Tuesday
Josh and I had phone sex last night during our nightly talk. I love him so much and he tells me he loves me. Then he said "I know you don't believe me, but I really do love you". I told him I wanted to believe that more than anything in the world, but he has told me that before, the broke off with me. I hate being at this confused age, my heart believes him, my brain is confused.
I ask Gramps today if two people can really be in love by not being together physically to make love. Gramps said he didn't have an answer for that question. Then he said, it is common for people to be deeply "in love" with someone and never have personal contact or even talk with the person. This is very common among young people who fall "in love" with movie stars, musicians or someone they think is really "hot". These people feel love as deeply as any couple that is physically together, even though they never get to touch or talk to the person. Gramps said he has seen girls more than boys so "in love" with musicians that they are over whelmed and pass out at concerts. Gramps said he had been "in love" both ways, the best is to be together physically. A one sided love affair is a good feeling until the one you love has sex with some one else and breaks your heart. Gramps said in his opinion if two people think they are "in love", tell each other that, can talk for hours loving every minute of it, masturbate while talking on a phone and really feel satisfied after orgasm, still want to talk on the phone after orgasm, I would say they are "in love". What becomes of that love is up to the two people involved.
After talking with Gramps, my heart over ruled my brain (which is what usually happens with me) and I now believe Josh when he says "I love you so much".
I can hardly wait until he calls me after school today. Josh called as he promised, he was in his grandmother's bath room. I hope all he was doing was hiding to call me. He seems to spend a lot of time in bathrooms. He is on line with me now as he does his home work. I am working on Gramps story. I don't know how he has time to do all the homework he has to do. I guess that's why I think he is AWESOME. He told me we going to have some great phone sex tonight.
Gramps 04
In early 1957 Gramps had been in the service for two years. The service had a re-enlistment plan, you could take what they called a short discharge and re-enlist for six more years plus a re-enlistment bonus.
Gramps was barely making ends meet and he wanted to spend more time with Paul alone. Mary Beth was always with them no matter where they went. Gramps always had to pay for everything because they were still in school. Gramps told Paul of his plan to re-enlist to get the bonus. He ask Paul if he done that could just the two of them take like a vacation somewhere. Paul ask his parents for permission to go with Gramps on a trip back home, they agreed.
Gramp's re-enlistment and bonus came through, he got a thirty day leave also.
Gramps tried not to think what would happen when his leave was over and they came back to Texas. He and Paul were going to have fun and sex for thirty days with no one else around. Gramps said that was the best time he had had since entering the service.
They return to Texas when Gramp's leave time was up, he would have went AWOL if Paul could have gone with him. Paul went back to hanging out with Mary Beth every day after school and Gramps was there as much as his duty at the base would permit.
Paul was always trying to make out with Mary Beth, she loved him but wouldn't let him fuck her, said she was saving that for her wedding night.
Gramps had the sharpest car around and when he picked Paul up at school, the girls flooded around the car thinking it was Paul's car. Gramps let him set in the driver's seat to give them that impression after all he wanted to make Paul happy because he loved him.
Paul ask Gramps if it was OK to take some of the girls home. Gramps acting like it was a great idea, agreed. After that, every day Gramps and Paul had a car load of girls to take home.
This went on for a few weeks, then one day the last girl (Pat) to be taken home was sitting on Paul's lap. Paul asked her if she wanted to go riding around before she went home, she said sure. Gramps was driving around town and Paul climbed into the back seat and got Pat to go back there with him. When Gramps didn't see them in his rear view mirror, he turned to see where they were. Paul had her panties off and was fucking her in the back seat. Gramps got upset, headed out of town into the country. By the time he got to a secluded spot, Paul was cumming all over Gramp's back seat. Gramps and Paul got out of the car while Pat got dressed. They walked over behind some bushes to take a piss and Paul ask Gramps if he wanted to fuck her too. Gramps didn't know what to say, finally he said I don't want sloppy seconds, just jack me off here and I will be satisfied. While Paul was jacking off Gramps, he played with Paul's cock and balls.
This got to be a routine for Gramps, pick up Paul and Pat at school, drive her home slow while Paul fucked her in the back seat. Gramps and Paul were spending less and less time with Mary Beth and Gramps was feeling sorry for her because of the way Paul treated her. On the days Paul spent at Pat's house, Gramps went to hang out with Mary Beth, after all he was secretly in love with Paul too. Gramps and Mary Beth got along real well as they talked about the one thing they had in common, Paul.
