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Okay here I go with the normal boring thank you's! I want to thank Kenitra, my editor and friend. You have been so much help. I would like to ask everyone to read her stories: Millennium Love, Ice Storm, Ten Guys One Night, and Set You Free (Even though it has ended). I would also like to recommend Justin's Journal, We Admitted It, and Deceiving Secrets. These are all written by talented writers. I would as like to thank everyone who has given me comments and support on all of my other chapters. I also would like to ask the readers what they want to happen in the story. I need some events for this story so that everything does not seem so perfect. I honestly don't like those stories where only good things happen. OH and before I forget....I want to thank all of the great authors for their work: Peter Kamphis, author of Kevin and Justin; JM, author of Brian and Justin; and DLS, author of Brian and Me. Thank you guys for all of your hard work just to entertain us.
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Hearts Combining (Chapter 5)
Keep a fair sized cemetery in your back yard, In which to bury the faults of your friends.
Henry Ward Beecher
Back to the present:
I laid there just think about everything that had happened twenty-five years ago. But now with the pain from yesterday's funeral, I wish that she would have never started smoking all those years ago, I have to start all over again. I no longer have the one major supporter. The one person that told me that she had known about my relationship with Justin when I was so young, then when the three people that were sent to help me with life and love, then the death of another extremely close family member. By the time I had finally gotten married, I had five children to raise and an extremely stressful business that was making its rise. The only reason that I had the strength to keep going was because of the three angels that were sent to me those twenty-five years ago...... And yet I never regret any of the obstacles that god has planted in front of me. I have lost a lot of people in the last forty-four years. But now, I have a son that is 29, a successful business man and a wonderful husband and father; three daughters that are 24 years old, one of them is a student at Harvard studying law, the other is a student studying for her medical certificate, and the last is studying business at Yale. I have one more son, well I don't claim him because he does not act like me at all (not that he is actually my son, but legally he is), but he acts more like his mother and the other eleven people that helped me raise them all. Now that I think about it, that next day after I had fallen asleep is what changed my whole life in an instant. In less than two days I had had my second boyfriend, and then the boyfriend turned into Boyfriends. But the information that Jen gave me that next day, is what had proven to me that this relationship was about to hit a bumpy road that did not look too happy.... But my decision that day is what allowed me to have everything that I ever wanted or needed now. And that included my twenty-three year wedding anniversary, just last week....
Back to the Past...
It was early in the morning, I thought that I had heard the door creak open, but dismissed it as someone going to the bathroom. I was too asleep to hear the snap of the camera shutter.
When I finally woke up it was about 10 o'clock in the morning. I was facing the wall with someone close behind me. I thought it was Brian, being that he was the one that I had fallen asleep with last night. I slowly rolled over, making sure not to disturb the person that had their arms wrapped around me. Once I had finally turned to where I could see the person, I was shocked. Justin was lying behind me with Kevin behind him and then Brian behind Kevin. The really surprising part was that Jase was still in between Justin and Kevin, seemingly to be sleeping soundly and comfortably.
I unwrapped myself from Just and got out of bed. Personally I could have stayed there all day long, but I have too many other people to worry about right now. I went to the bathroom to do the normal call of nature, then slowly made my way down stairs because I had not fully wakened yet. The closer I got to the kitchen I could tell that someone was up and had started breakfast.
I made it down stairs and into the kitchen to find that Jen and Brit were in there making breakfast. I eyed the counter top in search of my morning life support, then spotted it in front of the coffee pot. I quickly made my way over to it. I picked up the bag and inserted it into my cup, then added the hot water that was on the stove. I sat down at the table with Jen and Brit watching my every move.
"You owe me five bucks now!" Brit said sticking her hand out at Jen.
"I hate you Christopher! You just cost me five dollars!" Jen said as she handed the money over to Brit.
"Why? What did I do?" I asked half asleep, half confused.
"You did your normal, morning ritual! That is what you did! And it made me that much richer." Brit said smiling. "I've started breakfast so you won't have to worry about it."
"You cooked? I'm scared!" I said coming fully awake with that statement.
"I can cook, it's just no one will ever let me do it!" Brit said. "And I have only set my house on fire once!"
"I know that I'm leaving tomorrow, but I would like to have this house left so that I could come back to it every once in a while." I said with a laugh knowing that if she was going to cook then I was not going to stand in her way.
"You will. I'm almost done any way!" Brit said as she put a lot of bacon, eggs, French toast, biscuits, and some fruit that Jen was slicing up, on to the table.
"Jen go wake up, Alex and Howie. Chris, I'll allow you to wake up your room, since that is where most of the people are anyways!"
" God does everyone know everything about me now!" I said sarcastically as I ran up stairs and into my room.
This was a sight. No one had moved since I had left, but just the sight of the three guys lying in the same bed was enough to make anyone think twice about who they were. All three of these men were angels in my eyes. Everyone slept with a smile on their face. Then there was that way that all three of these men had been handling Jase that made them ever more that much sweeter. I knew from this moment on that these people were the ones that I was meant to be with. God's plan was not for me to be with a woman, but to be with a man. Yet not with just one man, but with three men. These people were everything that I had been promised. My grandparents had always promised me that I would find someone that could take care of me when I needed them too, but only when I had to have it. Amber promised that I would find someone that would let my every dream come to life and then stand beside me through the good and bad. Then there was the promise that I have always lived by....that of God's, the promise that every man would find their soul mate at one point or another, rather it be during my earthly life or that of my after life.
As I looked over my sleeping angels, I discovered that all of my promises were lying in front of my eyes. I knew that my life was going to change after today, but I just could not figure out how or what was going to change it. I just knew that these specific people were going to play major roles in that change.
