Healing Love

Healing Love Chapter 13: Brother's Indifference By: Mirron Tenshi

Max and Allen have had their first, real fight as a couple. It is over the issue of Allen's brother coming over for the week of Thanksgiving. The problem is that Allen's brother is supposedly still hateful to homosexuals. However, Max came back home after a couple of hours and made up. Now lets see if Allen can get through the week.

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I am waiting for Haley and Jordan at the airport. Ugh, I've been dreading this Thanksgiving ever since Jordan's call. We haven't seen each other in so long, and I really don't know if he's changed or not. How and why did I agree to this again?

I leaned on my car and checked my cell for the time. It's going on 5 pm; they should be here by now.

"Hey Allen!" I looked and I saw a tall and blonde lioness, walking with a shorter lion whose reddish-brown mane is barely reaching around his neck.

"Hey, you guys!" I said as my brother and sister came up to me. I hugged Haley and padded Jordan on the shoulder, Jordan seemed negative for some reason, but I don't care though; he didn't care for most of my life, I hardly see the point in doing the same anymore.

"Hey, where's Cody?" Cody is Haley's fiancé, a chubby grizzly bear, and a freakin computer expert.

"He want to spend Thanksgiving with his family." She replied.

Without much reaction to my asking how Jordan is doing, we are driving back to my house, and pulling into the driveway. When we arrived, Max isn't here; he must still be at work.

I took Haley to the back glass door, and she is instantly amazed at the pool I recently had built. Last time she was here, the best I had there was a meager row of sunflowers, and now that they all died along time ago, I gave up gardening and stuff.

"Hah, you kept that old tree?? Sheesh, it's STILL doesn't have any bark!" "Yeah, I still get ticked off sometimes so I still need something to maul." After a while, Jordan brought up the topic of who's sleeping where. "Well, we only have one spare room, and the couch pulls out into a bed." My little brother looked at the couch and then at us.

"You two haven't been . . . screwing with it, have you?" My face went hot -- as a matter of fact, yes, Max and I HAVE done it on the couch.

"Jordan!" "Jordan!"

"Hey, just asking, wouldn't want to sleep at a crime scene." He said as he chuckled weakly.

"Oh for God's sake, just take the spare room if you're going to bitch about it." Haley told him, "So, Allen, when are we going to meet your boyfriend?" She asked eagerly. Before I could reply, Jordan was already rolling his suitcase to the spare room. I continued after he closed the door.

"He hasn't changed, has he?" I started

"I think he actually took a step back." Haley stated in a dark tone.

I shook my head "Perfect. Just freaking perfect."

"Pft, I'm surprised he's got a mane at all."

I snirked. "Anyway, my boyfriend is due home in about a half-hour."

"Oh My God, he lives here?! Sweet!" We took a seat on the couch and Haley started probing me with questions. "So tell me, what's he like? Is he cute? Is he a fem? You two bangin' the bed yet? C'mon, details, details!" I laughed as I tried to answer, but she kept teasing me with her obnoxious interruptions and questions.

"Shut up already! His name is Max. His bod is beautifully built, he's all man, and yes, we have had ALOT of fun, if you REALLY need to know."

Haley and me chatted until Max came home. When I introduced them, my sister just freaked. She acted as if she just won Max as the prize bachelor from a reality show. She hugged him, squeezed him, played with him. She's kind of scaring me, actually. It's so weird how she could be normal, yet get on such a spaz trip in a few minutes. I just hope she doesn't scare Max away.

So the night went on. Jordan stayed in his room the whole time, which was damn fine with us. Kinda makes you wonder why he even bothered in the first place. After we had dinner -- Jordan just did his own thing -- me and Max went upstairs, undressed and crawled into bed.

Max rested his head on my arm and petted my belly. "Sooo . . . What do you thiiink?" He chuckled and kissed my cheek.

"I like your sister, but she has the excitement level of a 5 year old cub at Disney Land." I giggled and scratched his ears, causing him to purr, "Your brother? Seeing him once is more than enough."

"Hmph," I kissed him back as he snuggled me a little closer.

He grinned and he started to lick my neck, rubbing the side of his face with my soft mane.

"You know, we should totally have sex right now, just to piss off your brother."

I laughed softly, "Yeah. Lets shout hot phrases, and fetishy commands, shake the freakin walls and shatter the window by throwing Jack out~" He giggled and then suckled my right nipple and started to fondle my rear end. I gasped out as he forced a purr out of me.

"M-Max -- Ohhhh -- I-I was only kidding! Ahh~ Purrrrrr~" He looked up and grinned.

"I know, but I wasn't." I pet his head, and tried to edge away from him.

