A Deep Love By James
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Book 2 Chapter 15
Michael
The two guards were dead and I was walking towards the door. I saw that the doorway lead in to a long and white hallway with more of the same bright white lights. Josh was holding on to my elbow as we walked and I was letting him know what I saw which was nothing but the walls and floor along with the lights. There were several closed doors on either side and I wasn't sure I wanted to know what was behind each of them. We walked a little more until we came to a large red door made of metal.
"I'll try and see if it's unlocked," I said. I checked and saw that there was a normal key hole and I grabbed the nob. It turned on the first try and I pushed opened the door. I saw before me a large white room with a table in its center and bright white operating room lights shining down on the table. I grabbed Josh and pulled him in to the room then slammed and locked the door. I had him stand behind several metal cabinets that were stacked up on the right side of the room. I went to look around and found a file. On the front of the folder, it read "Explanation of the Procedure". I opened it and began to read.
After reading, I understood for the most part what was going on. Somehow, a doctor claimed that taking the parts of the hypothalamus which controlled certain aspects of sexual orientation and injecting the parts in to the actual hypothalamuses of the brains of kids who were gay would make them straight, but it would require the removal of those same parts of their hypothalamuses for the implant. I put the file down and ran over to Josh and explained it all to him.
"So what do we do?" he said.
"I'm going to have you leave here and hide in the basement, hopefully they have one," I said. "I'm going to try to get the fuck out of here and find a phone to call dad and the others. There's something else as well. Your name is in this file. These sick fucks probably deep down don't even know what they're doing or why, but I'm going to do all that I can to get us the Hell out of here."
Suddenly, I felt something hard and cold press against the back of my head. I tried to turn around, but pain exploded in my head and blackness over-took me once more.
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Noah exited the weapons room located in the basement of the security building. He had heard everything. Whoever the shitbag was who kidnapped Josh and Michael didn't think to check the other rooms and they definitely didn't know that Noah was still awake. He woke Chase and explained to him what was going on and spent several minutes making Chase promise that he would stay back while Noah went to find their friends.
Noah had really come to love Josh and Michael both, and he knew that he had an obligation to save them if he could. He was afraid that with Chase's leg the way it was, that they would not only be slowed down, but that Chase might not be able to defend himself that well should the creeps knock him down.
Noah checked the weapons and remembered the conversations he heard The Person In Black have with the two men that were with them as they took Josh and Michael outside. They said that the place they were going was in the mountains in a small town called Smithville which Noah had heard of before. From what he knew of it, it was little more than a haven for homophobes and other types of bigots. He also remembered them mentioning a large white mansion. They talked of how people thought that it was abandoned and how no one saw them coming in to the place at night when everyone was asleep hints everyone thinking that the place was empty. Noah almost laughed out loud when he heard that conversation and again as he exited the security building. He found it funny in a sick way how careless they were being with what they said.
After looking around to make sure that no one was following him, Noah went to where one of the vans were and got in. He had just gotten his license a few weeks before and he hoped that his driving skills limited though they were would get him where he needed to go. He got in the van and started it up after making sure the weapons were secure in the back. Once in the van and it started up, Noah sped out of the driveway and down the road. Hate and murder for the people who took his brothers burned hot and bright in his heart and he was trying to fight against it. He didn't think they would tell him where Michael and Josh were being hidden, but if they did, then he would need them alive for the information.
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The I.V. was secured in Josh's arm and as he tried to struggle, the drugs were already taking effect. Once Michael was knocked out, one of the last remaining guards grabbed Josh in a hold stronger than he had ever known and The Woman In Black inserted the I.V. needle. Once he was strapped down to the table, the sedative was introduced and he felt his world going from grey to black.
Michael
I awoke and after getting myself fully conscious, I looked around. I was in a small windowless room and I was still in the thin pants and shirt. The room was small, but the walls and floor were a dark grey color and the light burning above was a dim orange color. I checked the door and saw that it was locked. It was a solid wooden door and I began trying to get it opened, but kicking it didn't work, neither did trying to break off the nob.
