Disclaimer: This story is fiction and does not represent the real people that might be mentioned here. If you are under 18 or if it is illegal to read this in the country where you live, the city where you are, etc. then don't. Again, this is just some fantasy I concocted in my head so don't get insulted.
Author's Note: First, I'd like to thank everyone who gave me feedback on the last installment. I don't have to name names, you know who you are. Second, this one is concerning the story. I know last time I left you guys with a little cliffhanger with Justin at Nick's door. Well, in this installment I started off with the days after Nick's Christmas so this doesn't start with Justin at Nick's door. Now, whenever I write a story I let my sweet friend Z read it first, she writes "I Just Wanna Be With U". She told me that she totally wanted to know what was gonna happen between Nick and Justin so she kind of skipped the first parts and then later on read it. She asked me if I could re-arrange it but I'm a lazy lazy boy so I didn't. But the first parts is still important though so do read it however way you want it. But let me give you a friendly advice, waiting let the heart grow fonder. LOL. Finally, thanks to Nifty for having a forum for us to do this and all the authors and readers.
Chapter 14: Don't Wanna Lose Written by: "Bear"
Nick was glad that Christmas was finally over. Don't get him wrong, he loved Christmas, the traditions and the overall feeling it gave people. Sometimes, he just thought people can get overboard and take it to the extreme. Fighting for toys at Toys R' Us and waiting in line for midnight sales. Christmas, he thought, should be more about family and spending time with them and the gifts should be secondary. I mean it's nice getting gifts and all but there's a fine line between the Christmas spirit and using it to your advantage to have the most number of gifts on Christmas Eve.
All of this went through his head as he reflected back on his Christmas. His brother, who he truly love, was so excited and just ecstatic about the whole event. Then BJ, his confidant, was closer than ever. It felt nice to have an unspoken bond with his sister. Then, he thought back to the snow. That put a smile on his face. They spent an hour or so outside that night just relishing the experience. When he looked back outside the next morning though he felt a little sad that it had all melted away. That didn't keep him down because he knew he would have the memories. He treasured the card that he received from the guys and kept in a safe place. He knew it was mostly Kevin's doing but it was still nice.
Nick was on his way to California but he made sure to make this little pit stop on his way. He had made a decision that Christmas Eve to take his life into his own hands. He needed to do this to grow as a person and to move on. It was going to be hard but he knew that as soon as he did this it would be for the better. He wasn't a kid anymore, he told himself. `I'm a grown man. I have to stop relying on everyone for my problems. I'm going to make you guys proud.'
He walked up to a quaint looking house and rang the bell. He waited for awhile for an answer and then the person he was looking for came out. "Nick? Hi."
"Hi, Brian. How are you doing?"
"Good, I guess. What brings you out here?" Brian asked sincerely.
"Can we talk Bri?"
"Sure, you want to come in."
"No, let's stay out here." Nick said as he turned around and walked towards the wrap-around patio. Brian followed Nick to one of the banisters looking out towards the horizon. "It's nice out here. Quiet, serene."
"Yes, it is beautiful." Brian agreed as they both looked out to the distant where the sun gave a nice glow over the land as it started to set.
"I've done a lot of thinking, Bri. It's time for me to make changes, move on." Nick said truthfully as he focused his gaze towards the sunset. "You know that I love you, Brian."
Brian's trance was suddenly broken as he turned his head to look at Nick. "Frack, you know that..."
"Let me finish, Bri." Nick said still looking straight towards the skyline. "I love you Brian. You've known that all this time. You are my everything. My first kiss. You were the first to hold me all through the night. The first person I slept with. The person I first had...Brian I can't be loving for the both of us. Hoping that one day you'll love me the same way that I love you. Wishing that you'll realize how much I mean to you. Like how much you mean to me."
"Nickie..." Brian said as he reached out and rubbed Nick's arm.
Nick nodded his head no. "I can't be waiting for you. Waiting for the day you come back into my life. You will always be my best friend Bri. Frick and Frack forever but nothing more. The one person who probably understands me more than anyone else in this world. You know me inside and out. That's why I have to do this. You can hurt me so easily and I don't want to do it anymore. Playing games, waiting for you, being there, and then not."
"Nick...I...I..."
"Don't say anything Brian. I needed to tell you this. I needed to do this so I can close that part of my life. So that I can go on." Nick said finally turning his head and looking at Brian. "Thank you Bri. Goodbye." Nick spoke before giving Brian a kiss on the cheek and leaving him.
Brian couldn't utter a single word as Nick left. He saw Nick get back into the limo and the driver go around and enter the car. It slowly started to move and go down the lone road towards the horizon. As Brian watched Nick leave he put his hand on his cheek where Nick had placed a kiss.
As soon as Nick entered the limo all the emotions he was holding back came bursting out. All the composure he had held throughout his conversation with Brian disappeared. Soon, tears started to fall down Nick's face as he layed back in his seat. Nick cried but his body stood it's ground. If you looked at his face you wouldn't notice anything wrong except for the tears that fell once in awhile. He watch the countryside pass him as tears of relief, pain, and confusion wash down his cheeks. His heart was in pain and he could feel it like a thousand needles piercing his soul. Unconsciously, he held onto what he believed and told himself that it was for the better. His heart was in pain but at least it would be saved from all the other strife that would have come.
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Nick reached his Los Angeles home late at night. He had bought the home for him and his family. He thought it would be nice to have a place to live if he ever decided to do a movie or work around Hollywood but mostly it was for his family too.
BJ wanted to be an actress so at least she could use it when she was ready.
It was an attractive home, nothing too extravagant but luxurious. The flight had took it's toll on him but it was mostly the emotional process that tired him out. As soon as he came home, he just went straight to bed and rested up.
The next day, Los Angeles was extremely beautiful. The sun was shining its glorious rays and the whole world seemed to live again. There was new hope in the horizon and Nick could feel it throughout his whole body. He had done something very difficult the day before. Something that could have broke him but he got through it. He lived through it and he knew he was a better person for it.
