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He Was My Bestfriend Chapter 13
Mark was laying down next to the love of his life. Josh.
Some people may think he's too young to know what actual love is. But mark knows. He knows what he feels when he sees Josh. How his heart beat increases and his stomach does back flips. He knows he loves him.
He looks at his sleeping knight in shinning armor and smiles.
He smiles knowing that they've been through so much already that nothing can break the bond they have.
He knows that one day they may not be together. So he holds moments like these close. Sending them to the deepest part of his memory. These are the good days, the memories of these days can one day save them...
The clock blinks 5:00. He would be worried that he has school tomorrow. But Josh...he's so captivating. Even though he has a slight snore. Even though he acts like a spoiled brat, sometime selfish. He's the guy that has Marks heart.
Car lights pass by his window, illuminating Josh for a moment. Josh looked to be some ethereal being. So unreal, yet he's clearly there. The image of male beauty.
My angel' Mark thought, He's my Angel.'
The door creaked Open slowly.
`My parents shouldn't be up this early' Mark thought.
A pair of green eyes slowly peaked into the doorway. Green eyes glowed when the cat looked towards my window. It was the moon. Casting its Beautiful sunlight across Marks room.
When I was younger, I lay on the grass in backyard and just stare at the sky. It was always more beautiful during the night.
During the day you can't see anything because the Suns bright glare. As if it were protecting A hidden treasure. But during the night you can see everything.
I would try and get out early so I could always do the,
` Star light, star bright, First star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, Have the wish I wish tonight'
I would always wish for Josh. Wishing for forever.
And now I have it. I have Josh. Still brings a smile to my face. Like in the movie Titanic when jack screamed: " IM THE KING OF THE WORLD!"
It's how I feel when I'm with Josh. Hell, when I think about him.
Josh began reaching for me in his sleep. I had moved out of his arms so I could see him better. Guess he wants me back.
I slip back into his arms. The safest I ever feel is when I'm in his arms.
"I like your body." Josh said, his voice scratchy from hours of sleep.
" my body likes you too,"
" I love you Mark," Josh Yawned,
" I know. Go back to sleep." And with that Mark snuggled back into his perfect boyfriend drifting off to sleep with a smile on his face.
" shocking," Johnny said, " your actually here before the first bell." "bite me," I said. Sticking my tongue out like a five year old would do his arch rival. "I'll pass. So," he started looking paranoid. " you think it's safe to be seen together? you know since I abuse you and all." Its been a few months since that rumor started and sadly its still big. I confronted Tabby but she denied it. It pissed me off for a while before I saw the humor in it. It's just a rumor, not an ounce of truth in it... " psh, like being my boyfriend is that bad." I could swear I heard him mumble something. I wouldn't question him on it. I cant. even though he says he's okay with me sticking with Josh--I know he's not. He cant be. If Josh had chose some girl over me I'd be devastated. But if he wants to deal with it this why I cant stop him. I wouldn't know what to say anyway. Everything I think of would probably twist the knife deeper. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Josh coming our way. A smile immediately rose on my face. I cant help it, I love him. " I'm tired of this shit." I was over the rumor but I guess it was harder on Josh. Preps could be cruel and he's a prep. His friends are preps. They think Johnnies the one that did that bad stuff so they're probably doggin the shit out of him...but really talking about Josh. " you don't know the half of it." Johnny said. This is a subject we don't really talk about. it's a part of the past that should be forgotten. "so.." Both Josh and Johnny look deep in thought. I knew it gets to Josh. How could it not? It is about him. He doesn't like to talk about it. Understandable. " I'll see you two later..." Johnny took off before I could say anything back. I hate it when things are weird like this. Sometimes he acts like its funny. But others he acts like this. " yea, me too." "wait," I searched his eyes. Hoping he'd let me in. " you don't have to act like this doesn't make you mad, it's okay." I want to hold his hand, kiss his cheek, anything. But we cant. Josh isn't out yet... " who says I'm upset? I don't give a fuck with those dumb fuck people think," " I know, I know. But if you do, it's okay." "whatever, I need to be somewhere." " I'll go with you. Were On