well let me start by introducing myself my name is Alexis m. i guess i should tell you how i look. well lets see i have light brown hair , sapphire color eyes and golden tan skin. and that's weird because, you see I'm Latino. now i know what your thinking , '' how the hell ! ! do i have blue eyes and almost blond hair?! '' well that would be my grandma from my dads side of the family's fault because she was German. I'm also not very tall I'm like 5'6 or something and that's pretty small for my age I'm 18 almost 19 years old.
my body is OK i guess I'm not fat but I'm not skinny either and i have some muscle on me, not a lot but enough . I specially like my butt and my lips , and I work my butt off , getting a butt lol that's funny!! so i think it looks pretty good and tight , but that's what i think anyway . i always keep my hair long enough to cover my ears and most always comb it to the side don't know why but it makes me feel pretty somehow .
like i said earlier i'm 18 but I'm still in high school, yep still!! i was kept back a year cause i only went ,did homework and paid attention in the classes that i like , which wore like 3 or 4 classes , and its not like i don't like to learn cause i do, its just that i find what most of what the teachers say in class is boring as hell !!!
Geez !! i know its school but make me want to learn , not bored me death!!.
I'm a really shy person and i hate confrontations so school is not my favorite place in the world . I'm not a loner by any means. i have my group of friends and i know some people around school , but i always try to blend into the background and try not call attention to myself . the reason for that is that I'm Latino but my physical appearance doesn't match my ethic group , so i got pick on when i was in middle school.
i went to a school in south centre L.A , so most of the kids wore Latino or black so some kids didn't like the fact that i was mixed and had different color eyes and hair then they did , of course not all but enough to make me hate the way i looked so i try really hard not to show how i look by covering my hair, i even got contact lenses . i couldn't take it any more so i beg my mom to let me switch schools or district . I had to cry a lot, but she finally did . so i go to a school in Pasadena , but only i change schools not my little bro. that's the main reason why i try not socialize at school cause if they don't know me they can't hate me right.
i guess i should tell you about my family , i have 2 brothers ,a younger bro named josh and older bro named jay , which makes me the middle child .we live in a 3 bedroom house in south centre, thank god in a good, OK ,in an OK neighborhood . i live there with my mom and my bro josh . my older bro jay has his own family already . and as for my father well his not in the picture any more my parents got separated like 11 years ago and i haven't seen him since then . my mom she's always at work so we don't see her that much ,she works for a old people home and i think she likes her job a little to much but whatever , we don't get to see her all the much which i guess is good that she works a lot because we can buy whatever we want, but also bad cause we don't get so see her a lot , which cost me and my Lil bro to grow up a lot sooner then we had too.
growing up i always felt different then most of my friends ,i started to figured out that i like guys more then girls , but now that I'm 18 i really don't care any more , just the thought of sex turns me on but i haven't had the chance to experiment with anyone , yet !!! he he he!!!. I'm starting to think that its time to start .and i think that I'm going too when i go back to school ,since its Christmas break right now.
now i think my cute i love my red puffy lips ,my sapphire blue eyes and my light brown hair, and a few girls that sit next me in classes have told me that I'm cute. when i go to school i usually wear loose fitting jeans and a t-shirt and I'm always wearing a hoodie of some sort ,and i always keep my hood up all day and when i walk I'm always looking at the ground and i never look the people that I'm talking to in the eyes . and i always keep to myself out side of my group of friends and usually the person that sits next to me in class. i always became friends with that person.
since i decided to change and socialize more and be myself i went to the mall to buy a whole new wardrobe . i spent a lot of my Christmas money but it was for a good cause. i went to all the popular stores that most of the kids go too at my school , most of the jeans that i got fit me perfectly , you know tight in all the right places , and some that made my butt look amazing. as for shirts i got mostly t-shirts that's show of the same muscle that i have and i also bought some v neck shirts because the sales guy was really cute and i wanted to talk to him . i also got some board shorts and a few pairs of shoes the sales guy said look kool an me and plus they actually looked kool too. and i only bought like 2 hoodies because i promised myself that i wasn't going to hide myself any more. that day was one of the longest day ever for me but at the end, i was set and i was ready and excited to begin a new year, and that would be i just 2 days and i just cant wait I'm going to have so much fun.
oh man tomorrow i have to get up for school at 6 a.m so i have to chose the outfit that I'm going to wear tomorrow, tonight . i hope that i look good , so I'm going to bed and its only like 9:30.