He got out of bed and got some breakfast ready. He wasn't that hungry so he had a light breakfast. Throughout the day he decided to just relax and soak in some of the weather. He got out some music, a book, and brought out to the backyard.
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Nick was simply relaxing in the veranda in the back of his house when his tranquility was disturbed by the sound of the doorbell. He groaned slightly as he got up and headed for the door. `Who could that be?' Nick asked himself. There wasn't many people who knew he was there. Just his family and Kevin, just in case the group needed to contact him. When he opened the door though it surprised him. There standing before him was Justin. As soon as he saw this, there was an urged that ran through his whole body that wanted to slam the door back shut. He was scared and didn't want to face it right now.
"Hi, Nick." Justin said almost in a whisper.
"Just...Justin, what are you doing here?"
"I was in the neighborhood." Justin said with a silly grin as he tried to make the moment less tense.
With Nick's attitude and emotions, he didn't get it. "Huh? Ho..."
"I got you this." Justin said as he pushed out his hands to give Nick the present he has been holding for what seemed like hours. "I got it for you for Christmas. I wanted to stop by and give it to you."
Nick looked at the gift; a small rectangular boxed wrapped in gold paper with ribbons. He took it in his hand and looked up at Justin again. "You...you didn't have to you know. I...I..."
"Can I come in?" Justin interrupted. Nick felt his heart contour into a different shape as he wondered whether or not to let Justin into his house. Finally, though, Nick nodded yes and stood aside as he opened the door wider. Justin stepped in and walked towards his right and right into the living room. "This is a nice house, Nick. Very cozy."
Nick followed Justin into the room and stared at Justin as he looked around. He stared at him, wondering and thinking. "Justin...how'd you..."
Justin turned around and looked at Nick. He interrupted again, "You're a very hard man to find, Nickolas Gene Carter." Justin smiled.
Nick kind of cringe as he heard his full name spoken by Justin. Nick walked forward and approached him. "How did you find me?"
"I have my ways." Justin said with confidence and that million dollar smile.
Nick nodded his head as he sat in a cream colored fluffy chair. Justin kind of frowned when he saw this. Nick waved his hand towards the couch. Justin turned his head before sitting down on the couch which stood perpendicular to Nick's chair. "So Justin, what brings you down to California." Nick asked coldly.
Justin scooted down the couch to get as close as possible to Nick. "Let's not beat around the bush here, Nick. I came here to talk to you. I flew across the country to see you."
Nick instantly dropped his head towards the floor as he heard Justin's words. He couldn't do this again. He didn't know if he was able to handle another beating to his heart. "Justin...please don't."
No words were spoken until Nick saw a shadow cast upon him. He looked up and saw Justin hovering above him. He looked into his face and got lost in Justin's soulful blue eyes. The eyes that could set the world on fire and cool it down with love. Justin slowly sank down to his knees in front of Nick. He took Nick's right hand which were on the shoulder of the chair and took it in his. He slowly brought the hand towards his chest and put the palm of Nick's hand onto his heart. "I found out something wonderful." Justin said with the look of joy on his face. "I found something great in this world. I found something about myself." Justin said with happiness in his voice. Nick thoughts were lost for a second as he stared at his hands upon Justin's heart. He was scared for a moment for what it meant but soon lost all doubts as it felt right. He came back up to Justin's eyes which were sparkling now like stars. "I found this person inside me who was willing to love. Who would go through anything so that his love could endure. I found out that I love you."
Those words shocked Nick as he stared into Justin's eyes with fear. He tried to pull his hand away from Justin but Justin only tightened his grip on them. "Justin..."
Justin brought his left index finger onto Nick's lips. "Shhh..." Nick quickly quieted as Justin's finger brought out electricity throughout his body. "I got scared Nick. When you said you love me I was in stunned. I didn't know what I was feeling then but I do now. I couldn't figure out why you meant so much to me. Why every second with you was so wonderful and great. With you, every moment was memorable. Being with you felt like I was always on cloud nine. I love you Nick. I love you."
Nick shook his head vehemently. "No, Justin. You don't know what you're saying. You don't love me."
Justin simply gazed onto Nick's eyes with a wonderful smile. "I do love you Nick. I do."
"No, Justin. You can't. I'm incapable of being loved." Nick said mournfully.
"Nick, no. You are an amazing person. You are capable of making anyone in love with you. Everyone you meet wants to take care of you. Make you happy. I am so lucky to have you. To have meet you. You brought out this great person inside me."
"Justin, you can't. You're not even gay."
"You know what I found out? I found out that the heart doesn't choose Nick. It doesn't choose to love a man or a woman. It loves who ever it wants to love. And my heart loves you Nick."
"No, Justin. No." Nick said as he was finally able to pull his hand out of Justin's chest. "Justin, you can't love me. It's too hard."
"But I do love you Nick. Can't you see?"
Nick just shook his head towards the side. He then got up from the chair leaving Justin still on his knees. He walked away from Justin to get some distance between them. "Justin, you can't love me. It's too hard Justin. You're gonna get hurt. I don't want to see you get hurt."
Justin stood up and walked towards Nick. "No, Nick. I love you."
"I love you Justin. That's why you can't do this."
Justin's smile faded from his face and soon tears started to fall down. "How can you say that you love me and say that I can't love you, Nick?"
Nick's face was torn too as tears filled his eyes. "That's the reason Justin. I love you too much. I'm afraid of being hurt. Of hurting you."
"Nick, you're hurting me now. It hurts not to be with you. Not to be around you. Be with me and take the pain away."
"I'm sorry Justin. I can't. Please, Justin. Don't love me. If you love me I can't love you. It's too hard and I can't do that to you." Nick sobbed out before running up the stairs towards his room. He quickly slammed it shut before falling to the floor against the door. Nick cried uncontrollably for the next few minutes as he felt pain and anguish from this whole situation. He then heard a door creak open and shut as he knew that Justin had left. Nick cried even harder knowing that he had lost Justin forever. Nick's whole body fell to the floor as he rubbed his face onto the carpeting crying loudly.
