Monday I ask Gramps how I should have answered Josh when he ask me if it was OK with me if he dated and kissed girls. Gramps looked at me and I saw a tear form in his eye as I am sure he recalled how he had answered that question. He said,"Jesse you can love someone with all your heart and soul, but there is no earthly way that you can force that person to love you. You gave the same answer I gave so many years ago". Gramps told me only time would tell if my answer would strengthen Josh's love for me. Be there for him if he needs you, he is very fragile. If he should fall in love with a girl, he can have a "normal" happy life. But if he falls for her and she doesn't love him, he will need your support more than ever. No matter how it turns out you have to be strong and accept it. Life will go on, it is like a roller coaster the incline is a lot slower than the the very fast decline. You cannot control someones life, you can only share the good and bad times.
Josh called this afternoon after school, we talked a few minutes, I told him How much I loved him. He said he would be on the Internet in a few minutes. My heart does flips every time I see that flag come up "Josh just signed in".
We seem to be back like we were before he broke off with me Friday night. We began our chat with a little humor. He asked me "Hay, what's up". I replied "Little Jesse" he want to play with "Little Josh". That's about the way the chat went until his mom came home and he had to get off the net.
Gramps 03
Gramps arrived in Texas on a very hot summer day. He had spent many a hot summer day working in the fields on the farm, but this heat was overwhelming. When he had been in boot camp it was in south Texas and winter, so it was mild then.
Gramps was shuttled to the base hospital where he waited in limbo, not knowing what his future held. Again he found himself laying in bed with tears in his eyes listening to the loud air coolers all night. \r\n \r\nFinally the doctors made a decision to send him back to duty. They determined the injury did not interfere with his duties. \r\n \r\nGramps at the age of eighteen, not happy with the way his life was going was assigned to a new experimental group called Confinement Screening. His duty was to guard and escort prisoners sent here for screening. Here he learned what happen to the men facing all kinds of charges. He was interested in the treatment of the "queers" by the guards. It was not uncommon to see the guards give a "queer" a blanket party. (they throw a blanket over the guy's head while he is asleep and then beat the shit out of him. This usually happened after a guard on duty at night found a guy giving another guy a blow job. When Gramps was on night duty he would walk loudly as he patrolled the barracks. This gave the guys a chance to get back in their own bed before he checked beds. Beds had to be checked every hour because this was an open barracks with no bars on the windows. Most prisoners here were minimum security and the majority of them were supposedly "queer". \r\n \r\n \r\nSome of the "queers" when they found out they were going to the stockade would beg Gramps to let them escape because they knew he sympathetic toward them. Gramps knew though if he let his sympathy be known, he would be joining the prisoners. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps was worried he would be labeled as a sympathiser and decided he had better transfer out as soon as he could. His transfer finally came through, he was put on base patrol. Gramps liked this duty much better until one night he with three other M P's were sent to town to pick up a drunk and disorderly soldier from the city jail. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps said when they got to the jail, he was horrified at what he saw. There huddled in the corner of a jail cell was this black guy more like a boy. He was bloody, face swelled as if he had been in one hell of a fight. This was Gramp's first taste of prejudice in the south. When the jailer came to get him out of the cell for us he drug him to the cell door by the foot, then kicked to make him get up. We put the cuffs on him and as we took him from the cell block the jailer hit him with a night stick across the back. We put him in the vehicle, it was called a carry all similar to today's suburban. He was in a lot of pain but he never said a word not even a whimper. He was placed in the middle seat with Gramps on one side and another guard on the other side, the other two guards in the front. \r\n",1] ); //-->
Finally the doctors made a decision to send him back to duty. They determined the injury did not interfere with his duties.
Gramps at the age of eighteen, not happy with the way his life was going was assigned to a new experimental group called Confinement Screening. His duty was to guard and escort prisoners sent here for screening. Here he learned what happen to the men facing all kinds of charges. He was interested in the treatment of the "queers" by the guards. It was not uncommon to see the guards give a "queer" a blanket party. (they throw a blanket over the guy's head while he is asleep and then beat the shit out of him). This usually happened after a guard on duty at night found a guy giving another guy a blow job. When Gramps was on night duty he would walk loudly as he patrolled the barracks. This gave the guys a chance to get back in their own bed before he checked beds. Beds had to be checked every hour because this was an open barracks with no bars on the windows. Most prisoners here were minimum security and the majority of them were supposedly "queer".