fuck i hate the sound of my alarm cloak , i don't know why but that sound makes so angry sometimes. i took a shower ,put on the clothes that i laid out last night which didn't include a hoodie not like you need one in California. then i went to the kitchen , and while i was eating a pop tart my mom told me that i look way better in my new clothes , then she left for work and i left right behind her so i didn't get stuck in traffic but like always i did , i was a little late to school, seems to me that I'm always little late to school . i parked my car and fast walked to my class so that could make it without needing a pass from the office. i was fast walking around the corner of the building in which my class was when i run into someone ,
i didn't know who the guy was at first because he kneeled down to pick up a book that he drop, then he stood up , he was really cute ,hazel eyes, golden tan, blond hair ,awesome body . i knew who he was , he plays water polo and his name is Jake he's one of the hottest of all the players but the whole damn team is hot ,sometimes i wonder if they made the team just because there hot , i never seen them play but i have the year book from the last three years and the pictures of the water polo and swimming teams are really hot.
so i was like ''oh man I'm so sorry i didn't see you , did i hurt you ''
i was really worried at this point that i have already mess up and i haven't been in school more then 3 minutes . he didn't say any thing for a few seconds he was just staring into my eyes which made me even more nervous.then he finally started to talk.
'' its OK bro ,it was my fault i wasn't looking where i was going and nah i not hurt I'm a big guy i can take it '' he blush a little when he said that . i giggled softly when he said that and he blush even more
'' um..OK that's good that you're not hurt'' i said and i looked at him in the eyes .
''huh are you new here i don't think i seen you around before '' he was still looking deep into my eyes as he was talking to me.
''nope been here since 9th grade , i just always keep to myself most of the time '' i said.
''oh ... that's cool so whats your name ? my names Jake '' he said.
'' my names Alexis and its nice to meet you Jake '' i said with a smile .
he look like he just thought of something then he said ''it' s nice to meet you too Alexis .... .hey um you wouldn't happen to know a girl named Liz would you?''
i started thinking Liz do i know Liz , oh yeah !! i do know a girl named Liz and she's fuck en hot ,hey i like guys but sometimes girls are just that hot i even i like them .i meet here at community center where sometimes i go to hang out with a really cool lady that works there and sometimes i help the kids that go there with their homework, even though i don't like school I'm not stupid, I'm specially good at biology and geometry. and like two years ago i meet Liz there she was there to pick up her little sister who i happen to be helping.
she was like ''gosh i wish i wasn't so old to come here to get help with my homework , I'm like struggling to keep a c in my science class in order to stay in the swim team but i have no idea was going on in class'' so i told her that i could help her if wanted help ,she agree so i been helping her every once in a while for the past two years.
''oh yeah Liz , Liz from the swim team ,really hot girl with a piercing on her lip '' i said.
fuck en bitch prolly fucking , super hot Jake all day . i thought to myself and the more i thought about it the more i found it hot ,you know since they're both really hot and i wouldn't mind watching even if i wasn't invited to join .
''is she like your girlfriend'' i asked.
'' nah just a friend , she just told me a couple times that Alexis was helping her with homework before but ....um..i..ah...thought it was a girl '' he laugh, i could tell it was a nervous laugh , the he added ''no offense though''
i laugh to too and said '' none taken ,it all depends on how you say it ,you have to put accent into it like Alex-is , like in spanish''
'' you can speak Spanish that's pretty cool '' he said.
''well i speak crappy Spanish and all Latino people should and i think they do '' i said laughing
'' you're la-ti-no?'' he asked and looked kinda confused.
oh man he sounds so cute saying latino , i wonder if he can roll his tongue, i think to myself.
''yeah and german'' i said.
''aaah that explains the way you look'' he said
''yeah , do i look weird ?'' i asked.
''oh no! ,no you look hot . ...um....i mean normal looking.'' he blush a lot and tense up , i decided to help him so i said.
'' Thanks i was hoping that i look ........normal'' with a smile. he relax little when i didn't say anything of what he let slip.
''hey we should really get to class ,it was great meeting you and I'll tell Liz that i finally meat Alexis and I'll probably see you around lunch i hang out in the left quad'' he said.
