Determination to succeed! By Benme_over Edited by Drew Hunt
Authors Notes:-
This story contains Sex between men. If you are under 18 in the Uk (or appropriate legal age in your country) please stop reading here. If such mentioned material may offend you please stop reading too. This story is fiction and any resemblance to reality is pure coincidence.
Though this story may involve unsafe sex (It is only fiction), and I believe in playing safe (look after yourself and your partner).
Hope you enjoy my story, and of course please email me with your comments good or bad. It is always nice for us writers to know other's are reading our stories, and know what readers think of the stories as they develop.
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CHAPTER 7
A few days after arriving at my parent's pub, Dad asked me to sit down and we went through the whole of the 'John story', we were honest with each other. I told him how I felt betrayed and so alone at the time. I told him how the only person who had my interests at heart was Steve, how he refused to have sex with me because my mind was so muddled. I even told dad how I had hated him when I found out that he had got an injunction against Steve, cutting the only real support that I had off from me. We both cried openly.
Then Dad delivered a bombshell. "Son, I've treated you badly, I didn't fulfil my parental duties towards you. I know I messed up, and although you've forgiven me, what happened can never fully go away. I'm truly sorry for everything. I'm going to explain what happened from my point of view. Although I don't excuse my actions back then, I now know why I acted that way." He said taking his time to catch his breath once more.
I offered him a glass of water. After he took a couple of sips from the glass he continued, "Son when I was about twelve I was abused by my brother Jack, he was 20 at the time. Until that night in the men's room I'd had a total mental block about being abused. You see Jack raped me with the full force of his rugby build, he tore my arse apart. The psychologist that I've been under for a year now, told me that catching you having gay sex in the toilet triggered off the unpleasant memories. My mind had taken control of me, at the time I saw gay men as abusers, perverts if you like."
Dad broke down totally, I went over to console him. Though I too was also quite shaken and crying openly.
"Dad I don't know what to say, but thanks for explaining to me what happened. We can't turn back the clock and pretend nothing ever happened, but may be we both can move on from it" I said not sure what I was actually meaning.
My mind was so jumbled up with an information overload. I helped Dad to his feet and we went to the dining room, joining Jase and Mum for the evening meal. It was a pleasant meal as was the rest of the week that we stayed with them. I never thought in a million years that I would have forgiven my dad for his actions, but I had. All the pent up anger had gone, though I still had a low self-esteem which began when I was a teenager.
Our goodbyes were quite emotional and tearful, I didn't really want to go back to Spain, but I couldn't let bill down. It would have been so wrong after all that Bill and Jase had done for me. Jase as always was a tower of strength. The visit to my parents was an emotional one, it had opened old wounds that I was now going to have to face once more.
We got back to Salou around 9 pm on Sunday. After speaking to Bill on the phone, he said things had been quiet for the past week, so we were able to take the following day off to recover from our flight. Jase said we should go exploring the town, as we hadn't really had much time for that up to now due to work.
Once we got to the apartment, we made some sandwiches and a pot of tea, we retired to our room, where we sat in bed watching the TV eating. After a while we turned off the TV and lay talking in bed. For the first time I told Jase all of the story about John, going into detail.
"Oh Ben, why've you kept this to yourself? My sweet angel I'm here for you, you know I will always be here for you." His words set the tears falling down my cheeks once again.
"Jase why do you put up with me!"
"Bloody hell Ben I LOVE YOU. Your part of my life, a very important part Ben!"
I must have fallen asleep crying because the next thing I knew was Jase sitting up in bed shaking my shoulder "Wakey, Wakey Ben!"
When I opened my eyes it was sunny, as Jase pulled back the curtains I could see a beautifully clear sky, not a single cloud about. I sat up as Jase sat on the bed.
"Come here Babes." I said as I pulled him towards me and kissed him softly, "Thanks for your support last night babes, I just wouldn't know what I would do without you."
"Well you will never find out, as I'm going to always be here for you" He replied. "Anyway Lover-boy, lets get showered, have breakfast and get out and enjoy our free time, if you're a good boy I might even take you to the zoo too." he joked.
"Can I have an ice cream Daddy?" I asked in a mock kid's voice.
