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The Forbidden Love of a High School Boy: Chapter 5
I opened my eyes to the dim light shinning in through the curtains, slowly everything from yesterday began to come back to me as I laid there in the dark.
Luke?s accident, the hospital? and Jared. I wasn?t sure what was going to happen with that. Does he really want me? I slowly rolled over to find the bed was empty. I sat up and looked around the room, he was gone. I crawled from my bed and walked to the windows, pulling open the curtains the sun shone it. I looked back at my bedside table to see it was only 8:30am. He left me? then I turned as I could smell something. I walked across my room and grabbed my jeans from the floor that I had hardly climbed from without needing help from Jared last night. I quickly grabbed a plain white t-shirt from my closet and left my room. The house was filled with the smell of waffles? Mom and dad must have come home early, I thought as I walked down the stairs. I slowly began to realize how hungry I really was, which helped with forgetting Jared momentarily until I stepped into the kitchen. There he stood over the waffle maker, on the oven he had bacon cooking and at the island he had a plate set and a glass out filled with orange juice, jams and maple syrup. I couldn?t help but smile to myself. I slowly made my way into the kitchen from the doorway, he turned as he heard me smiling.
?I hope I didn?t wake you, but I thought you needed some more sleep?, he said, closing the waffle maker and turning it on. He was in clean clothing, a crisp white button up shirt and deep blue blue jeans. He looked perfect, his hair was different though. It was slightly spiked up, going all directions. He looked perfect as always.
?No I woke up myself?? I said, going over and turning the bacon on the stove, ??you changed? I noted, glancing back at him.
?Well ya, I wasn?t going to but I went to my place to get some ingredients I needed? he said. I couldn?t help but laugh now.
?You are aware that we have eggs and flour here right?? I asked laughing, but stopped as I saw his face. He looked, embarrassed? ?I know, I just wanted to use my stuff so I had the right stuff you know? wanted it to be perfect? he said, smiling as he leaned back against the counter, his arms folded. I looked back to the bacon but could feel his eyes on me.
?I don?t need perfect, the fact your making breakfast is enough? I said, turning back to him, deciding that I can?t turn the bacon anymore without it being obvious.
?You deserve it? perfect that is? he said smiling at me. I was lost for words, I looked down at the floor. I heard him chuckle and I looked up.
?What?? I asked self consciously.
?Your cute when you blush? he said, acting like it was the most natural thing to say.
He turned back to the waffles and I continued to stand there like a fool. Was I blushing? I casually turned around and looked into the toaster, my face was visibly red in the cheeks. Way to be Alex, I thought to myself.
?Alex sit down ok?? I heard Jared say, I turned to find him closer to me than before. I opened to speak but was lost in the scent coming from him. It was strong but gentle at the same time. It once again made me weak, and I found myself stumbling for words. ?Please, really its fine. I can handle it? he said gently, and I couldn?t help but follow his wishes. I walked around the island and climbed up onto the chair. I sat obediently and watched as Jared pulled out two waffles form the maker, putting them on my plate.
?Eat up? he said, as he began to pour more matter into the waffle maker. I picked up the syrup and poured it over my waffles and began to cut them slowly, content with simply watching Jared. He was being far to kind right now.
?Have you heard from the hospital?? I asked between bites.
?Ya, I called an checked in about seven, they said that Luke is asleep. They gave him some more meds last night for the pain and will let us know when he wakes up. So we can hang around here, or I could take you back up there, its all up to you? said Jared, he closed the waffle maker and turned back to me, ?But I think you should relax a relax. You?ve had one hell of a day yesterday? he said, once again resting against the counter.
?Ya? well after all of this I will defiantly need a nap? I joked, but his face was serious. ?Ok, I?ll relax, now would you please eat something?? I asked. He smiled at me and picked up a plate from the counter and got the bacon from the stove.
?You like it crispy, am I right?? he asked as he loaded the bacon onto the plate and turned, setting it down in on the island.
?Ya I do, you remember?? I asked surprised. I didn?t think he?d remember stuff like that? ?Alex, we?ve gone camping every summer?? he laughed, ?who always does all the cooking?? he smirked.
