This is my story, read it if you will, but if you know that you shouldn't be reading this, then don't, this story is a slow process, im still learning how to write so bare with me, suggestions or comments on my story is appreciated, CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is welcomed. This is a love story, sure sex will come, but not just yet, if your patient enough then read on. And thanks in advance for reading my story. Chpt.2 Finishing my first class I have come to find out that Zach is one funny dude, at one point during the lecture he was making faces and making noises as Mr. Alvarez spoke about the spice trade, I know what you're thinking, we gotta stop acting like juveniles but we cant help that we already know all there is to know about the spice trade and how it made the ottoman empire successful in the 15th hundredths, me and Zach brushed up on it already, I should know I was giving him my notes on that chapter just before class. "Hey Trev." Zach whispered, so I turned around.
"yeah whats up?"
"did you want to eat with me and the guys during lunch?" I was about to say yes but I forgot that I sat with Sheldon last time and I didn't want to leave him, he was a cool guy too.
"thanks for the offer bro, but I was planning on eating with my friend Sheldon." I could still hear Mr. Alvarez speaking in the background, but I turned back around to see what Zach had to say.
"Is he that artsy looking kid?" I just nodded.
"yeah hes a cool dude." And with that the bell rang, I bumped fist with Zach,
"imma catch you at tryouts bro." he just nodded, "sure thing." And we both headed out to our respective classes.
For the second time in two days I had not eaten breakfast, and for the second time in two days I had a lousy time in AP Trig. I have come to find out that math on an empty stomach can make you queasy. So when the bell rang I headed towards the cafeteria, I grabbed a tray and piled on plates upon plates of food, if you were to see my tray it would have looked like I was getting food for three people, I was that hungry and I knew I had to fuel up major for tryouts today. After paying my meal I headed towards where Sheldon was sitting eating his food and drawing, but before getting there someone stopped me.
" hey trev." I looked around to see who said that, and it was Jason, looking really hot in his levi pants, how did I know? I had a pair. And his tight fitting Affliction shirt that contoured perfectly to his buff football frame.
" oh hey Jason whats up man?" He was all smiles with me, I wonder what he was smiling about?
" just wanted to see if you wanted to sit with me and the guys over there?" he pointed his head towards the Zach and the guys in the back.
"I have to take a rain check, im going to go ahead and eat with my friend Sheldon." If I wasn't mistaken I could've sworn that I saw a hint of sadness on his face when I said no to his invitation, but then again I don't want to be only associated with the jocks, I wasn't raised to judge people like the way some of them do, im not saying all, but some.
"oh, okay, were still up for tonight right? After practice?" aww I bet he was thinking that I would call off our little date because I didn't want to sit with them. Then I had an idea pop in my head, man im devious.
" tell you what, if you can tackle me during practice today when we lined up for play calling we'll go out, but if not, well you don't want that alternative." And I winked. He just looked at me dumbfounded.
"are you serious?" he looked scared now, but I know I wasn't going to ditch him, I was just seeing if he could do it.
"yep, I mean you're the captain right?" I just smirked and waved him off. " see you in practice Jason."
During lunch the more I talked to Sheldon, the more I actually liked the guy, he had a different view of his surroundings, and it showed on his artwork, which by the way was amazing, we even liked the same alternative music, from The Used, to Three Days Grace, even Linkin Park we both liked. I could see Sheldon as a friend that I could probably confide to, maybe tell him about me being gay? Not just yet, but I could see it happening, he even invited me to go see an Urban art gallery opening this weekend, and since my date with Jason is tonight, I told him I was down, he even said I could bring a couple of people if I wanted too. But like all good things lunch ended and I headed off to my final two classes.