"Depends how good you are son." He tried to do a voice of authority, which was funny in itself as Jase just wasn't cut out to be a figure of authority. It wasn't that he was camp; just that he was so gentle and caring. We continued the mocking father and son routine during our shower and until we had finished breakfast. Only dropping it as we left the apartment to catch a bus to the nearby town of Cambrilles.
We spent the morning in Cambrilles; it was a small town with a marina full of big Yachts. We imagined being the proud owners of one of the yachts.
After a while we stopped at a café and had lunch before we caught a bus to a nearby Zoo. We were making the most of our free time.
We were like two adolescents teasing the monkeys by imitating them, but the highlight for me was when an elephant put his trunk over the rails and knocked Jase's sunglasses off the top of his head, where he'd put them because the sun was clouded over. It really had me laughing almost uncontrollably.
"Just you wait till I get you home." Jase mocked, imitating a mother telling off her child. He put on his best angry face and pointed at me using sharp pokes of his finger.
After the zoo we went to a pizza parlour for something to eat before returning home ready to start work the next morning.
After our holiday, life for us got back into the same routine of work work work and no play. About two weeks later, Bill called me over once I'd finished serving an elderly couple lunch.
"Yes Bill?" I said wondering why he wanted to speak to me.
"Ben, This is my friend Gary, he's got an offer for you to consider." I didn't know that what I was about to hear would change my life forever.
"Hi Ben, Bill tells me that you've been the DJ for this place." Gary said.
"Yes that's right, and I use to Dj sometimes at my Dad's pub back in England too."
"Well Ben I've spoken to Bill, and he's sanctioned what I'm about to offer you." Gary went on. I sort of was getting the feel of where we were heading, but I didn't want to jump the gun so I held my tongue.
"Ben it's like this, I'm buying a night club here in Salou, and I want you to be the main DJ on the weekends. I've been here a few nights when you've been working, and I like your style and sound. It's exactly what I'm looking for."
"Wow Really! I can't believe it, this is what I've been dreaming of" I was stunned. "When do I start?" I asked straight away.
"In six weeks all being well. I'm just waiting for the paperwork to go through." He told me. He then went on to tell me it would be a gay club, which made my new job sound even better. I felt as though I'd won the lottery. I excused myself and went into the kitchen to find Jase"
"Jase you aren't going to believe what I've got to tell you." I said excitedly.
"What?" He asked as he was washing up some dishes.
"I've been offered a new job D-Jing in a new Gay night club,"
His face dropped. "You can't leave me Ben. I love you too much." He said in a sad and rejected voice. There were tears building up in his eyes.
"No, no Jase. I would never leave you. You've shown me love and what love is all about. Your worth more than any job or anything else in life. No the club is going to be right here in Salou."
I walked up behind him and cuddled him from behind.
"Oh bugger, why didn't you tell me that? I thought you would move away and leave me." Jase couldn't hold back the tears any longer, he began to cry. This was a bit of a shock to me as he had always been the stronger one. I had never seen him so emotional or crying like he was now.
"You better mean that Ben, because I don't think life would be worth living without you." He said as he calmed down.
Bill realised that Jase was emotional and he asked me to take him home. So we walked the short distance to the apartment. We sat hugging and caressing each other as I told him how much he meant to me. Of course the gentle caressing was quite erotic, and slowly the emotions and mood changed into erotic horniness, as we started touching each other's cocks through the material of our black waiter's trousers. Within a couple of minutes we were kissing frantically. I loosened one of Jase's shirt buttons and slid my hand through the gap, allowing me to caress his chest and rub my fingers over his sensitive nipples; this always sent Jase into a maelstrom of erotic desire.
The sexual tension was mounting, we were rolling backwards and forwards on the sofa until I rolled off bringing Jase down on top of me as we continued kissing and cuddling. We were like a ball rolling all over the floor, pulling each others shirts off to get full access to our chests. I licked and sucked Jase's nipples sending him out of control. He kissed me hard, he roughly ran his hands all over my body, only stopping at my belt, which he undid and almost without me knowing he had my trousers and undies off. He threw them to the other side of the room. When I tried to get his trousers and undies off he played hard to get. I could see his raging hard-on through the material and knew he would have to give in soon, as it must have been uncomfortable.