"C'mon, babe, I'm a little embarrassed doing it with them staying with us." Max pinched my ear between two claws, me grimacing in pain.

"I don't care, dammit. Its our house, and I want you on a silver platter." He started to nibble of my neck, reaching down and started teasing and playing with my nuts. "M-Maaax . . ." He growled lowly as he started to gently nurse on my nips.

During the week, we just hung out and enjoyed each other's company. Jordan, however, was being as insufferable as expected. He . . . Was mostly quiet, actually. Of course, he just has to make those occasional snide remarks about our wearing speedos, or made a rude comment when me and Max kissed when he happened to be nearby. True to his word, Max minded his behavior and said very little to him, but Haley slapped Jordan on the back of the head whenever he insulted us while she was in the same room. It's not as bad as when we were younger, but he's getting on my last nerve. Well, a few days later, Thanksgiving had finally come. Me, Shiniqua, and Haley are working on the holiday dinner, while Jacob and Jordan watched the Football game (The only time those two can even get along), and Max is digging around the kitchen and closet for our good china, since he doesn't really cook. Before long, we were sitting around the table and started eating. Then Haley brought up the subject about me and Max getting married. Of course, we feel awkward about that; she never was a discrete lioness. So we sort of talked around the subject, for a few more minutes, until Jordan muttered something highly offensive. He wasn't loud, but we all looked at him.

There was a pause as his ears lowered down, suddenly looking like a little cub who just pissed off the teacher. Shiniqua pushed her chair out, but I was too quick for her. I want to do this myself. "That's it."

I got up and strode over to Jordan, and yanked on his ear, and forced him on his feet "OW! Ow! Allen, ear, ear!"

"Gonna be your head if you don't shut up!"

I dragged him to the front door, and slammed it shut. "Alright, what the fuck is your problem?!" Jordan was rubbing his ear so I continued, "What is your problem?! Tell me RIGHT now! Why are you still such an insufferable little brat after all these years?!"

"I . . ." He said with his head down. I moved his face up,.

"LOOK AT ME!"

"I just can't stand it!"

"What?! What can't you stand?! That I'm gay? That I'm seeing someone?!" His eyes began to water, "You've been like this, EVER since we were cubs, Jordan! Mom and Dad raised all three of us better than that! So why you?!"

"I don't know, ok?!"

"That's not an answer!" I growled as I sighed at him, shaking my head, "You still can't even give me that much." He breathed deeply as his eyes framed with tears, "Get over it, Jordan. I've kept myself lonely ever since my first boyfriend. I'm not going to throw my love life away just so you don't feel disgusted."

"You don't understand, Allen . . ."

"Ugh," I put my paw to my forhead, "We're NOT going through with THAT again. `You don't know what it's like having a homo for a brother'. Well, I don't! So am I supposed to just halt everything to try and understand what I've explained a million times before?! What you said in there was really out of line! All week you've been nothing but a miserable cat! Am I that much of a burden on you that I bring you way down to a low level?!"

"W-What the fuck ever." I almost punched him.

"Remember the last time we had it out? All those years ago? You're tolerant, Jordan, but you don't accept me. Or rather, you WON'T accept me! I'm your brother, I'd accept you no matter what! But not you. You'll never get over it, you'll never accept me. You wanna know why? Because you will never understand!" He looked aside, a dark angry look about him.

"Understand what?" I distinctly heard him mouth "Faggot"

I am at my wits end with him. "`Understand what'?! I'll tell you what: it's dislikable animals like you that make homosexuals a minority! It's animals like you that make us ashamed of ourselves! That's not right at all, but homophobes like you don't care because you never had to feel the painful side of the hatred! You despise us so much that we're made to keep in hiding and we're hardly given any chance at all! And god forbid that furs like you should ever stop to think what it might be like if not for 2 seconds!

"Why does that look right to you?! We have as much right to exist and live as everyone else! But you'll never understand that! I could lecture you for a whole year, but you'll never get a perspective of what its like to be looked down upon because of who you are or the life style you choose! I'm sick of my own sibling having a discriminative attitude!"

He just stood there, looking to the side, starting to sniffle. "You know what? Do what you want. I don't care anymore. I don't know why you're even here."

I shook my head as started to walked away from him, "I can't believe Max almost left me because of you."

PUNCH! SLASH! BAM!

I'm beating up on my tree again. As I took my rage out on the tree, I heard Haley's voice behind me, "Allen?" I stopped for a moment and turned around to her. "So what happened?"

"Nothing to get into shock over. Go back inside and finish up, I won't be joining you. It's pretty much over." Haley nodded and hugged me. When we broke the hug, I said, "Tell Shiniqua to leave the dishes, take any food she wants to take home. And tell Max to go ahead and head up, I'll get to bed later." My sister went back into the house as I continued to thrash at the old oak.