You know that feeling where your head cant stop pounding? Like someones beating a drum inside your head and even the largest pill of Tylenol cant soothe the ache? That's what I felt like in my History and Chemistry class, so much information was being poured into my brain that I couldn't process all of it in, I mean do I really need to know what caused America to get into WW1? I mean it happened before my parents were born. But thank god that's over, now its off to the field. When I got into the locker rooms I started to undress, i had my t-shirt off and was in the process of taking my pants off but stopped, I don't know why but it was instinct, I felt that someone was watching me and upon turning around Jason was there, staring, I had to interrupt his oogling for a little bit.
snap "Jason im up here, what do you need?" I guess that kind of snapped him out of his daze, I actually felt embarrassed that he was looking at me like that, no one looked at me like that before, like hunger in their eyes, then again I never had a guy like Jason take interest in me before, so im guessing it comes with the territory? I don't know and don't really care to find out.
"oh yeah sorry, uhm, so what time did you want me to pick you up later on?" im guessing he forgot our little deal earlier, I guess I just have to remind him.
" around 7:30 would be good, that is if you can tackle me." I was grinning now, while I waited for him to answer I put the rest of my gear on and laced up my shoes.
" awww, Trev were you serious about that? Come on that's not fair, what if I don't get a chance to? I am enjoying this soo much.
" well make a way, and don't think that when you get me in the open field that im going to let you tackle me, I still have to impress the coach." And with that I left him where he stood, lets see if el capitan can tackle me.
I have never felt this tired in my life, after drills upon drills of motions and blitz packages( I had to learn defensive plays now too!) my body couldn't take it anymore, thank god we had ample supply of Gatorade, and wouldn't you know it, it was time to line up, offense and defense.
" White! Get your ass here!" coach yelled, so I obliged and ran up to him.
"yeah coach?"
" son I need you to run zone blitz 1, you got that?" I just nodded, it was the play that I just learned, I was covering the backfield for the linebackers incase it was a pass play and had the option to blitz if I knew I had the chance to. When I got back in our defensive huddle I told the guys the play we were running and I got into position, I never played corner back in my life but like always I was trying to read the signs, the ball was hiked, I followed my man as part of my responsibility and when the pass was made he caught the ball, and being the guy that I am I didn't want to just tackle the kid, I wanted the ball so I tried to strip it from him, but I guess I need to work on it because he just blew past me.
chirp!!!!!!! "What the hell was that White?! Run it again!" fuck im messing this up majorly! This time around the play was set up to the point that I was in between Jason and some other guy ready to blitz if need be, so when Zach hiked the ball he handed off to his right to Spike, but what I noticed in the exchange was the man following Zach in the hand off to Spike, I new right then that it was a reverse play so I turned back around and caught up with the guy and tackled him hard, hard enough for him to lose the ball and ample time for Jason to pick it up and run it back.
CHIRP!!!! " Trevor!, good read son! Good read!" I just nodded at coach, the guys huddled around me and gave me congratulatory remarks and so did Jason, but afterwards he patted my ass too. It kind of shocked me, but I guess that's how he does things.
This is where it gets fun, now that I know I can play cornerback its time to play my original position, coach got me playing a reverse, the exact same play that I broke up when I was on the defense, this time I would get the ball and run, simple enough. With the plan in tact I got into position, I looked for Jason and I saw him with a devilish grin, ha , he thinks hes got me beat, so I just winked at him and Zach hiked the ball and the play went in motion, Spike got the ball first, then me, I had Lee to follow since he was my o line help, once he made his designated block I had the open field, and right on queue I see Jason charging towards me, lets see what skills this guy has, I know I had the power to knock him down but I want to make him miss, so I started to stutter left and when he took the bait i quickly spun around and left him in the dust, and on his ass. I guess no dinner tonight for el capitan. With that everyone started to cheer, and I
got my congratulatory remarks and Zach came up to me.
" You, two Jason zero, he is not going to like that, haha." I just started to laugh with him, man I love this team.
"Chirp!!!!"
With practice being over, coach said the same speech about some not making the cut, and that the list on his door is the guys that have positions on the team. With that everyone who tried out scrambled to the locker room, but not me, I was too tired, and I felt confident enough that I would at least be on the team , I wasn't shooting to be a starter but being on this team would be good enough. So when I got inside I heard yells oh `yeah!' I knew they made the team, with everyone dispersing to change I checked to see what my results was.
