Hay and Straw - An Awakaning
Chapter I
by Lightskinboy
(Warning: Race Play Story)
It was a class trip towards the end of the tenth grade. Most of us were between 15 and 16 years old at the time and of course we, the boys, were interested in sex, despite none of us having any. My name is Tom, and I was the only black kid in our class at the time. So basically, everyone in my class was white and all my buddies were white. I did not really think about it, although subconsciously I knew we were different on some level. But the white boys were nice. They never made me feel bad for not being white. I only recall one instance, when I was much younger, probably nine or ten, when I was visiting one of my best friends at the time and after playing outside for a while, we were supposed to get into the bath tub and get cleaned. After he had washed off all the dust and dirt he told me, that he always forgets that I will not get ?white? after cleaning myself, that also after that, my skin is black, as if it was still covered with dirt. Of course, I didn?t know what to say but I remembered feeling hurt from his comment, instilling in the idea into me, that no matter how much I tried to clean myself, I?d always be dirty and (in his eyes) inferior. But I grew up in a very white neighborhood, so I thought, ok, he just doesn?t know any other black kids and is unfamiliar with black bodies.
However, back to the tenth grade. It was a warm summer and our class was on a trip to a farm, an experience that was called ?Sleeping in Hay and Straw?. So basically we were supposed to sleep at an animal farm inside the stalls filled with hay, in our sleeping bags. We were divided into groups of four or so, each of the groups getting a stall with hay to sleep in. The stalls were big, as they would have fit horses, cows or other life stock into them. However, now they were just used for school classes. Everything was clean too, but of course it still smelled like hay and farming.
So I was in a group with three white boys, all of us roughly the same age. I don?t remember much of what happened during the day, but I remember us lying in the hay stall at night. Of course, we were talking about sex, girls, our dicks, jerking off? all of that. They all were straight and I considered myself to be straight as well at the time. Fun fact, I even had a girlfriend at the time who I didn?t give any attention to.
Felix was kind of the ?leader? of our group. He was very confident and cocky, good-looking with dark blond hair and many girls like him. He didn?t care what people thought of him and said what he thought, sometimes even being pretty coy towards teachers. Especially the female ones. I was very close friends with Felix at the time. Then there was Chris, a quiet but cute boy who was a very good soccer player and who enjoyed sports in general. I was not very close with him, but I admired him being athletic and that he used to be together with Lina, the most popular blonde girl in class. Last here was Ben, who was also in our stall. He was kind of a sidekick and a little juvenile for his ages, always wanting to be part of the group.
So there we were, three adolescent white boys and me, the only black kid in class, talking about all kind of things that made us horny. At some point we had the idea to compare our dicks, to see how big they were and who was the most developed. I think I went first, whipping out by black boy cock which was pretty hard already. I knew I didn?t have anything to hide because I knew my size was not bad. Felix showed his white cock next. He too was fully hard, and significantly bigger than mine. Felix and I have been jerking off together for some time, so we knew each other?s dicks. But we would always only jerk off ourselves not each other. My dick used to be bigger than his, because I developed earlier. When we started masturbating my dick was almost twice as long as his, but with time he developed, passing me by, regarding dick size.
Chris and Ben were more hesitant, since they were not familiar to showing their dicks to other boys or jerking off together, like Felix and I were. Maybe it was peer pressure or being horny, but Chris went on and lifted his boxers, exposing a surprisingly long and thick dick, surrounded by a full bush of black pubic hair. We were all surprised since no one of us had seen Chris? cock. After Ben showed his dick, which was, like him, let?s say still not as developed but still a normal size. It was clear, that Chris had the biggest cock in the room, followed by Felix and then me.
?So much for Big Black Cock, huh, Tommy? You?re only No.3 here? Felix said mockingly. His comment irritated me and it hit close to home. I always used to boast about my dick size in the past, and once he surpassed me, Felix did not hesitate to give me a taste of my own medicine, now that he had the bigger dick.
We continued horsing around, fondling our dicks and talking about masturbation, pussy, tits and all that stuff until suddenly Felix had the idea, that we should suck each other?s dicks. Just to know how it feels. I was excited at the idea of getting my dick sucked, I really wanted to know how it would feel to have my dick in a warm mouth. So I said, we should do it. Felix and I were instigating this, while Chris and Ben were mostly listening and following the whole thing. Felix said he would do it if I did it first. I really wanted to know how it felt to get sucked, so I agreed. I would take Felix? dick in my mouth and after that we would take mine and I would get my dick sucked for the first time in my life.
?Ok, I will do you, then you do my? I said. ?Sure? Felix answered while pulling down his boxers, exposing his white dick, which was 100% hard at this point. I lowered my head, moving towards his dick. I opened up and took the cock of my best friend into my mouth, while Chris and Ben were watching the whole thing. Three boys in my class now knew that I had taken a dick in my mouth. But I would be getting my dick sucked too, so I didn?t think it was that bad. I didn?t really know what to do, so I stayed still for some time. ?So that is how it feels?? I heard Felix say from above, while my face was still in his crotch. A sting feeling of jealousy hit me. Felix now knew how it felt, I wanted to know it too. I wanted to put my dick in his mouth and experience the feeling I was just giving to him.