Some of the "queers" when they found out they were going to the stockade would beg Gramps to let them escape because they knew he was sympathetic toward them. Gramps knew if he let his sympathy be known, he would be joining the prisoners.
Gramps was worried he would be labeled as a sympathizer and decided he had better transfer out as soon as he could. His transfer finally came through, he was put on base patrol. Gramps liked this duty much better until one night he with three other M P's were sent into town to pick up a drunk and disorderly soldier from the city jail.
Gramps said when they got to the jail, he was horrified at what he saw. There huddled in the corner of a jail cell was this black guy more like a boy. He was bloody, face swelled as if he had been in one hell of a fight. This was Gramp's first taste of prejudice in the south. When the jailer came to get the boy out of the cell for us he drug him to the cell door by the foot, then kicked him to make him get up. We put the cuffs on him and as we took him from the cell block the jailer hit him with a night stick across the back. We put him in the vehicle, it was called a carry all similar to today's suburban. He was in a lot of pain but he never said a word not even a whimper. He was placed in the middle seat with Gramps on one side and another guard on the other side, the other two guards in the front. \r\n \r\nThe boy sit with his head down saying nothing, when the guard driving started harassing him, the boy didn't respond. When we stopped for a stop sign, the driver turned around to look at the boy. He started cussing and calling the boy names Gramps had never heard before. When the boy still didn't respond, the driver spit a big snotty glob in his face, this brought a quick response. The boy rared back against the seat brought both feet up and kicked the back of the driver's seat so hard it threw him into the steering wheel. Gramps knew this was not good, they starting hitting with night sticks so hard Gramps thought they were going to kill him. Of the four guards Gramps was the youngest (18) and the smallest (5' 7" 135 pounds). Two of the other three were over six feet and two hundred pounds. The third was tall probably 6' 5" thin maybe 180 pounds. The prisoner wasn't much bigger than I was and here were these three brutes beating him while his hands were cuffed. By the time they arrived at the base the boy was unconscious. The driver who was in charge of the detail filled out his report stating the prisoner passed out from being drunk. As they placed him in a holding cell he was showing signs of regaining conscious and again they started beating on him. When the shift commander came in, he called an ambulance and had the boy taken to the base hospital. Gramps didn't remember any more about the boy after he was sent to the hospital, but he has never forgot his first taste of prejudice. Gramps found out later that the other three guards were from the south, the driver was from Alabama. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps found it difficult to observe all the abuse and never attempted to participate in it. In Gramp's barracks there was only one black guy, one Mexican, one Indian and the rest were all white. Gramps noticed these guys were always assigned what was called shit details, stuck out in the sticks guarding who knows what, out of sight of another human. \r\n",1] ); //-->
The boy sit with his head down saying nothing, when the guard driving started harassing him, the boy didn't respond. When we stopped for a stop sign, the driver turned around to look at the boy. He started cussing and calling the boy names Gramps had never heard before. When the boy still didn't respond, the driver spit a big snotty glob in his face, this brought a quick response. The boy rared back against the seat brought both feet up and kicked the back of the driver's seat so hard it threw him into the steering wheel. Gramps knew this was not good, they starting hitting the boy with night sticks so hard Gramps thought they were going to kill him. Of the four guards Gramps was the youngest (18) and the smallest (5' 7" 135 pounds). Two of the other three were over six feet and two hundred pounds. The third was tall probably 6' 5" thin maybe 180 pounds. The prisoner wasn't much bigger than Gramps was and here were these three brutes beating him while his hands were cuffed. By the time they arrived at the base the boy was unconscious. The driver who was in charge of the detail, he filled out his report stating the prisoner passed out from being drunk. As they placed him in a holding cell he was showing signs of regaining conscious and again they started beating on him. When the shift commander came in, he called an ambulance and had the boy taken to the base hospital. Gramps didn't remember any more about the boy after he was sent to the hospital, but he has never forgot his first taste of prejudice. Gramps found out later that the other three guards were from the south, the driver was from Alabama.