The end of school dance was coming up and Paul felt bad because Mary Beth expected to go with him to the dance. Paul wanted to take Pat because he knew he could fuck after the dance, so he asked me if I would take Mary Beth. Gramps knew she didn't want to fuck and that only left kissing and he thought he could handle that OK. Gramps asked Mary Beth to the dance and she was very happy to go with him in that sharp car. This was 1957 and Marty Robbins "White Sport Coat" was the top song. When Gramps went to pick up Mary Beth, he was wearing a white sport coat with a pink carnation. Mary Beth was so impressed with him, she gave him a big hug right on the front porch. They went to pick up Paul and Pat, then headed for the dance. Gramps and Mary Beth were picked as the best looking couple at the dance. Gramps said it was the white sport coat and pink carnation that did it.
During the summer Gramps and Mary Beth double dated with Paul and Pat three of four times a week. Gramps and Mary Beth would hug and kiss in the front seat while Paul and Pat fucked in the back seat.
Gramps had become confused didn't know what he wanted to do, he liked Mary Beth very much and thought she was falling in love with him. He knew he would never be able to fall in love with her even though he prayed he could. When they were making out, Paul was always on his mind and he fantasied making out with Paul. He figured that was why Mary Beth fell in love with him, he was very passionate with his kisses in his fantasy. Gramps said he only kissed Paul once, that was when they slept together and Paul was dreaming of making out with some girl. Gramps said Paul had the sweetest and best kiss he ever got, then he knew why Paul could fuck just about any girl he wanted.
Gramp's commanding officer called him in one day and told him several guys were being transferred to a base out west. This was bad news for Gramps, he didn't want to leave, he had a girl friend, in love with a boy that he could have sex with and had made a lot of friends. There was no way he could get out of the transfer, so he tried to think of something he could do to stop it.
Gramps had an idea, he didn't like it because he had just reenlisted a few months ago, but he thought that would be the only way not to be transferred. Gramps went to the base hospital and ask to see a surgeon. After waiting a while the doctor ask Gramps to come into his office, ask him to sit down, then ask what he could do for him. Gramps got up, walked over to his desk, stuck out his hand and said "can you do any thing for this?" The doctor looked up at Gramps and said, "my god how did you do this?" The doctor said how in the hell did you get in the service with that hand. Gramps said when he enlisted they didn't look at his hands when they gave him a physical. The doctor said but you just reenlisted a few months ago, they didn't catch that in your physical this time either. The doctor ask him why he didn't show it to the examining doctor. Gramps told him his hand had been that way all his life and never even thought about it unless someone pointed it out or ask about it.
The doctor told Gramps there is no way the service will take the responsibility of surgery on your hand. I will initiate your separation papers ASAP. Gramps asked him if he would have to pay back the reenlistment bonus. The doctor told him no you will receive an Honorable discharge under medical conditions. Gramps told the doctor he was to be transferred in a week. The doctor told him he wasn't going anywhere but home. This had turned out better than Gramps hoped, he only wanted to stop the transfer.
Gramps was elated, he was relieved of all duties until his paperwork was all finish, in the service this takes about a month. Gramps had a whole month to do nothing but have fun. Gramps and Paul had the time of their life, double dating, jacking each other off, sleeping together, swimming, fishing, water skiing and for the first time in his life, Paul got him to partying. This went on for most of the month.
Gramps received notice to pick up his orders for discharge from the service and his separation pay. Gramps was so happy, he and Paul started partying. When he went to get his pay, he was so drunk he had to crawl up the steps to the finance building. They refused to pay him until he came back sober. Paul took him to the lake threw him in and proceeded to sober him up. Gramps went back to the base, got his pay, said good bye to his buddies and left the base for the last time.
Gramps now free to do what ever he wanted, decided the first thing he needed was a place to live and a job. Gramps got an apartment and Paul practically lived there with him. They still partied and double dated. One night they were partying and Paul was pretty drunk as was Gramps, they ended up in a sixty nine for the first time since they had been together. Paul did let Gramps suck him now while he jacked Gramps off.
Paul came across a boy that had run away from hone and had no where to stay except on the streets. Gramps said he could stay if there was no trouble.
Gramps came home from work one day and found Paul and this boy in a sixty nine. Gramps said he was really upset, but he wasn't sure why. He wanted to join in but at the same time he was jealous of the boy sucking Paul's dick. He said he felt better after he joined in. The boy stayed with them for about a month, then left one day while Gramps was at work. They never saw him again, Gramps felt sorry for the kid and wondered what happened to him
Gramps was accepted at an engineering school in Dallas. He didn't want to leave Paul and the girls, but this was an opportunity he couldn't pass up if he wanted to get a good job.
Paul was seventeen and Gramps twenty, Paul's parents let him do pretty much what ever he wanted as long as he didn't get into trouble. Gramps wanted to take Paul to Dallas with him, he needed someone to be with him at night.
After a week in Dallas, Paul wanted to go back home, he had nothing to do all day while Gramps was in school and was bored out of his mind. That week end Gramps took Paul back home, he was afraid he was losing Paul, he just had that deep down feeling in his gut.
For those interested in Gramps 05 he has his first sexual encounter with an older man.