Trevor White: Position: 1st string TE(tight end)
2nd string CB(corner back)
I was stunned to say the least, im on the starting rotation? I cant believe it, I just stood there looking at my results when I felt a hand on my shoulder.
" good going Trev, I knew you would be in man!" Zach said, he was all smiles, but not as much as me, to know that I can play for the Musketeers of El Dorado High is going to be something else. I headed back to my locker but when I got there I saw Jason sitting on the bench where my locker was situated. I sat by him.
" whats up big guy?" I nudged him on his shoulders. His response was late, and a bit sad.
"I swear I thought you were gonna go left, and I went for it. I had my chance." Damn he takes things like a small bet that serious? I wonder what hes going to be like once the season starts? I got interrupted when he started to speak again.
"so I guess were not hanging out tonight?" man he looks soo fucking cute all pouting and his head down. So I had to cheer him up.
"you know I was just messing with ya right?" he looked up at me with his big million dollar smile that could melt butter.
" so were still ago for tonight then?" I just nodded.
"yep, that is if you still want to?" he looked at me confused.
"why wouldn't I want to?" now I was grinning.
"I mean I wouldn't want to show face knowing that the guy I want to take out, has put me on my ass twice." I just started to bust out laughing and saw him go red, but just when I thought I had him he got real close to my ear and spoke softly.
"just you wait your turn to be on your ass, and im not talking about on the field neither." I went completely red when he said that, he just laughed and slapped my back.
"pick you up at 730, were going to go eat then maybe do something after wards." I still couldn't speak, I just let out an audible "kay." And continued to get dressed. Man what have I gotten myself into? One things for sure, im soon going to find out.
At the moment I hate to admit it, but im acting like a girl, noooo my voice didn't get an octave higher, and im not wearing girl clothes, its more along the lines of taking an hour or so to pick out something to wear and how to do my hair, then I stopped.
" what the hell am I doing? Were just going to go eat, nothing fancy, get it together Trev." After my little pep talk I went ahead and picked out just a plain white tshirt, got my favorite Levis 501 jeans and my quicksilver plaid(red) jacket that I bought not long before we moved here, and some classic solid slip on vans. I don't know about you, but I like to dress a little more on the skater side, but to tell you a secret, I don't know how to ride a skate board, I just like their style, it was now off to the bathroom to gel my hair in a faux hawk style. Just when I had washed my hands the door bell rang. I had to do one of my pep talks again.
"okay Trev, just be yourself, and by all means don't let the evening get too boring." That should do it, and I headed down stairs to open the door, I was about to speak but when I saw what Jason looked like I was in awe, he didn't wear anything fancy but his Affliction shirt and his diesel denim jeans screamed hotness.
" wow Jason, you look real good man." He just smiled and his cheeks reddened,
"thanks you look good too." And then silence, I guess we were both checking each other out, I know I was, I might have burnt a hole through his shirt I was staring so hard.
"lets get going, I still haven't ate since practice!." And as if it were an alarm clock his stomach started to growl, and I was cracking up hysterically!
" you weren't kidding! Alright stud lets get going, im getting pretty hungry myself." we started to walk out to his car, which was a 2008 Mitsubishi lancer, kinda weird that a big hulking guy like him doesn't drive a truck or something, but to each his own I guess. But before I could get to my door, he opened it for me and i got in and reached over to his side to unlock his door. As he got in I started to speak.
" you know you don't have to open doors for me, im pretty capable of doing it myself." Not wanting to sound like an ass I was smiling while I said it, to let him know that I was joking.
" I know your capable, but I don't know, maybe that's just how I was raised ,to be polite." I just nodded, he was starting up his car and he had his hand on the stick shift so I grabbed it and squeezed.
" I understand, and I thought it was cute." And just smiled back. After I let go of his hand, I noticed that he had big hands.
