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Farthest Pasture Chapter 3 Ray Knows
Somewhere deep inside, Ray knew that Auggie loved him. How could he not? Although they never talked about it, he knew, and he hoped Auggie knew how he felt. Ray wasn't sure boys even said things like that to each other. What would it feel like to have all that out in the open? How would it be to say "I love you" or to share some other intimate words? Ray tried to imagine. Ray knew he didn't feel this way about Lisa or anyone else. For that reason alone, Ray believed it was right.
Lisa is another aspect of his life; he doesn't know how to explain. He knows it requires him to play another character so he'll fit into the expectations of him. Lisa is alright. They occasional have sex that's never fulfilling. Not her fault in the least as far as she knows Ray is a raging heterosexual like any other high school boy. Sometimes he gets upset with himself because he's using her, but he knows she'll never find out the truth.
It is early morning the time of day the sun shone brightest in Ray's room. He lies on the covers his underwear thrown aside. His erection curves out and back in towards his belly button, he enjoys the feel of a full bladder. He stirs, stretching his muscles like a cat. It's time to get up. He'll beat off in the shower. Another day of school and farm chores. Is this his life? He'd love to let himself think of an alternative to have a dream like Auggie, but he knows it was no good going there. This farm is in him, and he can't change that.
Getting in the shower, he searches for a fantasy to fuel his masturbation. Of late all he thinks about is kissing Auggie. He keeps playing over and over the last time they were together. Out across the pasture, away from everyone kissing in the back of the truck. It is such a pure fantasy one where they begin and end the sexual act with kisses. In no time he shoots his load into the shower drain. A few short minutes he's out of the bathroom clean with brushed teeth ready for school.
Ray has been with a couple of other guys since his experience with Jude. He also had a second time with him. They hooked up after another day of work. Ray pushed him to the dark side of the barn and gave him a blowjob followed by Jude sucking on Ray's balls and swallowing his come. One of the other guys was a friend, both Auggie, and he knows from school. Jason came out for a day on the farm and ended up playing dare and fingering his asshole. Playing dare in the loft things went from tame to wild in just a few short rounds. Jason was the first guy Ray had kissed. He never shared any of this with Auggie. He didn't know how he could ever do something like that. Jason never repeated his performance even though he's been out to the farm since then.
The one experience that Ray often plays over and over was his time with a guy at a farm expo that he and his dad went. He escaped from his father and took off on his own. A young man picked him up and took him to his mobile home. Ray doesn't even know the guy's name. They rolled around the double bed until he asked to fuck Ray. Who didn't know what to say. He'd never been fucked. What if his ass was dirty? How bad would it hurt? Ray asked to use the bathroom and a washcloth. The guy laughed but showed Ray where to go. The guy was very gentle and took his time. When he first went all the way in although it hurt some, Ray was proud he was being fucked. Once he got used to it, he enjoyed the full feeling and the way it made his dick feel. They almost came together. The guy ate Ray's cum out of his bellybutton.
He drives with the radio blaring. Entering the parking lot, he notices all the regular folk already in their parking spaces. There's the 250 announcing that Auggie is in school. He won't get to see him until third period.
"Hey man, how goes it?" Jimmy asks. He's running late this Monday morning too.
"Late and good, what about you?" Ray replies. Jimmy is one of the kids that Ray and Auggie have been in school with their entire life. Most of the kids fall into this category. Sometimes it was a good thing, and other times, it could be a burden.
"I'll catch up with you later, dude," Jimmy says making his way to English. Jimmy is a cool guy. His parents run the co-op in town. Ray knew from being in gym with him he had great arms and a nice bubble butt. Jimmy was probably a grower and not a shower, plus he has a big bush. Ray's thinks of getting fucked by him in one of the school showers.
Lisa stands at Ray's locker. She sees him coming down the hall and motions for him to speed up. "Running slow this morning?" Lisa asks as she kisses him. Wouldn't it be great if Auggie was doing this, Ray thought.
"Sorry still tired from fishing," he offers as an excuse. Lisa doesn't need to know the real reason he's tired.
"Come on we got to get to first period," Lisa turning and heading down the hall. Ray slams his locker and follows behind playing a familiar role. He always follows her lead. Whoever says guys are the leaders has never met Lisa.