As Nick's weeping turned to whimpers, Nick slowly got up from the floor and walked to his king size bed. He threw himself carelessly upon it and felt how big it was. The enormousness of it's size casted a cloud of loneliness upon Nick. His cries grew again as he pondered calling Kevin. He needed to call him. He needed someone to understand what had happened. Nick cried harder again as he knew he had failed. He wanted so much to be responsible for himself but right now he couldn't. He couldn't handle Justin's love. He was able to take control of his situation with Brian but Justin was a different story. There was so much more baggage there, so much more passion, affection, and most importantly longing. Nick turned over in his bed and grabbed the phone from it's handle. He looked at it and was in turmoil whether or not to call. Finally, he threw the phone to the corner of the room and buried his tear filled eyes on the pillow.
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Nick woke up in the middle of the night with dryness in his throat. He tried to open his eyes slightly but it was sore from all the crying he had done. He got up from his bed and headed for the bathroom. He washed his face carefully trying to get the stains from his face away. He then grabbed a face towel and cleaned himself up. He walked back into his room and to the mini ref that he had. He opened it up and searched for some water. He cursed to himself as he found none. He had forgot to stock it up the night before.
He opened the door to his room and was momentarily blinded by the lights. He walked down the stairs and made his way to the kitchen. He got out a bottle of water from the ref and was about to walk back upstairs when he saw something that caught his eye. In the living room table he saw the gift that Justin had given him. He must have set it there before the whole scene that happened.
Nick walked into the living room and approached the table where the gift was set. Before getting there, Nick was a little shock to see a figure on the couch. There laying on the cream colored seats was him. The angel of his life. The love in his heart. His eyes got watery again as he saw Justin. Nick felt his legs weaken as he slowly fell to his knees in front of Justin's face. A lonely tear fell down his right eye as he looked onto the handsome youth. He let the tear fall right into the floor as he reached out with his left hand to caress Justin's face. It was so smooth and soft that his heart was in pain again but this time, it was a different pain. A pain of knowing that he had done something wrong. He tried to erase the tear stains from Justin's face as the youth slowly stirred into life. "Ni...Nick."
Nick swallowed the lump in his throat before being able to answer. "Ye... Yes, Justin. I'm here."
Justin turned his head into Nick's hand letting him caress his face more. With his eyes still close, a small smile reached onto Justin's face. "I...I love you Nick."
Another tear fell down Nick's face as he gently rubbed his thumb over Justin's cheek. "I thought...I thought you left."
Justin kept his face moving on Nick's hand. "Hmmm..." Justin echoed his solace. "I didn't leave. I don't have any place to go. My place is beside you." Justin said slowly opening his eyes.
He looked onto Nick who had watery eyes but pleasure in his heart. "I'm...I'm sorry Justin that I got scared."
Justin took Nick's hand from his face and into his own hands. Justin then sat up in the couch and swung his legs around. "It's okay Nick...just as long that you're here."
"I'm so scared of getting hurt. Of the possibility of getting you hurt. That's the worst thing in the world to me. I can't live if I knew that I hurt you. That..."
Justin brought his free hand onto Nick's face and brought his index finger upon Nick's lips. "Shhh...Nick, the only way I would get hurt is if you weren't there with me. As long as you're there beside me then nothing can hurt me."
"But..." Nick tried to argue but soon found something stop his lips from moving. Justin had move in and slowly placed his lips upon Nick. It was soft at first because the act was both new to them. Justin's soft red lips lightly caressing Nick's and sending bolts of pressure. Justin pulled away momentarily and looked into Nick's face. Nick was in ecstasy and couldn't say a word. Justin leaned in again and proceeded to kiss Nick heavily. With much more passion and love Justin kissed Nick with need. Justin brought his right hand around Nick's head and pulled him into the kiss. Then, Justin slid off the couch and pushed Nick onto the floor where he laid on top of him kissing him deeply and grinding his hips onto Nick's. Justin opened his mouth slightly and put pressure upon Nick's closed lips with his tongue. Instinctively, Nick started to open his own mouth and soon felt Justin's hot tongue enter. Justin explored and searched Nick's mouth with arrogant detail. He wanted to know the man that he was in love with. Justin continued his quest until he felt Nick's tongue onto his. Justin's heart was racing, his urges were uncontrollable. He brought his right hand onto Nick's side and slowly brought them down. He got onto Nick's hip and started to tug on Nick's shirt. He wanted more. He needed Nick.
Nick let his body control him. Just reacting to Justin's own movements and actions. He suddenly felt Justin pulling on his shirt and fear overwhelmed his whole body. He brought his hands upon Justin's shoulders and lightly pushed him back. Justin brought his head up and looked at Nick. "What's wrong?" Justin asked, a little out of breath.
"Let's take it slow, okay." Nick said with sincerity.
Justin nodded and gave Nick a soft but passionate kiss. "We'll take it slow." Justin answered before turning over and getting up. He reached his hand out for Nick and Nick gladly accepted as he got up also.
As soon as he was up, Nick wrapped his arms around Justin's body and gave him an earnest embrace. Nick buried his head onto Justin's neck. "I love you Justin."
Justin brought his arms around Nick's own body and held him tightly. "I love you too Nick."
Nick brought his head up from Justin's neck and smiled at him. He gave Justin another quick kiss on the lips. "Come on, let's go to bed." Justin looked at him with surprise and raised eyebrows. "To sleep, dumbass."
Justin took his arms away from Nick and looked at him with shock. "So, I'm a dumbass now, huh?" Justin asked acting hurt.
Nick slowly took a step back and nodded his head yes. "Uh huh. You are." Nick said with a huge smile.
"Oh, you are gonna get it."
