Author's note: Hi everyone! The chapter nine is in the house! As always, thanks to everyone who read my story, and another thank to all people who send me mails in addition! Thanks a lot! :D
NOTE: Speaking of feedback, I know that several of you didn't have any answers for this story and for one of my others one "Send Me An Angel". I'm very sorry for that, but my Hotmail stuff, as I call it, really sucks sometimes. It had a lot of problems lately, and so I couldn't reply all the messages. Plus, I'm subscribed in several lists, like Backstreet_Slash_Fiction, Nick_Carter_Slash_Fiction and others (lists like Dara's one, if you know what I mean). So I received many messages each days and since I can't be on the net as much as I want and since I can have only 2MB of messages at Hotmail, sometimes it just erase them (fucking stuff!). I'm sorry and I promise that I'll do anything to avoid that to happen again. Did any of you know another free account than Hotmail? If yes, please tell me. Perhaps I'm going to change, because of these problems... but I'm not sure yet.
You know that thing: I don't know any of the BSB, Backstreet Band, Firm... and I don't know their sexuality and yadi yadi yada.... Don't read if you aren't older enough to, and if you don't like homosexual stories... are you lost or nut?
I know that I like many stories but I can't help it! Anyway, I advise you these ones: "Nick and Brian", by JC Vascardi "Open Arms", by Carter "Because I love you", by Lucas Thompson "The Body Switch with Nick Carter" by Sher (Thanks for the tapes!) "The Project" by Adam "Any Path", and all the sequels, and "Interludes" by Dara Lynn "Star Crossed", "Sucks to Be You" and "I Need You Tonight" by Jo Beth Hill "It's Gonna Be Me" by Jamie "Say my Name" by Jo Beth Hill and Colleen "Heaven in yours eyes" by Beck "Question of Faith" by Nathaniel O'Leary "Chances are" by Red "Josh and Just" by AJ Shukla "Just One Call" by Sarah "Tearing Up My Ass" by Rick Chasez "Kevin and Dustin" by Nick Moore "Little White Lies" by Elly Iles "Calming Waters" by NCfan "Devotion" by Angel1313 "The Real Nick" by Kevin Michael "God Must Have Spent" by AJ B. "Secrets", "Hands Of Time" by Mistress_n9 and her new one "The Call" "Shape Of My Heart" by MJ "Loneliness Knows Me By Name" by Cody and "Before The Storm" by Gking
You can also check out my other stories "Together Again", "Porcelain", and the second part "Send Me An Angel", "The Snow Will Be There" and "Whispering Wind".
Remember that English isn't my first language! So sorry for the errors that I may did!
Fate Will Gather Us Together Chapter Ten By Sophie V. (wind_phoenix@hotmail.com)
Nick stood there, shocked. Gene, his twin brother, and Brian, his best friend and secret love, were kissing. He could feel his heart beating loudly and arching. He looked at Gene and then at Brian. Both were worried about his reaction.
"Nick?..." said Brian softly. His voice was shaking, so Nick could easily say that he was worried.
"What... were you doing?" he asked with a small voice. Gene's heart was arching as he heard the sound of his voice. It sounded so sad.
"Umm... well... Nick..." started Brian. He took a big breath and looked at Gene for support. Gene looked at him and saw that he was afraid. Really afraid. His best friend just found out that they were together.
"Brian and I are a couple." He blurted out. He was a bit ashamed to say it that way, but he couldn't do it in another way.
Nick's eyes started to fill with tears. And, of course, there weren't tears of happiness. It was too late. Gene had caught Brian before him. Tears started to stream down his face. Brian and Gene saw that and both were thinking at different reasons. Brian thought that it was because he found out that he was bi and that he was lusting after Gene... so it could mean that he disgusted him. Gene, on another hand, could see how sad Nick looked. It was as if it was heart-broken. "Oh no... Don't tell me that..." he thought, starting to realize how serious the situation was.
"I think you should be discreet, Brian and you, because I think that he's jealous"
It was making sense. Gene realized that Mark was right. Nick cared a lot about Brian, and Nick was jealous... More than that, he was heart-broken. He stood up, looking at his brother who was still crying silent tears.
"Nick... I..." he started to say when Nick shook his head 'no'. He was backing away and then suddenly ran out of the room.