Gramps found it difficult to observe all the abuse and never attempted to participate in it. In Gramp's barracks there was only one black guy, one Mexican, one Indian and the rest were all white. Gramps noticed these guys were always assigned to what was called shit details, stuck out in the sticks guarding who knows what, out of sight of another human. \r\n \r\nGramps liked the black guy, he was very polite and always willing to help out. He was from Louisiana and he loved to shine shoes. Gramps said his shoes look like mirrors they were so shinny. \r\n \r\nGramps became friends with the black guy, his name was Jackson. They would hang out together, go to movies on the base, play basket ball, running or what ever they wanted to do. \r\n \r\nThey hardly ever went into town and it never dawned on Gramps why until one Saturday they decide to go into town. Jackson was reluctant to go, Gramps finally talked him int going. We had to take a bus, as we got on the bus I let Jackson get on first, that was just an old habit I had of letting my friends go first. As they got on the bus Gramps followed Jackson, he wondered why Jackson passed all the empty seats and went to the very back. Gramps just figured he like siting in the back. They talked and joked on the bus ride into town. Gramps ask Jackson if he wanted to go in the five and dime store and look around. Jackson reluctantly agreed. As we started to enter the store Gramps saw a water fountain and said he wanted to get a drink. When Gramps got to the water fountain he noticed there were two water fountains. On the second water fountain was a sign that said "colored". Gramps said hey Jackson look they have a colored water fountain and he went over turned it on and the water came out. Gramps said hell that water ain't colored its as clear as any water I ever seen. Hearing this Jackson burst out laughing, Gramps looked at him and said what the hell is so funny, why they say colored water when its as clear as any water. When Jackson was able to stop laughing, he explained to Gramps the colored fountain was for black people. Gramps had a hard time understanding something so stupid. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps said he got educated about the south that day. He said inside the store they had "black" and "white" restrooms. Everywhere Gramps and Jackson went in the store, Gramps noticed someone watching them all the time. Gramps asked Jackson if he noticed that, Jackson told him he was used to it because it always happens in white stores. \r\n",1] ); //-->
Gramps liked the black guy, he was very polite and always willing to help out. He was from Louisiana and he loved to shine shoes. Gramps said his shoes look like mirrors they were so shinny.
Gramps became friends with the black guy, his name was Jackson. They would hang out together, go to movies on the base, play basket ball, running or what ever they wanted to do.
They hardly ever went into town and it never dawned on Gramps why until one Saturday they decided to go into town. Jackson was reluctant to go, Gramps finally talked him into going. We had to take a bus, as we got on the bus Gramps let Jackson get on first, that was just an old habit he had of letting his friends go first. As they got on the bus Gramps followed Jackson, he wondered why Jackson passed all the empty seats and went to the very back. Gramps just figured he like siting in the back. They talked and joked on the bus ride into town.
Gramps ask Jackson if he wanted to go in the five and dime store and look around. Jackson reluctantly agreed. As we started to enter the store Gramps saw a water fountain and said he wanted to get a drink. When Gramps got to the water fountain he noticed there were two water fountains. On the second water fountain was a sign that said "colored". Gramps said, " hey Jackson look they have a colored water fountain" and he went over turned it on and the water came out. Gramps said, " hell that water ain't colored its as clear as any water I ever seen". Hearing this Jackson burst out laughing, Gramps looked at him and said "what the hell is so funny, why do they say colored water when its as clear as any water". When Jackson was able to stop laughing, he explained to Gramps the colored fountain was for black people. Gramps had a hard time understanding something so stupid.