"That's if you can catch me." Nick shouted before running out of the room and up the stairs. Justin meanwhile just laughed. He looked down at the table and grabbed the still unopened present for Nick and soon sprinted upstairs.
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Morning came and the sun rose up in the east but it didn't shine in Florida where JC hastily got up. He had to go to the studio this morning and didn't have enough sleep the night before. Of course, in JC's mind he never got enough sleep. If he could sleep the whole day, he wouldn't be happier.
JC did his morning routine and spent about twenty minutes on his hair alone. He was so much into detail that he made sure that not on strand was out of place. He got out of the washroom and grabbed his keys and in wallet from the top of the drawer before heading out of his room. As soon as he hit the bottom of the stairs he instantly smelled the inviting aroma of food.
He approached the kitchen happily and saw Lynn there. "Good morning Lynn."
Lynn turned around from what she was preparing and answered JC, "Morning JC. Did you have a good night sleep?" Lynn asked already knowing the answer.
"It was good but not enough." JC answered as Lynn nodded her head. Just the answer she expected. "Can I help you with anything?"
"Oh no, JC. I'm fine. Just get to the table and eat. You still have a lot of things to do today and this is the least of your worries."
JC nodded and headed to the table where he took a seat and looked at all the food that was in front of him. He grabbed the plate and placed a couple of things on it. He started to eat his food as he tried to enjoy his morning. A little later, Lynn came down and joined him for breakfast. "So, what's on the agenda today?" Lynn asked.
"We're in the studio today. Mixing some music, checking the vocals, just making sure everything is fine with the new album."
"Oh okay. Don't work too hard. I'm sure it's going to be great."
"I hope so. We put a lot of work into. I'm really excited about it."
Lynn examined JC and nodded her head. "I can see that. It's nice that you love what your doing."
"I do. I really do." JC said agreeing with her. JC then realized the time and asked for his friend, "Where's Justin this morning?"
Lynn shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. He didn't come home last night."
"Huh?" JC asked surprised. "He's not here. Where is he?"
"I don't know JC. He hasn't called yet."
"He hasn't called. And you're not mad. Where could he be?" JC asked with his voice starting to rise.
Lynn noticed the apprehension that was building up in JC. "JC, Justin's a grown man. He can take care of himself. I'm sure he's fine."
"But we don't know if he's okay. Where is he? What about today? How is he gonna know?"
"JC, I'm sure Justin just went out and crashed over at a friend's house. He knows what you guys have to do. I'm sure he'll even be at the studio before you." Lynn said reassuringly.
"He's just been so distant lately. So, secretive. It's not like before when he told me everything. I'm just a little concerned." JC said truthfully. "Aren't you worried about him?" JC asked of Justin's mom.
Lynn smiled at JC's naiveness. "Of course JC but you worry enough for the both of us so that I don't have to worry. I don't have to wonder if Justin's is okay because I know you are there. But you do have to remember JC that Justin is growing up. He's eighteen now and can take of himself most of the time."
JC looked down onto his plate and nodded in agreement. "I know but I just worry sometimes."
"And that's why I don't have to fret when he goes on the road or when he's out late or when he's gone for a couple of days. He's grown up responsible. A little childish still at times but responsible." JC nodded at Lynn's words. "I'd say you've raised a really good child there."
Lynn's words amazed JC. His head shot up and looked at her. "Huh...wha..."
"I know but JC you've been there in the last couple of years more than I have. You've had just as much say on Justin as I have. Maybe even more as he started to grow older. Justin is smart and reliable. So don't worry about him. You've had a nice effect on him. You guys are more alike than you realize."
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On the other side of the continent, though, the sun rose and shone it's light on two sleeping lovers. The light streamed through the glass doors of Nick's bedroom. It was early for Justin but for some reason he wasn't upset about getting up at such an early time. He opened his eyes and felt an overwhelming spirit of happiness as he felt the warmth that was around him. Nick had placed his head upon Justin's bare chest and wrapped his arms around Justin's sculpted body. Justin brought his head up from the pillow slightly and looked outside. He smiled to himself as he finally had a reason to wake up every morning. There was no more grumpy old Justin who you couldn't talk until after his cereal. There was only the Justin who had slept with his love the night before and couldn't think of anything else better to do for every night for the rest of his life.
Justin's gaze traveled down to Nick where he only saw Nick's golden locks. Justin brought his free arm, right arm, around and slowly stroked Nick's hair. Nick meanwhile reacted to Justin's movements and moved his head around Justin's chest as he tried to find a more comfortable spot. Then, Justin brought his head down and kissed the top of Nick's head. Even though Justin didn't see, a smile crept into Nick's face before hiding more of his face into Justin's hard pecs. Justin giggled a bit as he knew Nick didn't want to wake up yet and was hiding his face from the light.
Justin then wrapped his arms around Nick tightly before bringing him up to the pillow next to him. Nick tried to fight it for a second but finally let go.
With his eyes still closed he let Justin bring him up to his level. As soon as Nick's head hit the pillow he wrapped his arms around Justin again and pulled himself closer before burying his head into Justin's neck. Justin giggled again before turning his body towards Nick. "Nick...Nicky...wake-up...wakey wakey..." Justin said as he tried to wake the sleeping adonis. Nick just nodded his head no and pulled Justin closer to him and buried his head deeper into the hole between Justin's neck and the pillow. "Come on, wake-up Nick." Justin pleaded as he shook Nick's shoulder lightly.
Nick then brought his head up with eyes wide open and a huge grin as he looked onto Justin. He then gave Justin a quick kiss on the lips before hiding his head back in Justin's neck. Justin couldn't say anything as he was nicely taken by the surprise. He felt joy as the realization finally hit his mind of where he was and what he was doing. Of course, his dream-like state was broken by Nick laughing in the crook of his neck. "You little trickster." Justin said, "Come on, it's morning already. Get-up." Nick then replied something but it came out as mumbling. Justin giggled slightly as the act tickled him. "You know, I can't understand you if you talk into my neck." Nick didn't say anything but instead responded by placing a kiss on Justin's neck before sucking on it momentarily. He then placed small kisses on Justin's neck as he moved up to look into Justin's face. Justin moaned in pleasure as Nick teased him.