''yeah we should, tell her i say hi, and i usually hang out in the center quad so maybe ill see around ''
we both went in opposite directions .as i got closer to my class i saw that the door was open which meant i still had time to make it with out a pass . i could already hear the class and the laughing , which was normal for the class , even if i didn't talk a lot people except to the people around me , which i kinda like and was force to, too because my first class is drama class.
when i reach my classroom and went inside everybody stop talking and focused on me which kinda made me nervous, they kept staring at me as i walk across the room to get to my sit in the back the room . most of the girls started whispering and giggling to each and Turing around on there sits every few seconds. some of the guys also turn to look at me but didn't do what the girls did , i made eye contact and give them a cute smile at a few guys and girls that i caught looking at me and they turn so red in the face from getting caught that i thought that they would pass out ,which of course i found funny as hell but tried really hard not to bust out laughing. and i swear even my teacher checked me out , which normally would creep me out but he was a new teacher and he was like 25 or something ,i don't know i wasn't really paying attention when he introduced him self ,i was kinda busy looking at the bulge in his jeans which was pretty damn big, plus his really hot ,most of the class calls him ken , you know from barbie.
most of my morning classes wore the same , girls staring and giggling and a few guys stealing glances out the corner of their eyes. which made me really feel hot but also nervous cause i still have low self-esteem . a lot more people said hi to me in class too. but most of the time i just sat back and smile at people that looked at me. i did try to talk to some people that i talk to in class that sit next to me but they would just stare into my eyes and they would just nod or say ah huh because they worn' t paying attention to me so stop trying to talk to them.
when i got to my homeroom (which is a 20 minute class where you do homework you forgot to do or just kick back and relax) i sat next to this guy named Ben ,he's really pretty not hot but pretty , he has green eyes which i only seen a couple of times since school started ,short black spiky hair ,tan skin. we usually don't talk much cause either he's busy or I'm busy, but today we did but just like the others he stare into my eyes (that's starting to freak me out ,why the hell do they keep looking at my eyes) , and then there was a awkward silence moment .
''say something '' i said.
''ok.. tell me a story '' he said.
i playfully bump him with my shoulder and said '' shut up and pay attention and learn something cause you know that looks will only take you so far and in your case not very far '' i said laughing .
then hesurprised me cause push back his chair and motion with his hands all over his body and did wave type of thing with his body while saying
'' you know you cant resist all of this ''
and I'm like ''i can when theres noting there to resist'' and laugh
then out of no where he pull his shirt up and show me his abs, fuck he has really hot body i wasn't expecting him to have abs i say to myself.
he was like ''oh man look at this puppies come on touch them they like to be pet'' he said with a sexy voice then grin.
fuck!!! he wants me to touch his abs ,should i do it ? well he did ask right ? ,damnit !! my heart is beating so hard i think i'm going to have a heart attack or maybe suffocate because i can hardly breath, god I'm going to do it but i have to do it in a sexy way or maybe in a cool way , ok focus , i think to my myself.
he was looking at my eyes so i look away and look at his abs and i took my hand and walk my fingers over each one and said ''oh poor puppies i bet daddy doesn't take you on walks '' i also said in a sexiest voice that i could master in my nervous state.
i kept walking my fingers lower ,played with his happy trail until my fingers reach the top of his jeans where i could clearly see that his dick was hard as rock laying to his left hip and it looked pretty damn thick too. then i slide my hand over his dick a couple of times and it was really thick and big, and then he let out a loud gasp and shiver a lil. thank god we sit all the way in back of the class no where near any one . when he gasp i quickly turned to look at him in the eyes and he was really red and breathing kinda hard and he was also sweating a little and i just smile and wink at him , cause i knew what happen to him.
he was like ''um ..i..ah ..um...um...i..ah..i..''
he was fidgeting in his sit while he was trying to come up with something to say, but before he could the bell rang ending class .i got up from my sit and turn to him and said ''see ya later Ben and make sure to take those puppies for a walk k they need to learn to stay outside a bit longer '' and winked at him again ,
he just smile and nod his head and said ''i sure will and maybe you can help me teach them sometime''
'' k give me a call when you need help'' i said with a sexy smile''
i didn't get to see my friends during nutrition cause i had to go to the main office to turn in some papers. my classes after nutrition were the same as the others , a few people staring ,giggling and stealing an occasional glance my way .
by the time that lunch rolled around i was so happy cause while getting gawk at was fun, it was also making me a little self-conscience , since i was always in the background hiding , i really wasn't used to getting attention .so right after my 6th period class i stop by my locker to drop off some books
that i didn't need and get the ones that i did.
