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Chapter one: how it started
He was my best friend. My best fucking friend........well literally. He wasn't my boyfriend as bad as I wanted it . he decided we should be able to fuck other people. he said that he didn't want be tied down and I told him that he wouldn't be. But no he had to be " free". I love him and I wouldn't do anything to make him upset. that's my fault. Putting others before myself. That was about a year ago and hes fucked every willing girl in our grade, everyone at school knows that he makes sure of it. But as far as guy I think I'm the only one... I hope.
We are both 16. His birthday is five days before mine His September 20th and mine the 24th . That's how we met our birthdays. On the first day of preschool the teacher had each student pair off with the person who's birthday was closest to their own. I didn't want to do it. I didn't like preschool. I wanted to go home and play with my OWN toys but my mother said I had to be more social and play with kids my own age . So there I was hiding under the the coat rack
hoping to be back at home. Then in the middle of having this awesome conversation with tony my teddy I see this cute little brown haired boy with blue eyes walking towards me. He introduced himself as Josh and told me the teacher said we were partners. We spent the rest of that day hiding in under the coat rack talking about a lot of kid stuff like which power ranger was the best or who was the best sailor scout. That was the day we became best friends and changed the course of my life completely.
We were basically stuck together at the hip all throughout elementary school. And eventually he moved in the same neighborhood as me . We weren't very social. I wasn't cause I was way too shy to talk to anyone but he was just protective of me. He could be friends with the other boys, but they would probably end up calling me names. that's how he first started his bad boy persona. When someone called me a name, he would beat them up. So we kept to ourselves. But there were those girls.
In middle school our bodies started changing WE started changing. He excelled in sports, in all sports but his grades that was another story. I myself excelled in school and wasn't very good at sports that included balls. Most nights I ended up doing his homework with him asleep on my leg. Exhausted from practice. We were each others better half. He kept me social and I got him passing grades.
I started seeing him through different eyes. I saw the beauty and the sparkle in his eyes. The way his butt looked in his basketball shorts during basketball games. Or how tall he was compared to everyone else. I would get so hot all of a sudden when ever he came around. I loved him I mean he was my best friend but now it was different. We weren't kids anymore. And boys weren't supposed to like other boys. But I did, I had the hugest crush on him. I loved everything about him. His beautiful green eyes to his brown hair. And his muscles... ..oh my god. I had muscles but they were no where near his. I had them in certain areas but his were like everywhere. And remember when his voice used to crack and he would get embarrassed then turn red. I thought it was so hot. Everything about him. I would do anything for him. you know how your mom says " If he told you to jump of a bridge would you?" for him I would. Because I knew he would never ask.
In ninth grade he told me he had a new "game" for us to play. He said it was one of the best games and only a few people had it. I knew that josh was well off so he probably did have it. Me being the gaming addict I was or still am, couldn't wait. I asked him what it was but he wouldn't tell me. Kept saying it was a "surprise". I remember being anxious all day. Wishing that damned bell would just frikin' ring. You know how when your waiting for something time seems to go slow reall really slow well yeah, it was. It seemed like forever but eventually it did. I rushed out of class and to our spot under the tree. That was mistake I got there way to early and josh had to talk with the basketball coach. Josh came late of course so we ended up missing the bus. We had to walk home which wasn't far but wasn't exactly near either. The whole time he kept looking over and smiling at me I would ask him what and he would just say "your gonna love this game." when we finally got to front door he told me to close my eyes... I don't like walking in the dark and this was no diferent. I told him no. then he said his most famous line. " do you trust me?" Of course I trusted him he was my best friend. He's josh.
"Why do I gotta close my eyes?" I hesitated.
" Just do it. you trust me don't you?" he smiled while grabbing my shoulders and looked into my eyes. I just nodded my head in defeat and closed my eyes.
"Of course I do. this game better be good." I whined. I knew something was up. Why would he make me close my eyes just to play a video game.
