This is my story, read it if you will, but if you know that you shouldn't be reading this, then don't, this story is a slow process, im still learning how to write so bare with me, suggestions or comments on my story is appreciated, CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is welcomed. This is a love story, sure sex will come, but not just yet, if your patient enough then read on. And thanks in advance for reading my story.
*trying something new, alot asked about sheldon and zach so heres whats going on with them so far...enjoy!
(Sheldons POV)
`WTF am I doing here'
`WTF am I doing here'
Those were the only thoughts that came swirling into my head as I walked up the sidewalk into the blaring packed house, I knew this was a bad idea, but I promised Zach that I would show up if they won.
But then again even if they lost they would have some sort of an excuse to party on a Saturday night and I still would have gone, just to keep the communication flowing that started between me and Zach.
sigh I hate having to recall into the past, but I guess since this isnt really my story, but more or less Trevors and this is his nifty.org story =) and you're his readers I guess I have no choice but to fill you in on enough detail to get you caught up on me now huh?
Ever since meeting Zach, you could say weve gotten to know each other pretty well, I could say to you that I was COMPLETELY! Wrong on who I "thought" Zach was. Here I thought he was this arrogant QB prick that had air for brains, and thought that he ran shit. But here was this guy that could connect with me on so many levels that it scared me how easily me and him could talk about art, music, life after school, any bullshit really. We both called on it how highschool really fucks with peoples judgement on who should/shouldn't be their friend, that the need to fit in overshadowed the need to just "be". And honestly those talks, and we've had several meaningful talks like the one mentioned beforehand was when I knew that was the REAL Zach, not the super macho football qb allstar, though that makes a portion of him, but he states it. "NOT ALL OF HIM" and it was true. I wonder if people knew him on a level that I did?
But that's where my problem lies Trevors readers! Ive fallen head over heels for the guy. How can you not? Not only is he gorgeous but he has a brain, he actually looks a lot like a young Matthew McConahe(and if your offended that I spelt his name wrong, it goes to show how much I don't pay attention to the spelling of famous peoples last name).But none the less what took the cake was the interest he had for the only love ive ever known.ART. For a guy like me to find someone with the traits and quality like Zach and to love art was something else, the guy butted heads with me on my pieces with valid points, ive never been challenged like that.
But as I approached the last step into what could be my one and only house party one thought came to mind.
"WTF am I doing here."
(Zachs POV)
As I was greeting people and roaming the house I kept glancing at the door hoping that Sheldon would show, he did promise me he would if he won, but that doesn't ultimately mean he would actually go through with it. All I could think of as girls were literally all over me saying hi and giving me drunk kisses was a way to ask him out, to take him to the new exhibit that were showing the new up and coming urban artist of our state, from graffiti to modern sculptures to even stencils and computer generated art, I wanted to show him that his work wasn't too far from where the people are at now.
Getting to know Sheldon I've come to the realization of what being an individual really is. Looking at the guy he didn't care what he looked like at school, he was there to learn, he didn't care what people thought of him because he knew it didn't affect him the way people thought it did. In a way he had this geeky outcast badass vibe about him that I found attractive, and when he wants to look fucking hot as fuck like the way he did at his exhibit he could definitely blow some of the guys and girls from our school out of the water, but it just goes to show where his head is, and that petty shit like looking good to impress wasn't in his agenda, and I liked that about him.
As I was thinking of how to ask him out I heard the bell ring. Being the host I had to be polite, and it was a way to get all the nasty little sluts that were hounding me off me, but Trevors readers don't be so sad, they'll attach themselves to other guys more drunk than I will ever be tonite and get their fill trust me they always do, you know for a fact they always do.
I opened the door but to non other than the guy I wanted to see all day. As if by magic the little fucker appears out of thin air and onto my doorstep. He looked so nervous, as if this was his first house party or something. But all I could do was look him over because reader, he looked out of this world! As always he has kept his hair buzzed wearing his dark rimmed reading glasses that ive grown accustomed to sat heavily on the bridge of his nose, exactly where it should, he had on a plain white v-neck shirt that, if im not mistaken revealed a chest tattoo piece that I haven't seen yet...can you say yum?! I made a mental note to ask him about it later, guys with tattoos just attract me, and his suited the vibe Sheldon portrayed, if that even made any sense, anyways he was wearing some baggy skinny levis with all black vans to finish off his look, all I could do was smile and approach him.