I sat for a moment trying to figure out what to do. I was scared that it was too late, and that Josh was dead or the procedure had already been done. I checked all around the room and in a corner of the room in the back, I found a small thin piece of metal. I hoped that it could help me pick the lock. I went to work on the door again and after several minutes, there was a click and the door was unlocked. I pushed it opened and saw that I was standing in a hallway lit by the same dim bulbs as the room I had just walked out of. I began to walk down the hall and saw that ahead, was a set of steps and from the damp feel, I knew that I was in a basement.
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Andrew looked around and slammed his fist down on the desk again. He saw from the security tapes that Noah had taken weapons from the room in which they were kept and had taken one of the vans. He was mad at the others who clearly hadn't been watching good enough, but mostly he was mad at himself for not making sure that none of the kids tried to intervene, but he didn't count on Noah going off like this. Fortunately, the van Noah had taken was equipped with GPS, so Andrew within minutes, had Noah's location and he knew that he was now at some destination. Andrew grabbed his phone and called Noah's cell phone.
"I can't talk now!" Noah said.
"Noah don't you hang up on me!" Andrew yelled louder than he meant to. "Listen to me, I don't know where you went, but I'm ordering you to return back here to the house right now! You don't know who you're dealing with! I saw the tapes of what you did, so don't try to deny it!
"I know where they are!" Noah yelled as he stopped the van.
"You mean Josh and Michael?" Andrew asked.
"Yeah!" Noah said as he got out of the van.
"Noah, I said for you to get back here now!" Andrew said as he began to lose his composure. "Damn it! Just tell me where they are and I'll come and get them!"
There was silence, then the phone went dead.
"Noah!" Andrew screamed in to the phone. "Hello! Noah!"
He felt the phone vibrate in his hand and he looked and saw a text from Noah. He opened it and read what it said. It was directions to a house that Noah said people thought was abandoned, but really wasn't. That was where the people were holding Josh and Michael.
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Josh awoke again, and tried to move his head. He felt something pressing down on it and tried to move it again, but still it was held immobile by something.
"I wouldn't try to do that," a voice coming from his right said.
It was a woman's voice, and he tried to place it, but couldn't at first.
"Where am I?" Josh asked.
"You're still in the room that you and Michael were in before," the woman said. "I had a guard knock out Michael and he's down in the basement alive, for now anyway."
"Why?" Josh began. "Why are you doing this. I don't even know you."
"I should first explain that I had you sedated for a few minutes so that the doctor could immobilize your head for the procedure. You and Michael figured it all out haven't you?"
"The general idea of it anyway," Josh answered. "Now tell me who you are."
"You don't recognize my voice by now?" she asked. "I know you better than you know yourself and I always have."
It suddenly became clear to Josh and he went numb. He wanted to pass out and he felt sick.
"Mom?" he said barely comprehending.
"I was wrong to let that Bastard take you away from me!" she said and hatred saturated her voice.
Once Chad had learned of her affair, he divorced her and won full custody of Josh and although his mother had tried to reason with Chad a couple of times after the ruling, he refused to give in and she left never to be heard from, until now. Her name was Tammy Henderson, with Henderson being her maiden name.
After she left and went back to her home town, she met Dr. Richardson and became enamored with his research. She had never been in favor of homosexuality from the beginning and his work fascinated her. She signed on to help him with his work and research, then once adds on TV started appearing about the house that Josh and Michael began running, she saw them and was horrified that Josh had become a perverted fagot. She blamed Michael, but was equally angry, then hurt by Josh's choice to be gay. That was when she began to fixate on getting him back and fixing within him what was broken, at least in her mind anyway. Dr. Richardson was all too happy to go along with her plan and they began working on plans to kidnap Josh and Michael just days after she had dumped Ashley off on the side of the road.
Tammy explained this all to Josh and he was sickened even more to learn of all of this. It had never been about Michael or the other kids and because of her, Michael had been violated in the worse possible way by Larry Marks and almost killed a couple of times by him. The way Josh saw it, she was the one who brought Larry Marks in to all of their lives and at that moment, he hated her.
"I hate you more than you'll ever know!" Josh suddenly screamed at her.