?You?? I grinned, taking another bite of my waffle. He began to eat a piece of bacon before pushing the plate closer to me. I took a piece and ate it as Jared began to clean up, and by the time he was done I had eaten three waffles and almost half the bacon he had cook. He smiled as he took my plate from in front of me and put it into the dishwasher.
?I?m glad I made lots? he smiled at me as he put the bacon in the fridge and looked back at me.
?Why don?t you go shower and I?ll call your parents, let them know what?s going on ok?? he asked as he leaned forwards and rested on the island countertop.
?Ok? are they mad at me?? I asked quietly, terrified of what the answer may be.
?Alex?? he began, but the home phone began to ring. He looked at it quickly and grabbed the portable from the counter behind him.
?Hello?? he asked. He smiled at glanced at me, his face dropped. I?m sure he could see the fear remained. What if they were mad at me? ?Hi Judy, no Alex is just in the shower...? he said to my mom, he nodded upwards, a hint to go shower. ?? no don?t worry Alex is fine he ate breakfast?.
I got up and began to leave the kitchen.
?He never eats breakfast, really?? said Jared laughing looking at me, I quickly turned and left the room. I didn?t eat all yesterday, he knows that. ?? well no one can resist my charm? he laughed. If only she knew, I thought as I wondered out into the front hall and began up the stairs. I couldn?t believe it, but I was still tired. I wandered into my room and stripped as I did so, entering my bathroom in my underwear. I walked in and shut the door behind me. I turned and looked at the tub. As nice as a hot bath would be, I do want to get back to Jared.
?Shower? I said aloud, and walked over cranking on the hot water. I slipped off my underwear and steeped in, allowing the hot water to slide down my body, relaxing ever muscle it touched. I sighed and sprayed some shampoo in my hand and quickly washed my hair. I felt so dirty, I don?t why Jared willingly was so close to my last night, I probably smelt like a hospital.
I quickly rinsed the suds from my hair and body and stepped out from the shower, grabbed the towel from the bar next to and quickly began to dry off. I could hear someone walking in my room as I wrapped my towel around me. I quickly brushed my teeth, fixed my hair and put on some deodorant. I was nervous? not like I haven?t been around Jared before. Though things were different now? everything seemed have changed last night. But why? I turned form the sink and left the bathroom, walking out into my room I found my clothing was gone from the floor, I looked to my left and walked out into my room further to find my bed was also made. Jared sat on my couch and looked sheepishly over a magazine he was flipping through.
?You cleaned?? I said, I watched his eyes trace down my body a little then quickly return to my face. I could feel myself blush a little.
?Ya, sorry? thought I?d save you the trouble. Plus you know me, I hate a mess? he smiled.
?Thanks?? I said, laughing more at the fact that I found unbelievably cute. I turned and walked over to my closet and stepped in. I glanced back to see that Jared was out of my line of view. I opened a drawer from the wall unit at the back of the closet and slipped on a pair of black boxer-briefs.
?I talked to your parents? Jared said from my bedroom.
?Oh? and?? I asked as I pulled on a pair of white boarder shorts and a red t-shirt. I wandered back out into the room to find him sitting on my bed, his feet dangling off the edge.
?Well your dad and aunt are both sick, they ate some bad food your mom said, so coming home isn?t an option right now. But she said as long as you?re ok and Luke is gonna be alright she said they will come home when they can? he said, he patted the bed next to him for me to sit. I walked over and sat by him.
?Now about this nonsense about them being mad at you? said Jared, he looked at me very seriously. I didn?t look at him. He suddenly stood up and dropped to one knee in front of me. His fingers rested under my chin and he pulled it up so I was looking into his face. ?No one is mad at you? none of this was your fault Alex? he said, his hand dropped to my knee, resting on top of my hand. His finger traced the top of my hand. ?Luke did this on his own, I told your mom what happened and she understands. No one thinks your at fault? he said gently. His hand now spread out over top of mine, holding it in his. His face was gentle and understanding. He didn?t blame me? no one did.
?I guess I?m just worrying?, I whispered, smiling at him. He smirked at me and stood, and sat down next to me again. ?So as I promised? we can talk now? if you want? he added quickly.
?Ya? while we can? I said. I watched him lay down and I did the same. He turned his head looking at me and frowned.
