Author's note: Hello people. The chapter eleven is finally here! As always, thanks to everyone who read my story, and another thank to all people who send me mails in addition! I LOVE YOU ALL!!! ;D
You know that thing: I don't know any of the BSB, Backstreet Band, Firm... and I don't know their sexuality and yadi yadi yada.... Don't read if you aren't older enough to, and if you don't like homosexual stories... are you lost or silly?
I know that I like many stories but I can't help it! Anyway, I advise you these ones: "Nick and Brian", by JC Vascardi "Open Arms", by Carter "Because I love you", by Lucas Thompson "The Body Switch with Nick Carter" by Sher "The Project" by Adam "Any Path", and all the sequels, and "Interludes" by Dara Lynn "Star Crossed", "Sucks to Be You" and "I Need You Tonight" by Jo Beth Hill "It's Gonna Be Me" by Jamie "Say my Name" by Jo Beth Hill and Colleen "Heaven in yours eyes" by Beck "Chances are" by Red "Josh and Just" by AJ Shukla "Just One Call" by Sarah "Tearing Up My Ass" by Rick Chasez "Kevin and Dustin" by Nick Moore "Little White Lies" by Elly Iles "Calming Waters" by NCfan "Devotion" by Angel1313 "The Real Nick" by Kevin Michael "God Must Have Spent" by AJ B. "Secrets", "Hands Of Time", "The Call" and the new one "The Shadow's Riddle" by N9 "Shape Of My Heart" by MJ "Loneliness Knows Me By Name" by Cody and "Before The Storm" by Gking
You can also check out my other stories "Together Again" (I don't know when it will be back, sorry), "Porcelain" and the second part "Send Me An Angel" (next chapter during the week... I think), "The Snow Will Be There", "Whispering Wind" and "Happy Birthday!"
Remember that English isn't my first language! So sorry for the errors that I may did!
Fate Will Gather Us Together Chapter Eleven By Sophie V. (wind_phoenix@hotmail.com)
Everyone was at the airport, waiting for going in the Backstreet plane. Howie was sitting on a chair, just reading a magazine, while AJ talked to Kevin on the bench in front of him. Nick was sitting at the other side of the bench, ignoring everyone.
"Frack..." thought Brian "What's so wrong?"
He was actually looking at him, sitting in front of him. But Nick just stared into space, not looking at him. It was getting difficult. Since their talk, he ignored everyone. Even Gene. His boyfriend seemed sad since he went to talk to him, but each time he tried to ask what was wrong, he just shook his head and said "Not now, Brian.". He sighed and looked at the floor. He was ashamed. After all, he was the first one to kiss his boyfriend before Nick walked in and caught them. He didn't want his best friend to know that they were together that way. He was supposed to know with AJ and Howie at the same time.
"I'm so sorry, Nick." He whispered as he looked up at him. He was still staring into space. He got up and walked toward him. As he approached him, he frowned as he saw a tear streaming down Nick's cheek. He wiped it away with his thumb and, as he did that, he saw Nick looking at him.
"What is it, Brian?" he asked. There was no emotion in his voice. No joy, no sadness, nothing.
"Nick, what's wrong?" asked Brian "Please, tell me."
"I'm fine." Said Nick.
"Don't lie, Nick."
"Look, I'm okay, so leave me alone, okay?" he said, a little aggressive.
Brian was taken aback as Nick said that. Nick never talked to him like that. It wasn't his nature to.
"Nick, please..." said Brian as Nick looked away "I know that something is wrong. Tell me, please. We're best friends, Nick."
Nick winced slightly as he heard these words. Best friends. Brian was his best friend... but nothing more.
"He was supposed to be MY boyfriend. I was supposed to be THE ONE he would kiss. I was supposed to be ME holding him. It was supposed to be ME he would sleep with! It wasn't supposed to be GENE! It was supposed to be ME!" he was screaming in his head.
"Nick..." said Brian, as Nick said nothing.
"Look, go and see Gene. I suppose he wonders where you are." Said Nick.
"No, Nick, I want to talk to you."
Nick turned and looked at him.
"And I don't. We had a talk, earlier, and now everything is okay. So, please leave me alone." He said, looking at him straight in the eyes.
"No, Nick, I can feel that something is wrong." Said Brian, shaking his head.
"Look, leave me the fuck alone!" said Nick as he got up and walked away.