almost every day that i go to my locker i see this really cute guy putting his books away , and i always try to get a look at him without getting caught , his really pretty like a boyish cute, his my size but more leaner he has light brown hair and a really dark tan and blue-grey eyes which are so cute , and he usually wears surfer style clothes and he happens to be a one too! how do i know you ask? well i seen his pics on face book a few times or a bunch lol , hey!! its not stalking either i just like to see what he does ,you know to make sure his OK and stuff ,he he he!!.
for the past like three school years he has never spoken to me before or even looked at my direction or maybe he has i don't know i hoped he has . in fact i didn't know his name was Shane until like last year and i only found out because one of his friends called him and i just happen to be walking behind him lol , and its not what you think or maybe it is i don't know I'm not telling. well today when i open my locker to put my books inside and turn to sneak a peek at him , fuck!!! he caught me , i froze and i think that i prolly turn beet red , he just smiled and finish what he was doing in his locker , and walked towards my direction when he got close he said ''hey'' and wave at me . that freaken got me light headed i mean he spoke to me he has never spoken to me before , i couldn't even speak , but i master up all my will and said ''h ..hi '' and awkwardly wave back to him. he smile and kept walking to where ever he was going. when he turn the corner i sigh and thought ''fuck i just made a fool of myself in like two seconds'' .
why the hell i do i always panic when i least expect it god! my whole morning was just right i was able to talk to everybody that talk to me. and had some what confidence. so i just kept telling myself to be strong and that if i can think it i can do it. i finish with my locker decided to put just put everything in it including my backpack and come back at the end of lunch to get my stuff. then went down stairs to find my friends .
i found my friends in our usual spot , in the center quad , beneath a tree sitting in a metal lunch table, we've been there since like freshmen year. i known most of my friends since 8th grade, the first year that i move to the district . when i arrive at the table they all looked at me and together they said ''what the hell '' .
''what'' i said.
''don't you what us ,you know what ,you look like a completely different person'' said Saul.
i smile and said ''i needed a little change''and shrug my shoulders. they all ask me a whole bunch of question like when i when did i go shopping, why did i decide to change my style and be more open? and i whole bunch more , and i spend the first half hour of lunch explaining things to them . by the end of explaining things to them.
Edgar said ''thats cool that you did this cause you were keeping us from being the popular group of school ''
i looked around the table at everybody with a rise eyebrow and said '' yeah ...sure it was all my fault..uh huh''
then we all just bust out laughing ,the people turn to look at us prolly wondering why the hell we wore laughing .
then once the laughing had stop i told them that i was going to get some food ,they had all ready gotten there food ,and while i was explaining things to them i kept eating there food of there plates. and like always one of my friends comes with me ,his named is Alex but he likes to be called lex, he happens to be my best friend he calls me ''lexy'' and i calls ''x'' he was the first person that i meat at school in the 8th grade. i sat next to him in my elective which happen to be art , and I'm not really good at drawing but I'm good at painting , he happens to be really good at drawing even back then so he helped me and i helped him during class and since the day we've been friends and i also met Luis , Michael which we call mike, Rickie ,and Andres , through him.
i have always found found him attracted, that's one of the reason i sat next to him in art class and got lucky that i suck at drawing he he he. now he looks so freaken hot .fuck why are so many people in this school so hot ,you know the more i think about it , its prolly cause I'm always so horny lol or maybe i just never really pay attention to people that i don't find attracted yeah that most be it , and i don't mean that i don't talk to them its just i don't look at them in a sexual way .well back to ''x'' he's about 5'10 ,tan skin. short ,spiky brown hair , amber color eyes which look gold when the light hits them, he has a piercing in his left ear, and in the whole time that I've known him i never seen i pimple on him , lucky bastard, i have to try really hard to keep my skin clear, he also dresses like a pretty boy ; you know matching his clothes ,ironing them ,being all clean and shit ,and it takes him like 20 minutes to get his hair just right , whatever the means he does it like 3 times and at the end it looks the same as the first time but he says its different , and don't ever ever step on his shoes, he fuck en loves his shoes , i steped on one once and he freaked and punch me on my back which ended us in a fight . he apologize and told me that it was a reflex , that he usually does that to his older brothers, and also that he never meant to hurt me and promised never to hit me again, and that was like in the middle of 9th grade.