When Nick's head was leveled with Justin's he finally spoke, "I said that I didn't want to get up yet."
"Huh?" Justin asked still kind of dazed from what Nick had done.
Nick laughed for a moment. "I said that you have a real hard and tight body and I just want to eat you all up for breakfast." Nick said seductively.
Justin pushed Nick on the shoulders casually. "That's not what you said." Nick just laughed a response. "Come on, now take a shower so we can go shopping."
"Shopping?" Nick asked.
"Well, I do need some kind of clothes. I kind of came here with just the clothes off my back. I don't think you'd like me walking around without clothes all day."
Nick thought over the idea for a second, "Hmm...I wouldn't exactly mind it.
I think I'd like very much to keep you in the nude while you're here."
"I'm not nude, Nick. I still very much have my boxers on." Justin replied quickly.
Nick looked at him quizzically and then brought the covers up and looked down Justin's body. "Oh yeah. Then boxers then." Nick said before hugging onto Justin again and placing his head upon Justin's shoulders.
"Nope. Sorry Nick but can't do."
"Ohhhh..." Nick replied like a three year old with the most adorable pout.
"Come on you big lug. Now go take a shower. I just have to make a phone call and then I'll take one when you're done."
Nick groaned and released Justin. "Okay, have your way then." Nick then got up from the bed and headed for the bathroom.
"I still love you though." Justin yelled before Nick reached the bathroom.
Nick snapped his hand back in Justin's direction. "Yeah, whatever? All you care about is clothes." Nick replied before closing the door.
Justin laughed before scooting over in the bed and picking up the phone.
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The sun had set and the gloomy day in Florida had turned to rain. JC and Lance were driving home from the studio with thoughts in theirs minds. It was not one of their best days of their lives. With the lousy weather and just the overall tension JC gave to everyone, they were just uptight. There wasn't the regular JC and Justin tag-team to cheer them up or pump them on. It was sad but they got through it.
JC who took his gaze away from the cityscape looked at the driving Lance. Finally, deciding to shut out the silence, "So, what's on for tomorrow?"
Lance thought over the question for a second, not taking his attention from the wet pavement. "Same as today JC." He answered plainly.
"Oh, okay." JC replied disappointedly.
"Don't look so sad. You know that we're mixing for most of the week until our performance on New Year's Eve."
JC nodded before changing the subject to what he really wanted to talk about. "So, what did Just say exactly?"
"He said that he couldn't make it?"
"I kinda figure that much out." JC answered sarcastically.
"He said he couldn't make it back. He was spending the day with a friend."
"A friend? Who?"
Lance sighed not wanting to get into this. "JC, do you really need to know?"
"I'm just worried that's all. He didn't come home last night. I don't know where he is. He doesn't make it to practice. Then he gives this vague reason about not being able to make it."
"You know you're worst than Lynn."
JC looked away from Lance and back outside. "That's what she said." JC replied barely audible.
Lance looked at JC and gave up. "Okay. Don't look so out of it. He didn't say who he was with or where he was. He just said he wouldn't be coming in."
"But you said..." JC said returning his attention at Lance.
"I kind of added the two pieces together."
"Huh?" JC asked still baffled.
"Yesterday, he called me up to ask me if I had Nick's number."
"Nick Carter!" JC said kind of loud.
"Yes, Nick Carter. Now, don't get all bent out of shape JC. He asked for his number and I gave him what I had. Nick's parents number."
"So where is he now?" JC asked trying to keep his composure.
"I'm guessing Tampa."
"So he gets to go around Tampa doing whatever with Nick while we have to work. That's just whack."
"I don't know JC. It kind of surprised me too. I thought they were not talking to each other."
"Huh? What?" JC asked knowing that he was completely out of the loop.
"Before the tour ended. They were not talking to each other. I think they got into an argument or something. That's why it kind of surprised me when Justin called me for the number yesterday. I..."
Lance kept talking but JC had stopped listening. A mental picture started in his mind, he remembered the incident where he saw Nick and Justin hugging each in the den Thanksgiving night.
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Nick stepped out of the shower and steam rose towards the rest of the bathroom. He grabbed a towel from the closet and dried himself in front of the mirror.
He looked at himself and smiled inwardly. His body was developing real well. He had never really cared before about working out but for the last few months he's been to the gym more and more. When he was young he just had this weird metabolism that he got to eat anything and would look pretty built. Now, he had to work on it. He nodded to himself at what he saw in the mirror.
He went out of the bathroom and into the bedroom. "Justin, what are you doin'? You should be getting ready." Nick asked as he saw Justin in front of the television playing some video games.
Justin paused his game and looked back towards Nick. A smile came out of his face and felt a tightness in his pants as he saw Nick half naked with still drops of water on his body. "I'm just playin' a game."
"Well no duh." Nick said as he reached for the towel wrapped around his waist. He heard a small gasp as he did and then a sigh. "You thought I was butt naked under there didn't you?" Nick asked as he brought the towel to his hair to dry.
"No, I didn't. I just have the same exact boxers that you are wearing." Justin said before returning his attention to the game.
"No, you don't." Nick said as he walked towards Justin and turning the game off. "First of all, that game is my present and not yours so you can't play unless I say." "I gave it to you, Nick. I think I can use it when I want to." "Nope, sorry. Now, you're going to take a shower and wear that outfit I bought you this afternoon."
"Why? What are we doing?" Justin asked a little upset about his game.
"'Cause we're gonna have a nice dinner. Now go." Nick said with authority.
"Now, who's the bossy one?" Justin asked getting up from the floor.
"Karma. It's only fair play." Nick said giggling.
"Sure. Uh-huh." Justin said making his way to the bathroom.
"Hey, I love you." Nick yelled to Justin.
