This is my story, read it if you will, but if you know that you shouldn't be reading this, then don't, this story is a slow process, im still learning how to write so bare with me, suggestions or comments on my story is appreciated, CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is welcomed. This is a love story, sure sex will come, but not just yet, if your patient enough then read on. And thanks in advance for reading my story.
Chp 4
Hey you! Yeah the one reading this, remember how I had a feeling about Zach? And how I had a nagging thought about his sexuality? Well Jason confirmed to me that he is gay, you want to know how Jason knows? Besides the fact that theyre best friends? He fucking told me..(excuse my language btw) that he and Zach used to fool around! How do you like that bomb dropped on ya! Imagine how I felt when he told me, of all the timing to tell me, he casually said it when I was doing my reps on the bench press..the weights almost dropped on my chest, I mean that shit took me by surprise man!!! Come on wouldn't you be surprised at how chummy they are with each other? I mean after the fact that they messed around?
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Tell me something, am I over exaggerating? Jason told me that it happened a couple of years back, when they were both drunk, he didn't tell me the details, and I didn't want to know. But after he told me that, I looked at him differently...I had a thought that wouldn't leave my head that maybe Jason might have feelings for him. Am I right to feel this way? Or am I just taking this thought way too far? After we hit the gym on Saturday(its Wednesday now), time after time he reassured me that he has no feeling for Jason what so ever, and that he really likes me, but somewhere in my head I had doubts. And the fact that im telling you this, dear reader goes to show how insecure I am about this relationship, maybe it's the fact that this is my first one and I don't know how to go about it.
RIIIINNNNGGGG!!!
Wow, did that thought alone take me past my last period? Weird, who knew I dwelled on it for so long, thank god I never got picked to talk or I would have been toast. But no time for dilly dallying, I have my first official practice as a musketeer today. That thought alone pushed aside my worries for a bit and got me psyched to go out and practice with my new teammates.
As I walked out onto the field I noticed the team huddled around doing their individual stretches and chatting up with the rest of the crew, as I was headed towards the center field a figure on the bleachers caught my eye, I turned and who do I see? Sheldon, so I jog towards him.
"Hey Sheldon, what you doing here bro?" I guess he was preoccupied with his sketching so he had to look at his surroundings to see who said that, until he found me.
"oh hey Trev, nothing much really, just finishing up this new piece that I plan to put into my portfolio." I took a look at his art work, it was amazing, whatever this kid draws up in his head turns into a masterpiece, it was a big giant eye, with the pupils cut up in a jigsaw pattern more than anything, and in each piece of the puzzle were time line of a person's life, it had birth, marriage, parenthood and then death, it was greatly detailed.
"wow, dude you did it again, that's going to be a good part for your portfolio." He just nodded.
"thanks man Im almost done with it, and then after that imma head on home." I remembered he had a long walk back home so I opted to give him a ride.
"nah its okay, imma just finish this up and get going." With that said coach Anderson blew the whistle indicating that practice started.
"hey listen Sheldon after practice I don't really have much plans, did you want to grab something to eat afterwards?" he kind of seemed hesitant.
"ummm, not at the moment, tight on cash trev." I understood what he meant, he had to save what he had for more useful things, and here I am asking him to go grab food that he clearly doesn't want to go and do.
"dude, its my treat, kind of a thank you dinner for showing us your art on Saturday." He just nodded and said okay.
"okay cool, be ready by 7 and I'll go ahead and pick you up buddy." He just nodded and I jogged towards the team.
After coach blew the whistle I fell to the ground and took some heavy breaths, I thought tryouts were hard, this was a hundred times harder than that, I ached in places I have never ached before, coach made us do laps, stating that conditioning is what makes champions, bullshit, too much conditioning will kill someone! As I continued to breath a hand appeared in my face, I looked up to see that Jason was extending his hand out to me, so I grasped it and he pulled me up.
"thanks man." I started to brush myself off.
"no problem, hey good job today stud." I went stiff when he said that, I looked around the field and spotted no one but me and Jason.
"relax I wouldn't have said it if it meant you being found out." He must have read my mind.
"im just not used to it all yet sorry." He just nodded in agreement.
"its cool, but seriously though you were great, the way you flowed in and out of the offensive and defensive teams as if you were doing it your whole life." I just blushed, he knew how to talk I can give him that, but that nagging thought kept resurfacing and he must have noticed my demeanor change because he called me on it.
"Trevor, please don't tell me that your still on my case about Zach." I looked at him, he looked so sad.
"sorry, I just don't know how to deal with it, kind of stupid I know." He just shook his head.