he has a great body due to the fact that he's on the soccer team ,he has been on the school team for like 2 years but he has been playing most of his life ,i play with him sometimes but i suck big time and he's usually a show off. so anyways we went to get my lunch but since it was late already the cafeteria was close so we went to the quad store which is a snack store on the left side quad .we were waiting in line to buy some chips and cookies when nick come over to say was up . now nick is really cute , he has light blue eyes and short blond hair, he's about 5'6 slime but you can see his muscles and he has a killer smile . he used to part of my original group of friends but he started to pull away from us and into the bad craw of people until he stop hanging with us all together . so now lex doesn't really like him all that much , but even though he didn't hang out with the group anymore he still keeps in touch with me . i was a Lil mad at the beginning but he's so cute and he dresses like a cholo, thug guy which is so cute on him.
''was up lexy'' he said with a smile that killer smile of his. i think that i might have blush a little .he then turn to lex and just said ''hey '' and turn back to look at me.
out of the corner of my eye i could see he was not happy to see him and that he called me lexy only him calls me that . he just said ''hey '' back and continued to glare at him .
''so hey bro do u want to like hang out later ,we haven't hang out in while ''nick said
i was kind of surprise that he would ask me in front of lex and i could see that lex was looking at me. fuck he's so cute i cant say no but if i say yes lex is going to be mad at me because I'm hanging out with him, but i bet he's going to be mad at me just cuz I'm talking to him so what the hell i thought to myself.
'' yeah sure ok'' i said . i could tell lex was pissed but it didn't matter.
'' k cool I'll see you later then '' he said happily he then turn to lex and coldly said ''see ya'' then left before lex could say anything.
it was my turn up to order what i wanted , got what i ordered and kept ignoring lex glaring at me , finally after i stared walking i turn to lex and ask ''what ''
''you know what , why didn't you say no and why the hell you still hanging out and talking to him''
''i couldn't just say no , he used to be our friend and i can hang out with whom ever i want''
''yeah ...he used to be our friend ''
''well he's still my friend ''
''k fine but when he gets in trouble he's going to take you down with him''
'' you do know that I'm not stupid right '' i said with a grin ,he was about to say something to that but i say ''you shut up'' and he close his mouth and smile.
'' i know that but i don't want to see get in trouble or hurt '' he said with a loving look
''thanks man that means a lot to me '' i said with a smile
'' shut up man you know what i mean'' he said with a smile and i could see he blushed a little
''yeah i do thanks.'' i said while looking in into his eyes and a smile on my lips.
after lunch my classes were the same as in the morning and by my last class i was falling asleep . but finally the last bell ring and we were dismissed .i walk to my locker drop all my books cuz i didn't have any homework and i thank god for that cuz I'm so tired and i just need a nap not homework . i walked outside to the parking lot to meet lex cuz i always give him a ride to his house. we get into the car and leave .he was quiet for a while but then he spoke
'' so are you still going to hang out with nick?'' he asked.
i didn't know if i should tell him that i never stop hanging out with him , but i remember the way he reacted earlier so i decided not to tell and just said .
''i don't know yet maybe but like in the weekend'' while just concentrating on the road. i hate lying to my best friend but if i tell him he's going to be pissed.
''k sure just make sure you're careful k'' he said looking at me .i turn to look at him and i can see that he doesn't like the idea but he's trying, i smile and said
''k mom'' and laugh
''you bitch I'm serious stop playing for a bit '' he said while looking at me with a angry face.
i turn to look at him again and blow him a kiss and turn back to look at the road again . he was quiet for a few seconds so i turn to look at him again and he's blushing which makes me smile. so i said '' k I'll be careful if i do decided to hang out with him.''
he turns to look at me and says '' thanks all I'm asking''
we don't say anything for a while , i parked in front of his house ,he opens the door then turns to me and says ''bye '' and really quickly gives me a kiss on the cheek and leaves before i can say anything and goes into his house.
i got home around 4:00 and i was really confused ,was lex just playing when he gave me the kiss cuz i blow hi a kiss or did he mean it .i guess I'm going to have to find out tomorrow. i decided to text nick , to ask him if he wanted to came over , he said that he be over in 30 mins. and that he had a surprised for me . I'm not sure if I'm excited or scare of what the surprised is , but i can't wait for him to get here.
........to be continue..
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