---Later That Night---

I plopped the white meat into the container as I deboned the turkey. After putting away the dishes, I had set the other foods into separate containers. Just as I had dug out the Wish Bone, I heard the sliding glass door open and close. I heard my little brother sighing before hearing the spare room door closing.

I sighed as I rubbed the back of my neck through my mane; I don't know why, but I still feel bad about yelling him off like that.

I put together a hot plate and reheated some turkey, gravy and mashed potatoes, a couple of rolls, candied yams and half a cob of corn with a bit of butter and grabbed a can of soda. I figure I should be the bigger man, even if it wasn't even an argument.

-Knock knock-

"Hey, Jordan, it's me Allen. I uh . . . Brought some food for you . . . Incase you're still hungry." No response. I sighed, and continued, "Listen, I'm sorry telling you off. I shouldn't have got in your face and-"

His door opened, his eyes down cast. He tilted his head up to look at me with bloodshot eyes. Was . . . Was he crying?

My brother leaned his forehead onto my chest. "Uhhhh . . ." Well, this is awkward. He hasn't shown me any kind of affection for ages.

"Why . . . Why are you always the first one to apologize?" I blinked. I'm not entirely sure what to do or say right now. I put the plate aside and hugged him gently.

". . . Don't know . . . I guess I don't like to hurt." I said as heard him whine roughly in his throat, hearing sniffles, "Hey hey . . . Jordan?" I brushed my paw onto his cheek for him to look up at me, "What's wrong?"

"I . . ." He wiped his tears away with his sleeve, "I guess I was feeling jealous . . . Of you and Max . . ."

"What have you got to be jealous about? You have a girlfriend, don't you?" He shook his head.

"No. She . . . She cheated on me, Allen. She told me she wanted to take it slow, but I was only played. She was fucking around behind my back . . ." He exhaled as he rubbed his eyes, "I feel like such an idiot." Ok, now it makes sense, "I . . . Of all people . . . You're the only one I could come to but-"

"Yeah, I know, I know. It ain't the same with two me-"

"No, Allen. I don't care about that." He said. My eyebrows raised.

"You don't?" He shook his head again.

"Allen . . . I wanted to ask you about it for so long, but I didn't know how to come to you about it." I sighed as I rubbed his back in the hug.

"Look, Jordan. I may be gay, but that doesn't matter. I understand that pain. She cheated on you, and she broke your heart. But it didn't give you the right to take it out on Max and I. If you needed to talk to me, you know damn well I'm right here." He sniffled and nodded.

". . . I'm sorry, Allen."

"It's alri-"

"No, I mean I'm sorry for all the shit I've given you over the years. I'm sorry I was . . . Like that towards you . . ." I scratched his ears, "Mom and Dad DID raise us better than that . . . I don't know why I thought that way . . ." I smiled as I kissed his forehead.

"It's ok, Jordan. By now, let's just say I'm sort of used to it." He purred lowly as I comforted him.

The next thing I heard was a low, guttural growl. Oh yeah, he didn't get to finish dinner. I turned, and backed up to give him his plate "Here, Jordan. Eat up and get some sleep. I'll talk to Haley tomorrow morning."

My brother smiled at me, "Thank you, Allen."

"No problem bro." I walked off and passed my sleeping sister and up the stairs, and entered the bedroom. Max is reading one of his Japanese graphic novels when I came in. I stripped down to my boxers before slipping into bed with him. The tiger put down his book and turned off his light before snuggling up to me.

"Hey you, where've you been?"

"My little brother came back and he apologized. As it turns out, his girlfriend cheated on him big time and he felt jealous of us."

"Aw no. Poor kid."

"Yeah, like big brother like little brother I guess."

"Hey." My tiger then turned my face to his. "I love you, ok?" I smiled as Max then kissed me sweetly. I chuckled as I kissed him back before we both settled down.

--A few hours later--

I tossed and turned in bed. I can't sleep, for some reason. Must be that Cherry Cola I had while putting away the food.

I grumbled as I gently sat up on the side of the bed, Max still fast asleep. I sighed, with nothing else to do, I got out of bed and went to throw on an old nightshirt and loose pants, and crept outback to get some air.

After carefully treading through the house, I made it outside and sighed softly. I looked up to see that the moon is full tonight. I smiled happily as my ears perked up; I just love a full moon, it's just so majestic and beautiful, and the moon is big tonight too. I climbed up my old tree, and went to the thickest branch that was closest to the roof, and leaped very lightly onto it without making any more noise than a light pad. I went to the center of my roof and laid on my back to look at the radiant white orb.