I walked over to the edge of the bed where Justin was lying with a slight bit of a drool spot on my pillow. I softly ran the backside of my hand across the side of his face feeling the smoothness that I had once felt those years ago. I lowered my head closer to his and started to kiss his forehead down until I reached his mouth. Once I found his mouth, I softly kissed it, then again with more roughness. After a few seconds, Just finally started to kiss back. I pulled back to see that his eyes were open and a smile had spread across his face. I motioned for him to stay quiet as I moved to where I could do the same with Kev. Kevin was a little different though because what started on my part as a nice morning kiss turned into a kiss full of passion and need. I pulled back after about fifteen seconds of this. Kev had the same smile that Just had when I had woken him up. He whispered 'I love you' once we separated. I replied with an 'I love you too'. I moved over to the last person. I slowly crawled up Bri's body until I was straddling his waist. I felt a little more passionate with him, so I leaned down and started to kiss his chest. I kissed around his hardening nipples, the length of the scar from his surgery, then up to his neck, where I spent a little too long because I left a slight love mark. I finally made it up to his mouth, where he was patiently awaiting me to kiss him. His eyes were open and full of lust, if it hadn't been for the fact that Jase was still asleep and that Brit was waiting on us for breakfast, I would have given myself to him at that moment. I kissed him. The same intensity that Kev had use was being use by Bri this time. The thought of it running in the family entered my mind.
I finally pulled back to see Bri with a smile that could blind someone. I heard Kev and Just giggling behind us. I turned around to see them in a tender kiss. As much as I wanted to stay in here today, I knew that everyone was waiting on us downstairs. The funny thing was that Jase had just slept through this whole show of love.
"Okay my angels, Brit has breakfast for us adults and cereal for these children." I said.
"Hey! I'm not a child!" Just said trying to defend himself.
"Yes you are so don't deny it." I said sticking my tongue out at him.
"Don't do that unless you plan to use it." They all said in unison.
"I'm not making any promises on that right now, but we do need to go eat." I said getting up and picking Jase up with me.
"Are you going to wake him up?" Brian asked.
"The smell of food will do that." I said, waiting for them to get up.
"That's what we do with Nick. The food normally will wake him up." Kev informed.
We walked out of my room and down the hallway. We went passed AJ and Howie's room first, then stopped once we all heard the noises coming out of the room. You know the little person that's in everybody's head? It kept telling me to just keep on walking, but the evil person on the other half of my brain told me to be mean and interrupt. So what did I choose, well that was a no brainer!
I knocked lightly once after I passed Jase to Kev, who was more than willing to take him. There was no response. I knocked harder this time, but still no response. I knocked for the last time before I finally opened the door. I looked into the room, then fell down laughing. On the bed were Howie and AJ in boxers, on top of Jen, tickling her. They had made all of that noise just by tickling her!
"Okay children! Everyone downstairs to eat. If you're not down there in two minutes you have clean up duty!" I yelled at them before I turned and left the room. As I walked down the hallway I set my watch to start timing them.
Once we finally made it downstairs, I sat Jase down and laid his head on the table beside his food. Once he caught the smell of food he woke up. I looked down at my watch to see how long they had to get down here. Then I started my verbal count down....
"10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1.... Times up! They get to clean everything up." I yelled up the stairs.
No sooner had I yelled that did they start running down the stairs at me.
"We're here!" AJ said out of breath.
"Sorry you're fifteen seconds late now. You have clean up duty!" I said sitting down at the table beside Jase and Justin.
I looked over at Jase's cereal, he had Cheerios, and I looked over at Just's cereal, he had Alpha Bit's. Now, tell me who's more mature! Breakfast was nice and uneventful. Jen and Brit told me that mom was called into work because of someone getting hurt. That was fine because then I could get everything I needed done without any problems. But as much as I wanted to deny it, I still had one problem that I needed to deal with today, that would take every bit of control I could muster up. Without thinking, I just blurted out my question to everyone.
"What's everyone doing today?" I said as a tear slipped passed my defenses. Brit, Jen, Just, Josh, and James all knew what was going on, but the other guys did not.
"Chris, we were planning to go to the cemetery with you today." Brian said, shocking me.
"I told them yesterday! After Josh told me your plans for today." Just said.
"Why didn't you say anything to us before?" Kev asked gently.
"Because I didn't want to ruin your time off." I said softly.
"Chris, we all love you, some more then others, but you need to know that you will not have to go through this alone. As much as you want to deny it once again, you are stuck with us for the rest of your life." Howie said.
"Christopher, look at me." Kev softly said.
I looked at him. I saw the same love and lust in his eyes that I had seen earlier in Brian's and Justin's eyes.
"You need to not be ashamed to tell at least Bri, Just, and I about things like this. I personally know how it feels, because every time I go home, I go to see my dad's grave. It normally takes Bri and my brothers to get me there and back because I cannot handle it. So I know where you're coming from, so just don't worry about what you're asking, just ask it." Kev said.
"Kev, I know that I'm wrong for doing that, but you need to know that I have always felt that I was alone. I have always had to take care of people. I was forced to grow up at an early age, to where I'm afraid of letting people in to help me. You can ask anyone of these guys that whenever they try to help, I end up pushing them away, but they always come back. They have done that for the last eight or so years now. They have learned that I will push but I need all the help I can get. I want you and Brian to be able to do that when it's needed, in fact, I want all of you guys to be able to do that. You haven't seen my normal state. I usually worry all the time. For some reason, you guys have broken down some of the walls that I have built up." I said as I started to cry.
"Chris.... You know that we all love you. You have already won us for a long time. Now its time for you to start leaning onto someone else for help." Brit said.
"I... I can't! If I did then I would feel as if I was trying to take advantage of you. I... I would never do that." I said, knowing that soon I would be close to defeat.