?Are you nervous or something?? he asked grinning at me.
?No...? I said. It wasn?t convincing.
?You don?t have to be nervous or? afraid or anything ok?? he whispered, he rolled onto his left side, his chest now resting against my arm.
?Ok. What are we?? I asked, looking into his eyes. His face never seemed to show what he was thinking.
?I? I don?t know? he said, he frowned a little. He took his right hand and began to trace his fingers up and down my arm. I smiled at him, would his touch always do this too me? Calm me so much. ?I do know, that I want to be something?, he whispered, smiling at me. I could feel my heart begin to race, and I watched him grin larger now. He chuckled and his finger traced my cheek.
?I love it when you do that? he whispered, his finger rubbing up and down the side of my face.
?Really? I personally find it aggravating?? I laughed, ?? its kind of a tell-all of what I?m thinking?.
?Hmmm not what your thinking? just tells me when I?m getting to you?, he laughed.
?Jeez, pretentious much? I laughed, he joined in. He propped his head up on his hand and rested on his elbow, his right hand?s finger now traced shapes across my chest.
?What about Luke?? I asked, now I could, for once, see what he was thinking on his face. He rolled onto his back as his right arm went to rest behind his head as his left slipped under my head. It rested on his large bicep while my fingers played with the buttons on his shirt.
?I?m not sure what we?d do about Luke? think he?d be mad?? he asked, now looking at me.
?Maybe? I mean we?ve known each other our whole lives, and this came out of no where?? I said, ??I?m still in shock? I laughed. He smiled and bit his bottom lip, looking like he was deep in thought, he then chuckled to himself.
?What?? I asked laughing at him.
?We?ll we don?t have to bring him home from the hospital? he laughed.
?Ya right, sadly we?d both miss him? I smiled.
?When the time comes, I can tell him. I?ll just tell him how I feel for you?? he said.
How does he feel? I wondered, I glanced up at him he was starring up at the ceiling.
I laid there listening to his gentle breathing, watching his chest rise and fall. What was going to happen when we couldn?t be this obvious? When I couldn?t lay in his arms like this without worrying someone will walk in?
I awoke to Jared moving below me, I opened my eyes quickly, he was reaching into his pants pocket. He pulled out his cell phone and smiled at me as he answered it.
?Hello? he said, still a little groggy. When had we fallen asleep? I could recall watching his face, his eyes, his chest rise and fall? Now I sat listening to a voice on the other end of the phone, Jared?s face lit up.
?Ok, I?ll come get you? no I fell asleep, we must have missed the call? said Jared, he smiled at me once again. Luke must be coming home. A felt a twinge of guilt for feeling saddened by this. Once again there would be distance between Jared and I, but now things were different. Now he held me? he felt the same. The distance would be worse, no worse than Luke?s reaction was likely to be.
?Ok, I?ll see you soon? yes I?ll tell him? said Jared and he shut the phone, tossing it on the bed near our heads. He turned his head looking at me and gave me a smile.
?He?s coming home? I said, I tried to keep the disappointment from my face and voice. Clearly unsucssful, Jared gave me a look.
?Nothing will change? he whispered. He must be reading my mind. He rolled to his side facing me, his hand rested on my stomach, his face hovered close to mine. ?I?m not going anywhere?, he whispered, brushing the bangs from my forehead. ?Even if Luke doesn?t agree with us?, he whispered.
?Jared, I?m not going to ask you to sacrifice your friendship because of me? I said, I sat up looking down to him. He stayed where he was.
?I?m not going to sacrifice you because of a friendship? he said, still looking at where I had been laying. I slipped from the bed and turned to face him. He finally met my gaze slowly, looking at me with something new in his eyes. Was there more to what he feels for me than what I have been thinking? ?I can?t ask you to give up a life-long friendship for me? I said, looking down at him.
It hurt to think that I could be sealing the fate of us, the fate of something that has not even begun yet.
?I think I should go pick up Luke he?s going to be waiting? he said, he stood from the bed and began to leave the room. I stood there? I could not ask him to give up something like he has with Luke, I?ve seen their friendship last through a lot. Do I have a right to be that selfish? ?Jared? don?t say anything to him yet? I said, running after him, he was already in the front entry. ?He?s been through enough as is? let?s just wait? I said as I reached the bottom of the stairs.