Brian looked at him walking in the airport, tears in his eyes. He quickly pushed them away and look at his left. AJ, Howie and Kevin were looking at him, a questioning look on their faces. He looked at Kevin, silently pleading his cousin. Kevin nodded, seeing how sad Brian was. He got up and walked toward Nick. AJ and Howie looked at each other, confused, and then back at Brian who just walked away.
"What happened?" said Howie.
"I don't know." said AJ. "They act weird since this morning."
"Yeah." Said Howie "Something must be wrong."
AJ just nodded as they felt in a silence, not knowing what to do.
"What can I do?"
"Don't cry, kiddo, don't cry."
"I can't help it..." He sniffed "I... I destroy... everything."
"Come on, Gene." Said Mark "You didn't destroy anything."
"Yes, I did!" said Gene "I broke my brother's heart! I betrayed him!"
Fred gently put his arm around Gene as he put his head on his shoulder.
"Gene, it's not your fault." He said softly "It's only fate. And remember that Nick lied to you too."
"He's right." Said Denis "It's not your fault... You're dating Brian and Nick is jealous, it's normal. He'll get over it."
"No, I don't think so." Said Gene, shaking his head. "I think he'll NEVER get over it."
"How can you know that?" asked Mark.
"I see it in his eyes when I talk to him." Said Gene "I see it... the sadness, the feeling of having lost what was the most important thing in your life... I had this same look when... when..."
"When?" said the guys.
"When Jeff died." He moaned as he restarted to cry. The others could see how sad Gene was. Mark looked at Fred and he nodded. Fred released Gene and Mark took him in his strong arms, rubbing his back softly.
"But Gene..." said Mark "Between Brian and Jeff, you love..."
"Them both..." whispered Gene "I love Brian, but... I still love Jeff."
"I can feel it." said Mark, sighing. "You think that Nick will never accept the fact that you date Brian, uh?"
Gene said nothing. He just nodded.
"Gene..." said Denis "Even if Nick is your twin brother, it doesn't mean that he'll never accept the fact that the one he loves the most dates you... he'll get over it and find someone who can love him. He's strong enough..."
"And you mean that I'm not?" said Gene, feeling miserable.
"No, Gene, I didn't mean that." Said Denis, putting his hand on Gene's shoulder. "I mean that Nick will find someone else. One day, he'll accept you and Brian... Look, it's the same for you. You find Brian after Jeff."
"Yeah, but..." sighed Gene "I feel like... I stole him away from Nick."
"It's normal, Gene. It happens to a lot of people who get with someone who was also love by another person." Said Fred.
Gene said nothing for a few seconds and stopped crying. They looked closely at him and saw that he was in deep thoughts.
"Gene?" said Mark "You're okay?"
"I made a decision." Said Gene as he pulled away from Mark's hug.
"What?" said Denis "But what decision?"
Gene looked at him and then backed away from a few feet.
"I'm going to say everything to Brian! I'm going to tell him that Nick loves him too and that he must be with him! It's the best thing I can do. They will be together..."
"And you'll be alone." Finished Mark as he walked toward him and stopped him. "No, Gene, this isn't the best idea."
"Yes, it is." Said Gene "Nick and Brian will be happy."
"And you?" said Fred, septic. "You'll be alone like after Jeff! You want to try to kill yourself or be miserable like you were like when Jeff died?!"
Fred immediately regretted what he just said. It was a big mistake. He looked ashamed as Mark and Denis looked at him shocked. Gene was also very shocked.
"What..." said Gene, getting angry. "HOW CAN YOU TALK ABOUT IT?! DON'T TALK ABOUT HIM, YOU HEAR ME?!"
They started to panic as Gene screamed hysterically at Fred. Gene was really mad and some people started to look at them curiously.
"Gene, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to..." said Fred.
"To what?!" said Gene, furious "To remind me the most horrible moments of my life?! It's too late, Fred!! You did the wrong thing!"
Mark was really shocked as he looked at Gene. He wasn't the kind and wise boy that he knew. He looked very aggressive. His fists were tightly clutched and he knew that Gene could punch him anytime.
"Please Gene, calm down!" said Denis as he looked behind him. Some other persons were looking at them in wonder.
"Don't... speak..." said Gene as he started to shake, still looking very angry "About that..."
"Gene, shh, calm down, he didn't say that on purpose..." said Mark as he hugged him. Gene tried to escape from his grip but was too weak to success.
"No, no, no, no!" he screamed in Mark's shoulder. His cries were actually muffled as he buried his head in his shoulder.
