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Well now, with that subject line, I've probably made this tale out to be larger than it is. But since I've never really told anyone before -- for no other reason than that the issue hasn't arisen -- what the heck.
Recalling those days of youth is tricky -- there are lots of gaps, and lots of "Why"'s, as in, "Why did I do that?" At some point around age 10 or so I must have discovered that autoerotic play was fun. I don't remember actually discovering this, but since I remember engaging in it during the age of 10, I presumably hit upon this truth at some point prior.
I had a (male) friend with whom I shared a lot of this play, and it was largely just that -- play. I'm not even sure that I knew what the point was, or that this was "sexuality". I began to hear, down the grapevine from the older, pubescent neighborhood guys, about "the white stuff" and "orgasm" and so forth. It sounded curious, but neither repulsive or worthwhile. Just curious.
Now, to cut to the chase: One summer afternoon, I was lying on the couch in our TV room, watching something or other on television (but nothing erotic). Since nobody was home, I took the opportunity to engage in self-play. I pulled my shorts down to my ankles and toyed around with myself. I remember that there was one maneuver in particular which I found highly stimulating. Let's see if I can explain it resonably: Basically, all I would do is take my index finger or middle finger and drag it circularly around the base of the coronal ridge, around and around. That's it, no pumping action or anything. This produced a very specific feeling which I can recall in my mind, but can't really articulate. It was a tingly, "light" sensation, as opposed to the more "full" sensation when stimulating the whole penis. So there I was, just sitting in the (warm and humid) den, performing this little circular roundabout ritual. I'd done this many times before, but had never climaxed before. I'm not sure that I knew what a climax was. But this time, something very different happened!
The tingling became stronger, and my initial impulse was to cease the stimulation. Insofar as it was almost "too good". But I decided to be adventurous, and keep stimulating, as the tingling grew, to see what would happen. Would I die? Would it stop? I couldn't imagine what would happen. I kept circling, and circling, and circling, and then it felt like some internal triparm was triggered. I stopped stimulating, but noticed that the building feeling inside did not cease. I started to get a little worried, knowing that my body was feeling strange stuff on its own and I couldn't stop it. I was just looking down, hands to my sides, thinking "Oh my god what is going to happ -- " and then, boom! Clear liquid shot out like rain. It was quite a remarkable feeling.
Ever since then, I've never really used the circular stimulation technique again. I now seem to require the more typical shaft-involved stimulation. I'm also not sure that any orgasm since has felt quite the same as that first one -- I don't mean to imply they've all been inferior, or less intense, but maybe just different. I suppose, by mere virtue of every subsequent one not being the first, they have been different. So there's my first time. It's quite a distinct memory from a time period when I remember little else so clearly.
-Aaron
p.s. Afterwards, I remember thinking, "Oh, I guess that must be the so-called 'white stuff'"