Third period finally comes around. Auggie sits in his usual location the last row over by the windows. Ray sits down beside him. They touch knees, a code they devised before sex was even a part of their lives. It means "hey friend, I'm here for you," now Auggie believes it means "I'm thinking about you/us." Ray knows it means "I'm here with you" or something like that. Class begins, and the two focus on the class content. Next is lunch where they don't get to spend a lot of time together. Lisa takes up all of Ray's. But, Auggie has friends even if their just lunchroom friends who talk computers and video games.
School's over, and Ray has to get home to work on the farm. So does Auggie. They wave passing in the parking lot. There's no time to spend together. Ray kisses Lisa goodbye as she catches a ride with her best friend. Alone in the car, Ray turns up the music.
He makes it home and quickly changes out of his school clothes. He's got to feed the pigs and rake the chicken lot before dinner. He doesn't know what part of the farm his dad is working on, and that's just as well since they don't talk much. It's easier for Ray to get his work done without interruption. Besides it only relates to farm work or his dad telling him something he needs to be doing or has done wrong.
Ray is just finishing up as his mom calls everyone to eat. He finds his dad in the barn coming out of the shower they put out here so dirt wouldn't be tracked all over the house. It was a joke mother's day present, but his mom loves it.
"You get the yard raked?" James, Ray's father, asks. He already knows that of course, his son got all his chores done. James is a big gruff man that doesn't talk much and never tells his son how he feels.
"Yes, sir," Ray says as he squeezes past his dad and into the wet room.
"Don't take too long your supper will get cold." His dad wraps a towel around him, slips his shoes on, and goes towards the house. Ray takes off his clothes and turns the water back on. It's warm and relaxes his muscles. It's a once over not spending too much time in any one area. He finishes and makes his way in for supper.
After supper, it's time for Ray to get down to school work even though he doesn't have any. He can use this time to be alone and think. He spends a fair amount thinking about Auggie. What's he doing right now? Ray knows he wants him here with him. All of a sudden, the need to see Auggie, be near him overtakes Ray. He runs downstairs. "I've got to run to Auggie's he has test notes I need for tomorrow. We may study for a little while."
"That's fine. Be back by 9:30," his mom says to his back as he exits the kitchen door. He climbs in his car and makes the trip in no time. He thinks as he is pulling into Auggie's drive, he should have called. He gets out of the car and knocks on the back door. Who uses their front doors around these parts? Auggie's mom yells come in knowing it will be a neighbor or someone else they know.
"Well, hello, Ray. Go on up you know the way," Sharon, Auggie's mom says. Ray mounts the stairs like he has done countless other times. He thinks about just getting to that room he knows almost as much as his own.
The door is open, and Auggie is waiting for him. They go inside where they have privacy. They kiss and hold each other tight for a moment. Ray knows this is love. They head out to the field to mess with the cows for Auggie's dad.
"You want to take a walk in the field?" Auggie asks.
"Sure," Ray responds, knowing where they are going and what they are going to be doing.
"Follow me."
"Yes, sir." They follow a familiar path to a secure location. There they reach for one another embracing and kissing. Both of their dicks are straining to be set free, but this may not need to happen tonight. Ray has come to say something if he doesn't chicken out. He runs the back of his hand along the curve of Auggie's face. He feels the soft fuzz there. He brings Auggie in for another kiss. "I want to say something. I've thought a long time about it.
"Go ahead," Auggie says not knowing what's going to come out next.
"I want to say...I love you. I think I've loved you for a long time." Auggie is stunned. He's wanted to say and have this said to him for so long.
"You know I love you too, right?" Auggie says, trying not to get too emotional.
"I know, but we've never said it, so I thought it was time."
"You right, it is time. I love you, Ray Phillips."
"I love you too, Auggie Charles."
They come together again and kiss as the sky opens up and it begins to rain. They don't care. They stay where they are for a little longer before they break the embrace and rush back to the barn. It is raining extremely hard. Auggie and Ray are drenched. They are soaked to the bone. In the barn, they go back to hugging and kissing. There's no worry about being caught in this kind of weather. Ray is the first to make a move. He pulls Auggie's penis from his jeans. He lowers himself to his knees and starts to suck Auggie. It's slow and teasing just the way Auggie likes it. Ray enjoys having him in his mouth. Auggie comes, and Ray swallows it all. It's now Ray's turn to be serviced, and Auggie doesn't disappoint. He makes all the right moves and shows Ray how much he cares for him. I guess you can say, love.