"so where we off to? You never mentioned anything." He just nodded in understanding.
"I know, I was thinking that we go out and eat at my all time favorite restaurant, In and Out."
Having visited cali. Before I knew what he was talking about. In and Out burgers is this fast food joint that had an emphasis on fast food, they only had a small list on the menu, from fries to shakes to burgers, and that was it.
"yeah I could go for some burgers for sure." He was laughing now.
"what?"
"I was just joking man! I wouldn't want to take my first date to a burger joint, I want to take you somewhere where its just me and you." I just nodded in agreement, now that I think of it eating at a burger joint wouldn't be a suitable place to get to know someone. Jason started to blare his radio, which was playing a cd.
*"this time, I wonder what it feels like, to find the one in this life, the one we all dream of, but dreams just aren't enough..so ill be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling, the moment when were meeting will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen, so ill be holdin my breath, right up til the end, until that moment when I find the one that ill spend forever with..."
Wow, of all the songs that he was listening to, it was nickelback, I just love this song, especially when I can relate to it. That's what I love about music so much, the fact that everyone can relate to a song depending on their mood or what their going through at the moment. Music, like love is a universal language, everyone understands it and everyone needs it, well at least in my opinion.
"I can relate so much to this song.." Jason spoke out of nowhere, but I was listening very intently to what he was saying.
"I want that, you know? That one person that you can just be with." I just nodded because I completely understood what he was saying. "it all becomes so discouraging when you see couples breaking up, or getting divorced, and the fact that were gay makes it even harder to find someone you can connect with, not just on a physical level, but emotionally as well, sorry If im rambling..." I just smiled and took his hand again.
"don't worry about other people, worry about you and what YOU want, okay? And why are you thinking so far ahead, you've still got plenty of living to do." While I was saying this I was caressing his hand with my thumb rubbing it gently, and he replied back with a squeeze.
" thanks Trev."
"don't mention it."
We continued to drive and we continued to hold hands throughout the drive, I really like holding his hands, and im guessing he did too with the caressing he was doing to my hand. And all too soon reality came back to slap us in the face.
" were here." He said. He squeezed my hand once more and we both let go. I missed the warmth.
Stepping out of the car I began to scan the area, and I noticed that we were at CPK. He had good taste, I was craving some pizza.
Once we entered CPK we only had to wait for a couple of minutes till we got seated, I was kind of nervous.
"this is the first time that ive gone out to eat with a guy before, on a date none the less." He looked at me and smiled.
"your not the only one." And he winked, thank god I wasn't alone on this. Our server came and introduced himself as Tyson, a very good looking kid, around 5'10 maybe 200? He had these really green eyes that was a contrast to his pretty tan complexion. He asked for jasons order first, he was kind of hasty when dealing with Jason but when It was my turn it was a completely different story.
"so what are you having today?" I took a look at the to scan for what I wanted.
"you know what I'll go ahead and try the bbq chicken pizza, can I also have water with a lemon please?"
He just nodded and asked if I wanted anything else and I said no. Jason never got asked for his drink so he asked for a coke. In the midst of him leaving I heard an audible kay. When out of ear shot Jason spoke.
" he was so close to being punched in the face just now."
I smirked. " are you jealous?". That kind of caught him off guard, "what? No...no, well kinda yeah, sorry bud but he was practically salivating over you." I had to blush, I cant ever see a guy oogling over me.
"stop no he wasn't."
"uh, yes he was, he barely paid any attention to me as if I was a ghost." I had to cut him off, because there was no need for him to be threatened.
" who am I with?" he looked confused.
"huh?"
"I said who am I eating with right now?"
"me." As if he was stating the obvious
"exactly, im here, having dinner, with you, so don't sweat the small stuff, kay?" he just nodded.
"kay." I had to smile at his behavior.
"you looked real cute getting all territorial over me though." He just blushed and mumbled something but the place was kind of pact so I coudnt hear him.
"what was that?"
" I said I tend to get defensive with people I really like."