"Nick! Wait!" said Brian as he got up to go after him. But Gene stopped him.
"Brian, it's for me to see him so wait there and I'll come back, okay?" he said quickly before he exited the room to run after his brother.
Nick slammed the door of his room and collapsed on his bed, crying really hard. All this time he waited to have Brian's love... it was too late now. Brian was with Gene.
"Why?" he moaned in a pillow "Why? He should be mine..."
Then he heard somebody pounding on the door.
"Nick! Open me!"
Gene. His so-lovely twin brother who took Brian away from him. That was what he was thinking.
"Go away." He said.
"Nick, please..."
"I SAID TO GO AWAY!" he said, sitting up on his bed. There was no sound anymore. He collapsed on his bed and restarted to cry. It was hurting. His heart was hurting a lot, so much that he couldn't move and was hardly breathing.
"Stop... please stop..." he moaned. He was curling into a ball on his bed, his knees against his chest.
"Brian..." he said, his eyes tightly shut, wanting to stop the tears. But it didn't work.
Gene stood at the door, very frustrated. He had to talk to him. Now. But Nick didn't open the door and talked to him. Then he heard someone beside him. Brian.
"Gene..." he said, "He doesn't want to talk?"
Gene looked at him sadly and shook his head 'no'. Brian looked at the floor and sniffled.
"He... must hates me..." he said as he started to cry. Gene looked at him sadly and took him in his arms.
"Shh... Don't cry, Brian." He whispered. "Nick doesn't hate you, I know it."
"How can you be sure?"
"I know... he was just shocked so he ran away." He lied. Gene was silently cursing himself for saying that. Nick was shocked... but he was especially sad because he loved Brian too.
"Then why he cried?" he asked looking up at him. Gene could see how sad Brian was because he was sure that Nick hated him. These tears streaming down his face was making Gene wanting to cry too, but he knew that he must be strong. Then he knew how to go to Nick.
"Brian... go to talk to Kevin, I'm going to talk to Nick." He said.
"Okay, but... How are you going to talk to Nick? He doesn't want to." Brian said.
"I'll go to the office and said that I forgot my key in my hotel room and I'll say that I'm Nick Carter... they'll suspect nothing."
"Okay..." said Brian as he let him go "Please, be fast."
"I will." Said Gene as he ran to the elevator.
"How could you have thought that I'll love you?" said Brian "Did you look at yourself?"
"But Brian..." said Nick, tears streaming down his face "I'm not different than Gene."
"Of course!" said Brian with sarcasm. He walked toward Nick and ripped his shirt. Nick looked at him, shocked by what he just did.
"Look at that stomach!" said Brian, laughing. "You're so big! I'm still surprised that you can walk without problems!"
"Brian..." cried Nick "Please don't say that!"
"And look! Gene is a way more talented than you are, he can sing a lot better, and plays a lot better too. He's cuter than you and... Oh man, he makes love like a god!"
"No! Stop Brian! Please!" pleaded Nick.
"Not until you realize that you can't have me!" said Brian "I love Gene and you'll never ever be like him!"
"STOP PLEASE, BRIAN!" Nick screamed, crying really hard "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!"
"As if I care about that..." Brian said, shaking his head. He then turned and exited the room.
Nick abruptly opened his eyes and found himself lying on his bed. He sighed and lay on his back, relieved.
"Only a nightmare..." he whispered. But then he frowned as he remembered what he saw earlier. Gene and Brian kissing.
"Oh god... please tell me it was also a dream!" he said sitting up, feeling the urge to cry.
Then someone he heard someone using a key on the door and opened it. He saw Gene, who has a worried look on his face.
"Oh Nick!" he said as he quickly closed the door. He ran toward him, sat next to him and took his hands.
As he looked at him, Nick knew that it really wasn't a dream. Brian was Gene's boyfriend. As he remembered that, he burst into tears. Gene immediately tried to huge him but he pulled away.
"Don't touch me!" he said.
"Listen, Nick..." started to say Gene but Nick cut him.
"I don't want to listen! You have Brian and you want to tell me to accept this very easily?!"
"Nick, I didn't know that you wanted him! Why did you lie to me about this?" asked Gene softly.
Nick stayed quiet. He was right. Why did he lie to him? Perhaps that Gene wouldn't have tried to get Brian.