After a few minutes got off his dick and laid next to him again. I had not really been sucking him, just licking him a little to be honest. I didn?t really know what to do at the time. I was waiting for him to return the favor as he had promised, but he just went on talking about the feeling of having your dick in a wet mouth. My mouth. He was clearly boasting as he was the only one from us four who had experienced that feeling. I laid next to him with my hard dick out while he was fondling his, totally ignoring my raving erection waiting for its moment. Then he changed the subject and it dawned on me that he was not planning on getting anywhere near my dick, that he had just tricked me into taking his dick in my mouth. My heart sank in disappointment. We kept on talking about other stuff for a while.
Suddenly Felix brought up the Blowjob thing again. ?Hey Tommy, I think you can do better than before. I think you need to move your head up and down a little to really make me feel good?. Felix said. Chris and Ben laughed, the way young teenage boys laugh at everything. It was a kind of ?Oh no you didn?t? laugh. But as I said earlier, Felix always had a big mouth and liked teasing and provoking people. I felt my head getting hot with shame. Felix did not laugh, he put on a cool, confident smirk, holding his hard white cock in his hand, while I looked at him confused and ashamed, but still rock-hard as well. I could feel the power dynamic changing between us. Like we were no longer equal, like I was less of a man in his eyes. I had done the unspeakable for adolescent boys who compete with each other for who is more manly and masculine. I had submitted to him. I had taken his cock into my mouth. The ultimate act of submission. He knew it and it dawned on me what I had done. And to top it off, Chris and Ben were there and had seen the whole thing.
?So what you say Tommy, wanna try again? You already did it anyway. But now do it properly? I got angry. I got up from my sleeping back, onto my knees, so I could talk back to him better. ?No man, fuck you, you come here and do me, like you promised!? Felix chuckled. ?No way, I?m no fucking cocksucker!? he said. Again, Chris and Ben laughed, trying to control themselves so no one would hear us. I felt an overwhelming sense of shame, my head getting red, while I was kneeling on my sleeping back with the three boys lying around me. I had no words to rebuttal that insult. The words stung like needles. ?I?m not a fucking cocksucker? I replayed in my head, meaning I was a fucking cocksucker. But I had only done it to get my cock sucked. Before I was even able to pull my thoughts together and think about what to say next, Felix got out of his sleeping back, onto his feet and now stood, towering over me with his dick in my face, looking down at me.
I looked at his dick, as it was swaying arrogantly in front of my face. That dick that got what my dick wanted so badly and demanding it again from me. I looked up to Felix, making eye contact. He clearly enjoyed having me on my knees, in front of him. There was that smirk again, as smirk only a confident, masculine, white boy could have. It was the smirk of power, superiority and white privilege. My eyes wandered down this body, the t-shirt he was still wearing, over his hard white cock down to his hairy, muscular legs and to his big naked feet, back up towards his face. He had stripped of his boxers and left them in his sleeping back. Our eyes interlocked. I had never felt so inferior to anyone in my life but I could not move and pull myself out of that situation. Chris and Ben were lying next to us, staring and excited what would happen next.
?Do it, Nigger!? Felix said with a tone of entitlement and contempt. Chris laughed saying ?Shit man, no way!? Ben was rolling in his sleeping back, laughing and saying ?Dude, I can?t believe you just said that.? I didn?t react to the laughter next to me, I looked up to Felix, staring him straight into the eyes in anger while he was looking down at me, not breaking eye contact for a second. While still looking into his blue eyes, I opened my mouth, without saying anything. He nodded with a self-satisfied look on his face and pushed his hard white cock into my expecting mouth. And I let him.
Chris and Ben could not believe their eyes. ?No way, he is doing it!? Chris said. The laughter subsided and they just stared. ?He is fucking do it! Unbelievable!?
I kept staring into Felix eyes, continuing to give him a look of anger while he was moving in and out of my mouth. He laughed at my pathetic attempt of intimidating him. After all, I had his dick in my mouth. He threw back his head and moaned.
?How does it feel? Ben asked. ?Fucking great, Dude, that?s how it feels.? Chris got up, holding his rock hard dick in his hand. ?Move, I want some too!? Felix pushed him aside. ?Fuck you, go find your own cocksucker, man!? I looked up at the two white boys arguing while I kept sucking Felix? cock. My anger had slipped away and I looked at those beautiful adolescent bodies in front of me with wide open eyes. Chris had taken off his shirt, standing naked in front of my. Felix has still wearing his t-shirt which he pulled up. I didn?t wear a t-shirt to begin with as I always felt hot in summer, so I had been completely naked from the beginning, except for my boxer shorts, which were in my sleeping bag.
?Yo Tommy, wanna suck my dick? Look it?s even bigger than Felix!? Chris said, playing with his dick in front of my face. I looked at him and then back to Felix. I felt like I needed his permission, like I mustn?t stop sucking him unless he told me otherwise.
