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All the usual disclaimers stand - the characters and events of this story are entirely fictional and ever part is played by an actor over the age of 18 (or 21, whatever it is where you are). Don't read this story if you are offended by the idea of teenage boys engaging in sexual acts with each other.
Gaining Silver - Chapter 6
Running through the forest, it felt like I was just darting through the same trees again and again. My mind was racing and I couldn't focus on a single thought. The panic that I felt thinking that Luke was angry with me, was disgusted in me, that so extreme that I could barely breathe. I'd lost sight of Luke almost immediately and was now just wandering around in confusion. I had no idea where he had gone. Hell, I had no idea whether I was. I shouted out to him and could hear my voice echoing back to me but there wasn't a single response that came from the towering maze of trees that surrounded me.
My vision was starting to shake and my breathing worsened. With all of the leaves covering the ground and hiding the roots twisting through from the soil underfoot, I was beginning to lose my footing and, after a few steps, I found myself tumbling through the air.
I landed on the ground with a thud and skidded forward. The twigs on the ground scratched against my pale white skin. That was it - the fall tipped my panic levels over the edge and I just laid there on the ground and began to sob.
Through my mind, ran all the memories of Luke and I growing up. Our first meeting on the playground at primary school when we played together on the pedal bikes. I'd been so drawn to him and he'd been so welcoming. I remembered when we both auditioned for the end of Year 6 play when we were eleven and how he'd comforted me when I didn't get the part I wanted even though he'd not got the part he wanted either. I thought about how happy we'd been when we found out that not only did we get into the same secondary school but we were going to be in the same class and get to spend the next 5 years with each other. All of that was about to be gone now and all because I had to be gay!
I'm not ashamed to say that I must have stayed there crying for at least 20 minutes. Honestly, it felt like my entire world had shattered into millions of tiny pieces that could never be put back together again. The worst part was that I had absolutely no idea how I could possibly be ok if my best friend hated me. From the way he had looked when he ran off, that was exactly how he felt. The shock and anger in his voice as he caught me playing around with Oliver and David still echoed through my mind and mixed in with my memories; it only served to make me feel worse.
As I began to take control of myself and drive the anxiety and panic away, I sat up and rested my back against a tree. I could tell that I was definitely bruised and cut from the fall I'd taken earlier but there didn't seem to be any major damage to anything. I rested my head back and wiped the tears from my eyes. My heart was still pounding in my chest and honestly felt like it was going to burst through at any point but my breathing was starting to steady now at least.
Immediately, I felt stupid. Stupid for falling, stupid for chasing Luke, stupid for messing around with Oliver and David, stupid for even coming on this trip and, most of all, stupid for trying to pretend that me keeping this a secret from Luke was somehow the right thing to do. I'd been fooling myself that, as long as he didn't know, it was still a possibility. He could fall in love with me and we'd spend the rest of our lives together. If he didn't know that I was gay, he couldn't reject me. I could continue to live in this fantasy world that I'd created to help my mind cope with the fact that I was in love with my straight best friend. I could continue to pretend that everything would work out when, really, the problem was that things were never going to work out the way I'd imagined and that the longer I kept up the delusion, the harder it would be for me to take it when it all shattered.
Coming to this realisation was bitter-sweet. On the one hand, I now knew that I needed to come to terms with the fact that Luke and I weren't going to fall in love and be a couple for the rest of our lives. There was some freedom to be found within that. Freedom that would allow me to accept who I was and be open about it. Freedom that would permit me the chance of exploring other possibilities like Oliver. But, on the other hand, the knowledge that it wasn't going to happen just made me feel empty inside in a way that I'd never experienced before.
I was broken from my reverie by the crunching sound of twigs underfoot; someone was approaching me. Even before I looked up, I knew that it was Luke. Our eyes met and he looked away but he didn't stop moving towards me until he was about 4 metres away. From that distance, I could see the redness in his cheeks and under his eyes. He'd been crying as well and, instinctively, I felt worse. Now I was responsible for making him upset as well. You might find that odd - here was a boy that I believed had just turned his back on me and rejected me for being gay but I felt guilty that he was upset about it. Logically, it doesn't make sense but, if you understand the foundation of mine and Luke's friendship, you'd get it. I would have done anything to make him happy but, for the first time in my entire life, I was looking at him and knowing that that just wasn't possible anymore.
The silence between us hung in the air like a thick blanket. We were both very aware of it but neither one of us had the strength to break through. I had to be strong now. I had to find the ability to push through the pain and loss that I felt and find a way to move forward from this. "Luke..." I said, my voice as quiet as the rustling of the leaves in the wind but it was enough. I didn't continue, just saying his name had taken all that I had but it opened up the possibility for him to speak. He looked at me, our eyes meeting, and this time he didn't turn away. "Why?" he asked.
The question seemed to fill the space around us. I didn't understand what he was asking me and so couldn't offer any answer that would satisfy him but he just continued to plead with me through his eyes, leaving the word to stand on its own. When no answer was forthcoming, he continued the thought: "Why with them?"