Gramps said he got educated about the south that day. He said inside the store they had "black" and "white" restrooms. Everywhere Gramps and Jackson went in the store, Gramps noticed someone watching them all the time. Gramps asked Jackson if he noticed that, Jackson told him he was used to it because it always happens in most all stores. \r\n \r\nGramps had had enough of this weird nonsense, He ask Jackson if he wanted to see a movie while in town. Jackson said he didn't know if he could get in, Gramps told him don't sweat it it my treat, thinking Jackson was short on money. Gramps walked up to the ticket window with Jackson standing behind, told the ticket person "two please". The ticket person looked at Gramps and said "is he with you", Gramps said yes mamm. \r\n \r\nShe pulled one of the tickets back and said he can't go in. Gramps said why not, she said isn't it obvious. Gramps was getting upset, and said isn't what obvious. She yelled at him "HE'S BLACK". Gramps said he about lost it then and yelled back at her "WHY IN THE HELL DOES THAT MATTER". Gramps told her to give him his money back he wouldn't go in that dam theatre if it was the last one on earth. \r\n
\r\nJackson was transferred to a base out west and I sure hated to see him go. He had taught me a lot about the south and we had a lot of fun times. \r\n \r\nGramp's mom and dad came through Texas on a trip to California and stopped in to see him. While they were there they help him buy a car (1951 Mercury). He had just turned nineteen and was real glad to get some wheels. He showed me the pictures of that car, he was proud, it showed on his face in the picture. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps didn't drink or smoke and was the only one on their floor with a car. A bunch of the guys talked Gramps into driving them to Mexico for a weekend. They told him they would buy the gas and his food and all the pussy he wanted. Gramps figured he had better go along although he didn't want to. He couldn't take a chance on someone thinking he was "queer". \r\n \r\n \r\nThere were seven including Gramps, they arrived at the border late on Friday night. They decided to park the car on the states side for safety. They still had to pay a Mexican to keep an eye on the car.",1] ); //-->
Gramps had enough of this weird nonsense, He ask Jackson if he wanted to see a movie while in town. Jackson said he didn't know if he could get in, Gramps told him don't sweat it, it's my treat, thinking Jackson was short on money. Gramps walked up to the ticket window with Jackson standing behind, told the ticket person "two please". The ticket person looked at Gramps and said "is he with you", Gramps said yes he is. The ticket person pulled one of the tickets back and said he can't go in. Gramps said why not, the ticket person said isn't it obvious. Gramps was getting upset, and said "isn't what obvious". The ticket person yelled at him "HE'S BLACK". Gramps said he about lost it then and yelled back at the ticket person "WHY IN THE HELL DOES THAT MATTER". Gramps told the ticket person to give him his money back he wouldn't go in that dam theater if it was the last one on earth.
Jackson was transferred to a base out west and I sure hated to see him go. He had taught me a lot about the south and we had a lot of fun times.
Gramp's mom and dad came through Texas on a trip to California and stopped in to see him. While they were there, they help him buy a car (1951 Mercury). He was about to turn nineteen and was real glad to get some wheels. He showed me the pictures of that car, he was proud, it showed on his face in the picture.
Gramps didn't drink or smoke and was the only one on their floor with a car. A bunch of the guys talked Gramps into driving them to Mexico for a weekend. They told him they would buy the gas and his food and all the pussy he wanted. Gramps figured he had better go along although he didn't want to. He couldn't take a chance on someone thinking he was "queer".