Mark continued to hug him tightly, wanting him to calm down. He looked at Fred who put his hands on Gene's shoulders.
"Gene... I swear that I'm sorry... I didn't want to say that... I'm so sorry... please forgive me..." pleaded Fred. He was feeling very ashamed because of what he said. He knew it was the worse moments of Gene's life so he knew how much he hurt him.
Mark could feel Gene calming down, and quietly pulled away. Gene looked at Fred and hugged him.
"It's okay, I know you didn't mean what you say..." he said "But... at the same time... you're right. I would be lonely one more time..."
"You'll never be lonely, Gene." Said Fred as he hugged him "We'll always be there for you."
"He's right, Gene." Said Denis "You'll never be alone."
"Thanks, guys." Said Gene as he rubbed his eyes. "But what I'm gonna do for Nick?"
"You'll do nothing." Said Mark, as Gene looked at him confused. "When we'll be in Fort Lancouser or in other cities, we'll take him at some clubs so that he could meet new people, and perhaps some hot men."
"Eer... without me." Said both Denis and Fred as they all laughed.
"Okay..." said Gene "I only hoped that... Nick will be okay."
"We'll do anything for, don't worry." Said Mark as the others nodded. Gene smiled a little, for the first time of the day, and just nodded.
"Where is he?" mumbled Kevin as he searched Nick.
When Nick had seen that Kevin followed him, he ran away. Now, he didn't know where he went. He continued to walk in the airport and arrived to a dead end when there was two doors. On one of it was written: "Toilet: Men".
"Perhaps that..." he whispered as he pushed the door. He was then welcomed by sounds of someone crying. He entered and saw Nick sitting against the wall, his head on his knees, hiding his face.
"Nick?" said Kevin as he closed the door, walked toward him and sat in front of him.
"Leave me alone..." moaned Nick, still crying. Kevin put his hands on each side of his face and forced Nick to look at him. He was shocked to see how sad Nick looked. His eyes were red and puffy; many tears were streaming down his face as he sniffled.
"Nick, what happened?" asked Kevin, as he released his face "Why are you acting like that?"
"What do you mean?" said Nick, as he looked away.
"You know what I mean." Said Kevin "Why are you pushing Brian away? I know it was a shock for you when you saw that he dated your brother but..."
"Wait..." said Nick, cutting him "You know that Brian was dating Gene?!"
"Um... Yes." said Kevin, nodding "I walked in when they were kissing, the night of the concert."
"You... you knew it and you didn't tell me?!" said Nick, angrily "How could you?!"
"Nick..." said Kevin but Nick stood up.
"I told you to care of Brian so much times and to tell me what happened to him while I wasn't there... and you didn't tell me that?!" screamed Nick.
"Nick!" said Kevin as he stood up too. "It was a day before you saw them! And beside, it's their business, not mine! And Gene DOES taking care of Brian! I'm actually happy that they're together."
Nick was saying nothing. Kevin looked at him only to see sadness in his eyes.
"Nick, why are you so sad that they're together?" asked Kevin softly "What's the problem?"
"Kevin..." said Nick, trying to stay calm "Did... did Brian... have..."
"What?"
"Did Brian..." said Nick "... have feelings for me?"
Kevin stayed quiet. He was now very confused. This question seemed so important to Nick... He wasn't surprised that he asked this question, but was a little afraid by what Nick's reaction would be if he knew the true.
"No..." lied Kevin "Brian had found out that Gene was bi, they were getting on well, Brian told him that he was bi too and that he liked him a lot, it was the same for Gene, so..."
Nick stayed quiet. The sight of Gene and Brian had broken his heart but now he felt even more miserable.
"Brian never loved me..." he thought as more tears streamed down his face. He looked at himself in the mirror, wanting to cry even more.
"Gene had a better body than me... he had more muscles, a cute face." He thought as he shut his eyes tightly "And he's not fat... I'm fat... Brian would never love someone like me..."
"Nick?" said Kevin, hesitating. He didn't know if to lie to Nick was a good idea. He thought that Nick was sad because Brian dated Gene because he was his twin brother. So he thought he was deeply shocked.
"I must be wrong..." thought Kevin.
Suddenly, he saw Nick quickly taking off his coat. Before he could say something, Nick took off his sweater also and looked at the mirror, half-naked.
"I shouldn't be surprised." Said Nick as he shook his head "Look at me."
"What?" said Kevin as he looked at Nick "What should I see?"