"Chris, when and if you start doing that we will tell you. We all know how it feels to be taken advantage of. That is why we're going to court with the label." Lance said.
"Chris if we needed something and you found out, you would be the first person to drop everything to help us." Josh said.
"Oh not to change the subject, but I talked to some people that I know, who were helping me with my company." Lance said. "They told me that there was a class at one of the small colleges in Orlando who offered the Management course in a two month schedule, meaning that if classes started in two weeks that you would be able to start touring in late August. If you're interested then I need to call Sue to tell her to set everything up."
"Two months? How much is it going to cost me?" I asked not caring who was sitting around me.
"Ten thousand was the price that I had heard last. I have already talked to the guys about it, and we decided that if you wanted to do it then we would fund you the money. But if not we'll make sure that you are set up for classes starting this fall at the state college." Lance said with his business stare.
"Go ahead and get all the information on it that you can. Tell Sue that I'll pick it up on Tuesday morning and give her the yes or no by five o'clock that night. As nice as you sound about giving me the money, you know that I never have to worry about money. If I'm not mistaken, you guys sat with me during the court hearing, so you know how much I have." I said with my dead serious look on my face.
"Christopher... we know that you have the money, but we are making sure you save that money for the company that you want to start." Justin said with anger in his voice.
"Guys...don't worry about the business....I have everything set for that. All I need is a total of 15 million dollars, I have some of that but I don't need any money from you guys. You have enough to worry about anyway, I'm not in any need for money." I said. "Okay enough about me, I need to get everything done today before four o'clock, because I have a meeting with the Flight Coordinator at the airport to plan tomorrow's flight."
"Are you going to see Ryan?" Jen asked excitedly.
"Yes, I'm going to see Ryan. Why do you want to go too?" I asked, knowing damn well what the answer was going to be.
"Hell yeah, that boy is fine. I'm going too!" Brit said answering that question for Jen.
"Is this someone we should be worried about?" Brian asked with a hint of jealousy and curiosity.
"Bri, this man is so fine! Sorry Kevy, but he makes you seem as a turn off!" Justin joked.
"Well then, I may have to do some switching and trading then!" Kevin said with a smile that showed that he was only joking.
"Sorry baby, but he's strait with two kids and a wife of three years." I said
"Why is it that all of the cute ones are always straight?" Brian asked. I just smiled at him when he said that.
"Not all! I have three really pretty ones!" I said.
"I know I'm pretty, aren't I?" Nick said shining his finger nails on his chest in a cocky rich snob way.
"Sorry, you're not that cute, child!" I said. "I'm meaning my three Men!" I said
"Hey Justin's younger than I am!" Nick wined.
"Yes he is, but we look over those little petty things!" Kevin answered back.
"Okay if you're all going with me then lets get ready to leave. I still have to pack everything I'm taking, then weigh it all." I said getting up.
"Okay we're going! We're going!" Everyone yelled at me, then ran upstairs.
I walked upstairs and found the clothes that I was going to wear today. It was warm already outside, so I decided on some calf length khaki shorts and a hunter green silk vest. Separately they look too dressy, but for some reason together they work perfect for that whole dressy but casual look. I add my expensive leather sandals to make my ensemble look decent. I walked downstairs and outside to Red, my cherry red dodge convertible, to make sure that Justin had not hurt her yesterday. I have three different cars that I drive, but Red is my favorite. I set it up to have my Blazer and Red sent down to Orlando for me, that way I could also have my plane down there for when I needed it, and it was just cheaper to have them sent down than the plane.
I was picking off the lint on the back seat when I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist.
"See I didn't hurt her yesterday!" Justin whispered into my ear.
"I know you didn't. Do you ever think that I would doubt you?" I asked as I leaned back against his chest.
"Do you think that I would allow him to hurt something this pretty." Kevin said walking into the garage.
"I know he would not hurt me, but I was talking about the car." I said with a silly grin.
"I was talking about the car! And do me a favor and don't quit your day job, because your job as a comedian will not get you anywhere." Kevin said as he kissed my neck.
"Okay having an orgy out here without me is not allowed!" Brian laughed as he walked in.
"Sorry we were just warming up, now that you're here, we can start." I said seductively
"Sorry but no you're not!" Jen yelled at us.
"You know sometimes I doubt your reasoning for staying around me!" I stated without looking up.
"You love me, that is all the reasoning that you need! Okay so are we taking the van, because of all of these people?" Jen asked.
"I want to take the car." Brian begged.
"You guys can take the van and I'll drive the car." I said trying not to laugh at Bri.
"Okay then, I have my set of keys, so are we ready to go?" Jen asked jingling her key ring in the air.
"Yeah! You can follow me." I said getting into the car.
As I got into the car, Brian jumped up front with me, with Kev and Just sitting in the small back seat. As I started the car and pulled out to wait for Jen and everyone else to get into the van, Brian started questioning me about all of my cars.
"How many cars do you have?" Brian asked.
"Ten!" Justin yelled before I could answer.
"Ten? Why so many?" Kevin asked.
"Well.... I own this car, my Blazer, the Windstar van, my mothers car, my mothers truck, Mary's Blazer, Judy's car, Jen's Saturn, and two other cars that I will have to show you. I also own two planes. I have one single engine six passenger plane and a twenty passenger jet. Tomorrow we're going to use the jet because of all of the stuff I'm taking with me." I said.
"Why do you own so much?" Brian asked.
"Well... my grandfather thought that he would buy everyone cars one year and charge them ten dollars a month for them. So when my grandfather died, he gave them all to me to take care of. My grandparents believed a lot in me, which is why I was given everything in the will. My grandparents also made sure that the rest of the family understood why they were doing it. The reason they did, I have yet to find out, just like the secret that everyone says that I will find out, when the time is right and that it will affect my life tremendously. My family seems to know what this secret is but will not inform me of it. Truthfully, I really don't care what else they have for me, I have everything that I need right now." I said as we drove toward the cemetery.