There were seven including Gramps, they arrived at the border late on Friday night. They decided to park the car on the states side for safety. They still had to pay a Mexican guy to keep an eye on the car. \r\n \r\nSince they had been drinking on the trip down, they were pretty well loaded. We walked across the border and were surrounded by Mexican kids all yelling "fuckie my sister giveie me dollar". They all went into a bar, Gramps really felt out of place but pretended to be having fun anyway. One by one the guys disappeared into back rooms with a girl. Soon Gramps was left all alone with girls trying to get him into a back room. It had been almost a year since he had had sex and although he was horny as hell, he couldn't bring himself to take a girl afraid he would not be able to get hard and be laughed in front of the other guys. Gramps left the bar, walked back to where the car was parked and ask the Mexican watching the car if there was a hotel close by. He directed Gramps to a nearby hotel. Gramps got a room, went to bed and jacked off, cum all over the bed so it looked like he had had good sex. \r\n \r\n \r\nThe next morning, he ate an early breakfast and hurried back to the bar where he left the other guys. A couple of the guys were there waiting and ask Gramps where in the hell did he shack up at. Gramps told them he got a hotel room. The ask if he got laid and had good sex, Gramps said "oh yeah I had great sex". \r\n \r\n \r\nWe had welcomed in the new year (1956) and I was hoping it would be a lot better than the last. Gramps had finally come to grips with losing his lover, but knew he would always be in his heart. He was able to remember now with out crying every time. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps met a guy named Jim that had transferred in from the same state not too far from Gramp's home. They became good friends. Jim was sort of religious, but a really nice guy. He started dating a girl in town that went to the Nazarene Church. \r\n \r\n \r\nOne Sunday Jim ask Gramps if he would drive him to church and then to his girlfriend's house for Sunday dinner. Gramps thought what the hell he hadn't had a home cooked meal since joining the service, so he went.",1] ); //-->
Since they had been drinking on the trip down, they were pretty well loaded. We walked across the border and were surrounded by Mexican kids all yelling "fuckie my sister giveie me dollar".
They all went into a bar, Gramps really felt out of place but pretended to be having fun anyway. One by one the guys disappeared into back rooms with a girl. Soon Gramps was left all alone with girls trying to get him into a back room. It had been almost a year since he had had sex and although he was horny as hell, he couldn't bring himself to take a girl, afraid he would not be able to get hard and be laughed at in front of the other guys. Gramps left the bar, walked back to where the car was parked and ask the Mexican guy watching the car if there was a hotel close by. He directed Gramps to a nearby hotel. Gramps got a room, went to bed and jacked off, cum all over the bed so it looked like he had had good sex.
The next morning, he ate an early breakfast and hurried back to the bar where he left the other guys. A couple of the guys were there waiting and ask Gramps where in the hell did he shack up at. Gramps told them he got a hotel room. They ask if he got laid and had good sex, Gramps said "oh yeah I had great sex".
They had welcomed in the new year (1956) and Gramps was hoping it would be a lot better than the last. Gramps had finally come to grips with losing his lover, but knew he would always be in his heart. He was able to remember now with out crying every time.
Gramps met a guy named Jim that had transferred in from the same state not too far from Gramp's home. They became good friends. Jim was sort of religious, but a really nice guy. He started dating a girl (Mary) in town that went to the Nazarene Church.
One Sunday Jim ask Gramps if he would drive him to church and then to Mary's house for Sunday dinner. Gramps thought what the hell he hadn't had a home cooked meal since joining the service, so he went. \r\n\r\n \r\nJim's girlfriend's family were the religious type except for her brother (Paul). He was fifteen, wild and sexy. Gramp's dick got hard as soon as he saw him, he was one of those guys that sex just seems to flow off of. But he liked girls. I got the vibes though that he was so horny he would take sex any way he could get it. \r\n \r\n \r\nFor the next month or so Gramps went with Jim to his girlfriend's house. Gramps and Paul would run around together while Jim was with Paul's sister. Gramps and Paul got to be really good friends. Gramps was really attracted to Paul, but afraid to make any advance on him. \r\n \r\n \r\nEaster Sunday was coming up and Paul asked if I would like to go to the Easter Pageant in Oklahoma. It was held at sunrise on a hill in the country. We would have to leave on Saturday spend the night in the car to be there for sunrise services. Paul begged Gramps to go, Gramps acting reluctant finally said he would go. \r\n \r\n \r\nWhen they arrived, it was dark. They had brought food to eat since they would be there until the next day. After eating they played cards and talked. Paul kept looking around, Gramps asked what he was looking for, Paul said pussy. So Gramps pretended to do the same. Gramps had a tent in his pants and since the light was on in the car, Paul saw it. Paul said you got a hard on, Gramps looked over at Paul's crotch and said I see you are putting up a tent too. Paul rubbed his pants over his hard on and said I am really horny. Gramp's heart was beating so fast he thought it would jump out of hi chest. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps reached up to turn the light out, as he did his hard dick rubbed against Paul. He didn't seem to mind, so Gramps just sit down next to him. Paul was leaning his head back in the seat, Gramps just let his hand fall on Paul's hard on gently. Since he didn't object Gramps started rubbing it through his pants. When Paul let out a little moan, that's all Gramps needed. He took Paul's hand and laid it on his hard on, Paul gently squeezed it and Gramps almost came in his pants. After rubbing each other through the pants for awhile, Gramps slid his pants down to his knees, then Paul did the same. The played with each others balls, jacked each other off until they came. Instead of pulling their pants back up they just sit there, neither one going soft. \r\n",1] ); //-->
Mary's family were the religious type except for her brother (Paul). He was fifteen, wild and sexy. Gramp's dick got hard as soon as he saw him, he was one of those guys that sex just seems to flow out of. But he liked girls. Gramps got vibes though that Paul was horny would take sex any way he could get it.