I don't know if it was that my mind couldn't understand what was going on or whether he just wasn't clear in what he was trying to communicate but I didn't comprehend the meaning behind his question. How could that be what he wanted to know right now? Could it be that he wasn't angry about me being gay but that it being with Oliver and David? I didn't get why that would be the issue?
"What... what do you mean?" I managed to get out. "Why did you do it with them?" he looked me with those sad blue eyes, "Why didn't you ask me?" What the actual fuck? It felt like my mind exploded! "You... you aren't gay," I exclaimed. "No, I'm not," Luke said, confident in that truth, "but you're my best friend. I'd have let you... I don't know." He appeared to blush and lowered his head. Struggling to my feet, I headed towards him with a slight limp. "You'd have let me what?" I asked, my voice shaking. "If I'd known you were... you know... then I'd have let you try it. Just to see, you know?" Luke's own voice was trembling as he spoke to me. He was just as nervous and anxious as I was in this moment. "To see what?" I probed further. "To see if you are gay... if you like it. I'd have let you... play with me," he paused for a moment, "I'd have let you... suck... me."
As he said this, I was less than a metre away from him. I could see the pain in his eyes; he truly felt upset that I hadn't come to him. Here he was - a straight teenage boy - willing to let his gay best friend experiment with him just to help him out and he was actually upset that I'd not given him the opportunity.
I had a dilemma. For the first time in my life I was starting to understand that nothing more than friendship could happen with Luke and his words here didn't change that. He wasn't saying that he was gay and was in love with me - he was definitely straight and there was no way that anything more than friendship was ever going to happen here. But, at the same time, there was the opportunity for a taste of what more would be like. More than that, he was upset that I didn't do more with him. He wanted this; he wanted me to play with him. The sadness in his eyes wouldn't go away until I did. I wish I could tell you that I was strong enough to resist and accept my new reality and move on but I wasn't. Seeing the depth of upset behind his eyes was more than enough to break down any strength I had. I took one more step towards the beautiful blond boy in front of me and I dropped down to my knees.
"What are you doing?" he said to me but I didn't look up at him. I placed my hands on either side of his thighs and moved them steadily up to the waistband of his trackies. "You... you want me?" he said, almost as a whisper. The hope in his voice was evident. I reached the waistband and started to pull his trackies and underwear down in one movement. There it was. His dick was so familiar from our play together that one time when we were younger and from all the glances I'd taken at him during swimming or changing for P.E at school. At the same time, it almost felt brand new as if I was seeing it for the first time because this time I was seeing it for a reason. This time, I had a purpose for looking at it. His balls were an average size; they didn't hang low like David's did but, at the same time, they weren't as tight up against his body like Oliver's were. His uncut cock had become quite thick as he'd grown up and it had more developed veins then it used to, with long ridges running pretty much all the way down. He was uncut, as I'd remembered, but the foreskin wasn't especially loose. In essence, it was beautiful - he was beautiful.
I looked up towards him; he was looking down at me. There was no need for words as our eyes said everything that needed to be communicated. I stuck out my tongue and, for the first time in my life, I tasted the cock of another boy. He shuddered and moaned out as my tongue circled around the head. It turned into a groan when I closed my lips around it. This was it; I was sucking the dick of my best friend - my straight best friend - in the middle of the forest.
I'm not going to pretend that I was any good. The truth is, as blowjobs go, it was probably one of the worst I would ever give in my life. My inexperience, nervousness and the gravity of the situation all contributed to that but it didn't matter to either of us. Everything I did felt new and exciting to me and every second that I was down there just caused Luke to moan louder and louder with the pleasure that I was giving him. Honestly, I'd go as far as to describe the experience as magical.
Given that this was both of our first times, I never went down more than a few inches of his 6.5-inch cock. I used my tongue and lips far more than I did my throat - something I was aware, and a little afraid, of. This didn't stop Luke from running his long fingers through my hair. He moaned as he gripped my locks, never pulling them or trying to control my movements but just enjoying the feeling in his hands as he lost all sense of everything else; the edge was quickly approaching for him.
He began to groan very loudly and his breathing became more and more shallow. The sensation of my tongue against his dick was too much and he started to loudly proclaim that he was close. I know I could have swallowed it straight down but I wanted to see it; I needed to watch as he shot the load I'd worked out of him.
I pulled off and used my right hand to stroke his beautiful uncut cock. Looking up at him, we made eye contact as I stuck my tongue out and opened my mouth to show my willingness to take his spunk. He bit down on his bottom lip and his eyes started to screw up. Throwing his head back, his cock jerked and pulsed in my hand and he started to shoot. Luke's load was thick and a brilliant white. It flew from his cock and onto my face with only a small portion of it landing over my tongue and the vast majority firing into my hair or over my clothes.
Immediately, the taste buds on my tongue came alive. They danced as his delicious yet salty flavour spread out across them and begun to slide back down and into my mouth. My best friend looked down at me as his orgasm faded. Taking hold of his cock, he squeezed out the last few droplets, making sure that they landed on my waiting tongue.
We'd both got what we'd wanted. I'd finally had the chance to taste the boy I'd lusted after for years and he'd had the opportunity to be the truest friend to me as he had wanted to be. Where we were going to go from here though was anyone's guess.
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