"Hey Sheld! Glad you could make it bud!"
I said as I clamped my arm around his shoulder, you know the standard straight guy hug, but what I really wanted to do was take him into my arms and just kiss him. But who's to say the guy even likes me, for all I know even if he was gay he could have a specific preference as to what kind of guys he goes for, and what if it wasn't me hmmmm?
I could see him grin his trademark grin that ive come to notice.
"I told you I would come if you won didn't i?"
I couldn't help but just smile and nod. He approached me closer and whispered in my ears.
"I never break a promise."
And pats my back. He has to have seen me shiver when he spoke into my ears, I didn't know if he was being playful but I liked this side of him.
I lead him to the kitchen with my hand on the small of his back as we both headed to the kitchen the hair on my arms stood up just being able to touch him in such a manner, I can see peoples eyes plastered on both of us but more specifically on Sheldon, I guess people had to double take to see that it was the same arty kid that they've seen for the past four years, actually looking "HOTT" in their eyes, but to me from the moment we've been able to talk about school, art and everything else under the sun when we had the chance to ive come to like more than what he looked like, but don't get me wrong reader, hes a catch, but ive come to like the person that he is and im liking the person im becoming, the person im supposed to be since he came into my world. He probably doesn't know it but I crave, scratch that I NEED the interaction that me and him have been able to share, besides Jason hes probably the only other person in my life that I can be myself around and not give a fuck that im on the football team, can tolerate that I associate myself with some but not all stupid people from school, im just me around him and I hope that when I ask him out and if he even says yes that we could go beyond a friend level, because god knows id like to be there for him to show him that he doesn't have to be all on his own, that hes allowed to be happy too, the way hes made me...
"Would you like something to drink? Maybe some coke? Bee.."
I was asking Sheldon if he wanted something to drink but I stopped mid sentence because I couldn't help but stare at sheldons perfect lips on display, he had his concentration face on, where he had to think on what to drink which made him lick his lips making it that much more difficult for me to function, all I could do was stare.
"Do you have vodka and orange juice by any chance?"
He finally asked looking beyond the fridge and at the table displaying all the liquor we had at the party. I just smiled and nodded.
"Sure I can make you one, right now."
I jogged over to the table and started to mix his drink, I didn't want it to be too strong just in case he couldn't tolerate alcohol too much, as I was making it I said out loud.
"Since you're by the fridge could you grab me a beer please?"
I didn't look to see if he heard me because I was busy making his drink, but as I finished I felt a hand on my back with the beer hovering in front of me thanks to Sheldon.
"Here you go..."
I still felt his hand on my back slowly leaving its spot, and suddenly missing the warmth I don't know why I did it but my mind must've had a mind of its own because I was starting to back myself into his hand hopefully getting the point out that I liked where his hands were, and he seemed to have noticed it because he stopped moving it and just left it there, rubbing my lower back in gentle circles. I looked up to a smiling Sheldon grinning from ear to ear I couldn't help but smile as well, he patted my back and gestured with his head to go outside to the balcony, which was surprisingly empty. We situated ourselves in the corner of the space where we weren't seen, just a little privacy with two lawn chairs placed facing the backyard. He started to speak.
"Im guessing you didn't mind where my hand was?"
I just shook my head no, which got a chuckle out of him.
"Conversations tend to be better Zach when two people actually talk."
He was saying it through a smile so I knew he was joking, I gulped hard before answering him.
"Sorry, im just nervous..."
I looked up as I said this, seeing a confused look plastered on his face.
"Why?"
I had to choose my words correctly if I want to get my point across.
"You are probably the only person that I've come across my entire high school career that saw me as Zach, not Zach the QB or the football player, just me..."
I had to collect my thoughts.
"That scares me because it's a new feeling that I've never experienced, and with these new feelings comes new territory that I'm not accustomed to being in, to actually care about someone, to want to be there for them..."