?Of course? we?ll wait as long as you want too Alex? he whispered, he grabbed his keys from his jacket pocket hanging on the coat rack on the wall behind the door.
?Should I come?? I asked, leaning against the banister. I did not want to see him go. It felt like things were about to change, for better or worse I couldn?t tell.
?No, you just relax ok? You were out like a light again today, I can get him and we?ll be back before you know it? he said, he looked like he was in a tug of war with himself. He smiled at me and opened the door and left the house. The door shut quietly behind him. Why did he hesitate? Was he feeling the same? I turned and walked idly into the kitchen, the house was quiet. I took a deep breath. I suddenly felt as though fear was setting in. Why on earth had I asked him to give me up for Luke? Deep down we both knew Luke would understand, would support us. I turned as I heard the front door shut behind me. I turned to see Jared standing there, he smiled at me. Then came to me and grabbed me in him arms pulling me close into his chest. He sighed as his arms locked around me.
?I?m not leaving? he whispered, ??period?. I could feel him smile as he kissed the top of my head. I couldn?t stop myself from letting out a laugh. His grip then loosened around me, I looked up to find is face closer to mine than ever before. The side of his nose met mine, his eyes looked into mine. I leaned up so our lips met, his fitting mine perfectly. It was gentle but intense, all nerves were gone from my body, all fear slipped away as his lips pressed to mine more tightly. His hands roamed my back, down to my ass, while never breaking the kiss he picked me up and walked into the kitchen, setting me down on one of the island stools. He finally broke the kiss, his lips simply hovered over mine.
?Never?? he whispered against my lips, his forehead rested against mine. His hands still rested on my sides, mine now on his shoulders. I smiled and nodded, and let my head fall from his forehead to rest on his shoulder. I buried my face into his neck, my head still on his shoulder. He sighed as I let out a breath against his bare skin. It was better than the dreams. Better than I could have imagined, better than I have imagined. I could remember the jealousy I had felt one day, seeing Luke his a girlfriend he once had goodnight. I could remembering the longing I had to be in her place. Had she felt this way after his warm lips left hers? Had the boy below the bleachers felt so naked after Jared?s lips were gone? We stayed like that, for what felt like hours, until Jared slowly took a small step backward, he held my face between his palms. His eyes were steady against mine, his perfect lips slid into a small grin.
?I need to go? I?ll be back soon? he whispered, he kissed my lips once again quickly, and let his hands fall. I nodded as he walked away, watching his body move to the door. He glanced back at me, and gave me a sheepish grin as he opened the door, and he was once again gone.
I sat there for a long time, nothing in my strength could make my body move, I could not breathe. Only smile. I finally let out a sigh, I slipped from the chair and walked back to the front entry and slowly upstairs. I made my way to Luke?s room to find his bed was a mess. I quickly went to the hallway and got fresh sheets for his bed and quickly stripped the bed and made it, I knew he would want to sleep on fresh sheets. I began to clean up some clothing from the floor so he could easily get to his bed, and finally found myself in my own room, stripping the bed and putting on fresh sheets. I sat down on the edge of my bed shaking my head. Trying to shake my mind free from thoughts of Jared was difficult, near impossible. Everything around me seemed to echo him. The kitchen, this bed; his scent alone seemed to linger in my mind wherever I went.
I stood up from the bed and slowly made my way from my room down to the kitchen. I had a feeling Luke would be hungry when he got home, he hates hospital food. I pulled out a large pot and filled it with water and set it on top of the stove to boil. I pulled out pasta and a jar of tomato sauce from the fridge and tossed it into a jar and set it into the microwave to heat up.
The microwave chimed as I poured the cooked pasta into a bowl for Luke, I dumped the cooked sauce onto it as the front door opened and in walked Jared grinning ear to ear. My heart began to beat faster as I watched him. He dropped a bag with Luke?s clothing in it, I left the kitchen and came to him, but kept my distance. He closed the space quickly and kissed me quickly but began to laugh as from outside Luke called out.
?Honey! I?m home?.