" Oh it is. Trust me." I don't know what it is but he sounded so......sexy. Just the way he said it how the words rolled of his lips. I was getting horny. AGAIN. I was in eighth grade and it happens a lot. But mostly when he's around.
He told me to stay were I was at and not to move until he told me. I heard him fumbling with his keys then the door opening. He moved behind me and placed his hands on my hips leading me through his house. Not that I didn't know my way around, its like my second home. But I liked the feel of his breath on my ear when he told me which way to turn. And his hands on my hips, making sure I turned the right way . I could feel his breath going from my ear to my neck. every time he would whisper in my ear I would feel shivers go down my spine. I don't even remember what he said. I just did It. Then I heard him say stop. We must've been at his bedroom.
" Ok can I open my eyes now?" I complained, even though I was loving this attention he gave me, I really didn't like being in the dark.
" No not yet, sit down." he lead me to his bed and I sat down. I was peeking out one of my eyes to see what hes was doing. I was surprised when he didn't do anything just sat down beside me.
" Ok josh, what's up?" I knew something was up. Ive slept in this bed many times with him before. And I knew that every time he had a pillow on his lap, he had a woody. I started laughing. " Hey its not funny!" he laughed. His face started turning red.
" Shit, ya coulda fooled me." I was also getting turned on. Josh sitting right next to me With a boner in his black jeans. I wanted him so bad, wishing that he cared for me. if only half as much I cared for him. I've started noticing little things,like he starts talking to more and more people, mostly from his basketball team and the cheerleaders too. I knew that I was still his best friend, but that's all I was. He would even flirt with them. Right in front of me, I ignored it and teased him for it later but on the inside I wasn't laughing at him. I would be yelling instead. `Why don't you feel the same for me as I do for you'.
I stopped laughing. And just stared at him suddenly feeling upset. Why would he get a boner right in front of me. He was probably about to start talking about some blonde cheerleader. I think I'm really starting to hate them.
" Ok josh what the hell am I here for?" I felt annoyed and angry. I didn't want to be here and hear him rant about some bitch." I know you and your not into games, so what the fuck?" I don't cuss only when I'm pissed. And I was , But it wasn't his fault he didn't feel the same way as I did.
" Dude what's with you? Why are you acting like this?" he looked confused. Almost as confused as I was when he tackled me to the ground.
" What'd you do that for?" I was trying to push him off of me. But it was no use he was bigger and stronger, the only way he would get off was if he wanted to. " josh get off, I cant breath." he was laughing.
" Paybacks a bitch, huh." he started tickling me and laughed so hard I was near crying. I'm ticklish and I hate it. It makes you laugh yet it doesn't feel good. Weird thing that tickling is. He stopped. I was happy he stopped but his facial expression changed. he looked nervous, almost scared.
" You remember that game I told you about...wait I need to turn off the lights." he spoke low, in my ear. When he was on top of me I could tell he was excited, and It was losing what little control I already had. But did he say turn off the lights? I hate the dark.
" NO! don't I..."
" Yeah I know, your afraid of the dark. But don't worry I'm here, trust me... ." I couldn't respond because as soon as the words slipped from his mouth, the lights were out. I got up off the floor and went to the light switch. I've been over his house long enough to know my way around even if it was pitch black.I found the switch and was just about to turn it on but.
" Its ok, its me. Just you and me,ok." did he know what he was doing to me. Did he know what he does to me every time were this close. Him behind me, with his right hand over my hand. Stopping me from turning the lights back on.
" yea, just you and me. Whatever." I found myself getting angry again. I cant believe he's doing this. He leaves me for his stupid jock buddies. Flirts with dumb blondes right in my face and then says its just me and him. Bullshit. It may not be his fault that he doesn't feel the same way as I do. But I don't have to sit here and take it.
"Bullshit!! Its not just me and you. And you know it." I exploded. He was lying to me and I hate being lied to. I never really get mad at josh but this time was different. And I wouldn't want to get on his bad side. He has some violent tendencies...