" awww, that's so sweet." I had to ruin his sentimental moment.
" jeeze you know how to ruin a moment huh?" he was smiling now.
"moment? Huh? What moment?" I know im an ass, so sue me. He just shook his head.
"ass." And after our little banter the food came.
The food was great and so was the company, me and Jason didn't delve much into our personal life, and I kind of liked that, he didn't force information out of me and in turn I didn't force stuff out of him, during dinner we just talked mostly about how our classes were so far and how football was going to be, and what the competition was like. The more that he talked about what football season was going to be like the more pumped I kept getting, I just couldn't wait to get on the field, in a new environment and new competitions...bring it on.
After leaving the restaurant I went ahead and looked at my watch.
" hey its almost 1030. You had anything else in mind that you wanted to do?" he was fidgeting.
"I know this is going to sound corny, but do you want to go to the beach and hang out and just talk some more?" the more I get to know Jason the more I want to be around him.
" of course." And with such convenience the beach was no more than 5 minutes away to walk ,so we opt to go ahead and walk.
We seated ourselves on one of the beaches many lifeguard towers, it was nice and secluded, and there wouldn't be any possibility of getting sand up our asses. Ive never been to this beach before, then again I haven't been to a real beach since ive got here, and I don't mean the beaches where thousands of tourist roam to go and lounge, just a regular surf spot for the locals, this was a nice change of scenery.
"I would always come here when I was younger, to hide from everything, to just get away and be at peace, no one hassling me, just some quite time to myself, you know?" I just nodded.
"perfectly, I believe everyone has a place where they can feel at peace, its just the matter of sharing it with others, I had one, but it was back home." We weren't really looking at each other when we were talking, it was just one of those conversations that didn't need it, just the understanding of what was being told was all that mattered.
"well if you ever need a place to think things through or just relax, feel free to share this place with me." He nudged me in the process, and I did the same back. "thanks."
"Don't mention it." In the midst of the playful nudging our shoulders continued to remain in close contact with one another, so I did what I felt natural at that moment and took his hand in mine.
" thanks for taking me out to dinner, and for this place, I really had a good time tonight." And I did what I thought came with any thank you, I kissed his cheek. After my little surprise I saw his face light up.
"your welcome, and I wanted to do this for you so I could get to know you better, and to congratulate you on making the team, your not only a handsome smart guy, but a damn good footballer too." Now it was my turn to blush, i get complimented a lot on my performance at football, but it just feels different when the guy you like compliments you on how well you play, like a sense of pride that burns in your core. All I could say was, "thanks." We just continued to sit there on the platform listening to the waves roll in, there was something soothing about it all.
" do you miss it back home? In Hawaii?" he continued to look out into the ocean as he said this.
" in a way, yeah, I left all I ever knew on that tiny little island, my best friends and my relatives, but ever since my mom passed away things just changed and to my dad it seemed like leaving the islands was the best thing to do at the moment." We weren't holding hands any longer, we were now cuddled next to each other, his arms around my shoulders, and mine around his waist. The warmth and the physical contact of another human being felt nice, and with Jason holding me, it felt right.
" what was your mom like?" a smile crept onto my face, and all the memories that I had of my mom just came flooding back.
"shes a great mom, shes nurturing and shes my best friend, our conversations doesn't settle at her wanting to know how i was doing in school, she took interest to what I did, she pushed me to play sports when I didn't feel that I was good enough, and she was there for every single one of my games whether I was just on the bench or I was playing, day in and day out, she was there."
"she seems like a cool mom." I just turned to him and nodded. "ya, she is. How about you? Whats your family like?" the whole time that weve talked, this was the first time I was going to hear about his family.
"well, theres me my two brothers Jeff whose in the navy, and Jared whos in air force, and my mom and dad." No wonder he took up football, having two older siblings, he had to have been picked on when he was younger.
"awww, you're the baby of the family." I pinched his cheeks when I said that, he just smiled and told me to knock it off.