"Even if I said that I wanted him, who could have say that you wouldn't try to get him?" he asked.
"Nick..." sighed Gene. "You know that I want you to be happy... I wouldn't have accepted Brian's advances if I knew that."
"Brian's advances?!" said Nick, shocked "I thought that... Brian is the one who made the first step?"
"Yes." Said Gene, nodding. "The night we met, he kissed me."
He looked into Nick's eyes and saw tears filling his eyes. This sight broke his heart. He opened his arms, wanting to hug him. Nick shut his eyes tightly as two tears streamed down his face.
"Come here, Nick." He said as he put his arms around him. Nick hugged him back as he cried on his shoulder. Gene could feel what Nick felt. So much sadness. Gene's eyes watered as he hugged his brother.
"I'm so sorry, Nick..." he said "I didn't know that you were in love with Brian... I'm so sorry... Please forgive me..."
Gene was now crying. Nick looked up at him and wiped his tears away with his thumbs.
"It's for me to say that I'm sorry, Gene." He said "I shouldn't react like that, I want Brian to be happy and if it's with you... then I understand..."
"You don't, Nick. Don't lie. I can see that you're so sad because I have Brian and not you..." said Gene, shaking his head.
"You're right." Said Nick, "I feel horrible, but I want you to be happy... just as Brian."
"Nick..." said Gene as he pushed his tears away.
"It will be hard for me to love someone else... Give me sometimes... I'll try to accept this..." said Nick softly. Yet, in his heart, he was still angry and very sad.
"Okay..." said Gene just as softly. Nick leaned against his shoulder and closed his eyes, tired, as two tears streamed down his face. Gene could feel that Nick wasn't hugging him anymore. He put his arms around his waist and slowly rocked him back and forth.
"I'm so scared... I think I lost him..." moaned Brian.
"Shh... Brian, you'll see, I'm sure that Nick was just shocked because he caught you and Gene. I don't think he would have react that way if you had told him before." Said Kevin
"I'm sorry..."
"Come on, it's not your fault!" said Kevin as he took Brian in his arms "Come here."
Brian let Kevin hugged him as he cried silently on his shoulder.
"You think he still thinks that I'm his best friend?"
"Brian, I'm sure. Nick don't hate gay or bi people."
"How can you know that?" Brian asked.
"Well... did you forget about Mark?" he said, smiling.
"Ah, yes that's right." Said Brian as he smiled a little. He then stopped and frowned. "But me..."
"You're his best friend, he won't mind." Said Kevin as he released him. "Come on, we're going to see him."
Brian nodded and they both exited Kevin's room. When they arrived in front of Nick's door, they slowly opened it without knocking and heard someone singing. Nick's voice... or Gene's one. They opened the door and entered without making a noise. They only recognized Gene because of the clothes. Nick was sleeping in his bed whereas gene was in his knees, on the floor, beside him, gently stroking his face. His back was turned to Brian and Kevin so he couldn't see them. They just stood here, listening to Gene singing softly.
"What if the world was out of love? And all that we do, don't mean a thing, You take no chance; no offering, no suffering, for anything. You're asking yourself, do you really want it that way? That the mountain's too high. The answer is just around the hill.
Just around the hill, Just around the hill, Take a look on the other side, Suddenly you'll see, there are many ways, to go to strain, Just walk around, walk around the hill.
Just around the hill, Take a look on the other side, Suddenly you'll see, there are many ways, to go to strain, Just walk around, walk around the hill."
Gene gently pulled the covers up to his brother's chin, and kissed him softly on the forehead.
"Walk around the hill... Mmmm... Walk around the hill... "
He finished to sing and got up. He turned around and saw Brian and Kevin standing there, eyes widened. He blushed lightly, knowing that they heard him, and mentioned to them to go outside. Outside, they all went in Kevin's room.
"He's sleeping now... he needs some rest." Said Gene.
"How is he?" asked Kevin "Brian said that he ran of the room."
"Well... he was deeply shocked and he said that he needed some time to accept this." Said Gene. He didn't mention the fact that Nick was in love with Brian. The situation was a bit too hard for the moment and he didn't know if it would be a good idea to say that.
"But is it going to be a problem?" asked Brian, worried.