For the next month or so Gramps went with Jim to his Mary and Paul's house. Gramps and Paul would run around together while Jim was with Mary. Gramps and Paul became really good friends. Gramps was really attracted to Paul, but afraid to make any advance on him.
Easter Sunday was coming up and Paul asked if Gramps would like to go to the Easter Pageant in Oklahoma. It was held at sunrise on a hill in the country. They would have to leave on Saturday spend the night in the car to be there for sunrise services. Paul begged Gramps to go, Gramps acting reluctant finally said he would go.
When they arrived, it was dark. They had brought food to eat since they would be there until the next day. After eating they played cards and talked. Paul kept looking around, Gramps asked what he was looking for, Paul said pussy. So Gramps pretended to do the same. Gramps had a tent in his pants and since the light was on in the car, Paul saw it. Paul said you got a hard on, Gramps looked over at Paul's crotch and said I see you are putting up a tent too. Paul rubbed his pants over his hard on and said he was really horny. Gramp's heart was beating so fast he thought it would jump out of his chest.
Gramps reached up to turn the light out, as he did his hard dick rubbed against Paul. Paul didn't seem to mind, so Gramps just sit down next to him. Paul was leaning his head back in the seat, Gramps just let his hand fall on Paul's hard on gently. Since Paul didn't object Gramps started rubbing it through his pants. When Paul let out a little moan, that's all Gramps needed. He took Paul's hand and laid it on his own hard on, Paul gently squeezed it and Gramps almost came in his pants. After rubbing each other through the pants for awhile, Gramps slid his pants down to his knees, then Paul did the same. They played with each others balls, jacked each other off until they came. Instead of pulling their pants back up they just sit there, neither one going soft. \r\nThey played with each other all night, getting off four or five times before daylight. Gramps was in love again, but knew the limits. \r\n \r\nAfter that, the played with each other every chance they got. Paul would have Gramps spend nights with him. Gramps loved that because when Paul slept he dreamed he was fucking girls and would get on top of Gramps, rub and hunch until they came. \r\n \r\n \r\nThat summer they would go swimming nude at a lake. The lake had dock that extended out into the water. The deck had a knot hole in one of the boards about middle ways out. Paul would lay on his stomach with his dick sticking through the knothole. Gramps would get under the dock and suck on him until he came. Then Gramps would get on top of Paul, rub his dick in Paul's but crack until he came. \r\n \r\n \r\nThey were together almost all the time during that summer. Gramps showed me the pictures of good times they had together. Gramps was finally happy again, he had every thing he wanted except returned love. Gramps never told Paul he was in love with him, he thought that would end the relationship. So he continued his secret love for Paul, pleasing him every chance they got and Paul returned the favor.\r\n \r\n \r\nGramp's family wanted him to come home for Christmas (1956). \r\nAll his brothers and sisters were going to be there for the first time ever for Chrismas. But Gramps was in love and didn't want to leave Paul who was now sixteen. Gramps talked Paul's parents into letting Paul go home with him. His parents thought Gramps was really special for all the things he had done for Paul. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps trip home with Paul was a happy time, they were best of friends shared sex with each other and really enjoyed being together. Even with the element of love missing Gramps was really happy. When Gramps got home, his family couldn't figure out why he brought a boy from Texas with him. Paul looked to be eighteen at least so Gramps told them he was a buddy with no where to go for Christmas. Then they made him feel welcome. They couldn't sleep together while there, so ever time they got a chance to leave they would go park some where and have sex.\r\n",1] ); //--> They played with each other through the night, getting off four or five times before daylight. Gramps was in love again, but knew he could never reveal that to Paul..