"Chris, can I ask you what your goal is?" Kevin asked.
"You really want to know?" Kev nodded. "Okay then, I want to work as a manager for a couple of years until I can start my own business. I want to start a record label that will give new groups a chance to produce what they want with little to no interference from the label. I want the groups to be the ones in control of their own careers. They choose the music, band, crew, managers, and what ever else they need. The label will be there for any extra help they need. The label will not have any say as to what is going to happen in the group. The group itself has to decide if they want to personally plan photo shoots, concerts, charity events, and any other publicity, or they have to choose if they want the label to do it for them."
"You want the groups to make the decision to fail or rise. That is almost the most perfect idea!" Brian said
"Well when you need any help, we will be there for you." Justin said. "But I know one major goal, Chris wants to accomplish: To make Johnny Wright beg for Chris's forgiveness."
"I take it that they have met before." Brian questioned.
"Yeah.... Well.... It was more a yell fest then anything else." Justin stated smiling.
"What happened?" Bri asked confused.
"I went on tour with the guys about two years ago for two weeks. Well, during the first week I had all of the jobs figured out. I noticed a few problems that needed to be fixed before someone got hurt. Well I told Johnny about them and he just went off on me. He kept telling me that I was just trying to act as if I knew something. I finished my two weeks with the guys, with Johnny and I yelling at each other everyday. I think it was about three weeks later that Josh had called me and told me that the problems I had found finally caused an accident. There were three people put into the hospital because a light fixture snapped and then the beam it was connected to snapped with those people on it. Ever since that day, I waited for Johnny to apologize to me. But after a year, I finally made a goal that once I had the power, Johnny would never have his job as a manager." I informed them.
"If Johnny would have listened the first time, then one guy would be able to walk now." Just stated sadly.
"Okay you guys we're here." I said pulling onto the driveway that ran through the cemetery. I finally parked the car in front of three flower covered graves.
I got out and waited for Jen and the guys to walk over to me. Jen had AJ and Howie on each side of her leading her up to the grave of our grandparents. Kevin walked up beside me and wrapped his arm around me while Brian walked Justin up there behind us. Josh and James walked up holding each other. Then Nick was holding Jase in one arm and Brit in the other as she walked up already crying. For the first time, I noticed how strange this must have seemed, but I could feel the love radiating from all of us as we just stood there. I looked up and noticed that Jen, Josh, James, Just, and Brit were all crying with most of them having one of the BSB guys comforting them. I reached up and felt my face. That was the first time I had noticed that I was actually crying. Kevin pulled me closer to him as he to noticed me crying. I leaned against him and laid my head on his shoulder, then closed my eyes. Jen did the same thing.
I stood there just enjoying the feeling of pure happiness, until I heard something. I raise my head and opened my eyes, looking around to see who had said something. I noticed that Jen was doing the same thing. I looked around not seeing anyone talking. I then looked back to Jen. When our eyes finally locked on one another. I heard it again. Jen must have heard it too, because her eyes suddenly widened. I listened again for it, this time paying attention to what it was saying....
"This is pure love.... The love we promised both of you.... We sent these angels to you two so that you could find your own happiness, so now enjoy it, because things are going to change faster then you may think you can handle it.... We both love you." The voice said.
I looked over at Jen. Jen had that look of surprise on her face, and to be honest, I must have had it too. I looked over at the head stone on my grandparent's graves. The inscription on it, told me that my thoughts were true because on the head stone it read...
"Here lies two of gods angels. And may only their heavenly voices be heard."
I looked back over at Jen after reading the message. She just nodded her understanding of the unspoken question. I turned my attention toward the grave on the right hand side of my grandparents. There on the white marble head stone it read....
Here lies the body of the producer of gods earthly child.
Amber L. Green Eric Christopher Green
July 22, 1981 June 8, 1995
June 8, 1995 June 8, 1995
I cried hard at reading the second name on the head stone. My grandparents demanded that they both be buried beside the plots that they were to be buried in. I felt someone grab my hand. I looked down and saw Jase looking up at me.
"Daddy is that mommy?" Jase said pointing over by a tree straight in front of us.
I looked up to where he was pointing. My breath escaped me as I stood there staring at the figure by the tree in front of us. There in the exact same dress that I had her buried in was Amber. I froze to the spot where I was standing. Just as soon as she had appeared, she vanished. Finally able to move, I looked down at Jase. I picked him up and held him in my arms.
"Jase your mommy is right there in the ground." I said pointing to the ground where she was buried, then I pointed to his heart and said, "She is also in here."
After a few more minutes of standing there, Kevin let me go and gathered everyone up except for Jen and I, then moved them toward the cars.
I looked over at Jen. I grabbed her and hugged onto her.
"I saw her." I whispered in Jen's ear.
"I know, I saw her too." Jen said as we both cried harder.
"Did you hear them also?" I asked knowing the answer.
"Yes... I'm glad they're happy now!" Jen said with tears in her eyes.
I squatted down and rubbed my hand across the ground of Amber and Eric's graves and whispered, " I love you both!" We walked back over to our grandparents' graves and squatted down.
"I hope you two know what you're doing by matching us up with these guys. But I trust your decisions. You two take care of Amber and Eric for me. Keep watching over Jase and I. I love you both..." I said.
"Thank you guys for pointing us toward them. I know you both had something to do with it. I love you both too, I'll see you guys soon...." Jen whispered that last part so that I could not hear it.
We got up and started to walk back to our cars. Kev was standing beside mine and AJ was standing by the van, each waiting to comfort their lover. As soon as I walked up to Kev, I grabbed him and pulled him into a hug. We stood there for a couple of minutes. I looked into the car and saw Brian and Justin sitting in the back seat hugging each other as Just cried.