" so what were they like?" I could see it in his face that he was thinking of how to tell it to me,
" well me and my parents were never really all that close, my mom was always working at the Emergency Room at the hospital 24/7 and my dad traveled for his job, so it was always just me and my brothers, and during that time we learned to fend for ourselves, and I guess you could say that we had to grow up faster than some, that's why my friends like zach, spike and lee are so close to me, because they're my family." Wow, no wonder I sensed a brotherhood amongst the guys when I ate with them, because in reality that's what Jason considers them as.
"do your brothers know about you? Being gay?" he just nodded yes,
"I told them before they both headed off to their respective base, I haven't told my parents, I feel like there isnt really a need to, it was my brothers that took care of me, and it was only their opinion that mattered to me... How about you? Does anyone in your family know about you being gay?" I had to collect my thoughts for a minute, " yeah, my mom, when we found out about her breast cancer, I told her, because I didn't want to keep any secrets from her." He just nodded in understanding as he continued to hold me close to his body. " and your dad?" hmmm that's a complicated one. " no, I haven't, hes a great dad, but lately hes been so preoccupied with work that I barely see him around anymore, and I was always more close to my mom than my dad, but I don't love him anyless, its just that I don't think now's the right time for it." He just nodded.
" you'll know when the right time comes, until that day comes don't dwell on it." And he just kissed the top of my head. From the outside looking in, Jason doesn't seem like the type to be affectionate, but he is with me and I like that he is.
"hey we gotta get going, weve got a big day tomorrow." He looked at me confused.
"we do?" I pretended as if he hurt my feelings. So I got up and started to walk down the towers ramp.
" I was going to take you with me to see an art exhibit that Sheldon invited me to, but I guess you wouldn't be interested." Before I could say another word I felt him hug me tightly from behind.
" don't think you can pull that hurt act with me buddy, and I would love to go with you and Sheldon." I don't know if he could see me but I was all smiles.
" good, because I want you to get to know him, the guys an artistic genius, and hes hilarious, im thinking of inviting the guys, you think theyd be interested?" we both got into his car.
"yeah they'd be down, especially Zach, he likes anything to do with art." Hmmm. I didn't peg Zach to be into art.
"really?"
" yeah, are you kidding, hes been creating a folder for the past year or so to submit to University of Buffalo." Wow, who would've known, wait till I tell Sheldon that he and Zach have a lot more things in common than he thinks.
"that's cool, I never pegged Zach to be the artsy type." As we were talking Jason was already driving me back to my house, man time really flies when you're having so much fun.
"no one does, except me spike and lee." Hmmm. Maybe one of these days I'm going to have to ask him to show me what type of art he does. We were in front of my house now, and as usual dads car was nowhere to be seen, no doubt work is keeping him late as usual.
"I hope you had fun tonight." Hes joking right?
"your joking right? I had a blast, its been a while since I had this much fun." He just smiled.
"good, im glad you had fun." When he said that i saw that he had something to say but just didn't know how, so I pressed him to talk.
"what? Whats on your mind?"
"huh? Oh, its nothing, don't worry about it." If hes one of those guys that cant make up his mind, then I guess ive got to make it for him.
"hey Jason." He turned his head.
"huh?" and my lips touched his. At first he seemed to be taken by surprise but as the kiss lingered on he started to loosen up, I was caressing his face while he caressed my back, man this guy can kiss. I pressed at his lips with my tongue and found his. At this point I didn't care if we were running out of air, id take his lips and caress over air any day. But I had to stop so I parted from his lips.
"Is that what you had in mind?" before he could answer he had to catch his breath.
"uh huh." I took his face in my hands.
" I really got to get going, I'll call you tomorrow kay." All he could do was nod and say okay. So I kissed his lips one more time and hopped out of the car. When I got to my front porch I heard him say good night. So I turned around, smiled and waved bye.
All I could think about that night as I slept was his lips. Tomorrow can't come any faster.
*Nickelback-Gotta be somebody.
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