I leaned back laughing as Jared did, and gave him a questioning look.
?Um? so they doctor told me Luke is having an odd, but totally normal reaction to the painkillers? he said smiling.
?Oh?? I asked.
?He?s kind if strung out? Jared said smiling, I rolled my eyes and he laughed. Behind him Luke wandered into the house, his forehead had a tiny bandage over a cut he had, his arm was in a splint. He grinned at me.
?Alex!? he cried out joyfully. I couldn?t help but smile.
?Hi, you ok?? I asked as he walked up to me and gave me a one armed hug.
?I?m great? he said happily, Jared stood behind him grinning at me. I sighed and tried to keep my smiling at a minimal at best.
?You hungry?? I asked Luke, but he was already walking past me to the kitchen.
Jared laughed and followed me behind Luke. As we walked I could feel Jared?s hands go to the sides of my hips, he pulled me back a little into him, his lips near my ear.
?All I?ve been able to think of is your lips?, he whispered seductively into my ear. I could feel my heart race as he spoke, but as quickly as his hands came to my sides they left them as we entered the kitchen. Luke was in a battle the chair to raise himself up with one arm, Jared held in a snicker as he went and helped boost him up the rest of the way. I put the bowl of pasta in front of Luke who quickly began to eat it, I couldn?t help but look disgusted as he shoveled the food into his mouth. Jared let out a snort when he looked at my face and shook his head as he pulled out a bottle of water from the fridge for Luke. When Luke was finally done his dinner, he took another painkiller before, with the help of Jared, went upstairs and he collapsed onto his bed.
?Get some rest dude? Jared said as he threw a blanket over Luke?s body, he turned to me smiling as we began to leave.
?I love you guys?, said Luke groggily, Jared began to laugh.
?We love you too Luke? he said laughing, I shook my head as we began to leave.
?You love each other?? he asked, his eyes already closed ?What?? I said, turning around quickly fear setting in. Had Jared told him about us? I looked at him quickly, fear most likely plastered across my face. He smiled at me.
?Yes Luke, we love each other? Jared said, we looked back to find Luke was already asleep. Jared looked to me and smiled.
?I didn?t say a thing? he whispered as I shut the door to Luke?s room. I turned to find myself in Jared?s arms once again.
?Thank you? I whispered back to him, but was silenced by his lips. We kissed once again, for the third time today but to me it felt like the first. My arms went around his neck pulling myself up a little, I stood on my toes as our kiss grew more desperate. I soon found myself being pick up again as we kissed, Jared?s strong arms held me tight around the waist, my legs locked around his hips as he walked over to the table against the wall and set me down. A family photo fell behind me, which he grabbed to keep from breaking. Yet our lips never parted, we laughed as we kissed.
Eye level once again I looked deep into his, and leaned forward. Our lips slowly met, but there was more this time. His hands slipped under the back of my shirt, they roamed my back as I felt his tongue flick against my lips. I opened my mouth more, allowing his tongue to slowly enter and meet mine. I sighed as he slowly explored mouth, and I his. I slide myself forward, wrapping my legs around his waist again, pulling him closer to me, so every part of us touched. My hands explored his back, one made its way up to the back of his head and played with the his hair as his tongue moved deeper into my mouth. I pushed mine forwards, the tip of mine slowly dancing with his, bring forward a low moan from inside of him.
From Jared?s pocket his phones ringtone broke the silence. I relunctantly broke the kiss, and took my hands from his back giving him some room. He leaned back and sighed, both of us slightly out of breath, breathing appeared to not me a priority while in each others arms. I dropped my legs from his waist and he dug out his phone as I leaned back against the wall. Would we ever catch a break? ?Hello? he asked as he flipped it open, with his free hand he wiped his glistening lip and smiled at me as he then began to trace circles around my knee. I could hear someone on the other line of the phone talking quickly, they sounded impatient.
?No I actually was hoping to talk to you?? Jared said, he gave me a reasuring smile. I put my hand on top of his, tracing his smooth skin with my finger tips. I studied his face. His perfect eyes, his ski slop nose was a perfect curve leading down to his perfect lips. His top lip had a perfect curve in the center, lifting up and falling to the edges. On each side sat two small dimples unseen until you were nearly face to face with him. He was perfect, his strong jaw, high cheek bones, he seemed to be a poster boy for some fancy French cologne, not my boyfriend? though he wasn?t. Guess we need to have that talk soon. I couldn?t help but smile at the idea of using Jared and the word boyfriend in the same sentence. He was watching me and gave me a questioning look as I smiled.