"You get into the car, I'll drive, if you tell me where this airport is." Kevin said.
"Okay. I think that I can do that." I said then looked down at my watch. It was 3:30, which meant that I had to get over to the airport in thirty minutes. "Okay then lets go!" I said getting into the passenger side. I looked back and saw Howie driving and Josh sitting up front.
I directed Kev all the way around the city and down the country roads until the airport came into view. This airport is small but a very common stopping point for small aircraft that fly from Indianapolis to Chicago. The airport itself houses about a hundred aircraft from local pilots and companies around this area. I directed Kev onto the property and towards the flight office. Once Kev made it around the building he parked, swearing to never drive around another airport again. I think that plane coming in for a landing kind of scared Kev a little.
I got out waiting for everyone else once again. I heard Howie swearing the same as Kevin. I just shook my head and walked into the building. Inside, I walked straight toward Ryan's office. I knocked lightly on the door, before entering.
"Chris, man, I figured you to by early. You're never late for anything." Ryan said shaking my hand.
"Well, I just came from the cemetery...." I trailed off at the end.
"Chris... I'm sorry!" Ryan said. Ryan has known the family for a long time. His dad was a friend of my grandfather, so he knew about their deaths and how hard Jen and I had taken it.
"Its okay... Oh I forgot, let me introduce you to everyone with me." I said as I started pointing to everyone. "First Kevin, Brian, Howie, Alex, and Nick. I think you know everyone else!"
"Yeah I know everyone else. It's nice to meet you guys, I'm Ryan Dallas." Ryan said.
A round of "Hi" and "Hellos" came from the guys.
"Okay now down to business. I have the flight plans already done for tomorrow because I had some extra time this morning." Ryan said switching from friend to businessman.
"Thanks, you know how much I hate doing them! I need to finish packing things tonight and getting them out here before I go to bed tonight so I can get everything balanced out. Oh I'm going to have five extra passengers going with me." I said.
"That's fine. Do you have your key to get in here tonight?" Ryan asked.
"Yeah... But I don't have a slide card to the main office doors." I said.
"Hang on, I'll get you one." Ryan said.
"Well... take your time. I'm going to show these guys the jet since I painted it." I said.
"Okay I'll bring it out to you when I get it made." Ryan suggested.
"Okay." I replied.
We all walked out of the office. As I walked by the front desk, I stopped and asked the lady sitting there a question.
"Gene, can I get your key to the front hanger slide doors, so I don't have to reset the alarm." I asked.
"Yeah sure..... Here you go." Gene said as she handed me her card.
"Thanks...Oh could you tell Ryan I need a copy of this key also." I asked.
"Sure thing...bye Chris." Gene said as she walked towards Ryan's office.
I walked the guys outside and across the runways toward the hangers. We walked over to a small hanger that said "Green" on the door. I walked over to the door and pulled out my key and inserted it into the top card slide, then slid the security card I had gotten from Gene across the bottom card slide. The alarm beeped off and the doors slowly started to open. Once they were open enough for us to get through them I slid the key across the top slide again and the doors stopped opening. I walked in followed by the guys.
There in the middle of the hanger sat my plane and jet. Eric my mechanic was working on the engines when we walked in. We all said hello and kept on walking so not to interrupt Eric. I walked over to the side of the jet where the door was and put my key into it. I turned it, then the stair case unfolded and the door swung open. I climbed up inside with everyone else following. Once everyone was in, I got a round of "awe's" from the guys. I even got them from the Josh, Just, James, and Brit because they have never seen the jet from the inside.
I gave everyone the short tour of the jet, then I moved up front to make sure no one had been playing with any of the instruments. As I was checking everything Justin and Brian came up to see what I was doing.
"Hey, Baby!" They both said.
"Hey..." I said smiling but never looking up.
"What cha doing?" Brian casually asked looking over my shoulder.
"I'm checking everything to make sure we can leave tomorrow." I said looking up at them and smiling.
"Can we watch you?" Justin asked.
"Sure if you want to! Its nice to have company." I said.
"Okay then." Brian said.
I finished checking everything with the occasional question from Brian or Justin. We walked out of the cockpit to find all of the guys still looking in every little crack to find anything and everything. After they had decided that they had looked every place, we left. I went ahead and had Eric fuel up the jet so that I wouldn't have to tomorrow. I locked the doors, then walked back up to the office. I gave Gene her key back and found Ryan to get the keys that he was making me. I finished signing some of the papers that I needed for tomorrow then we left.
The ride home was uneventful. I gave Brian the chance to drive Red home since the other two had already driven. Once we got home, I finished all the packing that I needed, with the help of all of the guys. I put everything into the back of the van, then went to get all of the stuff that the guys had brought with them. The trip to the airport and back was a problem for me. I was going to be leaving the only place that had so many memories. Part of me thought that I was turning my back on my grandparents, my dad, my family, my friends, and most of all, Mom and Jase. But the other part of me felt that I was not leaving just to be leaving, I was going some place where my dreams were going to become reality. This thought had been what was fueling my fire to be everything that I can be.
As soon as we got back from the airport, my mind collapsed! My fears and worries were let loose as soon as I walked into my house. I had left the guys at my house, just so they wouldn't be bored or anything. This got a lot of argument, because everyone wanted to help, so I compromised with them by telling them that if they stayed, I would take Jen with me to help. They hesitantly agreed. Jen allowed me to have my space during the whole trip, but I knew that she was going through the same feelings with her move. Kevin and Justin comforted me while Brian was no where to be found. Kevin told me that he went to talk with my mother about something. I just dropped it and went on trying to get over these feelings. Brian came into the house about five minutes after I had returned, with a blinding smile that quickly faded after he saw me. That was how the next hour and a half went, but the night was far from over...