The whole time I was saying this I was looking at my lap, I couldn't bear to look at Sheldon's face, I thought it was best I said what I needed to say before I lost it.
"Sheldon, you just being your normal self around me not idolizing me, but actually getting to know me, it put me at ease for the first time in a long time where I could share my secrets, dreams, with someone other than Jason, and the fact that it's you and I'm attracted to you makes it that much more nerve racking me telling you this because I don't even know if your into..."
And he just kissed me. Right in the middle of my spiel he kissed me, I should be upset right? But the fact that the taste of his kisses were with a hint of the drink I mixed him, he practically intoxicated me with his kisses, and to say I didn't want anymore was an understatement, but as it started, it ended and I was left wanting more but I looked over at him and he was just grinning.
"I was wondering when you would finally tell me that you were into me so I could finally kiss you, you big oaf!"
I got a playful punch in the arm as he said it. But that got me wondering.
"How did you know that I liked you? And why didn't you just come right out and ask me, so we could've been kissing way before tonight!"
I was practically whining as I said this. He just continued to laugh.
"Trev. Accidently let it slip, because Jason told him, so that's how I knew, and secondly I wanted you to tell me because I wanted you to make that decision that this is what you want."
He was pointing back and forth now.
"Me and you. Because buddy you had me at hello (cheesy I know but I like it...sue me! =P), so im in this thing if your hearts in it as well."
As he was saying this I couldn't help but stare at his genuine smile that he was giving me, the fact that he waited for me to make up my mind just solidified the fact that I want to try this out with Sheldon. I just stood up from my chair stood him up as well and kissed his lips with both my hands gently cupping his gorgeous face, as I let the kiss go I whispered..
"Thank you..."
"For?" he said.
"Allowing me to come to a decision on my own, not pressuring me to get into something I didn't know I was ready for."
He just nodded, but added.
"And are you ready for this? Im not asking to go and be "out" but I mean ready to try this out, try us out?"
I couldn't help but smile so I leaned in for a short kiss, but keeping our foreheads touching wanting that closeness with him.
"I hope that answers your question."
He nodded a yes into me as I continued to hold him, but knowing that we were away from the party longer than we should I lifted his head up.
"We gotta get back to the party before people start looking for us."
I thought I saw a hint of sadness in his eyes but he quickly covered it up with a smile and a nod.
"Okay."
"What did you have planned tomorrow by the way? I don't got practice and I wanted to see if you wanted to hang out?"
He looked like he had to think about it as if he might actually have had previous plans lined up. He finally answered.
"Nothing that I can recall, what did you have in mind?"
"The new urban art gallery just opened up not to far from where you had your exhibit, I was thinking we could go do that and have a day of it, go see some art, have dinner maybe?"
He was all smiles now.
"Why Zach, are you asking me out?"
I was getting nervous that he might actually turn it down so I tried to give him an out.
"If you just wanted to do the art show we could, no need for dinner if you think this is going too fast. I under..."
He did it again reader; the fool kissed me during my spiel once again!
"You just got to shut up sometimes! I d love to go out on a date with you."
All I could do was nod okay. This got a laugh out of Sheldon. God I love hearing him laugh, its music to my ears knowing I can make him feel good.
"I don't get how a confident guy like you can get so shy around a guy like me, I just don't get it." He said with a smile as he shook his head. All I could do was shrug my shoulders.
" I don't know either, you just do something to me that I can't explain, the more I get to know you the more in awe I am of you, how I've never met you sooner, is beyond me."
He took my hand in his as we approached the entrance back to the party.
"Were here now and that's all that matters." He said this as he squeezed my hand; in turn I gave his a quick squeeze before heading back to reality. As we entered I quickly whispered into his ears.
"Of all the people in this room, you're the only thing that matters." I stepped away to see his reaction, and I couldn't help but smile in accomplishment because the smile plastered on his face was worth all the bullshit I know we're going to be facing together sooner or later, and knowing I got him by my side, leads me to a saying I read once... "fuck'em all." =p
-Hey guys sorry this took a while..and it's a short one, but I had to check in to my new command so I didn't have a lot of time. Hopefully this held you guys over for a bit. Im in the process of writing the next chapter now so hang tight.