"Easy!" said Nick angrily "A boy who is so big and ugly that he would disgust every men and women who would look at him!"
"What?!" said Kevin, shocked "But Nick... why are you saying that?!"
"Gene is so much better than me..." sobbed Nick "He's better than me physically, mentally... in everything!"
Then, he collapsed on the floor crying as Kevin looked in shock.
"I'm so unhappy..." cried Nick "Why I am like that?! Why nobody loves me?!"
Kevin quickly took Nick's sweater and helped him to go on his feet.
"Pull it back on, you're gonna be cold." He said quietly. Nick took the sweat and slowly put it on. "Nick... please tell me everything. Tell me what's on your heart."
Nick looked at Kevin and through his wet eyes, he could see compassion and worry in Kevin's ones. He looked at the floor for a moment, then finally looked at Kevin, who waited patiently for him to talk.
"Brian... was supposed to be MY boyfriend, Kevin, not Gene's..." he said weakly as tears restarted to stream down his red face.
Kevin was shocked by what he heard, but now it was making more sense. Nick loved Brian too, so that was why he reacted so badly when he knew about his brother and Brian.
"Oh... Nick, I didn't know, I'm so sorry..." said Kevin sadly. Nick's reaction was only to cry even more. He fell in Kevin's arms, who held him tightly.
"I was right... this is not good... hell, it's worst than I imagined...." he thought as he continued to hold the crying boy.
"Okay, so we just have to wait Kevin and Nick." Said Peter as everyone walked in the Backstreet Plane. While Kevin was talking to Nick, the others were called to get into the plane. Gene was actually amazing as he walked in the plane.
"Oh my god..." he said, "It's so big and... There's everything! Beds, bar, DVD system..."
"And many more..." said Mark, beside him "You'll see there's everything! You won't missed anything!"
"I think so..." he said, looking around him. He walked further in the plane and saw Brian sitting on one of the couch, staring into space.
"Hey..." he said softly. Brian looked up at him and smiled, recognizing his boyfriend. He stood up, walked toward him and kissed him on the lips. But Gene pulled away.
"Wait... it's not a good idea." He said.
"Why not?"
"Because Kevin, Mark, Denis and Fred are the only one, beside Nick, to know about us." Said Gene. Brian nodded in understanding but then frowned.
"What's wrong, Brian?" asked Gene.
"Mark and the others know? But... how?" Brian asked, confused.
"Well... you remember when Mark and I talked two days ago, at the restaurant?"
"Yeah, what about it?" he said.
"Well... Mark told me that he saw the way you were looking at me and I told him that we were a couple... and after, he told the other guys, but only them." Explained Gene "I hope it's okay, Brian..."
"Yes it is." Said Brian, smiling "After all, I trust him and Denis and Fred a lot."
Gene smiled and kissed him on the lips as they sat on the couch. There was no one else in the room, so he knew he didn't risk anything.
"I love you, Gene." Said Brian softly as he broke the kiss. Gene smiled and said: "I know, Brian, I love you too."
Brian smiled and hugged him tenderly, resting his head on his shoulder.
"I'm in love, I'm in love..." he thought, smiling as he closed his eyes. He let him hugged him, feeling safe and loved. Gene was also feeling safe and loved, but he wasn't totally happy.
"I'm sorry, Nick..." he said as he kissed the top of Brian's head and hugged him.
"It's the only thing you can do, Nick." Said Kevin "You can't be miserable for the rest of your life."
"I know..." said Nick, sighing "But I feel like... nobody loves me..."
"You're wrong, Nick." Said Kevin as he put his arm around his shoulder. "Don't ever think that we don't love you."
"Like brothers..." said Nick "I mean... nobody LOVES me."
"And your screaming teenagers fans?" said Kevin. He actually smiled as he saw Nick smiling.
"Yeah, but... about real love?" said Nick "I mean... I always hoped that one day Brian and I would be an item... but I guess I was wrong."
"How long have you been in love with him?" asked Kevin.
"I knew I was bi since I started to have a crush on Brian, a few years ago... But when he met Leigh and that they started to date, I decided to just forget about it... and then when Brian was betrayed... I stayed close to him for a long time and all these feelings came back in a rush... I think I feel in love while I stayed with him..." said Nick, looking down as he walked.
"I'm sorry to know that... but you know that there are many other men, Nick."
"Yes, but Brian is always on my mind..." said Nick "I just wish I'll find someone like him..."
"You will, Nick." Said Kevin "Men or women, they will be proud to have you by your side... because you're really a great guy."