After we all had finished our crying session, Jen pulled me off into my bedroom.
"Chris I need to talk to you." Jen said with fear in her eyes. "Okay, What about?"
"Well...you know that I'm pregnant... but what you don't know is who the father is..." Jen said trailing off at the end.
"Who is the father? Do I know him? How far along are you?" I asked quickly.
"Well... the father is Danny Johnson!" Jen said.
"Oh my god! What are you going to do? He was killed two months ago!" I said.
"Yeah, I know! It all happened before I could tell him... Chris, I'm three months now!" Jen said under her breath, but just loud enough for me to hear.
"You're how far along and not showing?" I asked remembering Amber just started to show at three months.
"The doctor told me that I would start showing soon...especially with the four of them." Jen said.
"FOUR!" I yelled.
"Chris, I'm having quadruplets! The doctor said that this happens when multiple births run on both sides of the families. Howie and AJ already know about it, I told them last night. They said that this would not scare them away because they are in it for the really long haul." Jen said while tears slid down her checks.
"I'm glad they're okay with this. So when about are you due?" I asked in a tone of both fear and excitement.
"In late November or early December. Chris, I have one more question." Jen said.
"When you find a house down in Orlando, could I move in with you? I'm not going to California." Jen begged with her eyes.
"Yeah, but I'm going to be living with Brian and Kevin until then. When are you wanting to move?" I asked fearing that this would ruin my now forming relationship.
"I would like to be down there in August, but whenever you could find a house would be okay with me." Jen said full of hope.
"I'll have to talk to them about finding me a house, as soon as we land down there." I said.
"Okay you need to spend your time with Jase and mom. So go see them!" Jen yelled at me.
"I'm going!" I said as I ran out the door.
I walked into the living room and found Brian explaining something to everyone else down there. I couldn't hear him but all of the guys and Brit seemed to be agreeing with him. I made my presence known and walked in. The rest of the late evening was all associated with talking about our past, present, and future lives. My mother and Jase finally came over. Mother told the guys about everything that I had done as a child. I knew that I would have to find some dirt on these new guys so that I could use it against them, just as they would use the stuff that my mother was informing them of now.
James pulled me out of the room and made me walk into the kitchen with him. I knew what was getting ready to happen, so I just let him relax a little.
"Chris could you go get Justin, because if I have to look at him in there, I'm going to go insane. Do you think that he'll be okay with this?" James asked nervously.
"James calm down!" I said. "You know that he'll be okay with this. Now, just wait here. I'll go get him!" I said walking toward the living room.
"Justin could you come here for a second?" I asked from the doorway. Everyone looked up at me with wondering eyes.
"Yeah....sure!" Justin said looking around. "Don't tell them anything that I don't know until I get back, please!" He begged my mother.
"I won't honey!" Mom said.
"Thanks." Just said.
When he walked up to me, he gave me that look of wonderment. I just nodded my head toward the kitchen, telling him that was where he was needed. We walked in there together. I saw James jump up at the sight of Justin walking into the room.
"Okay what's going on here?" Justin asked in a child like voice.
"James has something to ask you!" I said putting James on the spot.
"Justin... I need to ask your permission for something...." James trailed off.
"Lance...what do you need to ask?" Justin asked nervously.
"Justin...I'm ready to move to the next step in Josh and mine's relationship. I want to ask Josh to marry me." James finally said.
"Is that all? I thought it was something bad, like you're going to leave Josh for some girl. Lance, you should know that I would be happy for you to do that. Why did you ask me? My answer is not the one that matters." Justin said.
"Tyler told me that I needed to ask Heather, Chris, and you. I remembered how you reacted when Josh and I told you we were going out together, I just didn't want that to happen again by Josh telling you out of the blue he was getting married." James said answering Justin's question.
"Lance I'm sorry for the way that I acted then! I was just worried that you were taking my best friend away from me." Justin said pulling James into a hug.
I walked out of the room after hearing Justin's reaction. I needed to spend some time with Jase, but that thought ended, when I saw Kevin picking a sleeping Jase up and carrying him towards me.
"Where do you want him to sleep?" Kevin asked, trying to take care of Jase.
"You can just put him in his room. No... just give him to me so that you can go back down there. You don't need to be taking care of him." I said, worried that he thought I was going to make him do it.
"You have no choice in the matter. I'm going to put him to bed one way or another! You need to get some sleep too!" Kevin said in his 'I love you but you're going to listen to me' tone.
"Well after I talk to my mother, I need to talk to you and Brian. Okay?" I asked.
"I guess that I will have to live with that! I love you." Kevin said kissing me on the lips, then walking up stairs.
I walked fully into the living room and sat down beside my mother. I leaned over and whispered, "Can we go for a walk?"
She excused us, then walked out to the back yard. For living in the city, you could see a lot of stars, hell I had eleven music stars sitting in my living room in the city that many people haven't heard of.
"Okay what's on your mind?" my mother asked, using her parenting senses.
"You have always known when I had a problem... Jase is what is on my mind, but there are also some other things. Jase is just my major problem." I said.
"Why?"
"Because I feel as if I'm abandoning him. I want him to go with me, but my life is going to be rough, starting in a week or so. I wouldn't have time to be with him. Then who would watch him when I have to be at a meeting? And I refuse to push him on the guys." I said feeling confused and guilty for leaving him.
"Chris, you have people who are not going to say anything about you pushing Jase onto them. I have talked to someone that would also help you."
"Who?"
"Lynn and Karen said that they would help. They used that excuse of not seeing their grandchild for a long time. You know that if I didn't love these five guys and their families the way I do, I would probably be upset by that statement."
"They have always loved being around him. I don't know though, I don't have a stable house for him. Nothing of his would be there. I don't think the guys want him living with them." I said.