"No, I don't think so." Gene lied. He hated to lie but what he was supposed to say? 'Nick is deeply in love with you so we can wait for the worst!'? He didn't think so.
"Okay..." said Brian "I'll talk to him tomorrow."
"You're sure?"
"Yes, Gene. He's my best friend and he must knows that he means a lot to me." Said Brian.
"Okay... it will be better." Said Gene, as Kevin nodded.
"And Kevin? Please don't say anything to the other guys about that. I want Nick by my side before telling the others.
"It's okay, I understand." Said Kevin.
"Well, we better go to sleep. Tomorrow will be a hard day." Said Brian.
"We're going to Fort Lauderdale, right?" asked Gene.
"Yes. First we'll take a plane for Orlando and then we'll go there by buses." Said Kevin.
"Okay. Well let's go to sleep, Gene." Said Brian "'Night, cuz."
"'Night, you two." Said Kevin as Gene and Brian exited the room.
Gene was about to open the door when he saw Brian looking at the door of a room. Nick's room. Gene could see that he was worried. He put his hand on his shoulder, causing Brian to jump slightly.
"He doesn't hate you, Brian, believe me." Said Gene sincerely. Brian smiled a little and nodded.
"Thanks Gene." He said "I was very worried when you went to talk to him, you know. I'm glad to know that."
Gene smiled and they both entered in the room. Gene took off his shoes and then felt Brian hugging him from behind. He turned around and saw Brian looking at him worriedly.
"Brian, what is it?" he said as he hugged him.
"It's just that... I don't want to loose you both... Nick and you..." he sighed.
"You won't loose us, Brian." Said Gene as he rubbed his back slowly "Nick and I will always be by your side."
"Thanks, Gene." Said Brian as he closed his eyes "I love you."
Hearing that, Gene tensed considerably. Brian just said that he loved him. He looked at him and saw Brian looking at him worriedly.
"What's wrong, Gene?" he asked, "Why are you so tensed?"
"You... you love me?" asked Gene, unsure.
Brian looked at him shyly and nodded. He then leaned and kissed him tenderly on the lips. Gene had a million thoughts on his mind and didn't kiss him back. Brian felt that and looked at him worriedly.
"Gene?" said Brian. Gene was looking in Brian's eyes, getting lost in them. He looked deeply in them and had flashbacks.
** "This is so great! Our families accepted us!"
"That's because they know that we're perfect together." His boyfriend said "You're perfect, Gene."
Gene blushed and put his arms around him.
"No... YOU're perfect, Jeffy poo..." he said. He leaned against his shoulder and sighed contently. "The most perfect guy in the world."
Jeff smiled and kissed him on the head.
"So, let's just say that we're both perfect." He said, as Gene and him giggled.
"I love you, Jeff." Gene said, looking in his eyes.
"I love you more, my angel." Said Jeff as they leaned and kissed. **
"Gene?" said Brian, confused. Gene was still looking in his eyes and seemed in deep thoughts.
"Jeff..." whispered Gene before he leaned and kissed Brian on the lips.
Brian could feel that something was wrong. First, Gene tensed a lot when he said that he loved him and second, he called him Jeff. He gently pulled away and looked at him in the eyes.
"Gene? It's me Brian, not Jeff." He said. Gene blinked several times and realized his mistake.
"Oh my..." he said as he back away from Brian. "Oh god, Brian... I'm so sorry..."
"It's okay, Gene." Said Brian as he went to hug him.
"No, it's not okay! First I stole you away from Nick and second, I thought you were Jeff..." he said as he started to cry. "I'm so fucked up..."
"Gene, don't say that!" said Brian as he took him in his arms and hugged him. "You're not fucked up..."
"Yes, I am." moaned Gene.
"Stop saying that, Gene." Said Brian softly. "You're wonderful. Everybody thinks that you're wonderful and me too."
"But why I feel like shit?" he asked.
"Maybe because... you miss Jeff." Said Brian "But I don't care... It's not abnormal, it's a feeling that everyone feels in his life. But remember that the others guys, your family and me are there for you and we'll always help you and be there for you."
Gene managed to calm down and sighed. Brian was right. His mother had said that too when he was younger and it wasn't a lie. She was there for him, all his family was there... always.
"Thanks, Brian." He whispered. "I'm sorry for that."