"no its not stupid, you have all the right to analyze what I said, but at the same time, you got to trust me when I tell you that nothing is going on with us, he likes Sheld...umm yeah he likes someone else now." He started to go red, did I just hear what I thought I heard?
"did you just say that he likes Sheldon now?" he just shrugged his shoulders. So I punched his stomach, which for my thought anyways were very firm. The way I liked it, hehe.
"yes you did!" He started to chuckle.
"okay yes I did but don't say a thing to no one, only me, spike and lee know about him, he'll tell you when hes ready kay?" I just nodded, wow wait till I tell Sheldon that "someone" has a crush on him, this is going to be fun.
"so want to hang out after we get done here?" I was about to say yes, but I had to decline Jason, even though I didn't want to, I made other plans and I don't break plans with people just out of thin air.
"sorry Jase but I just made plans not to long ago with Sheldon." He had a confused look on his face when I said Sheldons name.
"Sheldon?" I rolled my eyes at him.
"yes Sheldon, and I promise I wont say a word to him either." He just nodded at me.
"how bout we chill for a bit after you get done with Sheldon?" I just nodded at him and said okay. We were in close proximity with one another we were touching shoulders most of the way back into the locker rooms, I guess that this was the only way he could show affection, and I didn't mind, like I said before im not a pda type of guy, and I was glad Jason respected that.
After I took a shower and picked up Sheldon we headed to a local coffee shop to just talk, I felt that Sheldon was one of those guys that you can really open up to and I want to do that with him, and hopefully he won't be to surprised about me. And that's where we're at now, sitting down and chatting it up. "So hows classes bro?" I asked.
"oh theyre fine man, its getting into full gear, but nothing I cant handle."
"true, true, annnnd how are the art pieces going?" I can see Sheldon really smile now.
" really really good man, I just need like a dozen more to be sold and I think Ive got my first year tuition on lock." As he said this I couldn't help but smile for him knowing that hes going to have an opportunity to better his life, it just made me smile.
"oh, before I forget, I drew this up for you, during practice." He shuffles for this small parcel that has a piece of paper in it.
"go ahead bro open it, it's a picture I drew up when you were at practice, the image just looked to cool to not draw out." When Sheldon said this I couldn't help but smile, I wonder if he got the still image of me going for a tackle or for the catch I made.
I don't know if it was just me, but I all of a sudden felt light headed. On the paper was a picture of me and Jason standing next to each other pretty close, I didn't know what to say. Sheldon was the first to talk.
"I picked up on the fact that you and Jason were a couple." He was all smiles, as he drank his coffee.
"but, how did you know?"
"Trev, the way you and Jason look at each other, man it isnt that hard to figure out." I started to panic, if Sheldon can spot this so easily then everyone else could as well.
"trev, don't worry bro, I can pick up on it because.....well...im gay too." What?!
"wait dude your gay!!!!! Dude, I never would have guessed man!" He was real quite though when I was talking about it.
"Sheld, bro whats wrong?"
"im not really out, to anyone, I just don't want to risk having to be outed when I have one year left before I go to college. You know?" Sheldon made sense, high school is so immature, and if people did know, people would have picked on Sheldon since he's so small.
"hey bro, don't worry, your secrets safe with me, as long as you don't say anything about me to?" he just nodded.
"of course, dude don't worry about it." I nodded as well
"thanks man, I mean I really like Jason, but the fact is im not comfortable being out to anyone, im comfortable with him, but im not one to let anyone into my business." I noticed as he was listening to me he had something on his mind.
"Sheldon, whats up?" I guess I shook him out of his reverie.
"oh um, I was wondering." I motioned for him to continue.
"well, how did you and Jason find each other?" I smiled, remembering our time in the car after practice.
"we were actually talking about relationships and having a girlfriend, and he straight up said that he likes guys, so I was just lucky that we stumbled upon the football conversation as well as our relationship too." He was smiling.
"wow, that's real cool, Jason seems to be a real good guy." I was all smiles now.
"yeah he is, he takes his time with me, and hasn't told the guys yet."
"yeah Jasons friends are real cool too, spike, lee and zach." Zachs name came into mind and I just had to tell Sheldon.
"speaking of Zach, I think he has a crush on you." He was entertained.
"um, I don't think so trev, have you seen me , im not the most muscular guy out there."
"Sheldon bro, I don't think that's what Zach sees in you man, I think he genuinely likes you, that and the fact that you and him have a lot in common with art." He still wasn't as ecstatic as I thought he would be about the situation.
