so sexy.
Taking his nipple in my mouth, I sucked and gently nibbled it, as it became erect. I continued my oral attention down his body, past his navel as I lowered myself to my knees in front of him. I pulled down the front of his thong and exposed his entire cock and his balls. I estimated his cock to be about 7 inches long and of impressive girth. He had thick, shiny, silky pubic hair-jet black, and his scrotum was shaved and smooth. His balls were of average size and were pulled up tight against the base of his cock. I was to learn from repeated access to him that this was a normal condition for him.
The aroma from his crotch was of soap and a slightly stronger male scent. I grasped his cock with my hand and brought my tongue in contact with the circumcised head. David gasped and held onto my shoulders and I continued to take more and more or his hard cock into my mouth. I used my hands to further explore his body and that's when I found out he has wearing a thong instead of a pair of briefs.
After a few short minutes of my oral ministrations to his cock, David pulled me up, kissed me deeply and said, "Let's go upstairs." It took us quite awhile to navigate our way up as we were reluctant to break body contact and we continued to kiss deeply all the way up the stairs and into his bedroom. We stood by his bed and kissed and touched as we undressed each other. As each new body part was uncovered it was touched and kissed and fondled. We took our time and finally stood naked in front of each other.
Is it true or am I looking with the eyes of one who loved deeply? David was beautiful to me. If there was anything that I didn't find absolutely wonderful about him, perhaps it was that his hips were slightly rounded, like a woman's, but his ass was delicious looking, firm with high, rounded buns.
I led David to the bed and we lay down on our sides facing each other. Face-to-face, cock-to cock, our legs, arms, lips and tongues entwined. We moved with and against each other, giving and feeling pleasure from each other. Tongue touching ear, lips on shoulder and neck, eyes locking and closing in pleasure. This was a most sensuous moment for us both. David responded to me perfectly, and I to him.
He began to become a little more adventurous and started exploring my body with his hands and mouth. He touched and caressed me all over and ended up with my cock in his mouth. He was gentle yet provided an enthusiastic amount of stimulation as well. I move us into a 69 position and we sucked each other with abandon.
I usually like to take the bottom position, on my back, while 69ing. This leaves my hands free to roam my partner's body while I'm sucking and licking him. This is what I did with David. I devoured the man-sucked and nibbled and licked and kissed his cock, his balls, his thighs and moved my mouth higher until I was able to reach his butt hole. It was clean and pink and warm. I licked it once and he just stopped.
He ceased what he was doing and just concentrated on what he was feeling. Slowly I resumed licking around and across his hole and he moaned deeply. I wrapped my arms around his hips and pushed my tongue against his butt hole, penetrating it slightly. He moaned again and pushed his gorgeous ass into my face, completely forgetting what he had been doing to me with his mouth. I tongue-fucked him for several minutes, and he finally pulled away from me and said, "I want you inside of me."
He moved off of me to get the condoms and lubricant that I had brought with me. I lay on my back while he rolled the condom onto my cock, spread some of the lube onto it and positioned himself to sit on my sheathed cock. I have found that this position gives the bottom (I guess the bottom is on top in this case) a lot more control of the entry. Unfortunately, it's not an easy position to accomplish, especially if there is an inexperienced person involved. Because of the anatomy, it is difficult for either partner to reach and guide the cock into the hole. After several frustrated attempts, I suggested we try something else.
I had David lay on his back with his legs up. I moved between his legs and placed his heels on my shoulders, thus rolling his hips and his asshole up to a better position for penetration. I used some more lube and my fingers to loosen and relax his sphincter. I then placed the head of my cock at his entrance and began a slow, steady pressure. I watched David's face carefully for any signs that I might be hurting him. I told him to stop me if I did. I also told him that it helps to apply pressure like you are taking a dump to loosen the sphincter muscle and allow me inside.
Slowly and gently I proceeded, stopping when he asked me, starting again when he indicated for me to go on. This was David's first time and I wanted it to be wonderful for him. I wanted for him to have only good memories of it, and most of all, I wanted him to like it so much, that we could make love over and over again.
It took awhile but I was finally fully inside of him. After I took a few moments for him to become accustomed to the fullness, I began to slowly move my cock out and back in. David had his eyes closed peacefully and had a big smile on his face. He fairly purred. He held my arms as I made slow, deliberate love to him. He looked up and I asked if he was okay. He smiled his toothy grin and said, "Oh Yes! I'm in heaven."
He looked so sexy that I had to lean down and kiss his mouth, his eyelids, his forehead, and his throat as I moved inside of him. It was tender, it was passionate, it was much more that fucking. I was making sweet, beautiful love with this man. I don't know how long we continued, but I began to tire and was concerned that he might become sore if I went for too long. I withdrew and he cradled me in his arms and we lay still listening as our breathing and heartbeats slowed. A gentle kiss, fingers stroking lightly down his side and leg.
David's stomach growled and he was embarrassed. He hadn't eaten that morning and was getting hungry. We got up and cleaned up a bit. He went downstairs and got a huge glass bowl of fruit-grapes and strawberries (where did he get THOSE in January?) and we lay on the bed and, naked, fed each other, and snuggled and kissed.