" I know, im sorry." he apologized.he never apologizes, cause in his eyes everything he does is right.
" Whatever dude, im leaving." I couldn't be around him. I was afraid I might tell him why I was really mad at him. Afraid to tell my best friend that I love him. I would apologise later for my sudden bitchiness. I just couldn't be around him at that moment.
" No wait. I need to tell you something. It's um...important." it was almost like he was pleading with me. But why, he had nothing to be sorry for.
" Ok, but could like let go of my hand. Im getting kinda tired." he did just that. Mived his hand but stayed right where he was. I wanted im so bad to want me the way I did. Buti know he was only into blonde cheerleaders. But why was he so close to me. Did he enjoy teasing me like this.only if he knew.
" Go ahead." I really wanted him to hurry up I was getting a mad boner and I didn't want him to see. I may laugh and tease him for getting them. Which he does all the time, I might add. But not me, I don't know what he would if I had one.
" Ok turn around. I want to see your face when I tell you ." turn around,umm sorry josh but that's going to be a problem. I didn't even respond before josh was turning me around by my hips.
I gasped. More like a moan but I'll never admit that. I thought that he would move back a little when he did that but hs didn't. if anything he moved closer than he already was. I could feel his hardness on my own. I looked to eyes for an answer but I couldn't see them. The lights were still out.
" Josh..." I silently whispered. I couldn't find my voice. For some reason I was scared. Even though josh was hard (as usual). I was too. `Now he knows' I thought to myself . I like to think of myself as strong, but lets face it im not.
What do I say. What do I say....um josh I love you and cant live without you. Umm no to needy. Im sorry, im sorry I'm not what you want me to be.
" So I..." his hands started moving up and down m sides. It wasn't in a sexual way, it was comforting. I was soft now. I guess all the tension really got to me.
" I'm really sorry. I tried not to like you. Really I did. I knew you wouldn't be interested...I know you like girls." if he was gonna kick my ass maybe that would stop him.I love josh I really do. But whats the point of liking something you could never have. I tried liking other boys, well I do. Its a boy that plays basketball with josh. But I still like josh a lot.
" So don't be mad at me, I tried to move on...well I did-"
" Did what! With who!?" he was pissed. Not angry pissed. I guess he doesn't accept the fact that I'm gay. " you were with another boy!?" now he was disgusted. I guess the thought of me with another boy pissed him off. It hurt, my best friend hates me. I felt like crying but I couldn't, not in front of josh anyway.
" Josh..I'm sorry. I'll go." If he didn't want me to be friends with him I wouldn't force myself. I reached down to move his hands away, but he wouldn't let me. I looked in his eyes it looked like he calmed down a bit.
" Who was it?" he looked hurt. Josh was a tough boy, he never let his emotions show. With his parents ALWAYS working he never had the comforting hug of a mother when things went wrong. Or the `cheer up champ' from his dad. I would comfort him as best I could but I wasn't his parents.
" Who was it?' why was he worried about the other guy. I mean this was about me and him.
" Why does it matter. Look it's ok if you don't like me being gay, I understand." I was prepared for this. Him not accepting me, I was closer and closer to crying every word I spoke.
" I knew I was before I did anything with him. He didn't do anything wrong he only-"
" NOTHING WRONG!! HE FUCKING TOUCHED WHAT WAS MINE!" now im confused, what the hell was he talking about. Were we talking about two completely different things?
" What are you talking about?" then " so your ok with me being gay..." I was lost, why was he acting this way. ` took what was his'?
" You let another guy touch you? Who was it?" I guess he wasn't ok with it. He sounded disgusted every time the thought of boy touching me.
" SO WOULD IT BE OK IF IT WERE A GIRL? HUH JOSH? WOULD IT !!" I thought I was ready for his rejection. I guess not, if I couldn't have him love me the way I do him, I would atlease want him to accept me.
He took a breath and started again. " What are you talking about, Yes I would still be pissed if it were a girl.... I love you."