After that night, they played with each other every chance they got. Paul had Gramps spend nights with him. Gramps loved that because when Paul slept he dreamed he was fucking girls and would get on top of Gramps, rub and hunch until they both came. Gramps was sure that Paul was awake when they came, but never said anything.
That summer they went swimming many times nude at a lake. The lake had a dock that extended out into the water. The deck had a knot hole in one of the boards about middle ways out. Paul would lay on his stomach with his dick sticking through the knothole. Gramps would get under the dock and suck on him until he came. Then Gramps would get on top of Paul, rub his dick in Paul's butt crack until he came.
They were together almost all the time during that summer. Gramps showed me the pictures of good times they had together. Gramps was finally happy again, he had every thing he wanted except returned love. Gramps never told Paul he was in love with him, he thought that would end the relationship. So he continued his secret love for Paul, pleasing him every chance they got and Paul returned the favor.
Gramp's family wanted him to come home for Christmas (1956). All his brothers and sisters were going to be there for the first time ever for Christmas. But Gramps was in love and didn't want to leave Paul who was now sixteen. Gramps talked Paul's parents into letting Paul go home with him for Christmas. Paul's parents thought Gramps was really special for all the things he had done for Paul.
Gramp's trip home with Paul was a very happy time, they were best of friends shared sex with each other and really enjoyed being together. Even with the element of love missing Gramps was really happy. When Gramps got home, his family couldn't figure out why he brought a boy from Texas with him. Paul looked to be eighteen at least so Gramps told them he was a buddy with no where to go for Christmas. Then they made him feel welcome. They couldn't sleep together while there, so ever time they got a chance to leave they would go park some where and have sex. \r\n \r\nWhen Gramps and Paul got back to Texas, Paul wanted Gramps to take him to New Year's party some of his classmates were having. Gramps still didn't drink or smoke and he felt out of place with high school kids, but he went anyway. It was after midnight and Gramps wanted to leave, he went looking for Paul. The more he looked without finding him the faster his heart beat until it was in his throat. After looking everywhere, he went to the bath room, there was Paul fucking the girl that hosted the party. As Gramps opened the door Paul was just pulling out of her with cum shooting all over her, the wall and the floor. \r\n \r\n \r\nAlthough Gramps knew this would happen sometime, he was devastated and heart broken. He could not let it show though for fear of being called a "queer". Gramps hiding his hurt and tears slipped out of the party and went back to the base. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps couldn't understand why he had to be "queer", why couldn't he like girls instead of boys. \r\n \r\nGramps was distraught and upset, he had to get away. In the middle of the night he threw some clothes in his car and headed home. He drove fast and hard (this was before interstate highways) only stopping for gas. When he got home as he was driving down the lane to the house, his car quit running and wouldn't start. He walked on to the house, his mom asked him what he was doing home. He couldn't tell her why and that he was AWOL too. He told her he has some time off and decided to come home. Gramps really didn't care what happen to him, he had been in love twice and lost. What the hell does it matter what happens to me he thought. His car was broke down in the lane, he couldn't get back before they discovered him missing now anyway. One of Gramp's favorite brothers happen to be visiting that week end because our grandmother had died Gramps wasn't even aware that she had died because she had been in a mental institution since before he was born.\r\n",1] ); //-->
When Gramps and Paul got back to Texas, Paul wanted Gramps to take him to a New Year's party some of his classmates were having. Gramps still didn't drink or smoke and he felt out of place with high school kids, but he went anyway. It was after midnight and Gramps wanted to leave, he went looking for Paul. The more he looked without finding him the faster his heart beat until it was in his throat. After looking everywhere, he went to the bath room, there was Paul fucking the girl that hosted the party. As Gramps opened the door Paul was just pulling out of her with cum shooting all over her, the wall and the floor.