"Thanks." Said Nick, smiling "I needed to hear that."
They continued to walk toward the plane, where everyone was waiting for them. Kevin looked at him and spoke up.
"Well... I hope that you'll accept them... they're happy, Nick..." said Kevin. "And I know that you want your brother and best friend to be happy."
"Yes... you're right." Said Nick, sighing "It won't be easy, but I'll try... if Gene makes him happy, then it will be that way."
"Good boy." Said Kevin, patting his back. Nick just giggled a little and they both went in the plane.
"Guys..." said Nick as he saw Gene and Brian sitting on a couch. "Can I talk to both of you?"
Brian looked at Gene, worried, and saw him nodding. They all must talked. Brian nodded too and got up with him. Nick led them in a room when they'll be alone.
"Listen..." he started as he closed the door. "I know I acted like a jerk since this morning, but you have to know that I really don't hate you... It was a big shock to know that you were together but I just want you both to be happy..."
"Then... it was because you were shocked to know that I date your brother?" asked Brian.
"Yes... I talked with Kevin and I understand that after all, you're both happy together... so there was no reason that I acted like that... I'm sorry, guys."
"It's okay, Nick." Said Gene "I just hoped that you didn't hate us both..."
"I can't." said Nick "You're my brother and Brian, you're my best friend... nothing will ever change that... I love you both and I want you to be happy... just don't do it in front of me, okay?"
"Don't worry... thanks Nick..." said Brian, feeling tears in his eyes. "I was so worried this morning... you really know that you mean a lot to me, uh?"
"Yes, I know." said Nick as he hugged him "You mean a lot to me too, Frick. And the fact that you date my brother won't change that."
Brian sighed, content, as he hugged him. His heart was filled with joy as they hugged. Nick had accepted them. Nick finally released him and went to hug his brother.
"I'm sure that your future boyfriend or girlfriend will be proud of you Nick." Whispered Gene in his ear "I'm just sorry that I lie to you about him..."
"It's okay, bro... with the time I'll be totally okay with this." Whispered Nick "Just take care of him, okay? He's so lovely..."
"Don't worry, I will..." whispered Gene. "And remember that if you need anything, you'll just have to tell me."
"I know... thanks bro."
"Anytime." Said Gene as he released him. Brian was curious to know what they were saying but stayed quiet. Just then, Kevin entered in the room.
"Guys, group meeting." He said as he walked away.
"Coming." They all said as they walked in the other room.
"I'm happy that everything is fixed." Thought Brian "That was too much..."
He then looked at Nick at the other side of the room, who was taking a coke from a fridge.
"Your future girlfriend will be proud of you, Nicky... You're a so lovely boy..." he thought, sighing a little.
On the other side, gene was looking at his brother too. But he wasn't so sure about what Nick said.
"I know he talked to Kevin, but I know he's not totally okay with this..." he thought, "I just hope it won't be for a long time..."
"... And then we'll take a plane for Charlotte the next day. You all understood?" asked Peter. Everyone nodded in the room.
"But... why we left earlier?" asked Gene.
"Because some shows on TV before the concert will be done, so you all have to leave earlier." Explained Peter as they all nodded.
"Good. The meeting is over so you can rest, now." Said Peter as he walked away in another room to work.
"Nick..." whispered Kevin, who was sitting next to him "Everything is fixed?"
"Yes... yet, it will take some time to get used to..." whispered Nick. "Gene is very lucky..."
"Yeah, but you're not Gene..." whispered Kevin "But everything will be okay, trust me."
Nick smiled a little and nodded. He looked at Gene who was talking to Fred and then remembered something that Kevin had just said.
"You're not Gene..." he thought. He then looked at Brian who switched on the TV.
"Hey, Frack!" said Brian, looking at him "Want to play?"
"Sure!" said Nick, smiling. As Brian plugged the console, he looked at him and then at Gene. He got lost in his thoughts and suddenly an idea came in his mind.
"Wait... it won't be fair..." he thought. He looked again at Brian, who took a controller and gave the other to Nick. He smiled, took it and looked discreetly at Gene.
"I'm sorry, bro..." he thought as he started to play with Brian.
**************************************************************************** To be continued! I know that there weren't a lot of things, but there's more to come in the next chapter! As always... feedbacks are welcome! :) E-mail: wind_phoenix@hotmail.com (write FWGUT or the entire title, as you wish) See ya! :) Sophie V.