" What...you-you do?" he loves me. If this is a prank then I swear hes going to feel it in the morning.
" You love me like actual love. Like boyfriend girlfriend love?" I looked to his eyes. Even though it was dark, I knew where to find them.
" Yea, I do. Ive been trying to tell you but every time you I get close you run away."
" I thought you didn't like me, I did like it. That was the problem, I liked it to much."
" That's no problem." he smiled. His hands move around to my ass. "I have wanted to do that for soooo long." he was getting hard again and so was I.
" So no joke right?" I seemed to good to be true. There had to be a catch, a flaw, anything. It was just too perfect.
" No, joke. Now about that game." I thought that was fake. Wonder what kind of game it would be-
Just like all my dreams. Well like all the wet ones. Josh, MY JOSH had his lips to mine. He had his hands on my most private of places.
" josh...I. I moaned AGAIN. I really hate when I do that but when he's sucking your neck its really hard not to.
" I'm giving you what you allways dreamed about." he smiled. He went under my shirt, running his hands all over my chest and stomach. Touching me like it was his first time. He's touched me before, but I always pulled back. I thought he was fucking around... His hands were all over me and in an instant my shirt was off. My pants were next. He moved in to unbutton my jeans. I was a bit hesitant to that. He's seen me shirtless before but pants were always on.
" Do you trust me?" he whispered in my ear.
He started back on my neck. Moving his tongue around then sucking on it. I was moaning more and more. I was happy his parents weren't home we would've been caught by now. Yea I'm a screamer.
" YES!!" I said yes to two things. For one he was driving me to heaven with his tongue and two I was ready for my pants to come off.
He didn't even pull off my neck. His hands went down to my pants and stopped at the button . He pulled off my neck and looked me in the eye. His eyes asking for my permission once again. I must've said yes because my button was undone and my zipper was going down. I was breathing harder my chest going up and down. Josh was doing the same thing. Our bodies were so close. I could feel his heart beat. Beating for me. Josh pulled my zipper down then took off his shirt and indid his pants. We started kissing again, it was a hotter kiss more passionate. While we were kissing josh grabbed my hand and placed it in his pants. My eyes immediately went open I had only ever dreamed of touching him there.
" What's wrong?" he look concerned. " too fast"
" Nothing, everything's cool." I knew he didn't want me to stop so I wasn't. I was going to please him no matter what. I could feel his cock throb in my hand. And his heart against my chest. I wanted this as bad as he did. I was going down to my knees when I felt him lift me back up.
" Not here. Lets go to the bed." I was going to walk but he had other things in mind he picked me and I wrapped my legs around his waist. We started kissing and I felt my back hit the bed.
I unwrapped my legs and started pulling down his pants. He placed his hands on both sides of me like he was doing pushups while I pulled his pants done. No underwear,am I surprised, no. every time we sleep over at each others house he would always be free balling. He really has tried to tell me...
I got them to his ankles and he kicked them off to the ground. While he did that I took my pants off along with my boxers. I looked up at him. He was naked, I couldn't see much the lights were out...the lights..so that means its dark. that's when I got over my fear of the dark and even started to like it.
Josh moved back on me but didn't kiss me. I knew what he wanted and what I wanted. I pushed him to the side then rolled him over. I started kissing my way down from his neck to his cock. I wanted this for so long. I reached his belly button and licked in and around it. He started breathing a little harder. I went down to his cock, well It hit me as I was moving down. I didn't expect it to be so...well so big. We were only fourteen.
I grabbed it at the base and felt the soft pubes there. He had more than me. I guess he doesn't shave. I held it straight up and thought about what I do when I jack off. What spots make me feel good and what spots make me bored. I put my lips aroud the head and started licking it. He moaned letting me know I was doing good. I flicked my tongue in and out, teasing him. I learned right then that he doesn't like teasing. He being the dominant person he is took control. He grabbed my head with both hands and started fucking my mouth. I liked it better this way less work for me.
