Backstory: I am married and have a daughter. My wife thinks I have issues about gay men (like I am a bigot due to a few well-placed jokes). In reality I live the dual life, completely enjoying sex with my wife, and secretly getting off deeply on sex with my male lover M once a month or two. I have no problem secretly admitting how much I enjoy gay porn, having cum too much to deny it. I enjoy long stretches of time thinking about sex with M, hardon in hand. While the fantasies are idealized, M is very good.
She won't suck cock. I've gone down on any man that suggested I do so, even if I don't know his name. Any man I have been with has gone down on me. This is something guys who have yet to be with guys don't get: the intense pleasure of men going down on men because men LOVE to suck cock. I have to dangle my cock in front of her face before she will think about taking the tip into her mouth (and only the tip). M pushes me against a wall while lewdly fondling my package. My cock is straining against the underwear, trying to break free to meet a very good friend. Down M goes to work open the belt. There is an art to cocksucking that M has studied. No need to rush. Always give a cock something to enjoy, simple things like rubbing through the underwear, or even better, breathing on a cock through the thin fabric. Cocks are sooo sensitive, they love warm wet breathe of a man who adores cock. My hips go into that natural slow fuck motion as he finally peals down my underwear and my cock jumps out. Wet lips meet cockhead, and one slides in the other naturally. And I do mean naturally, that men know the immense pleasure of a blow job, so they get immense pleasure from giving a blow job. He goes down to the base. Fuck, that is where its at, cock all the way down a throat. The hands play with the rolling balls. Just when I think it can't get any nastier, a finger slides up my butt crack, finds my hole, and pushes in. It is almost too much for a man in heat to take: fucking his mouth while he finger fucks me. I look down at his bobbing head - so sexy - and look even further down at his semi-erect cock, and even though this is great, I start feeling a need to suck his uncut cock. This is not a "return the favor" thing. It is I need to feel the warmth and everything about M's cock. I need to feel its length against my cheek. I need that first up close kiss to his cockhead. All these thoughts get me to enjoy his work on my cock even more.
I am never clear on how we break from one activity to another, but somehow we do. He comes up to me and we kiss and hug and twist. I bet we look like some old Greek statue, two men lost to the outside world, but into the Universe where their skin connects. Sure there are boners, but the sexy thing about the image is the live intensity of the moment. M keeps a finger up my ass, saying "I could fuck you at any time" while I rock my hips, saying "I could take your cock at any time." There is no discussing those things, they just are that way.
Finally, I start my journey down. And it is a journey. I give his pits a deep lick, getting the sharp flavor of a man. I pinch is nipple the entire time because I know he is into that. Then it is on to licking and biting one nipple while pinching the other. He has such a large chest, such a guy chest. It is one of those signs of man sex, the size of his chest. It is so big and powerful, I know if he decides to pin me down and press into me there is no way I could stop him, not that I would want to stop him. So the fly on the wall watching me lick and pinch M's nipple now knows part of the reason for the intensity is the unspoken shared carnal knowledge that M could fuck me at any time. He is so masculine to me, I can forget that he wants me to enter him. But that does make for the best butt fuck, when both men are strong. All those thoughts swirling while I bite down hard on a nipple.
Keeping one hand to clamped down on a nipple, I reach my destination, a view so close of M's cock I can smell it. His cock can be in a variety of states - soft, sleeping, partially awake, standing proud - but no matter what the state is, I feel lucky to be able to admire it his close, to give M pleasure through his cock which is beautiful. Writing about his cock makes my own cock ooze pre-cum. Loving all the details about his cock is what helps elevate a BJ into something so much more, wet oral love of male sexuality, up close and intimate. I approach my first kiss of his cock quietly, like a sacred act. Would she understand how solemn I am? Of course not, but M does. It is not a BJ, it is an adoration of that most male organ, the cock, and that deserves a solemn kiss. And another kiss. And soft, wet lips to take in the tip of the head. And a tongue flick to play with the foreskin. And just a little more in my mouth. I get to feel his shape change. I get to feel his balls move in my hands because he is moving into my mouth. And I go all the way down. It gives me trouble breathing. It makes my nose run. But none of that matters, any gags, running nose, doesn't matter. I feel him grab the back of my head - he wants to skull fuck me. He sets the pace, I try to ride along with it. A few times he has decided to fuck all the way, building up, the changes in breathing, small curses, that say so clearly he is going to cum in my mouth. We are so on the same page, because I want him to cum in my mouth, that my lips, tongue, throat gave his gorgeous cock a sexy place to shoot. As he builds up, I bear down on his nipples, pinching them so hard they might start bleeding. The Oh Fuck, Oh Fuck and soon enough, yes, his cum flies into my mouth, splashing, spilling out. I keep still, letting him decide how to best enjoy his orgasm in me. Oh, I so enjoy his orgasm, but quietly, feeling his cum slide down my lips and chin. I wait for those last tremors, the mini-gasms. I even wait a little longer, a way to say thank you, kissing his balls. Making oral love needs to be shared, so I crawl up his big chest, and we kiss sharing the taste of his cum between us.
She won't suck cock, but M and I do, and celebrate the seeds together.