"Sure, whatever?" Justin replied not turning back and snapping his hand towards Nick. "All you care about is food." Justin continued before closing the door.
Nick was shocked for a second until he heard Justin laughing on the other side of the washroom. He realized how stupid it was when he did the same thing earlier that day.
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Nick drove down the Los Angeles highways in his Mercedes red SLK. He loved that car, the interior had an old school design with cream and black interior. Nick wore a traditional black suit with a dark blue shirt under while Justin sported a more modernize suit with a black fitting shirt. When they got to their destination, Nick got out and threw his keys to the valet as he walked to the other side. Justin hesitantly got out too not too familiar with what was going to happen.
Justin walked up to Nick who was waiting on the sidewalk. "What are we doing here?"
"To have dinner Justin."
"Well, I know that but..."
Nick grabbed Justin momentarily ushering him inside. "Good evening, Mr. Carter." A man said as he opened the door for them.
"Thanks, Ralph." Nick replied as they walked into the building.
"How'd you know him." Justin asked still kind of baffled about the whole evening.
"Oh, that's Ralph. He's real cool. Funny too."
Justin looked around. "Nick, I thought we were having dinner. This is a hotel."
"Yeah, the Beverly Wilshire. I love their food here. It's great."
Justin nodded as another man in his twenties came up to them. "Good evening Mr. Carter. We've reserved the dining room for you. Come this way."
"Oh, come on Michael. You know that you can call me Nick. Whenever you call me that I look over my shoulder to see if my father is there." Nick said to the man as they walked. Justin followed mindlessly and watched the two men converse. "How would you like for me to call you Mr. Waldensworth."
The man shrugged his whole body as he heard the name. "Okay, it's Nick but you've got to behave. I don't want to get in trouble again."
Nick brought his right arm around Michael's shoulders playfully. "That's okay. I can always get you out of them anyway."
Michael laughed as he walked away from Nick's gesture and showed them the room. "Here it is. A table for two." Michael said politely. The dining room was empty except for all the tables and chairs. In the middle of the room a table was set up with two candlelights while a man played sweet melodies on the piano in the corner.
Justin was in awe as he saw the place. The atmosphere it created and the ambiance was way too romantic for words. "Nick...it's wonderful."
Nick turned to Justin and took Justin's hands in his. He was glad that Justin liked what he had done. With their hands together the two music stars walked inside as Michael closed the door to the dining room. Another man came up to them and led them to the lone table. As they got there he pulled the chairs for them as the two sat. "Can I start the two of you with some drinks?" The brown haired man asked kindly.
"Give us that wine that I like for now." Nick replied.
"Yes, Mr. Carter." The waiter replied.
"James..." Nick said disappointingly.
"Okay...Nick." The waiter said before walking away from them.
Justin looked around in somewhat in awe, "Nick, how'd you do this?"
Nick smiled at Justin. "I've learned a thing or two from Kevin."
"And how about them." Justin motioned to nothing in particular. Nick looked at him puzzled as he didn't know what Justin was asking. "The people..."
"Oh, them. You kind of get to know them after awhile. Living in hotels most of the time, I try to at least get to know one person from there. That's why I insists that we have the same people work with us every time we go on the road or go to the same hotels." Nick answered truthfully. "But here...I'm here all the time. So, I know most of the people here. It's cool, it's like a second home." Nick added. Justin nodded at Nick as he picked up the menu in front of him. "Yeah, they have great stuff here. The teriyaki is tasty and the angel hair pasta with shrimp is really good. Plus if there's anything you want that's not on there, they can get it for you."
Justin nodded again. He looked up to Nick who was just staring and smiling back at him. Justin felt a little conscious of himself for the first time around Nick. "Aren't you going to look at the menu?"
Nick shook his head no lightly with his eyes still set upon Justin. "No, I already know what I want." Nick said alluringly. Justin blushed as he felt a double meaning in Nick's words.
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The moon casted it's wonderful passion throughout the city. The few stars that could be seen through the city lights shined with all its glory. Two stars, two very different stars of the music world, stood opposite of each other in front of a doorway. They both looked giddy as they stood in front of Nick's front door.
"Well, thank you for a wonderful time Mr. Carter."
"It was my pleasure Mr. Timberlake. I very much enjoyed your company tonight."
"Why thank you Mr. Carter. You are such a gentleman."
"No, thank you Mr. Timberlake. You were nothing short of excellence this evening."
Justin blushed as he heard Nick's words. "Oh, Mr. Carter. You are such a passionate man with words of a Don Juan."
Nick with passion in his eyes stepped forward and put his right arm around Justin's waist. Nick pulled on Justin and pressed their bodies together. With their face only inches apart Nick looked into Justin's soul, "Oh stop this now, I say. Mr. Timberlake, my love, it is you that I want. Stop the games now. My passion longs for you, my lust burns, my loins ache. It's all for you, my love." Nick said breathing deeply.
Justin moved his head forward slightly while moving his arms around. He lightly tugged on Nick's arm and Nick slowly let go. He stepped back and looked upon the ground. "Mr. Carter, I must tell you that I feel the same. But is it too soon? I don't know. I can't say..."
Nick brought his head back up to look at his love. "Speak no more, my love. I don't want to hear a thing except sweet kisses and sweet songs from those lovely lips of yours."
Justin stepped forward towards Nick, "Then this must be the end of our evening then, Mr. Carter."
"It must." Nick answered disappointedly.
Justin turned and took a step towards the door. A second later, he turned back towards Nick. "Mr. Carter, would you like to come in for some coffee?"
Nick shook his head at Justin. "But Mr. Timberlake, would our love really end at a cup of joe?"
"Then I must say then that I insists that you don't come in for coffee. I don't want you to think too easy of me especially on the first date."
"And I too Mr. Timberlake. Taken in by a simple cup of coffee."
Justin walked away from the door and approached Nick. "Then is this the mandatory first kiss?" Justin asked.