"I know this is all hard for you to accept right now," Tammy said. "But you'll come to accept it in time and you'll come in time, to accept God's plan for you in the world."
"Go to Hell!" he yelled.
"I know you don't mean that," she said. Suddenly, the door to the O.R. room opened and Dr. Richardson walked in and closed and locked the door. "It's time now."
Tammy sounded like any loving mother with their child at the doctor's office who was seconds away from receiving a shot.
"I'm Dr. Richardson," the doctor said. "I'm sure that this is all weird to you, but as your mother said, eventually you'll come to see things our way."
"Were you the one?" Josh began. "Were you the one who was fucking her! Were you the one who she went behind my dad's back to have some hot meaningless fucking with!"
"Hmmm," Richardson said softly. "I might have to come up with a procedure that cures kids of that horrible language."
"Here's more horrible language," Josh added. "The people who know me and who really care for me won't stop until they find your sorry asses and blast you all straight to Hell!"
"The third person in the room stepped forward to the head of the operating table and held up a syringe. Dr. Richardson told them to wait.
"You're going to be a whole new person after this is over Josh," Dr. Richardson said. "You'll be living with your mother and I once you recover enough and you'll see just how wonderful a new life free of homosexuality can be. Now the doctor behind you will give you something in your I.V., and you should start to feel sleepy soon enough. It'll all be over soon."
"Help!" Josh screamed louder than he thought possible.
"No one can hear you," Tammy said. "Michael is locked away and no one else knows where we are."
"You shouldn't fight it," Dr. Richardson said. "It's only going to make things worse than they have to be."
"Help me!" Josh screamed again.
"Give him the injection now," Dr. Richardson said to the anesthesiologist as calmly as if he were asking for a dish of ice-cream.
"No!" Josh screamed as the drug was injected.
"It'll all be over soon," Dr. Richardson said.
"This is all for the best," Tammy said, just as lovingly as any mother who comforts a scared child at the doctor's office.
Josh felt himself beginning to weaken. His last thoughts were of Michael and every one of their brothers. He then thought of all of the kids they had taken in and helped. He thought of his dad, Jennifer and then his thoughts circled back to Michael.
"I love you Michael," he thought as the anesthesia began to flow through his bloodstream. "I loved you all so much."
Dr. Richardson stepped to the head of the operating table and took up a scalpel and held it up in his hand for a moment. He was about to do his best work, he was about to deliver another lost soul for God. It was intoxicating, it was better than sex. Never before had he felt so powerful and so important to the world!
"Everything is set," the anesthesiologist said. "All vitals are good and normal."
"It's time to start," Richardson said. He moved his hand with the scalpel down and moved it closer and closer to the area of Josh's shaved head and readied himself for the first cut.
Explosions went off and the door was slammed off its hinges. Dr. Richardson looked up and dropped the scalpel before it could even touch Josh's head.
"All of you mother fuckers get your hands in the air right now!" a voice screamed louder than any of them had ever heard in their lives. "Any of you move, I'll blow off your mother fucking heads!"
Noah stood there with two automatic pistols in both hands pointing them at Dr. Richardson and the other was aimed at the anesthesiologist.
"You're dead," Dr. Richardson said. "The guards know where we are and they should be coming for you right now."
"You fucking idiot!" Noah yelled. "Who's guns do you think these are!"
"He's just a stupid child," Tammy said. "We'll take him and get rid of him, then we can get back to work."
"Shut up!" Noah said and fired the gun in his left hand. He was ready for the kick and the crash. He had shot guns before with his father and a large part of him hated the machines of murder and destruction his father forced him to use, but he was also thrilled by them and it always scared him, but now in this moment, he loved the feel of them in his hands.
The shot had taken out one of the O,.R. lights and showered down glass on Josh and on Dr. Richardson's head. The anesthesiologist began to run for the door and Noah fired hitting him in the head. The doctor fell to the floor and looked up at Noah. He saw in the boy's eyes nothing but hatred and rage.
"Let this be the last thing you see before you die," Noah said smiling cruelly, then fired again ending the doctor's life with that last shot.