He did that for god knows how long but I didn't mind. I liked the way he tasted, I loved it because it was his. He was going fatser andd faster. His breath was rushed . His grip on my head got tighter his body stiffened he let out a long moan.
" Ahhhhhhhh!!" hmph. He didn't even tell me when he errupted. I would've been mad, but the taste was to sweet. I swallowed as fast as I could. I knew it wouldn't be much considering he had probably jacked off twice already. He kept humping my face a little softer then collapsed on the bed.
" That was the best head I ever got." he said smiling tiredly. The best? So I wasn't his first. I moved up to lay beside him. I didn't care that I didn't get off just laying there with him made me happy.
" Now lets take care of you." he moved his hand down to my dick and started to jack it. Then he moved down and took it in his mouth. Up and down, up and down. He would stop and lick it from the base to the head stay at the head and then start again. I don't know how long he did it I was too busy enjoying it to keeep track of time.
" JOSH...I'M...uhhhhhh!!" he kept his mouth on it and swallowed everything I had just like I did him.
After I came down from my orgasm josh came back up and asked, " Was I better than the other guy?"
" what other guy?" I put on my best `I have no clue what you mean face'. " yea you were the better." I smiled back.
" what about me?" I was curious to know if I did it right.
" hmm...well I have had better. But-"I threw a pillow at him. HAD BETTER.
" so you've been with other boys? So that's where you learned how to do that tongue thing" I was curious to know where he learned that stuff from. It was no beginners luck he was experienced.
The question made him uncomfortable, I could tell. He didn't speak for a long time. " well not exactly. Umm you see....
" What is it. You can tell me josh." If he didn't learn it from boys then who.
" Well babe you see..im..uh bi..." I knew it to good to be true. Why did I have to ask? Maybe hes not bi, just scared to be gay. It was a time when I told myself I was bi. But look at me in love with a guy. Maybe he's just going through some stuff. He's gay...he just has to be.
" baby you ok?"
" yea, fine. Are you sure your bi." I had to ask. He cant be. He called me baby...sigh.
" Um yea...I've done stuff with girls....and I like it." my heart dropped right along with my stomach. He liked it?
" So you got mad at me when you found about that guy but your doing girls?" I tried but it didn't work. My pain and anger came out. I didn't want him to be bi, I wanted him to be just into me.
" Oh yea back to that subject. Who was the guy mark? Huh?" he sat up on the bed
" NO josh who was the GIRL!? I asked first!" I sat up as well to see his face better.
"Stacy chapmen." he said through gritted teeth voice full of anger . He gets mad over a guy. I should've stopped and let him cool down. But I knew he wouldn 't do anything to me.
" THE CHEERLEADER!!?" I couldn't believe it. He was doing the cheerleaders. Just you and me he said. I cant believe myself. I am in love with a straight boy ...
" Yea. So who's the guy.I told you so you have to tell me."
" Johnny" I know he doesn't like him all that much but, he's a nice guy once you get to know him.
" ON MY BASKETBALL TEAM!?" he jumped up and got out of the bed, still naked. He started pacing back and forth his dick bouncing every with every step.
Even though I was mad at him, I didn't mean to piss him off. I got up and hugged him.
" I'm sorry, I-its was before I knew how you felt and-"
" But you're my best friend that should've been reason enough. You know I don 't like him."
I could've argued more. Like while you were off fucking with a cheerleader you left me alone and he was the only one who seemed to give a rats ass about me, so excuse me.
" If it helps, me and him didn't go very far. We just kissed and I sucked him off. that's all."
" THAT'S ALL!" maybe I should've kept my mouth shut. " that's all me and you did, so im no better than JOHNNY in you book!?" ok well I know not to bring this subject up.
" We should just forget about it, it was before I knew."
" yea your right. Its just...Johnny had you before I did."
" He didn't get my cherry. Im saving that for you..." we went back to the bed and started a very long makeout session and then some...
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