the same hall." I picked up my bag and swung it over my shoulder. " No...I mean. look dude, I'll see you later." Dude? Since when was I dude? I stood there shocked. We had been fine...fucking fine for a long time. But I should've known. This is Josh and Mark were talking about. " ok...I needed to fine tabby anyway. Later" "yea. Bye" Bye...this day better not get any worst. *********************************************** " where the hell are you?" " at home-" " hey mark!" Johnny calls me, holding a box of Oreos in his hands triumphantly. "is that josh?" he mouthed. Lowering the box to my dresser. I nodded my head yes. I told Johnny how Josh had acted earlier. And how he seemingly avoided me all day. I don't get him. Its like were together, but only when he feels like it. I am not going on standby again. " hang up!" he mouthed, " I'm on my way." Josh says before hanging up. Didn't even wait for me to say anything. Guess he's in a bad mood. But I wouldn't know. He doesn't talk to me. As soon as I put the phone down, Johnny was bombarding me with questions. " what'd he say?' ` why'd he call?' why do you look so sad?' "I don know what's up with him. I know he's upset about the...you know, but he wont talk to me about it. He barely talks to me at all. It's like he thinks that I'm not going to leave him so I'm not important." " Or maybe he just deals with things differently. Not everyone is gonna go around telling everyone how they feel. We aren't all as emotional as you are." "shut up," " make me." He challenged me, getting ready to tackle me to the bed. " don't. I am so serious--" Johnny and I were rolling around on my bed like little kids in the grass. Laughing like there was no tomorrow... "why do I always catch you like this?" Josh asked from my door. I would've been scared. But I wasn't doing anything wrong. Johnny is my friend and last time I checked there was nothing in the boyfriend handbook that said we couldn't wrestle like fourth graders. "boy! you seem happy!" Johnny teased. "mind getting off my boyfriend?" yep, bad mood. I can tell from the glare that he's giving Johnny. Johnny makes no move to get up. " oh so he's your boyfriend now? I take all the heat for your sorry ass at school--from your friends by the way-- and when you and him are alone, you want to claim him? Right?" " you are not his boyfriend. Not at school and definitely not in his bed." "and you two can stop right there. Fight some other time, we so don't need this right now." I move between them, knowing something's going to happen. " you act like this is easy for me! I know that those fuckers are really talking about me!" for the first time since this morning his face shows emotion. His fists clenched up at his side and his eyes downcast to the floor. " Mark is my boyfriend, always. If somebody ask me if he's mine; yes, I will claim him. But I'm not gonna bring it up for no fucking reason. I'm not like you! I cant jus go around telling everyone I like dudes!" Johnny starts to respond but I elbow him quiet. " I already know that, Josh. I don't care if you don't come out." " yea, and this is where I take my leave" Johnny smirks and heads for my door, " have good make up sex" I go over to comfort Josh. Something I couldn't do while Johnny was here...and I think he knew that. " what's wrong?" "nothing. I always find you and him like that. All molded up and laughing." Josh started, sadly. "I think you'd be better with him-" " were just friends. I don't want johnny, I want my old boyfriend back. You've been acting weird ever since-" " since the whole school found out Johnny was beating the shit outta you." he stepped away from me. " he was right, ya know. He's basically your boyfriend at school, plays the part so well..." and in a spurt of anger, " I don't like that! He's doing it on purpose! I know he is! He's trying to get between us!" "stop being paranoid." I take his hands into mine, " Johnny knows that me and him are just friends. Johnny is happy that I'm happy, And you make me happy, so you make Johnny happy." I smiled at him, hoping he would smile back. He did. " god, I love you." He beamed. "duh. Everybody loves me." Josh tackled me to the bed. And we became, " all molded up and laughing" " I have an Macbeth paper due next Friday and--but I wanna get this done first." I love Josh. Even though he can be a bit paranoid. Not to mention those psychotic mood swings and...god! That temper. But I guess that makes me love him more. The fact that he isn't perfect. Physically YES, but I guess I can deal that. So after we have sex and get finished with his homework, we'll go to sleep, and I'll wake up at five `o clock in the morning and think: I love you josh. THE END! Join my yahoo group! They get chapters way faster :-) http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Emo_Kid_storiez/