Tammy was shaking with fear now. She was crying now and was hoping that she could get out of there alive.
"Please," she begged. "Just let us do'''."
"Shut up Bitch!" Noah roared at her.
Dr. Richardson stood there desperately thinking of a plan. He knew that the work was moments away from being destroyed. He knew that somehow, that this boy had killed the guards. They only had four, two guards to watch the outside of the building, and two on the inside, but whatever the case, all four were dead and it was this boy who killed them and clearly had a good time doing it.
"Okay," Dr. Richardson said. "Here's what we're going to do."
"We!" Noah screamed at him. "Are not going to do anything! Keep your hands up!"
"I just want to get your friend removed from this frame his head is in, then I'll let you all go," Dr. Richardson said this as sincerely as he could.
"I don't believe you," Noah said beginning to weaken under Dr. Richardson's tone.
"You'll just have to trust me," Dr. Richardson responded. "Tammy, I need you to go sit down in the chair by the door."
Tammy did as she was told, then Dr. Richardson walked up to Noah. By this time, Noah's hands were shaking and once Dr. Richardson closed the distance, he drew back his fist and slammed it in to Noah's eye. Noah fell to the ground and the guns fell from his hands. He lay there for a moment trying to get the pain to clear from his head, then he looked up at the doctor.
"You bastard!" he hissed at him. "I'll see you in Hell for this!"
"Get up," Dr. Richardson said. His voice now was nothing but ice.
"No," Noah said looking up at him with all the hate he could muster in his eyes.
"Do it," Dr. Richardson said.
Noah struggled to his feet and the doctor grabbed him and dragged him to the operating table.
"No," Noah said turning to him. "You're not going to put my head in that thing. You're not going to do to me whatever you think you're going to do to Josh!"
"You're right," Dr. Richardson said. "I'm not going to do anything at all. You are."
"/What?" Noah said beginning to feel sick. He deep down knew where Dr. Richardson was going with this.
"With my help, you will do the surgery on this boy," Dr. Richardson said. He held out a fresh scalpel to Noah and Noah looked at it. Put on these rubber gloves."
In Dr. Richardson's other hand was a set of surgical gloves and Noah put them on. He hesitantly took the blade and looked at the doctor.
"What happens if I refuse?" Noah asked.
"Then I'll lighten up on the anesthesia and the surgery will be performed with Josh awake and feeling everything," Dr. Richardson said. "Oh, and after it's over, I would kill you so that the last moment you would have on this earth would be the echoes in your head of Josh's screams. If you do the surgery with Josh under, you won't have to hear any of it, and you can die a peaceful death."
"Mengele," Noah said looking deep in to Dr. Richardson's eyes.
"Excuse me?" the doctor asked not understanding what Noah had said.
"I said Mengele," Noah said moving closer to the doctor. "You're just another Joseph Mengele. You know, the doctor who did the medical experiments on children in the concentration camps in Germany when Hitler was in power."
"I'm nothing like that man," Dr. Richardson said. "Now do the work!"
"I'm sure that Mengele had himself convinced that he wasn't doing anything evil either," Noah said moving closer and closer.
"I'm trying to save the world," Dr. Richardson said moving back from Noah. "This is my life's work."
"That's what I mean," Noah went on. "Mengele perverted the field of medicine to try to fulfill the utopian vision set forth by Hitler. You have perverted the field of medicine, but this time for what you think the utopian vision is for God. Even if you didn't choose to misuse the field of medicine for your sick visions, since your end-goal is trying to force kids not to be gay and thinking that God is behind it, you still would have done something just as evil if not worse to try to make your vision a reality. People who think the way you think, do many different things to make their utopian visions reality, but the horrible results and outcomes are the same! In other words, whether it's for Hitler or for God, you, Mengele, Hitler and other similar visionaries are nothing more than sick hateful criminals and murderers!"
"Okay," the doctor said. "I tried to reason with you, but you'll get to see Josh in horrible pain before you die and be down in Hell suffering forever knowing that you caused his painful death, if he dies from this! I know some about Anesthesia as well, so I could have made this go so much easier."