Although Gramps knew this would happen sometime, he was devastated and heart broken. He could not let it show though for fear of being called a "queer". Gramps hiding his hurt and tears, slipped out of the party and went back to the base.
Gramps couldn't understand why he had to be "queer", why couldn't he like girls instead of boys.
Gramps was distraught and upset, he had to get away. In the middle of the night he threw some clothes in his car and headed home. He drove fast and hard (this was before interstate highways) only stopping for gas. When he got home as he was driving down the lane to the house, his car quit running and wouldn't start. He walked on to the house, his mom asked him what he was doing home. He couldn't tell her why and that he was AWOL too. He told her he had some time off and decided to come home. Gramps really didn't care what happen to him, he had been in love twice and lost. What the hell does it matter what happens to me, he thought. His car was broke down in the lane, he couldn't get back before they discovered him missing now anyway.
One of Gramp's favorite brothers happen to be visiting that week end because their grandmother had died. Gramps wasn't even aware that she had died because she had been in a mental institution since before he was born. \r\n \r\nGramps suddenly got an idea to keep him out of trouble for being AWOL. Gramps confided in his brother about taking off without permission. Gramps ask him if he would call his commanding officer and explain to him that his grandmother had died. Gramps was so upset he just came home, because he didn't know he could get an emergency leave. The commanding officer said he would initiate the paper work for his emergency leave. Gramps said thank god he fell for that story. Gramps parents help him get another car by co-signing a loan at the bank. This time Gramps got the sharpest car around at that time. It was a 1955 Mercury Monclair red trimmed in white with sun roof, duel spot lights, duel exhaust pipes and lots of chrome. He showed me the pictures, it was a cool car. \r\n \r\n \r\nGramps headed back to Texas with his head held high and proud of his new car. The closer he got to Texas the more his heart began to ache over Paul. \r\n \r\nA few days later Paul called Gramps and asked him if he would take him and a girl (Mary) on a date. Gramps knew Paul thought nothing was wrong between them, because he was not aware of Gramps being in love with him. Gramps agreed to take them to a drive in movie. As they made out in the back seat, Gramps pretended to watch the movie as tears ran down his face.\r\n \r\n \r\nPaul was at Mary's house almost every day after school and Gramps would go over and hang out with them. \r\n \r\nIf you are interested in Chapter 4 Gramps decides to try girls. \r\n \r\n\r\n",0] ); //-->
Gramps suddenly got an idea to keep him out of trouble for being AWOL. Gramps confided in his brother about taking off without permission. Gramps ask his brother if he would call his commanding officer and explain to him that his grandmother had died. Gramps told his brother to tell his commanding officer Gramps was so upset he just came home, because he didn't know he could get an emergency leave. The commanding officer said he would initiate the paper work for his emergency leave. Gramps said thank god he fell for that story.
Gramps parents help him get another car by co-signing a loan at the bank. This time Gramps got the sharpest car around at that time. It was a 1955 Mercury Monclair, red trimmed in white with sun roof, duel spot lights, duel exhaust pipes and lots of chrome. He showed me the pictures, it was a cool car.
Gramps headed back to Texas with his head held high and proud of his new car. The closer he got to Texas the more his heart began to ache over Paul.
A few days later Paul called Gramps and asked him if he would take him and a girl (Mary Beth) on a date. Gramps knew Paul thought nothing was wrong between them, because he was not aware of Gramps being in love with him. Gramps agreed to take them to a drive in movie. As they made out in the back seat, Gramps pretended to watch the movie in the front seat by himself as tears ran down his face.
Paul was at Mary's house almost every day after school and Gramps would go over and hang out with them. Gramps just wanted to be near Paul any way he could.
If you are interested in Chapter 4 Gramps decides to try girls