"Don't ever say 'sorry' all the time, okay?" Brian said, smiling. Gene smiled a little and nodded.
"Come on, let's sleep." Said Brian.
They both stripped down to their boxers and crawled in Brian's bed. They lightly kissed each other and closed their eyes, pretty tired.
"He doesn't love me yet... but I don't care." Thought Brian "He's so stressed about Jeff... for what I heard he was a great man... If only I had knew him..."
He opened his eyes and smiled as he looked at him. He then frowned as he remembered something that Gene said.
"What did he mean by 'stealing me away from Nick'?" he sighed and finally closed his eyes, falling asleep quickly. "I really have to talk to Nick."
The night was really quiet for everyone. It was now 7:00 AM and Brian was actually packing all his stuff. They didn't leave until 9:30 AM but the Firm wanted them to be up early. Beside, he wanted to talk to Nick.
"You think that everything will be okay?" asked Brian.
"I hope so, Brian. I hope so..." said Gene, looking at his locket. He was still worried about Nick and regretted to have leaved him sleep alone.
"Maybe I should have stay with him last night." He said.
Brian walked toward him and hugged him. He could feel that he was worried too.
"I'm going to talk to him now." He said as he broke the hug and walked toward the door. "I'll be back."
Gene just nodded as he watched him leave.
Nick was sitting on his bed. He was ready for leaving with the others. Usually, he was never the first to be ready, but he only sleep a few hours tonight. He looked at a picture of Brian and him that he was holding in his hand. They looked very happy on the picture. But actually, Nick wasn't in this mood. Then someone knocked on the door.
"Nick? I need to talk to you."
Brian. Nick quickly put the picture in his bag and told Brian to enter. Brian did so and as he closed the door, started to speak.
"Nick... I'm sorry about last night. I wanted to talk to you about me and Gene but I was so worried."
"I understand, Brian... but you can't know how much it... hurt... to see you kissing my brother... my twin brother..." said Nick, looking at the floor.
"I know Nick but I want you to forgive me... I'm with Gene and I want you to understand me..."
"How do you want me to understand that you prefer my twin brother that you know for, what three days, to me, that you know for almost nine years?!" Nick's mind was screaming. That's what Nick wanted to say.
"You know, Brian, I would have never reject you if you told me that you like guys too." He then looked at him with tears in his eyes "I would have never leave your side..."
"I feared that... that you would leave me." Confessed Brian. "Are... you going to be okay since I'm dating Gene?"
"I don't know, Brian. It's gonna take me time..." Nick said. Brian looked at the floor and nodded. He knew that he was going to cry.
"There's only one thing that I'm sure about... it's that I never ever leave you Brian. You can't know how much you mean to me." He said as he started to cry.
"You mean a lot to me too, Nick." Said Brian, as tears streamed down his face "I love you... You're my best friend..."
"I love you too, Brian." Nick sobbed as they walked toward each other's and hugged tightly.
"Promise me that it's gonna be Frick and Frack forever, that we'll always be the best friends of the world." Said Brian as he tightly hugged Nick.
"I promise..." said Nick as he continued to cry.
As they both continued to hug, neither of them heard the door closing.
Gene walked toward his room, sniffling. He had heard and saw the conversation between Nick and Brian and that had made him cry. Even if Brian was crying tears of happiness because Nick accepted him because he was bi, he could say that Nick was crying tears of pain. The pain of not being loved by Brian like he wished he was.
"And it's all my fault..." he whispered as he entered in his room. Mark, Denis and, Fred smiled as they saw him.
"Hey, kiddo, sleep well?" asked Mark. His answer was a look of sadness and tears.
"Oh god..." said Mark as they all went toward him. "Gene, what's wrong?"
Gene couldn't hold back any longer and burst into tears. The others waited no time and hugged him tightly.
"Shh... don't cry, Gene... what's wrong?" asked Fred.
"I... I broke my brother's heart..." he moaned as he sobbed on Mark's shoulder. The others all looked at each other, confused.
"What the hell happen?" they all whispered at the same time. But they had no answer... for now, Gene couldn't answer.
**************************************************************************** To be continued!... As always... feedbacks are welcome! :) E-mail: wind_phoenix@hotmail.com (write FWGUT or the entire title, as you wish) See ya! :) Sophie V.