As I'd predicted, he soon surrendered to my roving hands, allowing me to undo his belt and fly of his trousers. I slid my hand into his undies at either side of him and slid them down his strong legs till they reached his ankles. He then stepped out of them and I continued to rove my hands, lips and tongue all over his sweet tasting body. We were lusting after each other's body as though we had been courting for months and it was the first time we had slept together.
After a while Jase started to rove all over my body, until he reached my cock, he licked the shaft up and down in slow motion. The feel of a man running his tongue down my shaft always sends wild messages of sexual pleasure to my brain. Jase of course knew that doing this to me was just like my tongue and hand teasing his nipples. Jase kept licking my shaft until I was on the very edge of climaxing, then he stopped and we kissed again, the mood was changing to a slower pace and gentler touch. He told me to lie down on the floor on my back, I complied of course. He then went into the kitchen for something.
As I lay on the sheepskin rug waiting for Jase to return to me, I wondered what he was up to in the kitchen. I could hear him working on something, but what he was working on was a mystery to me, until he returned with a tray full of food, mostly salad, cottage cheese and yoghurt on a tray.
"What are you up to Jase?" I asked as he brought the tray in and put it on the floor beside me. He had a big grin on his face.
"Just wait and see Lover-boy." He winked at me
Deep down I knew we were going to get messy with the food. Sure enough he started putting pieces of salad on my body, most of which were freezing cold, as it was fresh out of the fridge. He covered my cock and balls with cottage cheese. It felt strange as he spread the cheese over my shaft and balls. Then he poured half a tub of yoghurt over my stomach. I expected it to be cold, it was actually bloody freezing. He placed various bits of salad on top of my chest. Now he had dinner set out on me. Slowly the coldness of the food warmed a little.
Jase started eating the salad off my chest, pausing now and again to kiss me, each time I tried to get a lingering kiss but he'd just give me a gentle kiss before he went onto licking the yoghurt off my stomach.
"I've never tasted food so good." He said with a Cheshire cat grin. I love the way Jase smiles, its not just his lips that smile but his whole face comes alive, especially his eyes which light up.
"Mmmmm what do we have here?" Jase pointed at my cottage cheese covered cock. "A cheesy cock!" he laughed,
I knew what he was going to say before a single word had left his mouth, but I still couldn't help crack up laughing as he pretended to be a forensic scientist looking in depth at my cock. We both continued laughing at our silliness. Eventually we both calmed down and Jase started to lick the cheese off my cock, which had remained hard through out the whole exercise.
After all the cheese had been cleaned away by Jase's tongue, he engulfed the head of my cock in his mouth and grasped just behind the Glans tightly with his lips. The feelings of his lips tightly holding the top of my shaft made the head feel like it would burst at any moment. He just kept a tight grip with his lips, then he began darting his tongue at the tip of my cock. I was really close to cumming. It took an enormous effort to hold back, but I wanted to hold on as long as I could. In fact I didn't want the feelings that Jase was causing in my cock and the rest of my body to end. Of course I could only stand a couple of minutes of the intense attention my cock was receiving from the hot sensuous mouth and tongue of Jase. I came like never before, my whole body tensed up to breaking point and then the floodgates of my cock opened up and erupted into Jase's willing mouth. As I shot jet after jet of cum, my energy drained from my body.
We held each other close for a good half hour or so, before I started to caress Jase's cock realising he had cum at some point earlier. It didn't take much enticement to get his cock to its full glory again though. I ran a finger up and down his shaft. Then I gently traced the shape of his knob from the front to the back rubbing under the Glans, once again Jase's head began turning from side to side in ecstasy. I slowly kissed my way down his chest and stomach to his cock and balls. I took each of his balls in turn into my mouth and rolled my tongue around them. Then I slowly licked my way up his shaft stopping just under his knob and licking the Glans before I engulfed his cock into my mouth, holding it about halfway down as I let my jaw get used to the size, something that I had always to do given Jase's cock being so thick. Once my jaw had a minute to adjust I slid down until my nose was buried deep into his pubic hair. I started slowly working my lips up and down his shaft only keeping the tip of his knob in my mouth and then sliding all the way down on the in stroke. I slowly built up a steady rhythm, it wasn't long before Jase's body tensed and he shot his cum deep into my throat. I collapsed on top of him and we fell asleep in each other's arms.
End of chapter 7
TO be continued
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