"But what if they did? Would you think about moving him down there?"
"Yeah I would think about it. Then what would happen if I get a chance to go on tour? I couldn't take him with me."
"Jen would take care of him. I know that she asked you about moving in with you. She would take care of him with the help of Lynn and Karen. Jen will have plenty of time, because of the pregnancy and the fact that she won't work."
"That is my Jen, won't work for no one and for no amount, but would watch a kid 24/7 for free."
"Chris, I'm just going to tell you that from now on, you have to make your own decisions. I'll take care of Jase until you're ready to take him, but after the first time you take him, he will not return to me. He needs you, his father."
"I understand. I love you! I don't know what I would do without you." I said as my heart filled with the joy of having my mother with me.
"You would be living your life just the way you are now, just without my guidance." My mother said walking into the house and out the front door going home.
"Chris, you wanted to talk to us." Brian asked me when I walked into the house.
"Yeah, I need to talk to you in private. Go ahead and go up to my room. I'm going to check on Jase real fast." I said running up the stairs.
I looked into Jase's room to check on him. I saw Justin sitting on the edge of the bed watching Jase sleep. He was doing the same thing that I had done after Jase was born.
"Remember that no matter how much your dad does not want us to do it; Brian, Kevin, and I will be here for you and your dad. I'm going to make sure that your daddy is happy for the rest of his life and that you get everything that I can give. But now I know that all you need is the love that an adult can give to his lover's son." Justin whispered.
"Justin, I would like you to come into my room for a minute. I need to talk to you, Kevin, and Brian." I said softly so not to scare him.
"Okay..." Justin said without turning around. He leaned forward and kissed Jase's forehead. As he got up, I noticed the tears on his face.
We walked into my room without saying another word. Brian and Kevin were sitting on my bed talking when we walked in. Justin laid down on the bed and put his head in Brian's lap. Brian lightly stroked his hair and waited for me to start talking. Kevin patted the area in front of him, telling me to sit down. I did and Kevin pulled me back so that I was leaning against his chest. Kevin rubbed my arms up and down, as we sat in silence, just enjoying the quiet. As much as I was enjoying the quiet I had to talk to these major figures in my life.
"Okay I have a problem... I have to find a house as soon as we get down in Orlando." I said quickly so that no one could interrupt.
"Why?" Brian asked confused.
"Because Jen is wanting to move in with me." I answered the question never looking him in the eye.
"You want Jase there also, am I correct?" Kevin asked softly.
"Yeah... I don't want to abandon him." I said as a tear fell.
"Chris, don't worry about that! You're living with us no matter what you say! We have plenty of room so that you, Jen, and Jase could have a room each. And now we have extra rooms because Jen will probably sleep with Howie and AJ. AJ can move into Howie's room, so then we have enough room for other people." Kevin said.
"You know we could just buy a larger bed and then Kevin and you could move into my room. Justin would you want to live with us? Or is that too fast for you?" Brian asked stroking Justin's face.
"I'm going to have to think about that because we are on tour until October, then you guys will be on tour. When would we have a chance to see each other?" Justin asked.
"You know that enemies could always make a surprise appearance at other peoples concerts." Kevin said with an evil grin.
"Oh yeah I forgot that we all hate each other and that we fight all of the time." Justin said as he leaned up and kissed Brian. "But I love this so called enemy."
"That is what people who don't know you say. We all know you love us." I said.
There was a sudden knock on the door.
"Chris I locked everything up, so you won't have to." Jen said.
"Okay thanks!" I yelled back.
"Okay its time for my babies to go to bed!" Kevin said.
"I want to sleep by daddy!" I yelled.
"Fine." Kevin said, then kissed Brian and Justin. He then turned to me and looked deep into my eyes. I felt his love radiating from just his eyes alone. Kevin slowly and gracefully leaned forward and kissed my upper lip, then nibbled on my bottom lip before kissing me fully on the lips. I felt as if life stopped right there in my room, on my bed. Before I realized what I was doing, I started rubbing Kevin's body with my hands. I worked my way down his body. I pinched his nipples, then rubbed his hard stomach. My hand started to travel down a little further, but before I started something that I was not ready for, I pulled back.
"I'm sorry Kev! I didn't mean to do that. I just kind of lost myself there for a second." I tried to explain, hopping he would not hate me now.
"Chris it's okay! I understand, I was pushing you to far." Kevin reassured me. "Okay lie down and go to sleep."
"Okay baby. Will you hold me?" I asked.
"Yeah...were you thinking that I would just lie here and not?" Kevin asked.
I just snuggled in closer to Kevin for my answer to his question. No sooner had I lain down and got comfortable, did sleep come.
I awoke to the sun shining through the window. I laid there just staring at the bodies lying in front of me. I wiggled my way out of the bed and walked down to the kitchen. I made a cup of tea and then started walking around the house. I walked out to the front door and stared out the window. I saw my mother sitting on the front porch of her house reading the newspaper. I finally looked at the clock on the wall; it said that is was only 5:30. I decided that I would walk over to visit my mother before I had to get ready and leave. I walked across the street. My mother never even looked up at me as I sat down in one of the chairs. We sat like that for about five minutes with my mother hiding behind a newspaper and me keeping my eyes toward the ground. At the same time we both looked at each other. We both had tear stricken faces. We both started to laugh at the sight of the other. This was one of those Kodak moments!
"You know that I'm going to miss our times like this!" my mother said, as a tear fell from her eye.
"You could always come with me." I argued, pushing my emotions back.
"But then who would watch over the houses?"
"I don't know! You were always the problem solver! I just helped you think of everything after the problem."
"No you were the problem solver, I would just point you in the right direction." My mother said.