Nick brought his face closer to Justin's. "Only if it's wanted Mr. Timberlake."
"Very much Mr. Carter." Justin replied closing his eyes and leaning in. Nick did the same as their lips touched and softly they embraced. They pulled apart seconds later as they both desired for more. Even though they desired for more they knew they couldn't let their urges control them. "Thank you Mr. Carter." Justin said as he stepped away and headed for the door.
Justin opened the front door and walked in. As soon as the door closed, Nick whispered, "Goodnight Mr. Timberlake," before walking away and down the walkway.
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Two youths entered the bedroom laughing with each other, holding each other, and kissing each other. They entered like they were drunk or something but it wasn't on alcohol. They were drunk over their love for each other. Nick pulled Justin into him and kissed him passionately. Justin started to laugh as he did, "That was too funny."
Nick pulled away laughing too, "Yeah, it was...Mr. Timberlake" Nick said sarcastically.
"Uh huh." Justin said before kissing Nick again. He started to unbutton Nick's jacket and push it off his shoulders. "Where did you get that anyway? My loins burns for you...geez."
"Look who's talking." Nick said as his jacket fell to the floor. He leaned in again and kissed Justin as he kicked off his shoes. He broke off the kiss as he too unbuttoned Justin's Armani jacket, "Mr. want to come in for a cup of coffee?"
"How about, don't speak...all I want from you is sweet kisses and sweet songs." Justin replied as he opened his arms and let Nick brush his jacket off his shoulders.
"Yeah, well how about your mandatory kiss?" Nick asked.
"I wasn't as corny as you were." Justin replied.
"Yes, you were Mr. Don Juan."
Justin blushed as Nick remembered what he said. "Well at least I wasn't my love this and my love that..."
Nick pouted, "You didn't like that."
Justin instantly felt his heart go to Nick, "No, I loved it Nick. It was sweet."
Nick instantly shined up again embracing Justin. He then held him tight and carried Justin off the ground. "Good...because that's your nickname now. That's my nickname for you...love." Nick said before kissing Justin amorously. Justin fell into the kiss and kicked off his shoes as he was carried to the bed.
Nick placed Justin upon the king size bed as Justin then moved his body back. Nick crawled on top of Justin and pushed Justin on the chest lightly as both their bodies fell on top of the mattress. Nick started to grind their tools together feeling the need for completeness. He kissed Justin deeply and entered Justin's mouth with his tongue. Justin gladly accepted as their tongues rolled around each other in ecstasy.
Nick pulled out of the kiss and looked into Justin's eyes. He went searching into Justin's soul and found the answer he was looking for. Nick slowly brought his hands down to Justin's waist and un-tucked Justin's shirt. Justin brought his body up from the bed slightly letting Nick take the shirt off. As soon as it was off, Nick carelessly threw the shirt to the side and kissed Justin again. He wanted this and he knew that Justin did too. It was their time, their time for love.
Nick left Justin's mouth and let his tongue and warm lips travel down to Justin's body. He traced Justin's chin towards Justin's neck where he placed luscious kisses. He sucked upon Justin's skin momentarily tasting and relishing in the sensation. Nick then found Justin's adam's apple pulling it into his hot awaiting mouth. Nick then moved further down in search for his treasure. Nick brought his arms up and down Justin's sides lightly caressing it. Justin moaned in pleasure as he had never been touched that way before. Nick was at Justin's pecs and took time at each Justin's roses. He encircled the nipple with his tongue making it hard and stout. He moved further down and found Justin's rock hard abs. Justin was so ripped that Nick couldn't help but enjoy the body that was given to him. Nick lick and kiss each abs as if giving an offering to the Gods of Mount Olympus.
Nick's head moved down and felt heat emanating from Justin's pants. He too could feel the tightness in his own drawers. He unfastened Justin's belt as Justin squirmed. Nick then moved off the bed and pulled Justin's pants and boxers down. Justin looked at Nick questioningly as if looking for approval. Nick just smiled at Justin. He looked at his love and was gratified. To him Justin was a piece of art to be marveled and looked at like Michaelangelo's David. Justin body was perfect in every way. He was pure lean and muscle. Nick let his eyes wander up and down Justin's body taking satisfaction in what he saw. He then looked into Justin's eyes as Nick started to take his own shirt off. Justin just watched him awe-stricken as he enjoyed the show that was before him. Nick then unfastened his own belt and pulled them off. Justin was holding his breath as Nick took his time. Justin knew that Nick was doing this on purpose, torturing him, teasing him. Nick the unbuttoned his pants and un-zipped his zipper. He let the pants fall down on it's own as he just gazed into Justin's face. He then reached for his boxers and seductively pulled then down.
Nick then crawled back into bed and on top of Justin. He kissed Justin slowly and carefully. As their naked bodies pressed against each other, for the first time they both felt their manhoods against the bare of their skin bringing electricity and more desire into the mix. Nick broke off the kiss hesitantly as he moved his lips down Justin's body again. Placing small light kiss on the way down he finally held onto Justin's treasure. Nick felt amazed for a second at Justin's size. Justin was thick. It was about seven and half inches and hard as a rock. But what Nick was more concerned with was Justin's girth. Nick moved in slowly and licked Justin's purple knob. Justin's moaned loudly as Nick had finally set his warm mouth upon his penis. Nick then kissed Justin's slit driving Justin even crazier. He then went down Justin's length licking the backside of Justin's penis. He found Justin's babies and brought each one into his mouth while slowly stroking Justin's dick. Justin was in bliss as Nick proceeded to give him these sensations he has never felt before. Nick brought his head up looking into Justin's face. Justin returned his gaze with love as he brought his right hand upon Nick's head lightly encouraging him back upon his tool. Nick obliged as he finally took Justin's penis into his hot awaiting mouth. Nick had a hard time at first because of Justin's thickness but he got accustomed to it. After a couple of inches, Nick went up again as Justin moaned. Nick went down upon Justin's penis again taking more and more. He continued his act as he tried to give Justin as much pleasure as he can. Nick deep throated Justin as Justin screamed and brought his hips up to meet Nick's mouth. It was so much sensations, so much pleasure that Justin lost control as he shot his load into Nick's mouth.
