Thanks to Everyone who has liked these stories so far. If you keep reading em I'll keep writing em. This chapter features discussions of a romantic relationship between two males, as well as two guys kissing. If this offends you or is illegal in your neck of the woods, why not go watch cartoons instead? Please send feedback to SwingerStan@yahoo.com
I couldn't beleive my eyes. Here was Cameron... the guy who had been plaguing my dreams for the past 5 months. Cameron. This was the guy I had gone out on a date with when Sarah and I broke up. This was the guy who I had used selfishly in an attempt to get over my ex girlfriend. I had made him re-consider his whole sexual identiy, and it was all for nothing.
He really looked a lot different than he had 5 months ago. He used to dress sort of conservateively, but now he was dressed a lot more wild. Where he used to have slightly bleached tips in his hair, he had dyed purple strands now. He was wearing one of those shiny shirts you find at rave-clothes stores, and he was wearing a pair of black flared pants that were a little bit form fitting, but looked REALLY good on him. I just looked at him, because I didn't know I could possibly say to him. Luckily for me, He started off the talking.
"Never thought I'd see you in here." he said. "You looking for another victim? another confused young man you can make fall head over heels for you before you rip his heart out?"
"I guess I deserve that." I responded.
"And then some." He looked at me, dead serious, then suddenly he started laughing. I was caught off guard by it, but he smiled again. "Dude, if you could see the look on your face..." I looked at him kind of funny.
"What's with the laughter man? I thought you'd kill me if you saw me again." I felt a bit more comfortable now.
"If I had seen you any time in the week after you did what you did, I probably would have. But it's been 5 months. And in that time, I have decided that what happened between us was ultimately a good thing, because even though you were a dick, You did help me to admit the truth about myself, and since that day in my dorm room when you crushed my heart, I have rediscovered myself, and... without your bullshit, I may never have met my soulmate."
"Soulmate?" I stepped back, a little suprised. I guess I had partially assumed in my massive ego that Cameron wouldn't move on past me. I know it's stupid to assume that I was something special and that Cameron would wait for me to realize the truth about myself.
"Yeah." He smiled as he played with a small promise ring he had hanging on a necklace around his neck, and twirled a strand of his hair in a finger. He really looked very happy and Then he looked up. "The first night I came here to the Alley I met him and we've been together ever since."
"So where is he? I'd like to see this prince charming." I smiled, I really was happy for him, once I moved past my own ego trip. I really don't think Cameron would ever want to hook up with me again anyway after what I did to him, even if he has put it behind him.
"He's the lead singer of the band." Cam said, proudly, as he pointed to a guy onstage in the band. He pointed to the lead singer. The guy was dressed in a red satin corset, with red satin panties, both of which were lined with black lace, and black fishnet stockings held up by lace garters attached to the bottom of the Corset, and his face was covered with overdone makeup. The whole band was dressed like this, as they were dressed as the girls in the moulin rouge video. they were just finishing a punk-rock cover of the "Lady Marmalade" song. I looked back at Cameron
"What is he? a drag queen?" A guy next to me in a sequined mini-skirt got angry and I had to give him an apologizing look. Cameron saw him too and gave him a look as if to suggest I was new
"No, The band does covers of female-sung pop songs and they dress up as female singers." I decided not to comment any more on anything I found out of the ordinary, because if I was being overly judgemental, I was the weirdo in this place.
"So you're dating a musician?" I asked him, because this guy was so sheltered and shy when I went out with him 5 months ago and here he was dating a musician. He nodded smiling and blushing. I could tell just by looking at him how much in love he was.
Before we could talk some more, the song ended and the band took a break between sets. The singer hopped off the stage and walked towards us, a few people said hello to him and gave him high fives as he continued to make his way towards Cameron. When he got to us, I don't think he even noticed me at first because he put his thumb on Cameron's bottom lip and then leaned in to kiss him. I watched as Cameron's hands felt their way down his man's back untill they were carressing the back of his thighs. I felt myself awaken inside my pants as I watched these two guys kiss. I licked my lips as I remembered that night outside Cameron's building and I remembered how good of a kisser he was. Slowly they pulled away from each other.
Cam's man looked into his eyes and quietly quoted a line from the marmalade song. "Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soi?"
"Oui" Cameron responded as they gave each other a quick kiss on the lips again Then cameron looked over at me as they broke their embrace. they slid an arm behind the others back, and even though I hadn't seen a lot of gay couples, these two guys just fit together really well. "Oh, how rude of me... I should introduce you... Seth... This, is Devin."
"So this is the famous Devin." The guy now identified as Seth said to me. "I guess I should say thank you, since you're responsible for me metting my baby here." Again I was suprised at the lack of bitterness, but it made me feel a lot better to know that I hadn't ruined cameron's life.
"Yeah... I'm glad that my asshole actions have at least had a happy ending for someone. " I said quietly
"There wasn't a happy ending for you? didn't you get back with your girlfriend." Cameron asked me.
"I did" I said "But not a night goes by that I don't dream of kissing you and wake up in a sweat." I couldn't beleive that I had heard myself say that. I was basically admitting outloud that I was unable to get the thought of kissing another boy out of my head.
"So you're back to thinking you're gay again?" Cameron asked me, I think with a bit of painful memories pushing it out.
"I don't know... I mean, I don't want to do what I did with you again.. but I can't stop thinking about it, but I don't want to hurt anyone again."
"What you need, is a guy that you can have sex with without any emotional attachment, just to see if the act of physical love between you and another man is appealing to you, unlike what you did with me, which was actually spark the seeds to a relationship that you were too afraid to develop." Cameron suggested.
"Where am I going to find that?" I asked, as the idea was appealing.
"I know a guy who does that a lot, he loves screwing straight guys... I can talk to him ig you want..." Seth added. "But before I do that... you need to realize that once you go so far as to have sex with a guy, then there's no turning back, you'll have to face the decision. So before I find my buddy and talk to him, I need to you answer me this... are you SURE thar you want to have sex with another man.?"
I swallowed as I thought long and hard about it. I kept thinking about Cameron's face when I walked out on him, and the look on Sarah's face that she'd have if I told her that I was gay. But Then I thought of the pain I'd cause her if I continued to live a lie to her and myself. A pain that she'd never know the reason for... and finally I remembered the night before when I masturbated to the men in that magazine...
"Yes" I said. "I want to have sex with a guy."