" Trevor, I don't know about this man, ive never been with a guy, and the fact that hes on the football team really spells out trouble man."
"what do you mean?" as I said this, Sheldon seems to be searching in his head for the right answers to say.
"well, I don't know how `gay' Zach is, okay it might be a crush bro, but im just saying that once the situation arises where he has to chose his popularity or his image over the truth? It just spells out trouble for me." I tried to comfort him about it.
"bro look at me and Jason me and hi..." he interrupted me before I could ever get a say in.
"Trev, you and Jason have a unique situation where you and him don't have to be questioned, because people don't peg you and him to be together. Do you get it? As for Zach well people would question his judgement when he starts to hang out with me, if we ever hang out." I actually understood what Sheldon was saying.
"bro, I understand what your saying, but at the same time, you at least have to give Zach the benefit of a doubt that he will turn out completely different from what you envisioned him to be, hes a great guy, and from the looks of things you enjoyed his company when you guys were at the art show, if im not mistaken." He only nodded.
"I did, but....ugh, I don't know Trev, when it was just you and his friends hes real cool, but what about at school? Will he even say hi? Or even want to be around me?" that in itself I couldn't answer, because I don't know Zach well enough.
" sheld, you just gotta take it as it comes man." He seems to be taking my advice into consideration.
"I guess man, but I still would like to improve my body I want to make a change when I go to college, be a new person, you know?" when he said this, a light bulb lit up in my head.
"hey, why don't you join me at the gym? I could teach you the basics of how to lift and what to take to build up your muscles, you actually have a great frame to work on getting bigger muscles man, that outfit you had on at your art show, wow." He was really blushing when I complimented him.
" I don't think I do." I was looking at him as if he was crazy.
"dude cut the crap, you got a good foundation for a body, and with me helping you out, I promise youre going to see changes."
"you'd really help me out man?" I just nodded my head.
"yup, and were starting first thing tomorrow, coach gave us tomorrow off because Friday were going to have 2 a day, but you have to commit to this okay" he just nodded with a big smile.
" yeah, I will, and Trev, thanks man in advance with helping me out, and with the situation with Zach."
"don't worry about it, and take things slow bro, theres no rush what so ever."
"I will." I looked at my watch and I noticed that it was nearing closing time for the café.
"dude, we gotta go, we got classes tomorrow and I promised Jason I would try and meet up with him tonight after I met up with you." He just nodded.
"okay, lets head out."
After I dropped Sheldon off I text Jason that im headed to his house and to meet me outside.
As I arrived at his driveway, I see Jason waiting outside of his porch in nothing but his pajama bottoms, his defined chest showing in the night light, and my god, it was a sight to behold, god he looked so good with nothing, its so effortless. I got out of my car with the parcel that Sheldon gave to me, to show and tell Jason that Sheldon knows about us now.
I was greeted with a hug from Jason.
"guess what?" we were on his porch now sitting down, side by side his bare skin touching me, not knowing the effects its doing to me in my body and in my head, god this guy is killing me!
"what?" I took his hand in mine.
"Sheldon knows about us." I turned to him when I said this.
"really. Did you tell him?" I shook my head.
"nope, he found out on his own, he said it was obvious." His face completely changed when I said this.
"obvious? In what way?" I just shrugged.
"I don't know, he said the way we interact just shows." Jason seemed really worried now, I don't know if he knows that hes making them, but im getting really worried now.
"whats wrong?"
"huh?"
"Jason, I can read your face, theres something on your mind. So tell me what it is."
"well, if Sheldon could pick up the fact that were together, then imagine how easy it is for other people, and I know how you feel about people knowing, so im a bit worried now." And his face expressed all his worries.
"im glad that your worried for me, but the fact is, Sheldon read us on it because he's gay too, I guess its his gaydar or something, but he figured us out, everyone thinks and sees us as only being friends, so don't worry, because im not worried, okay?" I took his hand in mine and kissed the top of his hand.
"okay, but what were you saying about Sheldon?" I told Jason about how me and Sheldon spoke about his sexuality, and not wanting to be out, and of course Zach.
"so, even when you said you wouldn't say a thing, you did."
"Jase, don't be like that, I couldn't help but give Sheldon a nudge to get him going." I could see his head shake.
"I expected you to listen to me when I told you not to Trevor, its none of our business with what goes on with Sheldon and Zach, and that includes you saying something, if Zach was ready, he would have said something to Sheldon or done something, but for you to interfere the way you did that's just like me telling people about our business." I looked at Jason in amazement, who does he think he is?