Nick went up Justin's shaft and kiss its head before moving his body up. As he did, Nick's own throbbing cock grazed Justin's leg. Nick went up to the still half-eyed closed teenager and kissed him. Justin returned the kiss with as much as passion and desire as Nick gave him. Justin brought his arms around Nick's back before turning and shifting his weight. Now, it was Nick who had his back upon the bed and Justin on top of him. Justin then pulled away from the kiss but returning to it quickly. He pulled away again but this time moving his lips towards Nick's rosy cheeks. He then got to Nick's ears lightly nibbling on it and licking. Nick moaned as he did, before Justin move down to Nick's soft and tender neck. Justin kissed and tasted Nick's skin savoring the flavor that is Nick Carter.
Justin then moved down Nick's body to Nick's chest and abdomen giving him the same pleasure that Nick gave to him. He then arrived to Nick's prize which he found was longer than his but not as thick. Justin lightly flicked his tongue on top of Nick's knob as the sensation made Nick moan. "Oh...Justin..." Justin then brought his tongue upon the top of the head and slowly swirled his tongue around it. Nick tossed in the bed as the stimulation traveled up his body. With a deep breath Justin took Nick's manhood into his mouth. Justin felt a warm sensation travel throughout his body as Nick's penis slid into his mouth with ease. He took a couple of inches of Nick's tool before bringing his head up again. Nick was in ecstasy as Justin did this, moaning and groaning in pleasure. Justin went down again taking more and more as he did. He gagged slightly as he tried to deep throat Nick. Justin pulled up again and tried again but to no avail. He simply lingered and tried to give Nick the same delight that he did to him. Nick was in paradise as Justin went up and down on his cock. He brought his left hand upon Justin's head trying to control the sensations that he felt. But soon he couldn't control no more and felt his juice coming up. "Oh..uh...Just..I'm gonna..." As Nick moaned Justin continued his now frenzied attack upon Nick's penis. He continued his motions as he sucked upon Nick's long smooth shaft. Then as Justin went down again he felt Nick's cock throb and spurts of Nick's semen hit the back of his throat. Justin continued on as he let Nick come inside his throat for four more times. As Nick orgasm hit, he felt overall pleasure in all parts of his body. He was spent and was in bliss for the moment. Justin continued to suck upon Nick's now softening penis.
Justin then moved up Nick's body and kissed him on the lips lightly. He then started to kiss and move his mouth around Nick's neck as Nick encouraged him by running his hands through Justin's curly hair. Justin moved on from Nick's neck and brought Nick in to a deep kiss. As Justin entered Nick's mouth, Nick tasted his own tasty juices that mixed in with Justin's saliva. They both kissed with wild desire and they explored the depths of their love. Then Nick felt Justin's manhood still grazing upon his hard abdomen. He wanted Justin now and tonight. Something happened unconsciously as Justin pulled away from the kiss and looked into Nick's eyes. They were communicating to each other but without words. They both knew what they wanted. Nick then rolled over the bed and opened his bedside table.
Justin and Nick were kissing again even more passionately than before. Justin moved his hands down Nick's body lightly touching Nick's sides with the tip of his fingers. Nick moaned within their kiss reacting to Justin's action. As Justin reached Nick's leg he pulled on them lightly as Nick obliged by spreading his legs apart. Justin brought his arms around and Nick soon felt Justin's manhood near his opening. No words were needed then as they kept kissing and with a slight grit Nick felt Justin's head pop into his hole. Nick softly cried out in pain within their kiss as Justin paused. Justin pulled away from Nick's lips and moved his kisses towards Nick's cheeks. Justin then brought his lips upon Nick's tender neck as he slowly pushed in more of his penis. Nick, meanwhile, bit his lower lip as he tried to relax for Justin's thick member.
As Nick felt Justin's pubes upon his ass he felt the burning sensation change to pure pleasure. Justin brought his head up from Nick's neck where he had left a momento. He brought his lips back upon Nick's as he slowly pulled back. Nick suddenly felt a small amount of loneliness as Justin pulled his manhood away. But all too soon Justin was back inside again as Nick felt complete again. Nick and Justin made love slowly and lovingly. Justin's strokes were delicate and long. He took time to make love to Nick not wanting to hurt his lover. He made long careful strokes up and down as their bodies grazed upon each other. With sweat all over their bodies and with their breathing heavy they continued their love making into the night. While they were together they lived in a bubble where time was not essential and their love was all that mattered. Justin pushed in and out of Nick as Nick treasured their act. He had his arms upon Justin's back caressing it and encouraging him. Justin's actions were moving faster and faster as he knew he was close. Nick arched his body and let more of Justin in as Justin's movements became more of a need. Nick wrapped his legs around the small Justin's back as they continued their lovemaking and as the bed rocked. With a noticeable moan Justin brought his manhood back into Nick one last time as he came inside of Nick. Justin was shaking slightly as he fell onto Nick's sweat covered body. Justin was exhausted and so was Nick. Justin brought his head up carefully and gave a quick kiss before returning his head upon Nick's chest.
They both breathed heavy as they marveled in the feelings they held for each other. They were both falling asleep as Nick wrapped his arms around Justin's lean body. As he did, Justin brought his arms around Nick's side. He stayed inside of Nick not wanting to let go of the moment they shared. "I love you Nick." Justin whispered.
"Love, I love you too." Nick answered back before they both fell into blissful sleep.
To be continued...
Well, there you go. I hope it was okay. It was kind of the first love scene I've ever written so I hope it was okay. Well, at least I tried. As always, e-mail feedback bad or good. As for the next installment, I'm working on it. Schedule has been hectic and with school and stuff I'm really trying. Well, laterz peeps. "Bear"