Suddenly there was a noise by the door to the operating room and Dr. Richardson turned towards the door. Noah was on him instantly and he grabbed Dr. Richardson's hair and brutally yanked back his head and just as brutally slit his throat with the scalpel. Blood gushed from his neck and Noah let the body fall, then he ran towards the door.
Michael
I took in the scene before me and saw a woman getting out of a chair and running towards me. I grabbed her and twisted her wrist and the gun fell out of her hand. I looked at her clothes and knew that The Woman In Black was revealed now, even though I still didn't know her name.
"You're through Bitch!" I screamed and turned the gun so the butt of it was facing her. I slammed it down on her face several times and enjoyed the pain she was feeling. I took both of her hands and broke every single finger, broke both arms, took both legs and gave them the same treatment. All the while she was screaming in long loud screams that filled the room. I was glad to hear them. I grabbed a scalpel from a table and held it up.
"Please don't!" she screamed out.
"There's no reason I should let you live!" I yelled back at her. "I should just slice your fucking throat out right now!"
I felt someone grab my shoulder and I spun around holding the scalpel up. I had my arm held back, ready to thrust it forward to strike, then I was able to get a good look as to who was before me. I saw my dad inches away and he looked scared.
"Dad," I got out, and he moved closer.
"Michael, drop it," he repeated again. "It's all over. Chad and the others are hear and all of the guards are dead. Noah killed them all when he got here."
"What do you mean?" I asked beginning to weaken. I heard a dinging noise and saw the blade fall from my hand. I was losing my strength and quickly.
I was falling forward and with the last of my strength, I turned my head to see Noah and Chad with the help of one of our doctors removing the frame from Josh's head and Josh was beginning to wake up. He was fighting the tube that was down his throat and after helping him relax, they removed it. I then passed out.
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Tammy lay in her hospital bed with casts on both arms and both legs. She was going in and out of consciousness and she was also seeing things before her eyes. She saw demons reaching for her as well as the flames of Hell themselves. She was wishing she could wake up, but she knew that it was real, at least she was sure that it was.
Michael
I sat beside Josh's hospital bed holding his hand until he woke up. He and I both had been checked out by the doctor at our parents' insistence. I was fine and so was Josh, I only had a few dark bruises on my face and Josh was still asleep after having been sedated after arriving at the hospital. On the way to the hospital, he would pass out, then awaken in a state of fear and would be screaming and try to get away from the paramedics who were working on him. I figured that it was mainly psychological; the situation that he was in as well as finding out that his mother was willing to have a surgery performed on him that could possibly kill him had to have been shocking to his system to say the least.
I had always wondered what had happened to his mother and when he and I would talk about it, he wondered as well, but didn't say much. That seemed to be the only thing in his life on which he had nothing to say. As I sat there, I heard him moan and he tried to pull his hand out of mine.
"Josh," I said softly. "It's okay. You're in the hospital and you're safe. It's over now."
He began to calm down and he stopped struggling. He gripped my hand again and was trying to say something. I told him to go slow and he began talking.
"I was hoping that it was a dream," he said. "My own mother; I can't believe it!"
I stood up and hugged him then kissed his cheek. I then went out and let the nurses know that he was awake. They checked on him and after the doctor came in and asked him some questions, he said that I could come back in.
Author's Notes
I had always planned to resolve the story line where Josh's mother was concerned. I had for a long time, struggled with how to introduce her in to the story.
A few times, I thought about having her redeem herself and be a caring and loving mother to Josh. I also thought of not resolving the issue at all in an attempt to illustrate within the story the reality not everything in life gets resolved and closure doesn't always happen.
Eventually though, I decided on the storyline that's played out over the past chapter as well as this one. Since Deep Love has taken on an anti-utopian theme, I figured that I would explore the horrors of a mother betraying her offspring for the greater good of a utopian dream. I just hope that everyone will be as surprised that it turned out to be Josh's mother who was behind everything. I know I was when it finally came to me to write what I did.
I'll be sending out this chapter this evening, so people should see it either tomorrow or Wednesday at the latest. Everyone have a good night and I'll see you all in Chapter 16.