"excuse me? I was just helping out a friend, I told him Zach liked him, but its his choice, and Zachs choice,if they want to make something out of it then by all means, who are you to tell me that I cant help a friend out, who has been nothing but a god send ever since I stepped foot at that school?" I may have been over reacting but for someone who hasn't even been with me for more than a month, to tell me how to act? That's just plain bullshit in my book.
"woah! What the fuck are you getting mad about? I was just telling you..." I had to stop him there.
"exactly, you were TELLING ME! Jason, I don't need someone TELLING ME what to do, especially if I know that im helping a friend out with a situation." This was getting to intense, to quick. I got off from his porch and started to head to my car, but before I could go further I felt his hand grasp my arm.
"Trevor, where you going?" I shook his hand away.
"out of here, that's for sure, I don't need this, not right now."
I didn't even look back when I said this to Jason, I just got in my truck, and headed home. Ive got to tell you that I grew up fending for my self, even when mom was alive and dad was more himself they were too busy, so I took care of me, when it came to school I didn't ask for their help because they had more important things to take care of, if I wanted food I cooked, even at the age of 10 I made grilled cheese, or had breakfast for dinner, so for someone to tell me what to do, or what NOT to say. That just doesn't fly for me.
"Beep" "Beep" "Beep" slap! UGH! I hated getting up so fucking early! For the life of me, I just cant get used to the time here, I usually get woken up by the sunlight that peers through my window back in Hawaii, being awoken by an annoying noise rather than a slight ray of light bugged me. I got out of bed at a pace slower than a snail, did my morning routine. I did a couple of pushups, some jumping jacks, and a couple of sit ups that usually got my body going. After my impromptu workout session I headed for the showers.
As I soaked in the steaming shower I replayed last night in my head, was it so wrong for me to help Sheldon out? I mean I just told him that Zach liked him, it was at his discretion if he wanted something to come out of it. And Jason, now I feel real bad for over reacting, I know he had a right to have his input, but I just hate being told what to do.
As I replayed in my head that Jason was wearing no tshirt my hand started to have a mind of its own, I started to play with my soft cock, slowly stroking it as the pulsation of the water continuously hit my back. He was wearing nothing, and god he looked so good. My cock was rock hard now, all 7inches of it, "ugh yeah" the more I thought of Jasons body last night, the faster my hands worked. "mmmmm"
knock
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"Trevor, son get going you got 20 minutes to get to school."
FUCK!!!Way to ruin my moment dad! Wait a sec?! DAD? Holly shit, dads home. I got out of the shower as quick as possible, got my underwear on and grabbed my outfit from school and headed to the kitchen.
As I approached the dining room table dad was settled in his chair with a newspaper in hand, as he read he looked at me.
"don't tell me kids these days go to school like that now do they?"he was referring to my underwear. he started to smile now.
"ha...ha..ha! very funny, so when did you get in dad?" He took a sip of his coffee.
"just last night,could you believe ive worked 72hrs straight?" I could, he always did, now that mom was gone, that's all he ever did.
"theres eggs and bacon on the counter." I snapped out of my thought and started getting dressed in the kitchen, I know what your thinking, who does that? Trust me when I tell you that it's a common practice for kids on the rush wanting breakfast and not missing class.
As I got my levi skinny jeans on and slipped my vans on as well, I took a piece of bacon, some scrambled egg and placed it on top a piece of bread, and wala! A to go meal! After engulfing my creation I slipped my volcom tank top on and headed out the door. But before I reached the door my dad called for me.
"trevor."
"yes dad."
"im going to be off this Saturday, so if there was anything that you wanted to do, we can go ahead and do it."
"dad, are you serious?" I had to ask him because this was unlike my dad, he barely had days off, and when he did, he was in his study room with paperwork to go over.
"haha, yes, Im serious, I made room this weekend for just us two, its been awhile since we hung out son." Aint that the truth!
"well, weve got a scrimmage this Saturday against some school, if you wanted you can come and watch, and afterwards grab lunch?" he just nodded.
"okay, sounds like a plan, leave the lunch plans to me, now get going, got 10mins before school starts." I was all smiles now, for the first time, in a LONG! Time im actually going to hang out with my dad.
As I drove to school I remembered that I had no practice today and I was taking Sheldon to the school gym to get him started on a routine, and the thought of Jason and explaining my behavior to him entered my mind. Hopefully he wouldn't be too mad, or upset over my little tantrum. God im so good at messing shit up! Way to go TREV!
sorry if it took a while, been busy with school...thanks to everyone that has written, this is just a hobby for me to get my feelings out..you know how that goes...emails are always welcome
cheers...