"Well... my problem about Jase was solved last night. Brian and Kevin told me that Jen, Jase, and I were going to live in their house and that I could not argue about it!"
"Those guys are good for you, they are going to force you to receive help whether you like it or not!" my mother said. "Lets go wake the guys up and get them some breakfast! Then that way you can leave about 8:00. I have to have my other children up in Indy to get on a plane at noon."
"Okay lets go."
I walked over to my house and got breakfast started. While my mother cooked, I started waking people up so that they could get showers and all of that other stuff. After I had everyone up and getting ready, I called the company that was going to be moving my cars down to Orlando. The woman told me that they would pick up my cars today at 7 and they should be there tomorrow afternoon. That was more then fine with me.
We finished getting ready, then had breakfast. After breakfast everyone made sure that they had everything that they brought or needed at least. While everyone was doing final checks, the guys who were driving the cars came by and picked them up. I signed all of the papers they had and then gave them my keys, then they were off. I told them that if anything happened to Red, they might as well figure on finding boyfriends because they were going to have an unwilling sex change!
I locked the house up and stood there at the front looking at it. This was a major step in my life. Kev, Bri, and Just stood there with me as I said my final good-byes to everything that I had, and then said hello to the future. Everyone piled in to the van that way everyone could go to the airport with us. I cried the whole ride to the airport with Jase sitting on my lap. As we pulled into the parking lot of the airport, I noticed that Kevin and Brian were staring at Jase and I, then whispered something to each other. Brian said a loud yes that everyone seemed to know the meaning of, except me. Then the statement that changed my life once again, came from Kevin....
"Ellen, did you talk to Ryan last night?" Kevin asked my mother.
"Yeah he has everything ready. All we have to do is put you on that jet." My mother said with a smile that I have only seen when she was up to something. "I also talked to Lynn, she said that she would have everything ready for when you guys landed. Oh Chris, Lynn said to call her a hour before you land, that way she will be there to pick you guys up."
"Did you find everything that we will be needing?" Kevin asked my mother again.
"Yeah, Karen, Diane, and Lynn are going to go shopping this morning to find everything. So everything is set and waiting for you to land in Orlando." My mother said.
"Thanks again. You have been wonderful. I'm glad you're so loving." Kevin said as he pulled my mother into a hug as we got out of the van.
As we stood in front of the Jet getting ready to leave, Ryan came running up with a child's safety strap. This had my mind racing.
"Ellen you guys are going to need this!" Ryan yelled at us.
"Thanks I almost forgot." My mother answered.
"Jase did you, aunt Jen, Aunt Brit, and Grandma put everything that you wanted in the bag?" Brian asked as he squatted down to Jase's level.
"Yeah!!" Jase answered excitedly.
"Okay then. Shall we inform him now?" everyone nodded. "Chris, you're taking Jase with you right now! No arguments. This is our choice not yours!" My mother said.
"But why now?" I asked stunned.
"Because you would not be able to handle being gone from him longer than a week. This way we can get everything done right now. Then Jen is flying down on Thursday. We're going to make these housing arrangements work!" Kevin said.
I was unable to even speak. These guys had me already figured out and I have known them for only five days. I pulled Brian, Kevin, Justin, and my mother into a hug, knowing that they had done everything that they could last night without me finding out. After a very emotional good-bye session, we loaded the jet. I made sure that Jase was fastened into the strap and that the guys knew how to take it off and on, that way when we were stable in the air they could get up and down and Jase could too. After I made sure that everyone had seat belts on, I moved into the cockpit with Kevin and Eric following close behind. Eric was going to be my co-pilot just to be on the safe side. Kevin was sitting behind Eric. After we were cleared for flight, we were gone.
The flight was different this time for some reason. It just had a feeling that I was not just escaping things from the past but flying into the future with the people that have changed my life in five days. Today was the day of new beginnings. We landed in Orlando about four hours later. The only problem that we had was the fact that someone drank my one can of grape soda! Damn Kevin! But lets just say that his mouth tasted really good afterward.
Once we landed, I had my paperwork signed in and looked at a new hanger that I was going to be buying. This hanger was big enough for both planes, even though the other plane would not be coming down for about a year. After I had everything checked out, I walked back to the jet. Lynn was already there and the guys had unloaded the jet and put everything in Lynn's van. Justin was nice enough to allow me to drive Baby Red around until my cars arrived. Brian rode with me, and Kevin, AJ, Howie, Nick, and Jase all rode with Lynn.
Brian was telling me all about how he hates flying. I just laughed because I knew that he must have been the one who screamed during take off, or was that Nick because Brian was grabbing his arm so hard? We drove through Orlando for about an hour before we turned and entered a nice neighborhood, that looked quite familiar. I was looking at the street signs as we passed them. Then one stuck in my mind. Then the similarity struck me. This is the same neighborhood that Justin and Lynn lived in. And to come and find out, Justin and Lynn lived only about four blocks away from Brian and Kevin's house, or should I say "Our" house.
Brian navigated me through the area, and then after making a couple of turns we pulled into a drive to this huge house. This house was beyond huge. This was like looking at one of the apartment buildings that house about eight or nine apartments. I remember Brian telling me that they kept all of their cars in the garage that way the fans that found out where they lived could not do anything to them, but there was one car sitting in the driveway. I looked over at Brian about ready to ask whose car it was when I saw the look of terror on Brian's face. I saw Lynn's van coming down the road. Just as they were about to turn into the driveway, a woman came running out of the house screaming. Brian's face turned ghostly white. It was just then that she got close enough to understand what she was screaming....
"Brian, Baby, I missed you! Why don't you ever call your girlfriend?" the woman asked.
"Oh god, Leighanne!" Brian whispered.
Thanks for reading. As always, please send all comments to Christopherunknown@hotmail.com. Thanks again, Christopher