I tried to hide inside myself as we stepped out of the apartment block. I just did not want to meet anyone with these clothes on. It was no big deal really, I probably did look "normal" for once. But it felt so wrong, so not me. I was really sweating, my sweat was mixing with the sweat already dried into that well worn Barca shirt.
We walked out on to the road.
"You look good," Ryan eyed me as we walked down the path. "Keep dressing like that and you can hang out with us from now on."
"Ok" I answered sort of overwhlemed.
"No, in fact, you dress like this all the time from now on, for uni, everywhere. I don't want to see you in that emo shit again. Got it?"
"Yeah," my words agreed with him but I couldn't possibly mean what I said. I just couldn't go around looking like this.
When we got down to the shops there were various knots of teenage chavs hanging around. All the kids from the local estates and houses. Normally I'd feel a bit intimidated by them but now I felt sort of one of them but an imposter too. Thank god Ryan was with me.
Two lads about 14 walked past us.
"Hey Ryan, alright?"
"Hey lads."
"This is Alex he's with us now, he lives up the road."
"Cool."
The two of them walked on.
I followed Ryan over to a lad of about 16 who was sitting on a park bench thing opposite ths shops.
"Alright Ben!"
"Alright Ryan!"
We sat down on the bench beside him, Ryan in the middle.
"Who is this lad?"
"This is Alex!"
"Aww fuck the lad you were telling me about?"
"Yeah."
"Thought he was a goth or somethin'?"
"Not anymore."
"I got a go home for dinner," Ryan spoke in general and looked at me, "You stay with Ben and do whatever he tells you to do, I'll be back later."
"See you man" Ryan stood up and walked off.
Ben slid accross the bench until he was right beside me and our legs were touching. He spoke quietly, "Come on with me."
We stood up and I followed Ben out of the shopping area and down the road to a half abandoned building site. We talked a little bit as we walked.
"So where do you go to school?"
"I go to uni."
"Oh... ok."
We climbed through into the little building site and moved behind a pile of earth to a gap in the ditch which was like a little secret hiding place kids might use for a camp. It was big enough to stand up in though.
"Ok then do me here."
Ben reached into his trackies and began to play with himself. I sighed to myself and got down on my knees. Eventually he pulled out his semi stiff cock and guided it into my mouth, as he did I took the base in my hands and began to suck. He threw his head back in pleasure and after a little while shot in my mouth. I swallowed all of it.
Ben seemed like a nice guy, I looked up at him with a sort of shit eating grin.
"Wait here five minutes and we can do it again."
We both sat down on the earth. We talked about nothing for a few minutes then he started to play with himself again. He told me to get between his legs, so, I sort of kneeled and supported myself with my hands and went down on him for a second time. He shot a much smaller load this time.
I stayed there on my kness in front of him as he put his cock back in his trackies, "You really like doing this don't you?"
I looked down in shame and he laughed.
I followed Ben as we left the site with that weird half sick feeling of cum in my mouth and stomach.
We walked to the sports field where I had delivered the beer to Ryan when they were drinking that night. Now, however, in the early evening it wasn't a seclued drnking spot it was crowed with people for football practice. All local teenagers in there yellow jerseys and blue shorts and socks. I stood on the sidelines with Ben watching the under-17s for a few minutes until there practice ended. They all started to troop off the pitch passing us to get to the club house. Ben seemed to know most of them.
"Hey Mark! Justin!" he called.
Two boys came jogging over to us and Ben who then guided
the four of us a little bit away from the main activity.
"This is him" Ben said suddenly.
"Him? The cocksucker?"
"Yeah"
"Fuck!"
"Cool!"
"He gonna suck us off?"
"Yeah! He just did me TWICE!"
"Fuck!"
I just stood there like the object I was becoming.
"When... where's he gonna do it?"
"I don't know, 'round the back when every one is gone home."
"Shit!," Justin spoke, "I can't wait I've got to go straight home or my mum will kill me."
He sounded a bit posh when he spoke.
"Let's do it now!"
"Where?"
"The old changin' room, there's no one in there now, let's go in!"
"Come on, lad, you going to do it?"
The three friends bounded off to the clubhouse like they'd won the lottery and I followed behind.
Inside, it was a typical old changing room, cold with a tiled floor. It
stank of years of muck and sweat.
"Go on then!" Ben spoke to Justin.
Mark went and locked the door to the room.
Justin carefully slid down his shorts and boxers to just below where his jeresy hung, he gradually took out his cock and massaged it until it was hard. I got on my knees and took it in my mouth. I tasted his sweaty cock but I my nose was full of his smell, the sweat, deoderant, football field. This made me more aroused than all of the other times I had done it. I didn't get to enjoy it long though because like all of them he came pretty quickly.
He was so excited afterwards he was almost high-fiving Ben. I had barely swallowed his load when Mark moved in with his cock. He must have been pretty frustrated because he shot loads in my mouth I could barely take it all, I was trying to get it down for a long time and it almost made me sick. Like Justin he also smelled heavily of sweat and "football".
The three talked in a little huddle for a while then the footballers left leaving me alone with Ben.
"I think you've made some new friends, you're going to be very popular."
We walked pretty much silently back to the shops are and stood around for a few minutes before Ryan returned.
"Well bitch did you find some more cock?"
Ben laughed and I realised he hadn't really heard me referred to or spoken to like this before. Suddenly the eqaulity that we seemed to have a few minutes ago was gone.
"Yeah he sucked me TWICE and my mates Mark and Justin."
"Good fag!" Ryan said in a mocking voice. He turned to Ben, "Line up more of your mates during the week, take his mobile number anytime you want your cock sucked call him, any problems just kick the shit out of him!"
They both laughed.
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