?Dude, seriously, fuck off. Get your own cocksucker!? Felix said, slightly irritated. ?Please man, let me get some too.? Chris said to Felix. Felix looked down at me, watching his dick slide in and out of my mouth, my thick lips wrapped tightly around his manhood.
?Ok, dude, when I am finished with him?. Felix said. There they were, those two entitled, privileged white boys, deciding for me, what I was going to do, who I was going to serve, while I had virtually no say in the matter. ?You will make me cum and after that you will suck off my buddy, got that?? Felix said. I tried to nod while not interrupting my cock sucking. ?Very good Tommy? or should I say Uncle Tom?? Felix said in a condescending manner, having no idea how painful his racially charged comments were to a young black boy like me. Chris and Ben laughed at the racist joke and Felix felt encouraged in degrading me, now laughing too. I could not fathom the degree of humiliation, having this white boy laugh at me and hurling racist jokes at me while I was sucking his cock. Every self-respecting black man in the right mind would have punched him, or would have never gotten himself in this situation in the first place. But I just could not snap out of it. I could not let go of Felix cock. I was addicted to sucking and pleasing him.
?Damn Tommy boy, you are rock hard. You seem to like sucking white boys? Ben said from where he was still lying. Chris sat next to him, awaiting his turn. I gave Ben a side-eye and flipped him off, showing him the finger. Ben and Chris laughed and Ben said ?What fuck me? I think you mean SUCK ME, don?t you??
Felix chuckled and tried to check out my dick to see if Ben was right. He took his foot and pressed it against my raging hard on, which was well accessible to him, as I was kneeling in front of him. He could feel my hard dick with his foot. ?Damn, Tommy, looks like sucking my cock is making you hard as fuck.? He said with his typical smirk. ?Yeah, he is loving it? fucking faggot? Chris sneered into my direction. ?Yeah, that damn faggot likes it. Sick!? Felix said and positioned his foot above my cock and then pressing it to the ground. I tried to lower by back to move downwards to relieve the strain my hard dick that was being pressed down by Felix? foot but Felix held me in my position, so he comfortably could get his cock sucked while my dick was hurting like hell.
Ben could see what Felix was doing perfectly from his angle. ?Damn, that must hurt? he said. He was right. It was painful physically and mentally. I got into all of this because I wanted him to suck dick. I wanted to feel the sweet, warm pleasure of wet tongue wrapped around my member, sliding up and down, slurping and sucking, bringing me to orgasm. That was what I wanted. And what was the reality? My dick was not pleasured, it was being pressed down and tortured by Felix? foot, causing me to suffer, while I was serving and pleasing him, bringing him the pleasure I so desperate wanted to experience myself. But not for a second did I consider stopping sucking him, did I consider to move his foot away from my raging hard-on that was so painfully being pressed towards the ground. He was humiliating me, insulting me, torturing me and still here I was, sucking and serving his beautiful and superior white cock.
His cock was so hard, it was about to explode. I looked up into Felix face, which was starting to get red while he was pulling his eyebrows together in ecstasy. ?Fuck yea, here it comes?. Fuck?.fuck yes? I am cuming?. Fuck yea, take it, fucking NIGGER!!!? Nothing could have prepared me for the sensation I felt as this white boy unloaded his cum into my mouth. It was unbelievable. I entered a completely new level of submission and servitude. I felt whole, because I made him cum. I did not care anymore for my cock or my pleasure. Even him torturing my dick, standing on it and pressing it onto the wooden floor while I was bringing him the ecstatic feeling of orgasm with my mouth just felt right. I did a good job, I made him cum, I pleased and served him, served a man who was better, manlier, assertive, and superior, more deserving of receiving this pleasure, and ultimately I had served the white race.
I kept on sucking, slowing down my motion, letting him unload completely into my mouth, while he was panting and slowly catching his breath. I looked up to him, seeking his approval. Felix slowly opened his eyes, the shimmering blue of his eyes coming forth, looking down at me with an unshakable sense of superiority. And he was right, I could see it. See the light in his eyes, the light of truth. He was in his rightful place, towering over me in triumph, being worshiped and served, and I was in mine, to his feet, accepting my inferiority.
?Suck it clean, you dumb bimbo!? she said laughing and looking over to his white buddies. I eagerly nodded. ?Yes? I said in a cracked, hoarse voice. Felix seemed almost surprised, like he forgot that I had a voice, that my mouth could do more than suck his cock. I gently took Felix? cock in my hand, marveling at its beauty, as it was slowly getting soft. He noticed me holding on to the moment, the experience of me having the honor to touch his powerful white dick, his pure white skin, his white privilege weaponized in his mighty, all conquering manhood. I slowly moved back towards his dick, licking it clean, from top to bottom, all the way down to his hairy balls, making every bit of his superior cum and my dirty nigger spit was cleaned of his perfect white body. As I had finished cleaning his scotch I kissed his dick, right on the head, to express my new-found love for my white god.