?Ok, I?ll see you soon? he said into the phone and shut it. He was leaving? I tried not to look disappointed.
?I?m sorry?? he said as he studied my face, he took my hand in his.
?It?s fine? is everything ok?? I asked, smiling at him best I could. It shouldn?t be such a big deal that he was leaving. He?d be back.
?Ya everything is fine, I just need to run out really quick. I?ll be back soon?, he said, tracing the side if my face with his finger. He leaned in kissing my forehead, and lifted me off the table. We went downstairs quietly and he pulled his car keys from his pocket.
?I shouldn?t be long, by the time you make yourself something to eat for dinner I?ll be back ok?? he said as he opened the front door, ??and maybe you should call your parents? I?m sure they will be worried? he said.
?Ya I probably should? I said, walking to the door. He leaned in and kissed me gently, and smiled as he walked across the front porch an down the stairs.
?I?ll be back soon? he said, walking across the lawn to his driveway and climbing into his car. I watched him drive away down the street, the air was hot to breathe and I stood on the front porch. The street was cast into shadows as the sun set, days seemed to pass quicker when I was with Jared, I hoped that would not become a reoccurring event.
I wandered about the house for the next hour while my mini pizza?s cooked. I wasn?t very hungry, my excitement for Jared to return was too high to allow me to sit still. I wondered upstairs and straightened the photo I had knocked over, and listened to Luke snore from his room. At least he wouldn?t be interrupting later? After eating my dinner I called my mom and dad. They would be returning home the next day, probably would get back while I was at school. She told me she had cleared Luke, Jared and myself because we missed today. We talked about what happened, she reassured me and Jared did that they were not mad at me. Wonder who told them that little piece of information, I thought to myself silently as mom told me about everyone getting sick but her. Before we hung up she told me the two of them would be going to a conference held in Hawii on wensday for a work conference, depending on how Luke felt about it. Since he was not in any condition to throw a party she felt much more confident about trusting him. I forced out a laugh at her joke, but I was too distracted listening for a car door outside to really be involved with the conversation.
?So Jared is sticking pretty close by isn?t he?? she had asked me.
?Ya? ya I guess? I answered, now finally seeing something worth talking about in the conversation. If I was going to be distracted by him I might as well talk about him.
?You ok with that?? she asked me, something was in her voice.
?Of course? I answered, hoping that my smile could not be heard over the phone.
?Ok? she chimed. Something was in her voice.
?Why aren?t you?? I asked sarcastically laughing.
?Alex you know we love Jared, don?t you?? she asked.
?Ya?? I said, what was with her? She couldn?t know? I was not that obvious right? ?Well mom I?m pretty tired, so I?ll see you tomorrow? I said rushing to end of the conversation.
?Ok? goodnight sweetie, we?ll see you tomorrow? she said, and hung up the phone. I hung up my phone in silence. Was it simply me over thinking what she said, or did it seem like she knew a bit more than she was letting on? I flipped on the TV and watched re-runs of south park, trying to find something to distract me, but it was all lost on me. I finally found myself in my bedroom, my room was cool from the fan and air-conditioning. I laid across my bed shirtless and closed my eyes to the dark room. It was 11pm now, and I finally stopped fighting sleep.
I awoke to the bed shifting next to me, I rolled over to find Jared lying next to me, shirtless as well. He smiled at me sweetly as he pulled me into a hug, he pulled me on top of his body, his arms holding me close. I kissed him and laid my head on his chest, listening to his heart beat.
?I?m sorry I took so long? he said quietly.
?Is everything ok?? I asked, my finger traces circles on his right shoulder.
?Yes, everything is fine? he whispered, ?? try and get some sleep, we have school tomorrow? ?Ok? goodnight? I said, accepting that that conversation was over.
?Goodnight? he said, kissing the top of my head. I listened to his breathing until I finally fell asleep myself.